I'm sorry for the late update.
It's been a little busy in my life and I miss time to post chapters.
I thank the people who are reading the story and posting reviews, even if I know it's not easy to read due to my poor english.
So I am still looking for a beta reader to help me.
Calzonafan123 : You will learn about Owen in the next chapter. but no he is not her father.
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Another week has passed and I haven't seen Dr Arizona Robbins at all. Not that I am supposed to see her but I now know her habits after studying her shcedule.
I check the board and her name is on it, so she's working today, but I haven't seen it since the last time I saw her.
« Why are you staring at my board ? » Miranda Bailey out me from my thoughts.
She looks at me from head to toe with a dark glare, her arm cross on her chest, visibly annoyed.
« I... Nothing... » I mumble. This woman is a friend of mine but when we're at work, she scares me some times. « I needed to see... Dr Grey for a... paper I need her to sign. »
« And you can't ask your secretary to do it ? » She asks, seemingly more annoyed.
« I was just around so I thought I could ... »
« Keep your lies for someone else Torres. I know you are looking for Dr Robbins. » She cuts me off, taking me aback.
« What ? No ? Why are you saying that ? » I feint surprise.
« We are in a hospital, and people talk. And I'm Bailey, I know everything. » She insists. « You've been around that board a lot lately, asking to nurses and doctors where she was. »
The only reaction I can have right now is blushing in shame. How does she knows that ? And why people can't shut their mouth around here ? At least in my department, my coworkers don't care about each other life.
« This hospital is full of gossip, and if you didn't notice it earlier, now you're aware. And you can be proud, you're a part of it. » Miranda grumbles.
Nice, exactly what I needed. Not only i'm supposed to be discrete and not to bring attention on my interaction with Arizona Robbins, but I'm also supposed to get close to her at the same time ant it is driving me crazy. Everything I'm doing ever since I met her is the opposite of what i should do.
« If you have something to ask Dr Robbins, do it, and stop wandering around her. » Miranda continue. « But I'm telling you Torres, don't upset her or bring her in any kind of drama, because I need her here. Do you hear me ? »
« What the hell are you insinuating Bailey ? »
« I'm saying you are the queen of love drama ! I'm not saying it's your fault, but you are always involved in some complicated stories. I have already lost my Cardio Head because of you ! » She yell at me, making everyone around us looking in our direction.
I swallow hard, upset by what she just say, even if I can see some regrets in her eyes.
« I'm sorry... » She immediately apologizes. « I know it wasn't only your fault Hanh Left. »
« You're right, I should go... » I mumble, clearing my throat with a nervous cough.
I nod at her politely and I have nothing else to do but to go back to my office. Anyway, Robbins is in surgery for hours and I have work to do.
I walk as fast as I can to the elevators and I impatiently push the call button. I want to get out of that place. And of course the elevators aren't comming and I am literally crumbling inside.
Just hearing her name still make me sick to my stomach.
As soon as the doors of the elevator often, I rush inside but I need to put a hand on the wall to help me standing.
I burst into tears, thinking about that woman who left me a few month prior. I hate that she still have that hold on me. She doesn't deserve it.
I try to control my sob, recoiling until my back hit the wall. I won't cry for her anymore. She left me, big deal...
I wasn't in love with her, but I was getting attached. She was the person I needed after the dark period I went through after my ex husbadn cheated on me. She was just a rebound girl, but still. My ego and my self esteem were hurt in the process.
I focus on my breathing, looking at the ceiling. I can't blame Bailey. She's right in a way. Erica left the hospital without noticing anyone and it was partially because of me.
Sighing heavily, I almost not notice the elevator stopping and the doors opening so I don't have time to wipe the tears rolling on my face.
And here she is, in front of me, dressed in her complete scrub outfit. And she immediately look at me.
I'm so stupid, what else would she do, we're face to face.
She look around her, apparently hoping another person to join us, but nobody seem to be around.
« Hey... » She says hesitantly, her baby blue eyes looking empty and sad.
« Hey... » I reply, awkwardly wiping that last tear.
She enter the elevator and settle at my left. She's not the same woman I'm used to look at. She is quiet and visibly upset.
Readjusting my jacket, I try to act normally to not make her ask me question. I'm not in the mood for that, and I don't even want to try anything with her.
But my eyes are irreparably attracted to her and that's when I notice her scrub cap.
« Butterflies... » I whispers, thinking nobody could hear me.
« What ? » she asks me, raising her head as our eyes meet.
« Nothing... » I reply shyly, immediately turning my head to avoid her gaze.
« Are you okay ? » She genuinely asks me.
« I'm fine... » I lie to her. I can't talk to her right now. Nothing good will come from that.
« No you're not okay, you're crying. » She simply state as the the elevator stop and the doors open in front of us.
« Really, it's nothing. » I reply, faking a smile and walking outside the elevator as we're at my department stairs. « Thanks for asking though. »
I begin to walk to my office with only one wish : finishing my job and head back to my place to be alone when I hear her calling me.
« Callie ! »
I turn and I see her, in the middle of the hallway and I look at her, kniting my brows.
« What time are you off ? » she ask me out of the blue.
« I... At 7, why ? » I reply, still surprised.
« I'll be there, waiting for you, and we will go to the pub accross the street and have a drink. » She nod, not asking but just informing me about what we are going to do apparently.
« Thank you, but I don't need your pity. » I reply.
« I'm not pitying you. But I could use a person to drink with me tonight. » She plead. « I had a rough day. »
« I told you no. » I says, arsher than I wished I had. « I'm not in the mood. »
« Neither Am I, so please, join me ... » She insist, smiling at me waiting for my approval.
« Okay... » I finally say, before turning my back to her and walking to my office. « But you are paying ! »
I walk back to my office, still under the surprise of her invitation. I don't know what it mean, but it might be an opportunity for me to work on her case.
But weirdly, I find myself happy she had made the first step. At last she's showing interest in getting to know me.
Or maybe it's just the circumstances. We found ourselves upset and in need of something at the place at the same moment. I don't know how and why she asked me to join her, but for tonight, and I swear only tonight, I will not act with her as I am told to.
I will enjoy my drink with Dr Arizona Robbins, a nice and perky woman I know nothing about, or I'd rather say, I'm supposed to not know anything about and we'll see where it will go.
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Next chapter at Joe's...
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