Hii, All through school today I was thinking about this chapter and I'm glad to say I almost finished it

Hii, All through school today I was thinking about this chapter and I'm glad to say I almost finished it! So a little fix here and there and I'm here I am ready with the next Chapter.

In this chapter there are going to be more explanations about Bella and Edwards past.
I hope that resolves a lot of your questions. Though if you have questions don't hold them in, just ask!

Disclaimer: I don't Own Twilight or it's character, I do own the orphanage and the characters I made up : ) Btw you don't own twilight either so don't laugh at me Kay :)

Chapter 6: Stop with Running, It's time to stand still

BPOV

I was happy to be here in his arms, he was comforting me through this all. I was still upset about what happened with Jacob, but not so bad that I had to cry all night long. I looked up to Edward and saw he was deep in his thoughts. I put my hand on his cheek and he looked down, I smiled and he smiled back at me, but it wasn't the smile I had seen through the two months he had been here. It was a real smile, a crooked one. It looked absolutely dazzling. I was about to ask him something, but he made me forget. I frowned, what was I going to ask? I beat up my mind to figure out what I wanted to ask. I think I looked kind of stupid sitting there and just frowning at nothing.

'Bella? What's wrong?' concern coloured his tone. I looked up and everything came back.

'No, nothings wrong. You just dazzled me and I forgot what I was about to ask, but I got it again.' I stated simply. He just laughed, I felt his chest vibrate while he laughed. After a while he contained his laughing and looked at me again.

'What where you going to ask?' He cocked his head to the side, and smiled again. No Bella don't look, you'll forget again, DON'T LOOK! I mentally screamed at myself.

'Um, what you where thinking about, you looked deep in thought.' His smile faded and just as he was about to say something, rain plummeted from the sky. I screamed and jumped up, but I fell over as soon as my feet hit the ground. Luckily for me Edward caught me and took my hand while running back toward the school. When we came to the parking lot and looked at the big clock above the main building it was already half past midnight. The bus had already left and we where soaking wet. Edward looked at me with an apologetic face.

'Don't worry. I'm sure someone can take us home, I hope.' We looked around the parking lot and saw someone coming our way with an umbrella. When the person came closer I saw it was Carlisle. He smiled and beckoned us over to a car. It was a sleek black Mercedes. We climbed in, I was scared to make the interior wet. Carlisle got in the car and handed us each a towel.

'You gave us quit a worry when you didn't come from the bus and the other hadn't seen you since you left after you performance!' Carlisle informed us. Edward moved closer to me, because he noticed I was shivering.

'It's my fault, Carlisle, I took her out when I was done and we didn't notice the time until it started raining. It won't happen again. I promise!' Carlisle chuckled, and looked at us through the rear view mirror.

'Don't worry, just when you get home take a hot shower so you don't get a cold.' I snuggled closer to Edward to get warm. I felt his hot breath on my neck and ear. It gave me more chills but this time of pleasure and not from the cold. He laughed a little when he noticed. He brought his mouth to my ear.

'I got to tell you something when we get to our room. Something I need you to know.' I looked up curiously but he just shook his head, which meant I had to wait until we got to our room. We sat in silence through the car ride home.

When we came in the entrance hall, we where engulfed in hugs from different people. First Esme, then my brother, followed by Alice, Rose and Emmett. The same went for Edward. They started asking all sorts of questions, but I was tired and cold and just wanted to get up to my room. I grabbed Edwards hand tight and pulled him up the stairs without a word to the others. Before we hit the first landing I turned around and looked to see them all stunned and speechless.

'Can you keep you questions till tomorrow? Edward and I need some time alone, to talk and sort some things out!' With that I turned back around, Edward smiled again and squeezed my hand a little and pulled me up to our room. When we came to the room it looked light and happy, not the same glum look it had had for the past two months. I turned toward Edward and saw he had worked off his shirt his body looked glorious in the little light we had in the room. His abs where perfect and I had a strong desire to run my hands up his chest. I quickly turned around and blushed a dark cherry red.

'Bella, you can take a shower first if you want!' He suggested, I turned around still blushing and looked at the ground.

'But then you'll get the chance to get sick!' I didn't want him to get sick because of me.

'Just go in the shower with me,' My eyes got wide as I thought about what I had just said.

'Um, we could just um, keep our underwear or something' I stuttered. I felt his hand under my chin and I looked up at him, still blushing like mad. He smiled lightly and then pulled me close.

'You don't have to be embarrassed you know, lets just get in the shower, or else it won't do anything.' He steered me into the bathroom and turned around while I got out of my dress and attached the straps to my bra. I turned around and saw that he had already put the shower on and was feeling the water. I got a million butterflies in my stomach as I climbed in the shower with him following me. I leaned against the wall and let the water just fall. I closed my eyes and just stood there, until I felt his hands at my side pulling me from the wall. His eyes where burning with a the love in his body. All my breath left me as I stared at him, he was perfect in every way, until I noticed the several vertical scars on his arms and just one that went horizontal. My eyes widened, I took his arm in my hand and traced the lined that where nearly invisible. I felt his eyes burn into mine, gauging my reaction. I think he was waiting for me to leave. I wasn't planning to though. I looked at him asking him to explain. I was about to ask him when he placed a finger on my lips. The water just pouring on to us.

'I explain after the shower. I promise I'll tell you everything.!' I nodded and leaned against his chest, but he pulled my face upward again and before I could register what was happening he was kissing me. I kissed his back immediately. Our lips moved in sync with each other, it was perfect. We didn't deepen the kiss we just kissed, gasping for air once in a while. After what seemed an eternity we got out and dressed. I got Jasper t-shirt out of the drawer and put it on, it was way to big for me but I liked to sleep in it, it made me feel safe. I pulled on some shorts and sat on my bed waiting for Edward. He came out wearing basketball shorts and a shirt. He came over to my bed and sat down next to me. I waited for him to start talking, when he didn't I looked at him and he was staring at his arms. I sat cross-legged against my head board and was about to ask if he wanted to talk or if he wanted to wait, when he surprised me and put his head in my lap and looked up at me, his face showing pure sadness. He sighed and closed his eyes. I drew my hands through his hair waiting patiently.

'Emmett and me where attending an all arts boarding school, me for piano he for the sports program they gave there. It was in Chicago, so we only went home for breaks, so we didn't saw our parents a lot. November came and our school was organizing a great festival. My parents came to Chicago for the month because they didn't want to miss any of our performances. I would perform a solo and they didn't want to miss it because they almost never heard me on the piano. I had called them earlier that day and made them promise they wouldn't be late. The whole day I perfected anything that could be perfected and when I had an half hour before I had to go on my parents still weren't there. I called them again and my mother picked up, they where still driving. She said they would be a little late because of traffic. I was a little angry, they knew how traffic was and they still where running late. I hung up without saying another word not even saying I loved them. I walked up on stage and halfway through my play they still hadn't shown up. I was so angry they promised me, and they just lied. When I was done I went to the reception hall and saw my brother there with Rose, a police officer standing next to them. They looked grim and my anger faded instantly. They then told me my parents where speeding to get there on time, but somewhere along the highway there was some drunk driver who was driving on the wrong side of the road without it's lights on. My father saw him to late and hit him head on. They where dead on impact. It was my fault they where rushing, so I blamed myself. When we got home I locked myself up in my room and almost never came out not even to eat. Rose came daily with something to eat, but most of the times I let it on the table in my room. One day I got an angry fit and smashed a glass against the wall I cut myself without knowing and it didn't even hurt. I just took the glass from my arm and… well I guess you would know what I did. I thought if I did it I would come back to reality and wake up in my room or in my dorm and see my parents alive. But they didn't. I kept blaming myself although Emmett and Rose kept saying it was the drunk drivers fault. One day I was sick of it. I came into my room thinking everyone was gone and I was home alone, I slammed the door shut. I picked up the glass shard and cut my wrist with it but before I could get to deep Rose came barging in and as soon as she saw what I was doing she slapped my hand and I dropped the shard. I had never seen her crying so much. She stayed with me until Emmett got back, together they brought me to the hospital and ever since they didn't let me out of they're sight. Then we came here and I thought I would just be miserable until you said you would be there to listen. I felt hope and then Jacob came and I felt like dieing all over again. But you saved me again, just in time.' I was shocked, tears stained both of our faces. I looked at him, glad he shared that with me. He leaned up on his elbows and pecked me softly on the lips. I smiled slightly and the sighed and closed my eyes. I guess now it was my turn to tell my story, but I was ready to tell someone other that Alice or Jasper. I took a deep breath and looked at Edward again.

'When I was 2 years old my father died in a shooting, he was a police officer. One year later my mother remarried to Phil he was a nice man but he also had a song who was 16 years old. When I was 4 going on 5 my mother and Phil went on a trip and the neighbours looked after us. But one day they left Andrew to take care of me. Jasper was away to a birthday party. I was just in my room playing when Andrew came in. I wasn't really used to anyone in my room beside Jasper and my mother. He picked me up and brought me to his room, I said I didn't want to but he was to strong, what do you expect a 4 year old up against a 16 year old. He closed his door and then he sexually abused me. After everything he put me back in my room. I was hurting everywhere. I pulled myself on my bed, afraid he would come back. When the door opened I was afraid and screamed a little, but my covers where lifted by Jasper. At first I was scared to death of my own brother but he looked horrified at how I looked. He took me in his arms and cradled me to his chest. He was just one year older then me but very mature. He knew something was wrong and took me to our neighbours. Mr Calyx was a doctor. He looked me over and knew immediately what had happened. He asked me who did it and it could only answer his name before I started sobbing again. They brought me to the hospital and Andrew was off to some sort of institution. Later that night we heard that the plane that my mother was on had crashed and there where no survivors. So me and my brother where taken here. I have lived here ever since. I've healed quite a bit but I've always shied away from boys. Even with Jacob it took a long time before I trusted him. With you it was like I knew from the moment I saw you, you wouldn't do something like that to me.'

Edward was sitting up now and looking sad. He pulled me close and I felt the tears starting to fall again. I was glad I told him everything now and now we didn't have any secrets for each other. I felt happy for the first time in my life I was really where I wanted to be. Just here in Edwards arms.

Wheehw this was the second longest chapter that I wrote. I'm Happy finally their stories are online. But don't think they have their happy ending now. I know what I want for the ending. I'm not going to tell but it isn't a Happy ending, Though I'm going to make a sequel where everything becomes happy again

But I'm getting way ahead of myself!

For now just REVIEW BABY!

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