I know that cliffhanger stunk but no need to cry anymore the next chapter is here! Review please : )

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I jumped away from Jacob, pushing myself back so fast that I could feel myself falling off the bed and towards the floor. I closed my eyes waiting for my face to make contact with the ground but before I could I felt a pair of arms wrapping themselves around my waist which immediately sent an electric shock through my veins.

I opened my eyes back up slowly, the ground centimeters away from the tip of my nose. Very gently the set of arms lifted me back up onto my feet and once I was steady enough retracted themselves from my waist. I bit my lip guiltily already knowing who it was and when my eyes met the pained green ones I felt even worse.

My heartbeat was going a hundred miles an hour and I felt that my embarrassment was slowly starting to cause the tears to build up in my eyes. When I couldn't take the accusations Edward's eyes seemed to be yelling at me I turned back to Jacob who was looking just as embarrassed as I was.

"I should go" I whispered trying to fight back the threatening tears.

He nodded and smiled softly "I'll see you tomorrow then"

silence followed suite and I could hear Edward take in a sharp breath. I was shaking all over and I felt like crawling up under a rock. How could I manage to find a promising relationship but break another all in the same night? Only I could pull off something that big.

I turned back around and without meeting Edward's eyes again I hurried out slamming the door shut behind me. I took in a shaky breath allowing the tears to now roll freely down my cheeks. I walked down the hall wiping at my face again and again hoping that neither Jacob or Edward would follow me out, I couldn't handle either of them right now.

I noticed that when I was standing between the two of them just minutes ago that two totally different emotions were playing on both their faces.

Jacob, well he looked positively ecstatic that his lips even touched mine. Edward on the other hand looked upset, angered a little bit too. Like he had just taken a blow to the stomach but was trying to play it off as if it were no big deal. Remembering his face made me cry even harder, leave it to me to hurt someone that badly.

Alice wasn't in our room when I walked in and I feared the worst. That Edward had left dinner early to see if everything was okay with me only to find me kissing his new roommate.

I buried my soaking wet face into the mattress not even caring that I had no pillow to smuggle myself with. I pulled up the blanket over my face and for the first time in months I cried myself to sleep, the last being the night I broke up with Edward.

"Wake up sleepy head" A soft voice whispered into my ear. My eyes fluttered open and I groaned turning over and away from the much too perky face.

"Go away Alice" I mumbled shutting my eyes again

"I would but we have class so you need to get up" she was shaking me by the shoulder now almost pushing me off the bed completely. When I made no signs of getting up she sighed and I heard her light footsteps walk across the room. I thought she was going to leave me alone to wallow in my self pity for the day but she had clearly been observant last night and noted:

"Your eyes were all red and puffy last night, had you been crying?"

I slowly sat up unconsciously rubbing at my eyes making sure they weren't still wet. She was standing by the bathroom looking over at me frowning

"Bella what happened…?" she asked quietly afraid that one wrong word would push me over the edge again.

I took in a deep breath, one way or the other –whether it was from Edward or Jacob- she would find out there was no use in trying to hide it now

"Edward saw me kissing Jacob last night" I said slowly watching as her face got red that even redder and finally she combusted

"What?!" she shrieked, her panicked voice filling the space of the small room. I wanted to cover my ears but I couldn't, all the crying I had done last night left me with a headache and sore muscles.

"I hadn't meant for him to see but he did…" I trailed off feeling the tears coming up again for another round; Edward's face from last night was now permanently stamped on my brain.

"Bella do you have any idea what you just did?!" she yelled again storming up to my bed, her face still red. My lip trembled as I tried not to cry in front of her but she wasn't leaving until she got a response

"Yeah I completely embarrassed not only myself but Jacob too" I tasted the salt water of my tears and I started to wipe at my cheeks, how could I face either of them after this? How could I face the fact that I wasn't crying over my embarresment, I was crying over him.

"No, you have ruined any chance of you two getting back together!"

And just like that the tears seemed to dry. I looked up at her bewildered watching as her chest puffed in and out with each angered breath she took

"What?!" now it was my turn to be angry

"Oh please Bella…how come you can't see what I see?" her voice had quieted down to barely a whisper.

"Which is?" I questioned raising my eyebrows not angry anymore; no one could ever stay angry at Alice for long. She smiled sadly and sat down next to my on the bed putting a comforting hand on my knee

"He still loves you Bella, I don't think he's ever stopped…" she looked away from my baffled expression, shaking her head. It looked like her eyes were somewhere else, like she was looking into the future or maybe even the past.

"You don't know that" I whispered looking down at her hand.

"I do, I'm his sister I should know these things" she laughed lightly like it was obvious for me to know that. She sat up then smacking my leg

"Now get ready we can't be late our first day, besides I'm hungry and I'm sure everyone's waiting for us down in the lunch hall" I gulped, the word everyone sticking out like a sore thumb.

I got up slowly grabbing my folded towel from my suitcase, I sighed knowing I would half to unpack sometime. I took one of the longest showers in the history of showers. The hot water relaxed every muscle in my body and I whished that I could stay in there forever. Away from the world and the people in it, especially the ones I was close too.

I couldn't get Alice's words out of my head; they seemed to be sticking to me like glue even after I was dressed and ready to go they followed. Echoing off in my head with each step I took toward the lunchroom. Part of me wanted to believe she was wrong but she stood strongly behind what she said that much I could tell. The other half of me was having doubts. If she was right and he still did love me then why hadn't he acted upon those feelings? Why in the first place had he suggested a friendship? Why hadn't he kissed me after the numerous amounts of times when he had the chance? But then again why hadn't I?

My heart was pounding as we entered the lunchroom. I had to cross my arms over my chest so Alice wouldn't see that they were shaking. She weaved through the traffic of the other hungry students and I followed close on her heels wanting to turn around when I noticed his bronze hair catching the sunlight from the windows. He was turned away from us both which gave me a perfect opportunity to run like hell but I didn't. I would have to face him sometime why couldn't it be today?

"Hey Alice, Bella" Rosalie smiled patting the seats next to her for us to sit. I did so gratefully afraid for a minute my legs wouldn't be able to hold out from underneath me.

I tried not to look over at him but after a minute of looking everywhere else around the room I finally let my eyes settle on his face. He was trying not to look at me either; instead he was looking across the table over at Emmett and Jasper who were picking their way through their own plates of food. I took in a breath turning my face just as his eyes met mine.

"So Bella where did you go last night, we got kind of worried when you never returned from the bathroom?" Rosalie asked from next to me. I bit my lip my eyes immediately looking over toward Edward again. He was looking down at the table, staring at nothing really. His shoulders had stiffened and his fingers curled into fists.

"Oh I just went back to the dorms, I was really tired last night" I replied in a raspy voice, my words wavering as I tried to keep my emotions under control.

"Sure looked it, you barely said a word during dinner" Jasper noted looking up at me from his seat at the end of the table.

"Yeah that and you all seemed to be enjoying yourselves" I kept my eyes on Edward hoping he caught my double meaning, well he may have not been enjoying his time with Tanya but she sure was. He looked up at me then just like I had predicated, that hardened mask was back and it caught me a little off guard.

"Really I could say the same about you" he snapped back bitterly. Everyone but Alice shot us questioning looks

"Edward…" she hissed glaring at him, he shrugged and went back to watching Emmett eat. I bit down on my bottom lip and pushed myself up out of my seat

"I'm going to get to class" I mumbled before I stalked off, fighting the tears the whole way.

Okay so I know Bella is being a little bit too emotional in this chapter but you have to put in to consideration that she still does in fact love Edward, she's just having her doubts because at first she thought he hadn't felt the same way. But this chapter was sort of her waking up to the world around her and what got her so upset was she knew how it hurt Edward and now she knows -just by the way he's acting about all this- that he still in fact does love her.