Chapter 20: I am the love I wish to experience...

This story is now a year, I thought I was gonna finish it in a month lols. So a respectful shout out to all writers out there you guys are something else. After writing my first Story, I realized how NOT easy it is. So thank you all for taking the time. To everybody who has read, fav, rev this story thank you a Zillion. words can't express to you what an honor it is to me. Special thanks to my beta CaliGrlFoLife, thank you thank you thank you and much love😍😍. Thanks Siophiefandom for being my first rev n reviewing on every chapter tnx!. Tnx to Dzeil,ep,San,huge fan, Mcfields25, MariCG 4 d awesome words and all the Guests for taking the time, am most grateful n luv u all😘😘 OKay then let's finish the story...

The two love birds have been enjoying themselves. They told their familes and offices they needed time alone. They went swimming either in the river or the swimming pool whenever they wanted. They did some gardening with Santiago, they even went camping and Emily took Paige to her relatives homes and friends she knew in Hawaii. They pampered Paige with so much love she never had from any extended family members.

To Paige she could never remember the last time she enjoyed herself this much. She now knows she only really worked all the time because she never had anyone special to keep her homely, but now she made a mental note to reduce her work load and just simply enjoy life with her wife.

They made love all the time like teenagers. They simply couldn't have enough of each other. They wanted each other all the time. They made love in all three rooms, two sitting rooms, laundry area, kitchen. In the pool and river. Paige just wanted to christened everywhere. Emily warn her they were calling trouble for themselves seeing that when the vacation is over they all will have a lot of work and would not have much time for each other. Paige told Emily she was going to work more from home and travel less unless if it was with her. Emily was shocked she told Paige she didn't want her to change anything for her. What if she regretted later?. Paige said never, she was her priority now.

One night after dinner they were sitting outside just enjoying the view and having the feel of each other Emily brought up the topic of kids, she wanted at least two she said. Paige stiffened and told Emily she didn't want kids. Emily was shocked. Paige explained she had a terrible childhood and because of that she knows she wasn't going to be a good mother. Paige also reminded Emily that she too hates her Father. Emily disagreed and explained to Paige that she has always wanted to have at least two. She was so lonely as a child, she would have gone crazy if not for the Marins. Paige said no in an authoritative tone, but Emily stood her ground. They both kept giving reasons as to why they stood there grounds while shouting at each other, Paige walks away to the house very angry. Emily refused to follow her and refused to let herself cry. Emily believes wholeheartedly that she was right, children were a blessing and she wants them in their lives.

After two hours Paige came back and apologized, she told Emily she is just scared that she will be a bad mom. Emily stood up and went to her, she told her she is also afraid because she never really knew her mom, but all she knows was that she will try her best to be the best mom ever. Paige finally agreed so they started to plan on how it was going to be.

Emily wanted to carry with Paige's eggs and Akin should be the donor, but Paige said it will feel weird since he and Spencer haven't had kids yet. So they decided a donor with Paige's hair color and physic. Paige said one Emily said two at least. Paige couldn't change her mind so she agreed with the number as long as she is happy that's all that matters. Later, Emily teased Paige that she has truly improved and that calls for celebration. They fuck outside several times and slept on the couch, they couldn't even get up to go into the house.

The next day Hanna called Emily to inform her that Wayne has been shot!. He was out investigating a case and he got hit on his shoulder. Emily dropped the phone in shocked. Paige rushed to her and Emily told her what had happened. Without any delay the left Hawaii to New York. Emily cried a lot Paige kept consoling her that she was going to be fine. Immediately after they landed they rushed to the central hospital where they found Mama Marin and Hanna outside his room. Emily rushed in and saw her father with Mr Marin inside. Wayne was asleep Emily watched him for several minutes and then bust out crying again. She was full of regrets and she hadn't really noticed her father has aged and looked tired. She felt terrible for not being there or even understanding what he himself has been feeling after all these years that he has lost his own wife. He must have been so lonely that's why he married her off, because he didn't want her life to be like his. Emily cried harder causing Wayne to wake up. Immediately he opens his eyes.

"Emmy you came?". Emily cried harder, it meant her father never thought she would even come to see him. She ran to him and lay her head on his chest crying and apologizing for him to forgive her. He told her it was okay, he is also sorry and she is now a big girl and she was too heavy on him everybody laughed. Emily smiled for the first time and Papa Marin gave his seat to Emily. Paige greeted him and after some time they left Emily alone to sit with her father. For the first time in a long time they just sat and chatted until Wayne dosed off. Later Papa Marin asked them to all leave and that he would stay with Wayne. Emily refused to leave, she asked Paige to go with the Marins to there home that she was staying, Paige understood and left her with her father.

They stayed for another few days until Wayne was released. Seeing that Emily was really worried Paige called in their private jet and spoke to Wayne about going with them before Emily was back from the ranch to travel with them to Washington just until he is much better. Wayne quickely refused, he didn't want to just go stay with his inlaws, Emily was just coming back into the house but she already heard the conversation.

"You're going. So just don't bother stressing yourself arguing". She had a very serious look so Paige whispers to Wayne.

"When she is like that I do whatever she says". Emily heard Paige. She smiles to herself, but when she was turning towards them, she frowned and look dead serious.

"im gonna pack you a bag, go see the horses and then tell Papa and Mama Marin you're leaving this afternoon with us". She turns smiling going upstairs without waiting for his responds, she knew he didn't have any other choice. Paige laughs and walks out with Wayne to the ranch. Later Paige told Emily they should go say their condolences to her sister, they did. They both said some few words and kept some flowers, they left New York That afternoon to Washington.

Bette had one of the rooms downstairs prepared for Wayne, she made him feel welcomed and they wanted him to stay as long as he wanted. During dinner one night, Nick explained how he first knew Wayne.

Wayne helped solve Nicklaus's attempted murder case. He was accused of stabbing a call girl who was unconscious at the time in his hotel room years back in Asia. No weapon was found and the forensic would not make-up their mind on which type of weapon it was. It was wayne who demonstrated what he believes was the weapon; it was ice. from a locally made freezers. When it freezes a lot the ices are usually long and sharp. When the lady woke up fifteen days later luckily for Nicklaus and recognition for Wayne, she told the cops it was indeed ice and everyone was shocked. It was another call girl who Nicklaus refused to choose, she got arrested and Nicklaus who was in house arrest due to the influence of his father was released. Nicklaus never forgot Wayne for saving him and the fact that his father gave him a lot of money in gratitude, but he refused it. Emily couldn't be more proud of her father.

That night Emily went to her father's room they chatted and reminisced about her childhood, her mom and their relatives. they talked more than they ever did and just when Emily wanted to leave to let him rest, he called after her.

"Emmy?". She turned."Yes dad. Do you need something?"."No, I'm a proud father to the most beautiful girl in the world". He looks at her and Emily saw that his eyes were moist as he added."I don't suppose you'll believe this, because you and I have always been at sixes and sevens, but I never would have betrothed you to this Paige if I didn't think she was woman enough to handle-no, the woman for you". he corrected clumsily then continued.

"I thought to myself that day when she rode Khal, that the two of you were cut form the same cloth, and I made the decision right then". He nodded looking at emily.

"She looked arrogant to you, but to me she looked confident and determined, I know people like that love deeply. I knew she would make you love again. And that's all I have ever wanted for you Emmy". Emily's eyes where misty as she came, bend down and kissed his forehead then hugs him tightly.

"thank you so much for telling me this, dad. I'm so sorry for all the horrible things I said and did to you. I know you brought me up better, And I'm sorry for not realizing it earlier. You're the best dad anyone could ever want, I know mom is proud of you, I'm proud of you. I love you so much dad". They hugged some more both with tearsin their eyes.

FOUR YEARS LATER.

"Mummy, Mama wake up we're hungry...". The two twins, Gabrielle Paigy Fields McCullers and Madison Pamela Fields McCullers named after late Paige and Emily's mom. They kept waking their two tired moms. They are two years old girls who are almost a replica of Emily with a personality of Paige. It was scary how much Paige loves and Adores them. They have quickly become Paige's weakness and everybody now knows. Emily couldn't believe how smitten Paige has become with them since after their birth. No one would have ever guessed Paige initially didn't want kids. She has never missed their parent's meeting or open day at school. Emily had to talk to Paige to restrict herself whenever the twins wanted to sleep at their grandparents's section. Paige would pout and pout, turn and turn, but Emily will not hear of it. She felt embarrassed because Nick and Betty couldn't have enough of them either and It is as if Paige just didn't care or feel anything. She sometimes travel with them and if them are unable due to school she FaceTime with them everyday. Now Emily is pregnant for the second time she only wants to sleep, and since Paige couldn't have enough of them she left her in charge of anything twins, but now Paige just came back from a trip yesterday, she is tired and sleepy.

"Ahhhhhhh!. Em can't you help? I just got back in the middle of the night, let me have a time out just this once please?". Paige could barely open her eyes, she refused to spend another night in the Middle East. The opec and oil companies meetings were over so she flew back, she just wouldn't wait another day.

"Sorry baby my hormones are killing me you know I hate 'anything kitchen' since I became pregnant and moreover, remember you said we all aren't perfect when it comes to your girls? You're the perfect one so go be perfect". Emily wink and patted her hand she put another pillow over her head. Paige rolled her eyes and stood up.
"Let's go you two little rats and let's allow mummy rest". Gaby as they call her climbed Paige's back and Mady was picked by Paige. They went to the kitchenette, she prepared some cereal for them and some fruits. They played while they eat with her afterwards Eva and the new Nanny Sasha came. Eva cleans the kitchen while Sasha took them for bathing, but they refuse her so Paige decided to just do it . After bathing them she send them down to Akins so they can go and play with Akin's and Spencer's daughter Zendaya. She then locked the bedroom door and went back to bed. She removed everything and climbed back in behind Emily who is nine months pregnant.

"Babe the kids are all fed, cleaned up and at Akins's what do you say you warm me up a little I have been so cold and left dry". Emily smiles to herself she wasn't sleeping she knew This traits. Paige was definately going to come back asking for something soemthing and as God will have it she too wanted that something something, but she still decided to pretended.

"Not now baby later ".
"You promised, you promised pregnancy wasn't gonna be an issue for us Em". Paige pouted. Even though she wasn't facing her Emily knew. So she started laughing as she slowing turns to face Paige with her big belly kissing her softly.
"Am just kidding baby can't you see am ready too". Paige notices emily had nothing under the top she was wearing.
"Just two days, but we missed you so much"

"I missed you guys terribly too did you have a pleasant time with the twins?"
Emily tilted her chin up. "Not enough without you," she murmured as her mouth covered hers. "Now, show me how much you missed me . . .".

Within moments, Emily's fake exhaustion had melted away in the heat of Paige's passionate kiss. In a kind of sensual haze her lips moving persuasively against hers, and her tongue teasing and exploring, her condition scarcely seemed to matter.

Her senses swam dizzily, assaulted by her deep kisses and the gentle arousing things she whispered against her parted lips as she kissed her. "Even after all this years I can't get enough of you," she murmured, leaning over her. "I'll never get enough of you." Her hand roamed possessively over her sensitive skin Before she could react, her mouth was moving leisurely toward her naked, exposed breasts. "The kids!". Emily gasped.

"I have locked the door". Paige said.

Her tongue touched a rosy nipple, and Emily struggled in genuine, frantic earnest. "Oh baby! Please!" she said hoarsely,

"I missed you more babe". Paige said between kisses. "You look so sexy with your full big breasts I love how they look". Emily giggled.
"Yeah? Then what are you waiting for? Show them some love". Paige gladly did. She sucked and played with Emily's breast, they lay side by side, kissing and doing each other slowly Emily came first and despite her condition made sure her wife also came. Paige gladly thank her and lay next to her, caressing her to sleep.

"You know it's rude to stare at people while they're sleeping". Emily mumbled her voice raspy with sleep. After resting for about an hour, she woke with a feeling her wife was starring at her.

"Is not rude for one to stare at what is his. I love looking at you, it makes me so happy".

"Me too, Is it normal to enjoy waking in someone's arms when you're both naked, and you're still sort of tingling in all the right places after a very marginal moment?".Emily asked smiling.

"Don't know if it is, but I love it so much". Paige smiled while combing Emily's hair with her fingers.

"You always liked the way I comb my fingers through your hair?". Paige asks Emily.

"No one does it right baby. Not the twins or Zendaya or even Eva. Only you do it the way I like it. It puts me to sleep. Infact your fingers does all kinds of magical things to me". Emily winks making Paige laugh then continued playing with her hair.

"I think this might be what they call a 'bliss'". Emily drift off again into sleep, still curled up against her wife and fitting perfectly into her body. Paige just lay there, soothing her wife's hair thinking how blessed their lives is. Later when Emily woke again, Paige was just lying still awake and staring at her. They stare at each other intensely with so much love and fulfillment.

Paige didn't know what part of Emily she wanted more so again she settled on her boobs that were pressing into her own.

Emily gasped instantly grinding into Paige's hands trying to get much needed friction.

Paige, being the good wife she is gave the brunette what she wanted. Rubbing tight circles around Emily's bundle of nerves.

"Ugh. Oh god. Baby please." Emily begged desperately bucking into Paige's hand.

She smiles. "What do you need babe?". Paige asked, "You... inside." Emily managed to get out in between strangled moans. Paige smirked, she crashed her lips into Emily's as she lined her hand at her wife's entrance.

She kept kissing Emily heatedly as she slowly pushed in.

"Ugh...Faster, baby". Emily panted. As she meets Paige's thrust.

Doing what she was told Paige picked up the speed moaning in the brunette's ear.

Paige started to pound into her at a little faster and grinding into her side, but minding that her wife was almost due."Fuck shit!".

"Babe, I'm close." Paige murmured, sweat dripping off her brow and landing in the valley of Emily's luxurious breasts.

"Me too". Emily said around a guttural moan. As soon as Paige hit that magical spot, Emily came with a vengeance. Paige grind once more in to Emily and came hard. She collapsed beside her sweating and patting hard. "Babe you completely wore me out". Emily kissed her forehead and turned the other side.

"I know. Baby can you get me something to eat am gonna go pee, can't even go further than that". Paige nodded and gladly stood up and went down to the main kitchen to get something for her wife just as she came back up, she saw her wife standing by the bed naked with water dripping slightly at her legs. Paige stopped shocked. Emily looked up at her.

"My water just broke! Get me a gown we need to leave now". Paige hurried and brought her gown, picked the bag and called the driver and Bette it was time. They used the lift as soon as they got down Bette and Spencer were there. Paige asked Eva, the two new nannies to take care of the twins.

As soon as they got in the car Emily started screaming the pain it was fast becoming unbearable, during the twins it was a prolonged labour, Paige wanted to sign for a CS, she couldn't take it when Emily became too weak and almost at the brink of fainting. Paige just didn't understand why Emily was doing that to herself when CS would have easily been done. just when she was getting prepared Emily tried again and pushed out not one, but two beautiful babies. She cried and Paige cried too. Now though, the labour and the delivery was all within three hours. Emily got a small tear, the boy's head was a bit on big side. The doctor stitched her up good. she rested for the night and was discharged the next morning. Paige couldn't be happier it was easier this time and even more delighted she was home again not far away in another country or continent.

THE MONTHS LATER...

Today is one of the best days of their lives, Papa and Mama Marin, Hanna Caleb with their son Francis, Toby with his wife, also Shana and her husband, Aria and her fiancé. And even Nicolas and Evelyn were all here for the holidays. Nicolas has finally forgiven her. Paige and her are now on talking terms. Paige, Emily and the twins have even spent a weekend at the cream Mansion one weekend when they took the twins to visits Paige's and Pam's graves. Emily insists such should be made as a tradition because there is nothing as a family. That night after dinner, Tyrion Wynono Fields McCullers was bathed and put to bed, Gaby and Mady were worn out and barely had the energy in them to take a bath, all the kids have basically terrorized the adults during dinner. they were put straight to day.

Emily and Paige; however, had a lot of making up to do, they haven't been intimate in the last two months, so they made sure to take every opportunity of their alone time that they could with The kids's exhaustion being in their favor.

After several rounds of getting reacquainted with every part of the other's body, after all it was their first time after the birth of Tyrion. they laid in bed with the lights out only the in closets lights on, they wrapped in one another, taking in the moment of bliss for what it was. Paige traced lightly against Emily's sweat tan skin as her head rested on her shoulder, and Emily also lazily soothing her. Paige's arm snugly wrapped around her.

"I'm happy". She murmurs into the darkness, knowing Emily was some what awake and would hear her. "I'm so happy and content I can't find words to tell you how I feel". It prompts the action of her wife's finger to slowly come to a stop and her head to lift from her shoulder to look at the woman next to her. She turns Paige's face to her and kisses her deeply and passionately, conveying her feelings into it before pulling away.

"I can". Emily whispers emotionally. "You taught them to me-I Love you. I Love you". Paige nodded and whispered hoarsely.

"God! How I love you".

"Say it again". Emily smiles and asks in a mere whisper and this time with Paige's eyes focused on her; as best as they can be in the dark, she says it again.

"I love you so much Emily," Paige breaths out smiling.

"I love you too Pai..". Paige captures her lips before She could finish her sentence, allowing their lips and tongues to speak the words over and over again, and for Paige, upon those perfect lips, that perfect skin, that unbelievably stunning body that born them their incredibly beautiful kids. Emily lay her head back on her wife's chest in contention and love as dreamy sleep took her over.

In the dark as Emily slept, Paige gazed down tenderly at the beauty who was nestled up against her, her tousled head resting trustingly against her wife's naked chest. Paige brushed a wayward curl gently off her cheek, she drew her closer to her and touched her lips to her forehead.

"I love you". She breathed softly. She knew Emily was asleep and couldn't really hear her, but she needed to say the words again.

Paige had said them to her in her heart tonight each time her mouth touched the dewy softness for hers in Hungry urgency or aching tenderness. "I love you". It was a song her heart sang when she writhed beneath her and arched sweetly up to meet her thrusts; a melody that's rose to a soaring crescendo as she led to the peak of ecstasy and then joined her there.

Her wife snuggled closer against her and dreamily whisper, " I love you, too".

"Ssssh, babe sleep". Paige murmured. She had lingered over her endlessly tonight deliberately delaying the final exquisite moment of release until they were both wild with wanting. After such prolonged lovemaking with certain toys emily was craving involved she wanted her to rest.

Paige couldn't ask for more, neither could she wait for this wonderful life with Emily, the kids, family and friends because if at the beginning it was rough then this fantastic, Paige couldn't imagine what forever would be like for all of them...

The end.

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