CHAPTER EIGHT
A/N just a warning for some sexy times in this chapter! Enjoy!
Delphine stood looking at herself in the mirror. She had on the black and white dress that Cosima liked on. She wanted to make a good impression with Felix. She had not been this nervous in a long time. She was meeting with Cosima about an hour before Felix was due to arrive; she had invited Tony to come too. This was more because from what Cosima had told her, Felix and she were going to either get very high or just be like school kids all night and Delphine didn't want to feel like the gooseberry. Once again she couldn't decide how she was going to have her hair. So she flipped a coin and she went with straight. It would be a shock for Cosima also as she had only ever seen Delphine with wavy or curly hair. Sitting with her straighteners Delphine thought back to the previous night when she must have sounded so foolish asking if Cosima wanted her. She kind of knew she did but with her experiences with past relationships she had learnt never to take anything for granted. At least by asking she could put the doubts to rest, but she still couldn't get her head round that Cosima had something to tell her and it must be big because she couldn't find the words to say anything. Delphine tried to rack her brain as to what it was that Cosima had to tell her that was so important. Maybe it was just how ill she was? Maybe she wasn't ill at all and they had got the diagnosis wrong. She had to try and stop thinking about things like this. They were going away the early hours of tomorrow morning and she didn't want to be thinking about things that may or may not be true.
Cosima was sat in her living room on the phone.
"Mum, I told you everything will be fine. I'm only going for two days and then going to a concert after. I will be fine. You know I am a grown woman now."
"Cosima you may well be a grown woman but you are still sick. This is not going to go away no matter how much you try and hide away from it."
"Mum! Stop! I am going. I will text you every day if that makes you feel any better. Just let me do this. In fact I need to do this for me, I need to have some time away from here, and I need to clear my head. I have the new support worker starting next Thursday so I want some time to be the real me before I have to do the whole rigmarole of being looked after again OK!?"
"Cosima, I do this because I love you!"
"Mum, I'm going now I have guest arriving shortly. I will text you tomorrow."
"Cosima who is this woman you are going with?"
"We are not having this conversation now mum; when I am ready to tell you the ins and outs of my personal life I will call you. Now mum I love you but I am hanging up now!" Cosima finished the call before her mum could reply. She hated when her mum became so over bearing. It wasn't as if she was going abroad to Spain or where ever she was literally going up north. Cosima looked at the clock and realised that Delphine would be here any minute.
"Shit! Fuck! Bollocks!" She swore as she went running up to her room to find some clothes to wear.
Delphine got out of the taxi and made her way up the steps. She heard a massive bang and swearing coming from inside the house. She giggled to herself and unlocked the door.
"Cosima, I am here!" She called out.
"Be down in just a minute when I get my foot out of the bin!" Groaned the other woman.
"OK Cherie, I will make us both a drink whilst you finish off."
"Delphine bring my drink upstairs will you. I'm going to need your help I think."
"OK will be with you soon. What do you want to drink?"
"Make mine a green tea please babe. I'm not allowed to drink anymore remember?"
"Oh yes I'm sorry I forgot for a moment then. Would you prefer me not to drink also?" Delphine asked.
"No don't you stop drinking just because of me. I want you to just be yourself."
Delphine waited for the kettle to boil before she made the tea. Cosima liked it made a particular way. Firstly pour the water into the cup, add a tiny amount of sugar to take the bitterness away then add the tea bag, let it sit in the water for 1 and a half minutes before taking it out. Delphine had memorised this from watching Cosima make it so many times until she had got it to the point of perfection as she had once said.
"Hey Delphine are you coming up here or are you just going to sit and watch my drink cool." Cosima shouted from upstairs.
Delphine jolted out of her little daydream and took her coat off before picking up the 2 drinks she had made and took herself upstairs. She had pre-empted Cosima's reaction to seeing her in the dress, but nothing had prepared her for what Cosima was going to look like.
"Oh my God Cosima, you look stunning." Delphine stuttered out taking in the sight of her girlfriend in a figure hugging multi-coloured dress. She just couldn't find the words to express exactly how she felt.
"Wow to you too babe. You know how much I love seeing you in that dress. Makes me the luckiest woman on this earth." Cosima replied with her trademark cheeky grin. "Do you mind?" Cosima pointed to the zip at the back of her dress, she had managed to get it half-done but had struggled with the rest.
Delphine put down the drinks and slowly made her way over, she bit her lower lip. How was she going to remain calm and do the zip up when all she wanted to do was rip the dress off her and throw her on the bed.
Delphine stop close behind Cosima and placed one hand on her hip and slowly slid her other hand in the opening of the dress. "I think we might have just enough time to….." She slipped her hand round and found that Cosima had no bra on and gently cupped the breast.
"MMMM Ms. Cormier, I like it when you take control." Whispered Cosima melting into the touch.
"Would you like it even more if I took you right now?" Delphine asked, the lust for her girlfriend filling her voice.
"I think you should…" Cosima didn't get to finish the sentence before Delphine took her in a hungry embrace. Her tongue forcing entry into Cosima's mouth, the other mouth opening readily. Delphine broke this kiss to star kissing down Cosima's neck, exposing the shoulders then the back and front letting the dress drop to the ground.
"Damn that took me forever to iron!" Cosima protested without much conviction as Delphine turned her around and kissed her again.
Suddenly there was a knock on the door. "COSIMA! I know you are in there! Get your butt down here and let me in it is freezing out here and I didn't bring a coat!" The unmistakeable tone of Felix's voice came up the stairs.
"Oh Fuck. No let him stay there. Don't stop Delphine please." Begged Cosima as Delphine started to walk away.
"Oh Cherie that was just a taster for later!" Delphine winked as she went downstairs and let Cosima gather herself.
Delphine check her hair in the mirror, and tidied up her dress before answering the door.
"Hi?" She said nervously
"You must be Delphine? I'm Felix and if you hurt Cosima I will hunt you down!" Felix said seriously.
"OK I will remember that and yes I am Delphine. Enchantee." She said charmingly not letting the comment upset her.
"So where is the little lady, I hope you haven't been having sex! I have already told Cos, that it is going to take forever to get the smell of lesbians off me coming here tonight." Felix laughed when he knew the ice was broken.
Delphine let out a happy laugh before replying to Felix. "It's not the smell of lesbians you have to worry about, it's Tony he is a man on a mission tonight and I don't think you stand a chance."
Felix looked shocked before laughing again himself.
"So Tony I hear he is a bit of a geek monkey like our Cosima here. Is that true? I always fancied trying it with a geek monkey. They are supposed to be very attentive." Felix indulged. He wasn't expecting Delphine to be so forthright with her reply.
"Yes, the geeks are very attentive. Especially Cosima it's like she just wants to please me all the time." Delphine gave a cheeky grin to the surprised boy.
"Erm where is said geek monkey I thought she would have been here by now."
Cosima had been stood at the top of the stairs listening to the exchange between the two most important people in her life. She couldn't be happier if she tried. Felix obviously liked her even though he would never admit to it and Delphine well Delphine just took everything in her stride. She couldn't ask for anything more from them both. Moving from her place she made both Delphine and Felix jump when she came running down stairs screaming.
"FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIX I am so glad you did come." She threw her arms around the boy and smothered him in kisses as Delphine looked on giggling. Cosima looked over at her and gave her a wink.
"Hey get off me; it's bad enough that I was going to smell of a lesbian love nest now I am going to stink of lesbian too!" Felix joked.
"Oh Felix I don't smell that bad do i?" Cosima pouted.
"Well you would smell better if you didn't smell of sex. What have you been doing up there, having a bit of free love with yourself?"
"Oh my God Felix." Was all Cosima could manage as her bright red face had given her away.
Delphine smiled and again winked at the embarrassed Cosima who just went redder than it was thought possible.
"And on that note who is going to get me a drink?" Felix asked nonchalantly.
"I will go, what would you like to drink Felix?" Delphine offered.
"I will have one of the red wines Cosima hides under the sink. And don't say there isn't any, I see you squirrel a bottle away every now and then and it is the good stuff too." Felix announced.
Delphine just nodded. Cosima had warned her about Felix knowing where all the good stuff she kept was; Delphine had hidden it and not told Cosima where, she had replaced it with the almost as good stuff.
Delphine brought the bottle out and an empty glass. "With red wine you have to open it and let it sit for a while to get the best taste out of it." She explained as she put it down on the table where Felix sat.
"Oh I don't care much for how good it tastes because most red wine tastes of vinegar, I just care about how drunk it is going to get me."
A knock at the door stopped the conversation in its tracks.
"That must be Tony. I will go answer it." Delphine said making her way to the door.
"You sure babe? I don't mind going you know." Cosima said as she gave Delphine a quick kiss on the cheek.
"Cherie you keep Felix entertained. I just need to prewarn Tony about how Coarse Felix can be." Delphine replied kissing her girlfriend back as she went out to answer the door.
"So Cosima, have you told the lovely Delphine yet?" Felix suddenly piped up.
"Shhhhh Fee, I haven't had the chance to yet. It is not easy you know. How would you tell your girlfriend hey babe I am going to be the person you look after in the day and fuck at night!" Cosima said.
"Well that sounds a good way to put it if you ask me!"
"Fee! I want to tell her properly. Thursday is her first day and I have got them to hold off giving her my address up til now. They are going to have to give her something by Wednesday so I have told them mum's address, she doesn't know it."
"Cos, and what do you think will happen when you open the door to her and she sees you?"
"I'm hoping she won't run screaming to the hills and never speak to me again."
"Just tell her, before it's too late. Like I said the other day. If you tell her before she finds out you stand more of a chance of salvaging something out of the wreckage, but leave it and you will end up with nothing. You know I'm right darling you just have to decide what is more important. Your pride or your relationship with Delphine. It is so obvious that you adore each other."
"I'm scared Felix, I'm scared of losing her." Cosima said tears forming.
"Listen to me just be honest you will get more from that than lying."
Cosima nodded sadly and looked towards the door. Delphine was still talking to Tony.
"Delphine come and introduce Tony to Felix he is still sober at the minute!" Cosima shouted out to the hallway.
Delphine came in followed by Tony Felix did his usual look up and down before getting up and introducing himself.
"Well look at you Tony, I'm Felix and I'm guessing you have been brought here so these two can do some matchmaking?"
Tony blushed and tried to speak but couldn't he wasn't used to having someone be quite so forward to him, he blushed and shook Felix's hand.
"Hmm a nice strong grip now that I do like." Felix winked at the shy man in front of him.
Again Tony blushed, and Delphine ushered him to sit on the long sofa with her.
"So Felix how come I haven't met you before today? I feel like I know everything about you from what Cosima has told me." Delphine asked.
"Well my darling I think Cosima wanted to keep us apart because we both have an awesome sense of fashion and she didn't want us to fight about who looked the best. Which by the way dear is so me tonight."
Delphine laughed, Cosima had warned her about how Felix thought he was a fashion guru.
"Felix behave will you! Come lets go out for a smoke." Cosima said sending Delphine an apologetic look before dragging the boastful man out into the garden.
Delphine smiled and winked at her girlfriend. Tony went out with the other two to have a cigarette. After a minute or two Cosima came back inside and snuck up behind Delphine.
"Hey you did you miss me?" She whispered in the other woman's ear making her jump.
"Always baby." Delphine replied as she turned around to kiss Cosima.
They stood like that for a few minutes gently kissing each other and whispering sweet nothings.
"Oi you two pack it in, we haven't eaten yet!" Felix announced his arrival.
"Erm sorry guys, I did try and get him to stay outside a bit longer, but he was adamant that he should come back in!" Apologised Tony.
The girls laughed before taking each other's hands and making their way to the lounge, they sat on one of the sofas together and Felix and Tony sat on the other. Tony was sat in the corner and Felix had spread himself out.
"So you two lovebirds I hear you are going away tomorrow. Up to bonny Scotland, so what is up there to take you away from the big smoke?" Felix asked.
"Well my best friend Paul lives up there with his girlfriend Beth. He is like my family. He helped me so much when my parents passed away." Delphine explained.
"Oh shit, I'm sorry Delphine!" Felix said genuinely apologetic.
"It's OK it happened so many years ago now! I sometimes struggle to remember their faces now." Delphine said sadly.
"Hey Felix you want to come and help me pick what takeaway we are having tonight!" Cosima jumped in seeing that Delphine was getting upset.
"What Cosima we are just getting to the juicy stuff! "Felix objected.
"Felix go with Cosima, it is not something that needs to be spoken about when you hardly know the person. It's not fair at all!" Tony spoke up in Delphine's defence.
"Oh my the geek monkey has a voice! So tell me geek is it because you want to screw Delphine that you speak up or is it because you know all the sordid details of everything?" Felix said sarcastically.
"For your information Felix, the only person I did want to 'Screw' as you so crudely put it would have been you but right now I can't stand you. Why can't you respect people's boundaries and just keep pushing. You don't know why what or when about any of us in all honesty and right now I am surprised Cosima hasn't kicked you out! Because if was my house you would be out on your ear!" Tony was starting to get angry.
"What the hell… You think because I ask questions I am not interested? For your information Tony the Geek I am interested because Cosima is my best friend. I have known her for over a year and know the ins and outs of everything. I knew her on a more professional level before that, but we won't get into that right now! Just so you all know. I was asking Delphine these questions because I also lost my parents when I was younger and I was never in the position to have friends help me out! I was on my own and I went to a dark dark place, darker than you could even imagine. So before you start judging me about my methods of speaking to people maybe you should think that there maybe is a reason behind it! Damn now I'm stressed! I'm going out back for a whiff." Felix said letting his hard façade fall just a little.
"I will come with." Cosima said, knowing she had to speak with Felix
"As you wish!" Felix's façade had replaced itself quickly.
They made their way outside and Cosima pushed Felix out of sight.
"What the Fuck was all that about Felix! You nearly let the cat out of the bag!" Cosima hissed at the man in front of her.
"Well if you would grow a pair and tell her the truth I wouldn't be at risk of spilling your secrets now would i. I have told you Cos, you need to tell her."
"Felix I will tell her when I am good and ready, I will not be pushed into telling her." Cosima said calmly.
"Yeah and when will that be? When it's too late to change anything? Cosima you need to get a grip, this what you have is built on lies, well on your part it is, Delphine is totally into you and you are just leading her to get hurt!"
"I don't want to fucking hurt her, I have told you that before, I just don't know what to say! You know that!" Cosima slumped down exhausted.
"Darling, tell her whilst you are away. You have 6 days before she starts work, if you tell her before then who knows as I have said before you may have something to work towards. But don't leave it because the rejection after will just destroy you."
Cosima started crying, she couldn't bear the thought of not having Delphine in her life in any way now. It had only been 2 months but it felt as if they had been together forever. Delphine was her soul mate and she wasn't willing to let that go.
"Hey Cos, don't cry. You just have to find a way to make things work."
Cosima nodded as Tony came out. Felix stood up in a defensive stance.
"Het Felix I wanted to apologise. It is not like me to be so full on, but I have come to think of Delphine as a little sister over the last few weeks and I would defend her to the end of time." Tony explained.
"It's alright Tony I understand that totally. I guess I would be the same if it was Cosima." Felix extended his hand and Tony took it and shook it.
"Now how about you get you ciggies out and I can make this bifta I came out to make 10 mins ago?" Felix smiled the argument forgotten about as quickly as it had happened.
Delphine had sat in the kitchen watching the three of them interact. She felt her heart opening even more. She just wanted everyone to be happy. And seeing the scene unfold in front of her made her so.
"So Cosima you are Delphine's client frim Thursday aren't you?" Tony asked out of the blue.
"Err how did you know?" Cosima stuttered.
"I kind of heard the end of the conversation between you and Felix as I come out." Tony admitted.
"You can't say anything Tony. I need to tell her myself." Cosima looked scared.
"Well like what I heard you need to do it soon. She loves you and this is going to destroy her." Tony admitted.
"I don't want to hurt her. I have thought about cancelling the contract with DYAD so I would never have to tell her."
"What and risk your health? Cosima you can't do that at all." Felix joined in. "Imagine what Sarah would do to you! Hell imagine what your mother would do to me!"
"I just want to be happy!" Cosima said sadly.
Delphine knocked on the window and called the others in.
"I took the liberty of ordering for us all seeing as you were all engrossed in whatever conversation you were having. I hope you all like Thai?"
The others all nodded in response. Cosima went to Delphine's side and snuggled into her.
"You know you are simply the best girlfriend ever Del."
"Yeah I know!" Delphine laughed.
The remainder of the evening passed by with no incidents. Felix got to the point of drunkenness that he tried it on with Tony. Tony flattered by the attention rejected him. Telling Felix that if he tried to kiss him when sober then the outcome may be different.
Delphine and Cosima were cuddled up on the sofa enjoying the relaxed turn the evening had taken. It was getting later but neither of them wanted the others to go. Delphine looked at the time and saw that it was after 1am.
"Cosima we really need to try and get some sleep. We have to be at the airport for 5."Delphine said sadly.
"Oh shit Del, I didn't realise the time. Hey guys stop your necking and get the hell out, me and Del have some unfinished business to attend to." Cosima joked.
"Oh God Tony let's go before the lesbians infect us! I know a good club we could go to." Felix said.
After struggling to get the men out the door Cosima made her way upstairs where Delphine was waiting for her. Cosima pulled her girlfriend closer and walked towards the bedroom.
"Well I'm still waiting for the conclusion to the little distraction earlier." Cosima breathed softly into Delphine's ear.
"Hmm Cosima, I thought you had forgotten about that!" Delphine smiled.
"It's all I have been thinking about all night! What are you doing to me woman?" Cosima husked as she started to take off Delphine's dress.
"So you have been thinking of me making love to you all night. Let me just see if that is true." Delphine whispered as her hands made their way down to the waist, she let out a little gasp as she realised that Cosima had not been wearing any underwear.
"You're a naughty girl Cosima, not wearing any underwear and not telling me." Delphine chastised as her fingers found the wet folds and she teased her fingers along the length pausing for a second on the hard clit.
Cosima whimpered her hips pushing towards Delphine. Delphine smiled at how easy this would be to keep her hanging. She was practically ready to explode just from the slightest touch.
"Should I carry on ma Cherie?" Delphine asked gently already knowing the answer.
"Yes." Cosima replied simply before kissing Delphine hard. Letting her know just how much she wanted her! "Just please…"
Delphine smiled as she stood at the end of the bed, stepping out of her clothes. She reached over to Cosima and helped her out of her things before their mouths found each other again. Delphine allowed herself to be pushed on the bed and Cosima straddled her lap. Delphine could feel the heat and wetness coming from the other woman as she allowed her hands to wander the toned body in front of her. Her mouth finding the hard nipple as she used her tongue to tease it, Cosima began to moan more freely.
"Please Delphine, please." She begged her hips pushing down.
"What do you want me to do?" Delphine asked prolonging the inevitable.
"I want you inside me, like really inside me. More than before." Cosima moaned as Delphine changed their positions so she was on top.
"How would you like me inside you?"
"Your tongue, your fingers anyway you want to be inside me. I just want you now."
"Really so you want this?" Delphine teased by gently pushing a finger inside. Cosima gasped and tried to grip onto the finger inside her before Delphine removed it.
"No fair….. Please!"
"Or how about this?" Delphine slowly moved downwards, til her mouth was around the sensitive bulb. Cosima could not help but moan louder. Delphine flicked her tongue out making contact with the very tip of the clit. Cosima pushed her hips up wanting more contact. Delphine opened her mouth a little wider and slowly and painfully for Cosima inserted her tongue into the swollen folds.
"Oh God Delphine!" Cosima shouted her body on the edge. "Please don't stop!" Cosima's hands moved to hold onto Delphine's head and hold her in place. Delphine moved her tongue slowly taking in the very taste of Cosima. Using the longer stokes of her tongue to tease the clit. Within minutes Cosima began to tense the orgasm taking over her body. Delphine didn't stop at all the ministrations whilst Cosima came. Thus leading her to orgasm again. Out of breath and twitching Delphine finally let Cosima relax thinking that she had tortured her enough. With a smile she made her way back up the bed.
"You OK Cherie?"
"Oh um yeah totally." Smiled Cosima sleepily and she pulled Delphine in to hold her close. "I just wish we could stay like this forever!" She whispered quietly before she fell asleep.