Kadaj woke me up this morning. I really didn't want to get up, but he pressured me to it so I finally did. After taking a shower I and Kadaj walked to the mall. I wore Black pants and a white shirt. Kadaj: blue jeans and a white shirt. (I told you, we weren't good with money at the moment.) I didn't really want to go the Mall; Cloud's friends could be there and they always taunted me about my famine voice. It was aggravating.

But to my luck, they weren't there. We hung around, looking at the all the people we might want to kiss. Kadaj was drooling over a blonde that should've been a model when I spotted Kara in the crowd. Reno wasn't far behind her, talking. Kadaj saw my look of fear and pulled me towards the elevators. He shoved me in the glass elevator and we escaped to the second floor. As we were half way up, I saw Kara looking straight at me. I swallowed and looked away, hoping she wouldn't say anything.

Kadaj pulled me to the food court on the second floor and we got lunch. Of course, I wasn't really pleased in staying at all, but he told me that the public was a risk. He was right. As I ate slowly, I began to think. If Kara had told Reno we were here, would he come and try to find me? Or would he leave like I wanted to? It was hard not to talk when he drove Loz, Kadaj and I home from school; but meeting during the weekend really didn't happen since that night.

Then I started to think, what if he thought I thought he wasn't there? Would he think I was trying to keep Kadaj away from Kara? Perhaps…I didn't quite want to know what was happening it Reno's head; then that would take the excitement from everything. I shuddered, thinking of all the kinky things Reno could've though during that night.

God damn! Why do I keep calling it 'that night'? It wasn't some tradgey thing that happened. But was it a mistake? I sighed, sipping some of my drink when I saw Kadaj look at me. Or rather, passed me. I blinked, confused, but I didn't want to look; not until he told me to. I learned that the hard way…

Kadaj blinked, moving his eyes so he looked directly at me, smiling slightly, "Just ignore them, Yazoo." He mumbled, sipping the rest of his drink and I groaned, rubbing my temples annoyingly. Cloud's friends, as always. Kadaj and I threw away are trash and went back downstairs. I figured Reno and Kara had left already. I was wrong.

The moment Kadaj stepped out of the elevator, Kara came out of nowhere, hugging him tightly. "Hi!" she smiled, letting go and waving at me. I stepped from the elevator, even though it felt safer than any place right now. I looked around, wary of that one person. Kara suddenly waved her hand in my face and I stepped back from her, blinking. She smiled, "I thought we lost you there, Yazoo!" She giggled, "Reno's in Hot Topic. He said if I found you, that we can go anywhere in the mall! Wanna go to the arcade? Or maybe Claries? Oooh! Maybe we could go to Twilly's!"

"Not Claries." I said strictly, "I don't care where we go, just as long as it's not some weird, girl store." I grumbled. Kadaj sighed, rolling his eyes.

"Okay! Let's go to Barns and Noble!" Kara smiled, grabbing my wrist and dragging me into the elevator and Kadaj followed quickly.

"A book store?" Kadaj asked and Kara nodded. "Whatever." He grumbled. Then his phone rang and I winced at the tune. It was loud and annoying. He answered it quickly. I heard murmurs of Sephiroth's voice, but I didn't hear formation of words. Kadaj listened, but he stopped almost dropping the phone, his eyes going wide. I grabbed the phone, pressing it to my ear.

"Hello?" I asked into the phone.

"Yazoo? Where the hell is Kadaj?" Sephiroth snapped.

"He went into shock, Brother, what happened?" I asked concerned.

"Like you would care, Yazoo," Cloud sighed from the other side of the phone.

"I'd still like to know!" I snapped, "Sorry," I murmured instantly.

"He has a right you know," Tifa said and I groaned in my head.

"Okay, Okay," Cloud mumbled, "Riku-"

"Riku ran-away," Sephiroth interrupted. "Who's with you?" I stepped out of the elevator, with Kara following and Kadaj following as well, still not speaking.

"Kara and technically Reno." I said softly.

"Hm. You and Reno go look for Riku in the projects. Tell Kadaj that he and Kara can look in the Rich Area. I and Loz are looking uptown and Tifa and Cloud are looking Downtown. If you find him, Yazoo, you better be nice to him. If you aren't, I swear you'll be in pain." Sephiroth threaten and hung up. I stared at the phone for about five minutes before Kadaj took it.

"What'd he say?" Kadaj asked, putting the phone into his pocket.

I sighed, and rubbed my temples, "Riku ran away," I said to catch Kara up, "He wants you two to look for him in the Rich People Place." I mumbled.

"What about you?" Kara asked, completely oblivious.

"Kara…" Kadaj warned, "Just called your brother and give the phone to me, okay?" He said, and Kara nodded, fishing out her small phone and pressing number rapidly. "HI RENO!" she practically yelled, "You'll never guess what happened!" She smiled, but Kadaj groaned and she sighed, "Hold on, here's Kadaj."

"Hey, Reno," Kadaj greeted lightly once receiving the phone, "Uh, Riku sort of ran away…yeah, I know…well Riku can be a pain sometimes. Moving on! Sephy wants us to search for him…Me and Kara will be searching your part of town…Yeah I know…It's what Sephy wants…You? 'll be with..um..Yazoo…Yeah, we're near the book store…okay…see ya." He hung up, giving Kara back her cell-phone. "We're meeting Reno next to the fountains." He said, motioning towards the escalators. I walked swiftly, with Kara and Kadaj falling behind, and soon I saw the fountains. Then I suddenly stopped.

Why did I want to get here so fast? Wasn't I dreading the thought of even being near Reno? I grunted, confused out of my mind. Did I want to see Reno? Or did I want to find Riku? Did I want to see Riku? I tilted my head slightly, letting my locks of hair fall over my shoulders gracefully. Kara almost ran into me and I blinked from my mindless questions, but I was launched into a memory again.

His words made my heart flutter, and I was whole near him; I shivered as he kissed me, his lips soft against mine. I grunted, pleasure building in me. He seemed to like this too and he broke away, panting. I gasped for breath too before locking lips with him again. The sunset didn't matter now. Only him…the ocean waves crashing along the beach wasn't agonizingly romantic enough and I only longed to be near him forever.

Kadaj did run into me, and we almost fell to the ground. But it was enough of a push to jolt me out of my sweet memories…sweet like poison. "Come on," Kara pulled my wrist before letting go and running towards the fountains. She obviously wanted to be the hero of the day and find Riku. But would she have a fit and scream at the whispers that weren't there? I sighed, and looked at Kadaj before following the excited girl.

Reno was staring at the coins at the bottom of the fountain, the sunlight from the skylights above reflecting the water. He stared at the water, and I saw his eyes moving with the moving, refracted light, his brow furrowed slight. Kara practically tackled him. "Found you!" She smiled, "Can we go now?" Reno laughed, and nodded.

Reno had dropped Kadaj and Kara at the gates to the richest neighborhood in town. I tried not to look at the huge houses and countless nice cars. Reno pulled away before I was tempted to break into one of the houses and steal everything I could sell; or just the deed to the house. But the huge houses melted away to dirty, rusted trailers and broken down houses. The parks were filled with gangs and I could see them eyeing Reno's car, but one glance from the red-head and their thoughts burned and died. I smirked, trying not to like a girl. The last thing I needed was to get mugged.

Reno slowed the car to a stop and grabbed the keys. He reached over and popped open the glove compartment. He pulled out a gun and held it out to me. I blinked and took it. Then I spotted his old weapon, nestled in papers of the compartment. I blinked as he pulled it out and studied it. "I remember…you were good with guns." He whispered, "Almost got me once." I grunted and jumped from the car, clipping the gun to my belt, ignoring the small conversation that was inching to start. He pocketed his weapon and we started down an alley.

Night was falling and we still hadn't spot any sign of Riku, or gotten a call from the others. I was started to lose hope for the annoying brat. But Reno wouldn't let me go back to the car. I actually judged whether or not the car was still there. I mumbled and complained until Reno glared at me. "Seriously Yazoo, what do you have against him?"

"Reasons," I murmured, shrugging, stopping near a dumpster. "I'm surprised we haven't been stalked by gangs yet." I whispered, eyeing the dumpster slightly.

"God damn, I think we went in a circle." Reno growled, leaning against the brick wall of the ally. I shrugged, and glared at the ground. The full moon was not helping the tension between us; I dared not to look up at Reno, but I stepped forward slightly, and like an idiot, I tripped. Reno caught me and helped me up. I was losing my breath from being so close to Reno, but I mumbled a quick 'Thanks' and left it alone. But Reno didn't let me go. He actually stood still and stared into my eyes. I felt a light blush running over my cheeks and groaned in my mind at the embarrassment. But Reno didn't chuckle teasingly, or anything. He kept staring into my eyes.

"Yazoo, your eyes aren't like your brothers. They have flecks of gold in them," he whispered, leaning in, acting like he wanted a better look. I swallowed, smiling weakly.

"No comparison?" I joked, trying to lighten up the awkwardness between our bodies.

"There is nothing as beautiful has your eyes; therefore, nothing to compare them to." Reno murmured, pressing his lips against mine. I instantly melted into his body, letting my lips part eagerly. His tongue slipped into my mouth and explored ever crevice possible. I tried to hold back a pleasurable moan, but I couldn't. As it reached my ears I heard a gasp somewhere in alley way. Reno broke from be instantly and looked. I was too flustered to even open my eyes. Not to mention the fact that I was still in Reno's arms.

"Y-Yazoo?" Came the meek voice that I only knew of Riku. No! NO! NO! NO! He was never supposed to learn! He deserves to rot in hell! THE IDIOT! I screamed in my head, but finally opened my eyes. "Wh-what?" Riku gasped. "I thought you were straight, like Cloud!" Riku cried out in surprise. I felt heat go to my face and I wanted to scream at the boy. Reno grunted, letting me go. I glared at Riku, and crossed my arms. I simply turned and stormed away.

"YAZOO!" Riku wailed and Reno looked at him. I stopped and looked at Riku. He was half naked and I heard metal against metal. "Help me!" He sniffled, tears rolling down his face. "I'm stuck!"

Reno walked over and scowled, "He's chained…" I stalked over and saw the miserable state my brother was in.

"Idiot." I grunted, pulling out the gun that I kept concealed. Riku whimpered in fear, but Reno moved his leg so I got a clear shot of the thin chain. Shooting just once, and it broke. "You don't need my help anymore. Sephiroth's pissed, Riku. Reno, get him back to the car. I'm going…to be home late. Tell Sephiroth that I will be home." I growled, narrowing my eyes down on Riku. He ruined the perfect chance with Reno. He knew now. He was never going to let me live it down. I turned and walked away, clipping the gun to my belt again. Reno picked Riku up and I heard him walked a different way. I also heard Riku asking question. Reno didn't answer them, thank god.

I walked into the small motel. I decided to face my memories once and for all. I checked in with the credit card Sephiroth gave to me only for emergencies. This, I judged, was a good enough reason. Hopefully he'd understand. I requested a certain room and I thanked my luck it was free. I took the keycard and walked out to the parking lot and through the gate to the rooms. I climbed the stairs and unlocked the door to room 321. I walked in and memories attacked me. I closed the door and sank into memory after painful, wonderful, living, poisonous memories.

He pushed me against the wall and kissed along my neck. I moaned slightly and he worked to remove my shirt. His clothes were already in a pool next to the bed. He kissed me again, and I felt his talented fingers undo my pants. They fell around my ankles and I worked to get them off completely. Now we both stood in boxers. He pushed his hand down my boxer and stroked me and I shuddered, melting into him.

I walked over to the made bed and ran my fingers over the washed cloth. I shivered, remembering the wonderful feeling of him in me. I smiled slightly at the words he whispered to me. They aroused me, excited and drove me to insanity. The way his touch ran over my skin so softly. I turned to look at the mirror and I smiled, still seeing the slight crack in the corner when he pushed me against it…

…and I wrapped my legs around his waist, tangling my fingers in his hair. It annoyed me that it was still up. The pain in my shoulder was nothing right now as I pulled at the hair tie. It came loose and his hair fell around his shoulders. I moaned as he kissed along my chest, sucking and nibbling at my nipples. His hands rubbed over my skin and this only aroused me more. He knew this and lightened his touch which drove me to insanity…

There was a slight knock on the door to the room and I looked over, wondering who would come to a motel room door and knock. "Yazoo…" Reno whispered, "Lemme in." he pleaded. I shook my head, but hit myself mentally—he couldn't see me.

"N-no." I stuttered, "why?" I said louder.

"Yazoo!" Reno cried, his voice pleading and I could see the pleading, pouty, broken-heart look on his face. I shook my head to get rid of the image.

"Why?" I snapped, "You just want me again? Exposed again?" I yelled. There was silence, or so I thought. I stepped closer to the door and heard slight sobs. Instantly I felt horrible. Why was I attacking Reno? He only wanted to love me…but the question was truly, did I want to love him? Of course I did. I opened the door slightly and saw him, looking out over the rail. He looked towards me, but didn't step towards me.

"Yazoo..why'd you come here?" he asked. I was stunned by the simple question.

Why did I come here? Did I want to remember him; or did I want to forget it…forever. It only brought more memories to be here, but I still believed that it would rid me of them forever. I didn't answer, and I only looked at him, wondering what he could be thinking. "I came here once," he continued without my reply, "I thought I could forget. But I couldn't. It'll okay brought back the memories." He murmured, looking down at his feet.

"Where's Riku?" I asked, hoping to change the subject.

"In the car…I called Sephiroth. We should get back…"

"Like now." I heard Sephiroth's cold, hard voice, "Yazoo, I want to know. What goes through your mind when you see Riku? And don't give me any shit."

I sighed, looking at the ground, "I think of a betrayer, an idiot. I want him to leave the Strife Family. He doesn't belong. He doesn't care of Mother, or any of us but Kadaj. He whines and he's annoying. He gets everything. Even the master bedroom in the house! He doesn't deserve it. He needs to learn that he's at the bottom; he needs to know about Mother! I know why he's like this too! It's his two friends, filling his head with false realities and fiction!" I yelled. It was different when it was said aloud, my hate for Riku. Reno stared at me in shock, but Sephiroth's gaze hardened.

"Yazoo; you used to be the same damn way." Sephiroth snapped, before turning and walking back to the parking lot. I stopped, but then I heard the undeniable ringtone of Reno's cell phone. It was the ringtone that rang if Kara called. He answered it, ready to smile at his sister's stupidity. But his face dropped.

"Kadaj?" He growled, but before the threats could come his eyes went wide and the phone dropped. "Kara…" he whispered.

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