Chapter Ten: Muffled love words.
I walked towards my bed and Jasper scooted over to make me some room.
"Thanks" I said. I lay down, making the bed slightly squeak due to the weight of two vampires.
Jasper chuckled, "Are you gaining weight Isabella?"
I turned to face him and glared. "Funny Jasper, real funny. So you want to tell me why you're in my house laying on my bed, without my permission?"
"I heard your conversation back at the house; I came here to see if you're okay." Even though jasper can be a cocky bastard, he is still very caring and sweet.
I smiled at him, "I've had better days, but I'm actually okay."
"Do you want to talk about it?"
"This better not be a charade Jasper, you better actually care about how I am." I joked with him.
"If you tap into my emotions you'll know how I actually feel."
I took his advice and tapped into his emotions. At first I felt concern and anger, which indicated that he actually did care how I felt, but then I felt two other things. They weren't nearly as prominent as the concern and anger; it was almost as if he was trying to push them away. They were barely there that I couldn't even feel them.
"Jasper, project all your feelings. There are two that I can't feel and I'm curious to what they are."
He looked at me and I could tell he was having an internal battle. I waited a few seconds until he locked eyes with me and smiled sheepishly. All of a sudden I felt a surge of love and desire go through me. It was so powerful that I had to stop using Jaspers power otherwise I would jump his bones right then and there. I kept staring at him, mouth hanging open, eyes wide and in complete disbelief.
"Jasper I..."
"Bella, it's okay if you don't feel the same way, I completely understand. I just wanted you to know how I felt." He tried explaining but I knew he found this conversation awkward.
"You say felt, like you don't feel like this anymore." I smiled at him.
The corners of his mouth started twitching, like he was trying hard not to smile.
"You have a point. Okay let me rephrase that then; I just wanted you to know how I feel."
I smiled and moved closer to Jasper. He moved to lay on his back and pulled me as close as possible to him so I could rest my head on his chest while he held me close.
"Jasper?"
"Hmmm?" I looked up at him and saw his eyes closed. Even without his power I could tell he felt content and happy.
"Does anyone else know about, well, us?" I asked him.
"I doubt it, I'm guessing they have their suspicions but no definite answer, well except for Alice if she's had any visions of us."
Alice! How could I forget about Alice! She would know for sure, and she will be angry with me. Oh my god I'm in so much shit! How could I do this to her, they were married for goodness sake, and now he's moved on to his ex-wife's best friend, who does that!
"Bella, calm down. Alice won't care, if anything she'll be really happy for us." Jasper said, trying to reassure me.
"How the hell do you know that? She probably hates me by now. Shit! Jasper how could we have been so stupid and selfish?"
"Falling in love is a pretty selfish act if you ask me."
"Jasper, I didn't ask you but elaborate please." I sat up, crossing my legs waiting for his answer.
"Well it isn't always a selfish act, but we can't choose who we fall in love with. It just happens, and because we feel so strongly for the other person we don't really care how it affects anyone else around us. Which can lead to heartbreak for someone who had strong feelings for you, or it could hurt a parent because they don't trust that person. There are a lot of possibilities, and a lot of the time someone will get hurt from it. It could be only minor or it could be heartbreak, but as I said love can be a pretty selfish thing. Did I make sense there?"
I was staring at him through his whole speech, mesmerized by the way his mouth moved. Get a grip Bella, your acting like a fool!
I shook my head and said, "I wouldn't have a clue, I stopped listening after you said who we fall in love with." He chuckled and muttered something like silly Bella.
"Well, maybe we should speak to Alice then, just to make sure she's okay with it." I suggested.
"If that's what you want then lets go." Jasper got off the bed and went to the window, so that's how he got in. I thought to myself.
"Jasper, wait a sec."
He turned around and smiled at me. I'm never going to get used to that. I smiled back at him and in a split second my legs were wrapped around his waist and my arms around his neck. He looked stunned but quickly recovered.
"What's all this about Mi Amor?" He asked me.
"Just a little thank you." I whispered to him.
I moved forward so my lips were about to touch his, but they didn't. I slightly breathed over his lips, making him fidget slightly, causing him to lose patience very quickly. I moved my lips to the lobe of his ear and whispered;
"Thank you." I jumped off him and made my way towards the window. I turned around and he was still standing in the same position, looking extremely stunned.
I giggled. "Jasper, c'mon it'd be nice to get back to the Cullen's house before the sun comes up."
He slowly turned around and glared at me; "You're such a tease. I will get you back for this." He promised me.
"Oh honey no you won't. You can't resist this." I joked with him, gesturing towards my body. He smirked and walked towards me. He lowered his head so he was positioned right next to my ear;
"I will get you, and I won't have to use my powers either." He bit me ear lobe and then proceeded to jump out the window. Oh shit. I thought to myself, I am definitely screwed.
We set of running through the forest; the Cullen's house as our destination. While running, dodging trees and jumping over rocks and such, the only thing that would occupy my mind for more than a mere second was the fact that Jasper loved me. How can he love me when he hasn't been in my life for that long? I never knew him as well as I do now when I was a human, and then seventeen years down the track and he's back in my life proclaiming his love for me. As excited as I am, I'm a little shocked, well a little is a massive understatement I'm extremely shocked.
I quickly dodged a tree branch and continued with my little 'discussion' within my own head.
I sighed. This has to be a joke, this cannot be real. We barely know each other and we're supposedly in love? Yeah my ass we are. I slowed down and took a different turn to what Jasper had taken. I pushed myself as fast as I could and in mere seconds was at my destination. What lay before me was of a beautiful river bank. The water was flowing slowly and the bushes and trees were rustling. I sat down on a nearby rock and started thinking about Jasper and myself. Was it all a joke, or was it actually real? He's an empath so I can't be sure if the emotions he was projecting were his own or he was just manipulating mine.
I was so deep in thought that I didn't hear him come up behind me.
"Bella, what's wrong?' concern lacing his words, I quickly blocked my powers so he wouldn't know what I was feeling, why I did that I do not know.
"Jasper, is this all a joke? Please tell me if it is because I can't go through another... another... heartbreak." I managed to get out, it's amazing how much I feel for this vampire, amazing how he makes me feel so; human.
"Is what a joke? Bella you're not making any sense."
I turned my head to look at him; he saw the hurt and sadness in my eyes and quickly engulfed me in a hug.
I hugged him back and hid my face in his chest.
"Issshh you louff fooo mmmhhhh aaahh zokkeeehh?"
He chuckled at my incoherent sentence, "Bella, what the hell did you just say?"
I removed my head from his chest, "Sorry, I said is your love for me a joke?"
He frowned and shook his head, like he was in disbelief.
"You're kidding me right? You don't believe me? That's harsh Bella, I'm nothing like Edward, and I would never hurt you or lie about something I feel so strongly about. I can't believe you don't trust me Bella."
"Jasper, do you really, really, really love me?"
"Yes, Bella I really, really, really love you." He said, smiling at me.
I guess that's the convincing I need. I quickly gave him a chaste kiss on the lips to which he smiled even wider.
"Thank you Jasper, I'm sorry I ever doubted you."
"It's fine, I get that a lot." He said chuckling. He took hold of my hand and we started running to the Cullen's House. Five minutes later and we were walking up the porch and walking into the house, still hand in hand. We walked into the lounge room and stopped in our tracks. Their still here! Jasper thought. I smirked and thought to Jasper, It's okay, this could turn very interesting. He copied my smirk and we proceeded to sit down on a love seat that was empty. Basically everyone's faces were of confusion except for Alice, of course she would know by now I'm just shocked that she's okay with this 'arrangement'.
"So, Jasper, Bella care to tell us what's going on?" Alice smirked, stupid evil little pixie knows how to get straight to the point.
I nudged Jasper, encouraging him to start, but instead he nudged me right back which started our little nudge wars. Emmett started laughing because I was hitting Jasper much harder than he was hitting me. I ended up nudging so hard that he nearly fell off the chair, which lead to my victory and him having to explain our scenario.
"Well most of you are curious to mine and Bella's, uhmm well 'relationship'," He stated even using air quotations when saying relationship to which I nudged him in the ribs and thought to him you make it sound like a bad thing.
He chuckled and continued, "Well we care a lot about each other and our relationship has blossomed since our return, and well yeah we care heaps about each other..."
"And we are now seeing each other." I cut in, relieving Jasper of his awkward explanation.
At first everyone was still in their shocked state, but then they all finally realised what we had said and immediately started congratulating us. One by one everyone got up to hug us, well besides Edward and Tanya. When it was Alice's turn to hug me I whispered in her ear,
"Are you sure you are okay with this?"
"Bella are you stupid, of course I'm fine with this! Do you have any idea how happy I am for you two! Oh my god! Promise me that if you two get married then I can be the wedding planner, oh please, oh please, oh please!" I froze. Is this woman crazy? I stared at her, mouth hanging open, eyes as wide as saucers just watching her.
"Bella, Bella are you okay?" She asked me. I quickly composed myself and replied,
"You think way too far ahead Alice." And I left her embrace only to be scooped up by my teddy bear of a brother.
"Bella I'm so happy for you guys!" He exclaimed, booming with laughter.
I laughed along with him, "Thank you Emmett!"
After all the congratulations were said we sat back down and enjoyed each other's company until some of the family started getting bored and went up to their rooms until it was only four of us left.
Once everyone was out of the room he started.
"Do you not remember that he tried to kill you when you were human?" He growled at me.
"And do you not remember that you left me for another woman so your opinion doesn't concern me anymore?" I shot back.
"How stupid can you be? He can easily hurt you again; look what he has done since you've been in our lives. He's tried to kill you, he's ended his marriage with Alice and now he's with you? He can easily leave you too and then what will you do? Nothing, you will be all alone, just like you have been for the past seventeen years."
"Edward, I've tried being civilised with you and Tanya, I really have tried but you two just don't know how to stay out of someone else's business. Look if you haven't realised you broke my heart, you left me for someone else and now your back in my life trying to tell me what to do? Who do you think you are seriously, you have had a say in my life when we were together but you will never tell me what to do again."
"I'm just trying to look out for you."
Now I was pissed.
"How the hell are you trying to look out for me? Are you delusional? Stupid maybe? Did you hit your head really hard on another vampire so you've completely lost it? You're not trying to look out for me, what are you jealous?" I asked him.
"WHAT? Why would I be jealous? What is there to be jealous of?"
"Oh that your ex 'singer' has now moved on and doesn't want anything to do with you."
"If that's what you want to think then feel free Bella."
"Or is it the fact that I'm so much happier than I ever was compared to when I was with you?"
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Btw sorry for the late update, pretty full on school holidays which is like new to me rofl
I'm like doing something every day with my cousins that I'm staying with so it gets pretty tiring.
You guys as the readers and me the writer are pretty lucky that I've been at my house since Monday night so I've been able to write this and get it out, but unfortunately I'm not going to be able to put up another chapter until hmmmm *thinks* late next week, maybe the week after? When I'm back at my house for a day or two then I'll post another chapter (:
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P.s Its 12:21pm and i just got back from watching Twilight.
I have to admit it was pretty good, i enjoyed it (:
It kinda sucked how they cut out so much of the book and added little things in etc buh hey it had to happen
characters were good, of course no where near perfect like Alice being nearly as tall as Jasper, Rosalies mole etc buh all good (:
It was also funny at times when it wasnt supposed to be?
Question; Did anyone else laugh when Bella was being introduced to the Cullens at their home, and when she said hello to everyone Emmett waved at her with a knife?
I found that highlarious rofl
pity he didn't get much of a talking role, and what happened to that clip of him saying "she isnt one of us Edward?" did they cut that out or did i just tune out when he said that?
meh anyways this Authors note is extremely long so I'll end it here,
plus i have to wake up at 7 tomorrow morning and i'll probably fail my learners test because im so tired and out of it, meh
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