I smiled as we got back to the warehouse, giving Brian a hard time. Everyone except for him knew that Dom had given him that race. Rome and Han kept giving him a hard time, and I immediately accepted a beer from Gisele and sat on the couch with her and Mia. I twirled the bottle around, taking occasional sips and not participating much in the conversation.

Something was going to happen. It was a pit deep down in my stomach that just kept yelling at me. I couldn't understand though, so it felt completely useles for it to do so. I jumped when my phone went off.

"Yeah?"

"Hey, girlie."

"Sunny girl. What's up?" My stomach went cold with dread. "Did something happen to the kids?"

"They're fine. I was just calling you to say that."

"Thanks."

"No problem."

I hung up and set my phone on the table. "She's lying." I could tell when she was lying and when she was being truthful. "Something happened and she doesn't want to tell me after making the call." I got up. "Shit." I answered my phone again.

"Yeah?"

"Mommy?" I could feel my heartbeat and hear it as Charlie whimpered that one word. I grabbed Brian and Dom, gesturing to Mia. "Mommy, are you there?"

"Of course. So is Uncle Dom, Uncle Brian, and Aunt Mia. What is it?"

"Mommy, she shot Julianna."

"Who?"

"I don't know. Aunt Sunny went to the bathroom and then..."

"Shit. Stay where you are, stay with Aunt Sunny. I'll be there as soon as this job is over. I love you."

"I love you, Mommy..." The line went dead. I set the phone down on the table. Brian put a hand on my shoulder.

"I should go. I have to go." Dom puts a hand on my shoulder.

"You should go. But you can't. How are you going to pay for the bill without this money?"

"I'm not."

"And add more to your debt and record? Get yourself in jail?" Dom raises a brow and I flinch. "Exactly. Focus on this last job and I'll get you to your kids." I nodded, before going to sit down with Mia and Gisele again. I grabbed the bottle and continued twirling with occasional sips.

Back in the room, when I ate ice cream on the bed, Han knew something was up. I could tell he and Gisele were trying to keep it in. It was a hard silence, where I just ate and ate while Han and Gisele watched television. I sighed then and kept up the silence for a minute longer. "I'm going to sleep."

"No you're not. What's wrong?" Han asked, catching me by my wrist. I shrugged, trying to play it off but knowing that I would ultimately tell him. "C'mon, Perry. Give me more than a shrug."

"Julianna has been shot. And Charlie is in America without me, and I can only hope and pray that we get through this job so that I can get him back and set my family to something one more time before disappearing." I ran a hand through my hair. "I need them so much right now..."

"Jesse?"

"And Letty," I answered before laying down again. I looked over and noticed that Gisele had fallen asleep. I looked again at Han. "I need both of them. Jesse should be right fucking here, Han. Right next to me. Letty should be over there in the corner, cleaning her gun and waiting for me or Dom to find the bitch who hurt her. That is how it has always been since I joined this family."

Han pulled me close, and I found myself almost relaxing into him. He breathed in deeply. "She wouldn't want you to think like this, and he wouldn't either."

"No, they wouldn't," I conceded. "But they sure as hell would expect it from me." Han chuckled. "God... You remind me so much of Jesse sometimes. Just how you can read me. Only Jesse would have ever guessed I ever cut myself, even once. But you knew it too. How?"

"I didn't," Han said. "I went by instinct instead." He looked down at her. "But I guess I can afford to be your shoulder to cry on."

"You guess?"

"I guess." Han leaned down and I felt my breath catch.

"Han..." I whispered. "In this life, we live fast, we love hard, and we make enemies and best friends. We work hard for respect and people work even harder for ours."

"I know," Han whispered back. "We live fast no matter what. I think that you need to feel how it is to live again." I let him close the difference and it was almost like being with Jesse again. He lit me up, and pulling me closer only heightened the flames and spread it where he touched me. He wasn't hard, but he wasn't gentle either. He was a hell of a lot cleaner than Jess for sure-

I pulled away. I was comparing him to Jesse. That isn't the right reason to kiss a guy. "I..."

"No. I could feel it. You compared me to him," Han said, brushing my hair back. I let my eyes fall. "How close am I?"

I grinned and felt my cheeks heat up. "Only difference I noticed is that you aren't as sloppy as him." Han chuckled before pulling me close again. "I think I can go this one time without comparing. Wanna try again?"

"Of course." I initiated it this time and felt the same reaction, only this time it was even more. It wasn't arousal, per se, but it was pretty damn hot. I smiled into the kiss. "I think you should go to sleep," Han whispered as he broke away. I noticed he was slightly panting and nodded. He smiled at me and we laid down, his arm wrapped around me.

"Han... You know that I'm going to leave the life after this, right?" Han looked away before nodding. "When this is over... I think you should go with Gisele."

"I can't-"

"You can." I knew it was unnecessary interruption, but it felt like a good idea. "Tomorrow, this is all over. We have a plan. A plan that can work." He looked at me and I could see something I hadn't seen in a long time. "Oh, Han..."

"It started back in Ecuador. Dom has always said that the way you drive is who you are, and I fell in love with the way you drove." Han looked at me. "And here I've gotten to know the way you are. Just you. Not you and your car, or you and Dom and Letty." His hand came up and brushed my cheek before resting there. "You are amazing."

"I'm not amazing," I said. "I'm just Perry. I mean, I just... I do feel something towards you. i can't identify what it is, but it is there. I'm sorry, but I can't. I just... I compared you to Jesse with just kissing you. What about when we... y'know."

"If it was just sex," he started, "you could say the word without feeling awkward, Perry. Like I do now." He chuckled and I couldn't help the giggle. He closed his eyes. "At least I get one night..."

"One night..." I whispered back. "Just one..." I felt some coil up inside me, something that really didn't want to leave Han. I wrapped my arms around his neck, resting my head on his chest. I closed my eyes as he shifted to wrap an arm around me. I snuggled closer, almost regretting that I was going to leave him. But it was for Julianna and Charlie.

He fell asleep quickly, and I fell soon after, but not before seeing Gisele stare at our forms in a mixture of jealousy and sadness.