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I walked down the restaurants front steps trying to get as far enough away until it was considered being off the property. I dropped my head back looking up at all the stars while I took in a deep breath. I wasn't so angry anymore, I actually felt a little guilty for snapping at him like that. Just the look on his face could really make you feel sorry for the guy.
I heard the door opening up behind me and then footsteps growing louder as they closed in on me. I turned around smiling figuring it was Jacob who had come to whisk my away from all the crap going on back inside but my face fell when I saw that it was Edward. He was standing a few feet away from me running a hand through his hair looking like he was finding the words to say to me.
"What do you want?" I asked bitterly, breaking the silence. Edward met my eyes and they still looked upset and pained. Just staring over at him gave me that same feeling; it was like we were connected on some type of emotional level and what he felt I felt just as strongly.
"I'm sorry…" he started, his voice was very quiet but his words were sincere
"For being rude and insensitive not only to Jacob but to you I- I'm just sorry for everything" I smiled weakly, each word he said falling in to place in my mind.
"It's okay…" he seemed to smile at that and he let out a long breath, one that he had probably been holding.
"I should apologize too…" he raised his eyebrows curious as to what I could possibly be apologizing for.
"For calling Tanya your girlfriend, I feel bad if that messed things up between the two of you".
He chuckled, it was like music to my ears and I laughed along with him. We were finally starting to make a breakthrough but when our laughter died down the awkwardness and confusion of this night seemed to follow.
"Look, I know we haven't exactly been on the best terms lately but I want to change all that, I don't want to lose your friendship over something stupid like this again" I sighed stepping forward closing the gap between us.
After getting all that said and done it was easier to be close to Edward again, he seemed to sense the same thing too and without explanation he grabbed onto my hand and pulled me into a hug. I wrapped my arms around his back holding him tightly against me. Our bodies seemed to fit perfectly together and I missed this about us. The closeness without the awkwardness, it felt…right.
We stood like that for a few minutes, before he finally said something
"We should probably get back inside" his breath hit the top of my head and I pulled back only to nod. We broke apart, he had his hands already in his front pockets and I had my arms crossed over my chest, we were walking so close though that our shoulders kept touching with each step and each time it was like a little electrical shock.
Going back inside wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. Edward had apologized, Jacob didn't even seem phased by his words and the rest of them were all talking like nothing had happened. The only thing that hadn't changed was the way Tanya looked at Edward.
Throughout dinner I talked to everyone, Edward even made a few attempts to talk to Jacob too and in return I tried my best to have a polite conversation with Tanya, which I was finding extremely hard. She was so chatty that I barely got a word in edgewise; I didn't know how Edward could deal with her without wanting to ring her little neck. I also felt bad for Rosalie who had to live with the mess, if I were her I would demand to be reassigned to a new room.
On our way back to the Dorms we had all decided we should go and hang out in Edward and Jacob's room, since it was the cleanest out of them all. Which wasn't at all surprising since Edward was pretty tidy, I mean just looking back on the day I went up to his room I remembered it was so spotless.
Their room was big enough to fit everyone inside –even Emmett- without feeling suffocated. I sat down on Jacob's bed watching as Tanya walked around examining Edward's side of the room. He had brought a lot of his cds from back home and she was slowly running a finger over the shelved cases. Edward sat down on his own bed facing me and ignoring her completely. I smiled over at him and he brought out my favorite smile, the one I hadn't seen in weeks. My heart sunk at knowing that he could be giving that same grin to Tanya, for some reason I felt possessive over it, like it was mine and mine alone.
"Edward this is beautiful" she gasped looking down at something on his desk. He got up off his bed walking over to see what she was fussing about. I looked on too furrowing my eyebrows as I tried to get a good look at whatever she was gawking at from my position on the bed. Finally I was able to see it as she lifted up the small velvet box, inside was a ring, my ring.
"You still have that?" I asked astonished, watching as it caught the lamp's light. He hadn't made an attempt to snatch the ring away from Tanya who was now gazing at it admiringly
he only shrugged "Well I couldn't exactly return it; it had already been worn" I nodded turning away from his face and looking back at the ring. I hadn't seen it in what felt like ages and it was just as beautiful as I remembered.
"Who's was it?" she asked making my heart flutter. Edward had opened his mouth to answer but I cut in
"No one of importance" I blurted out even though my mind was screaming, it was mine, mine, mine and no one else's.
She gave me a questioning look but then her greedy eyes fell back on the small silver band. Edward's mouth snapped back shut and he wouldn't meet my eyes, instead he was staring out the window at nothing. I looked away from him too, down at the finger that once wore that ring.
"Well it's getting late, Bella are you ready to go?" Alice asked as she pulled away from Jasper's arms. I blushed a little forgetting that we had an audience, even Jacob was looking at me curiously as to what just happened between me and Edward.
I got up from the bed not really wanting to go to sleep because I knew when I woke up it would be my birthday and I was in no mood for celebration. I gave Jacob a quick kiss on the cheek and then said my goodbyes to everyone else, noticing that Rosalie and Emmett had snuck out without me knowing. When I said bye to Edward his eyes never left the window and he only nodded in acknowledgment.
"What was that?" Alice hissed once we were back in our room
"What was what?" I asked innocently sitting down on my bed
"Why couldn't you just say it used to be your ring?"
"Because I didn't think it was that important, besides I don't want Jacob to think that he'll have some type of competition if he finds out me and Edward used to date"
"What competition? Edward is the one for you and you know it"
"I'm not so sure about that, who knows maybe Tanya will own that ring one day" That got Alice mad
"Oh so help me god if I see that band on her skinny little finger I will chop it off myself!" she fumed jumping into her bed.
I laughed rolling over on to my back sighing as I closed my eyes. I wasn't sure what Edward though about Tanya to be honest, whether he looked at her as another friend or something more I couldn't tell. Sometimes Edward had the gift of hiding his true feelings but tonight he let them break out. Especially when I had said that the ring's previous owner was no one important. Again he looked upset and I couldn't help but note that he got that same expression on his face like Alice had on earlier today, like he was looking into the past but hoping for the future.
"Happy Birthday Bella!" Alice screamed into my ear making me jump up out of my bed.
"What the-"I wanted to say something bad but I couldn't do it, especially when my eyes landed on the cupcake she was holding in the palms of her hand.
"Alice I thought I said-"
"No parties" she cut in holding the cupcake up to my face
"I didn't mention food of any kind?" I was sure I had
"Nope" she smiled pushing it under my nose. I rolled my eyes pushing her hand and the cupcake away
"I need to get ready for class" she pouted but set the cupcake down on my bedside table
"You can save it for later, I'll be down in the lunch hall if you want to meet us" I shook my head even though she hadn't seen it. I would save all the happy birthday cheer until I was more awake.
I completely skipped breakfast that morning and instead settled on the cupcake to at least fill my stomach. I was a little surprised to see James waiting down in the lobby, especially since he was waiting for me.
He walked me to English just like the morning before.
"What's the matter with you this morning?" he asked noticing my sour expression
"It's nothing" I shrugged slowing my pace as we neared the building
"No one would wear that kind of face if it was just nothing" I smiled but then frowned
"It's my birthday and already my roommate is making a big deal about it"
"You don't like birthdays?" he looked a little shocked that I couldn't possibly like my birthday
"It's not the birthday it's just the attention I get from it"
"Ah" he nodded as I cleared things up for him
"You like to stay out of the limelight?" he guessed holding the door open for me.
I nodded walking past him and up to the classroom door. He grabbed on to my hand spinning me around to face him before I could walk away. My eyes went wide and when he saw what he was doing he dropped it immediately but kept his composure
"So why does a beautiful girl like you hate the attention?" he smiled and I could feel my cheeks turning red
"Because with attention you have to expect the repercussions"
He pondered my response for a moment before a brilliant smile crossed his lips "Yeah I suppose your right" he winked and then stepped around me to walk into class.
When I got back to our room I groaned seeing that everyone was there to surprise me. Everyone but Tanya, Jacob and Edward. I didn't care so much about Tanya but I had at least figured the other two would be there.
"Happy Birthday!" they all cheered together loudly. I smiled but shot a dirty look Alice's way. She laughed it off and ran up to give me a hug. When I pulled away I looked down at her
"Where's Jacob and Edward?"
"Jacob just called and said he couldn't make it, for whatever reason I don't know but last time I checked I think Edward was still in the music room" I nodded feeling a little disappointed that Jacob couldn't make it.
Just as I was about to sit down on my bed and try to enjoy all the birthday attention Alice came up with the brilliant idea for me to go find Edward, I had a feeling she chose me because she was trying to hurry along this supposed 'fate' idea of hers but we were friends that was it. I gladly accepted wanting to get out of the room and away from all the birthday stuff.
I knew exactly where the music room was because on my first day it was one of the buildings I accidentally walked in to when I got lost. It wasn't really that far from our dorms and in less than five minutes I was already walking down the empty halls.
All of the teachers and students had gone home and I knew that's why Edward had stayed late. He always wanted to be alone when writing compositions or just playing the piano because I guess it gave him peace of mind, a way to get lost into whatever melody he was creating.
I got to the last door in the hall. Already I could hear the muffled sound of fingers striking the piano keys and then the music that followed. I smiled to myself opening up the door a crack to see how Edward really was when he played alone. His back was turned to me but I could see how quickly and expertly his finger flew against the ivory keys. I didn't know what he was playing at first because it sounded like something new but when I listened in closer I could pick out those key notes. It was my song, the one he wrote for me when we first started seeing each other but this time it was slower, haunting in a way too.
Each key he struck was like another blow to the chest. I didn't need words to know the reasoning behind the change of the song. It was how the breakup had affected him and how he was feeling now, I could see it in the way he played that it hurt him how our relationship was now, I thought he was at least happy we were friends but I now realized he wanted more. When I first had heard it; it was so light and beautiful but now it was slow, like it was agonizing for him to play it.
I could feel the tears building up in my eyes and I shut the door behind me. Knowing he would find his way over to my dorm eventually.
