Opposites Attract Alternate Chapter 22 Spring Break 3

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"I can't believe I agreed to go on a date with him" I told Jake as we were lounging in bed playing cards.

"Well it can't be that bad I mean you did say that you were in love with him." Jake replied with a smirk on his face.

"That's not the point if I love him or not the point is that I'm terrified of him. When we are hanging out and we're like buddies it's so comfortable but then he gets that look in his eye and it freaks me out. I feel like I'm a lamb waiting for the lion to pounce and kill me." I could always tell Jake how I was feeling.

"Yeah I have seen the way he looks at you but I think it's more loving and curious than murder Bells."

"I know he won't physically hurt me but I'm terrified of getting my heart broken." I hid my face in my hands because I knew I was blushing.

"Bella would you just relax and have fun with life. Who knows maybe you guys will fall in love and live happily ever after." Jake was trying to calm me but the thought of us living happily ever after scared me even more.

Knock Knock Knock

"Come In" I replied to the knock at the door.

Alice opened the door and bounced on the bed to join Jake and I. We went over the stuff for the video and she thanked me over and over again for putting up with Edward and agreeing to go on a date with him. She said she owed me big time. I couldn't tell her that I was internally fighting with myself weather this was a good idea or a bad one.

"I just don't think it is such a great idea. I just broke up with Mike and well you know how Edward is." I said looking at Alice who's face fell into a frown.

"Oh Bella but think about what could be if you guys fall in love and live happily ever after. We could be real sisters and our kids could grow up together and they would be best friends." Now she was smiling again off in her own world where fairy tales and pixie dust fixed everything.

I sighed to myself and tried to consider the thought of us dating and actually having a relationship. How long would he wait to have sex with me? If I wasn't ready, how long would it be before he cheated? What if we did have sex and I wasn't any good at it? Would he leave me for someone else? There were just too many ifs and woulds and how longs for me to think of right now. I shook my head and joined in the conversation of the plans for the video.

Alice had secured someone from the video and media classes to help out and she found a girl who was going to do hair and make-up. I was a little nervous about wearing the outfits and dancing but we were going to practice all week. We all went to bed and were planning on starting to practice in the morning after breakfast.

I woke up the next morning and got in the shower. Everyone was still asleep and Jake was snoring loudly on my bed. No wonder I couldn't sleep. I got dressed in some shorts and a t-shirt, I was going to be comfortable if I was going to have to be tortured for the next week. I was putting the cream on my leg when Edward came down in shorts and a t-shirt. He looked half dead. His eyes shot up when he saw me and I instantly felt nervous. He was watching me rub my leg and I could feel my cheeks burning. I couldn't look at him I was too nervous.

It was so much more comfortable to be around him when I thought I didn't have a chance. But now that I knew he wanted to go on a date with me I was freaking out and acting like a nervous teenager. I was almost 19 I needed to get a grip. He smiled at me.

"Morning" He said through a groggy sleepy voice. It was so sexy. God Bella get a grip of yourself. It's just Edward.

"Uh-hi morning." I said looking down at my leg and putting the cap on the cream. I looked up and he was gone. I could hear him in the kitchen. I was planning on getting some coffee when I was done with my leg but now I was scared to go into the kitchen and be ALONE with him. So I sat there like a coward until he came back and sat on the couch next to me. He was holding 2 cups of coffee and he handed me one.

"Cream and Sugar right?" He asked. How did he know I took cream and sugar? This was getting freaky.

"Um-yeah thanks…. How did you know?" I asked carefully taking the cup and sipping it slowly. I looked up at him through my lashes not wanting to stare straight at him. He had a small smile on his face. He shrugged his shoulders in response and continued to sip his coffee.

"Would you like some French toast?" He asked while he glanced at me sideways tilting his head a little in my direction.

"I guess, why are you going to make it?" I didn't think he knew how to cook anything.

"I was going make some for everyone but it looks like they are going to be a while. So I guess it's just you and I." He smirked a little and looked away from me.

"Why? Where is everyone?" I asked feeling panicked like I was set up.

"Well there are some rather interesting noises coming from Alice and Emmett's rooms and Jake snoring could shake the house. It looks like we are the only ones up. So do you want some French toast or do you want to make something?" He sounded irritated at the end like he was getting annoyed with me.

Well if Edward wanted to make breakfast then I was certainly not going to stop him. At least it would give him something to do so I wouldn't have to be alone with him. But I didn't want him to be mad at me. I liked Edward he was a nice guy and I didn't want to lose his friendship if this dating thing didn't work out. So I was going to have to get over my fears and be his friend again.

"Yeah I would like some French toast. Did you want me to help or keep you company?" God why did I just say that? I wanted to get away from him and here I was offering to follow him around the house.

"No you don't' have to help I think I can handle it but you can sit at the counter and keep me company if you want." He slowly got up and offered me his hand. I forgot that I was still a little wobbly from my leg.

I reached for his hand and got up slowly. I wobbled a bit on my leg and he held my elbow to steady me. I looked up into his green eyes and my heart stopped. I couldn't breathe. My head was spinning and my heart wasn't moving. I felt like the room was spinning around us so fast and the only thing that was still in front of me was Edward's face and his green eyes penetrating my soul. He must have noticed I was not myself. He handed me his coffee mug and I am not sure how I did it but I took it. The next thing I knew he wrapped his hands around my lower back and squeezed me to him. This was a weird hug. When I caught a breath the room was moving and I was up higher in the air. I looked around and we were moving but it didn't feel like we were moving. I was too confused by our closeness. I looked down at him and he was smiling up at me.

He set me down on one of the stools in the kitchen and slowly stood up in front of me. He lightly grabbed my now fixed broken leg and set it on the stool next to me. I set our coffee cups down and he went to the other side of the counter and began to get the food ready. I was still in a state of shock. I could still feel the tingling sparks all over my body from where it was pressed against him. I could feel my face cooling down and my breathing slow to a normal depth. I sat up and watched him as he moved around the kitchen. He looked kind of unsure about what he was doing. I noticed that he took a step back and glanced back and forth from the counter and stove. I figured maybe he forgot how to make it so I offered some help.

"Did you lose something?" I asked

"Huh- oh um no I'll be right back don't move." And he was gone. I heard him run up the steps and he was back in less than 2 minutes. He had a index card that he taped to the counter at eye level.

"What's that?" I asked.

"Oh um instructions." He said looking shyly at me and then quickly back to what he was doing. Hmm so he really didn't know what he was doing.

"So are you going to add the salt or are you just going to use pepper?" I asked waiting to see his response. He froze in the middle of what he was doing and reached for the salt and pepper. I couldn't help but laugh a little.

"Um-Both." He said with finality in his voice. I saw him raise the salt over the liquid eggs and cinnamon mixture.

"WAIT Edward don't do that." I yelled. He spun around quickly and looked at me with fear in his eyes.

"What did I do?" He asked.

"Edward seriously have you ever made French toast before?" I asked looking at him. I was more comfortable when I was in my element of the kitchen and he didn't have the upper hand.

"Um- Well not alone by myself exactly but I have directions see." He pointed to the card.

"Do the directions say to add salt or pepper?" I asked

"No" He replied looking down like a scolded child.

"Then why were you going to add them?" I asked feeling a little confused at why he wasn't following the directions.

"Well you said which one so I figured that both would be better." He looked confused now. I couldn't help but laugh. I slowly hopped off of the stool and limped over to stand next to him. I took the salt and pepper out of his hand and put them back on the counter.

"Edward where did you get these directions?" I asked.

"I called my mom and she told me." He replied looking me square in the eye.

"Why did you do that? You don't have to go through all of this. I could have easily showed you how." I replied looking him square in the eye. I wasn't nervous anymore. We were back to being friends again.

"I wanted to cook you something because you are always cooking for everyone and I thought it would be nice." He said as he leaned back on the island and gave me room to cook.

"Edward that was very sweet of you but you didn't have to go through all of that. I don't mind cooking it's something I liked to do. If you want to know how to make something I can always teach you." I was now whisky the sugar into the liquid mixture. I could feel him walking towards me and standing close.

I turned my head and he was right there. Our noses almost touched but I leaned back.

"So teach me." He said as he leaned closer to look over my shoulder.

He watched me as I dipped the bread in the liquid mixture and then flipped it over. I dropped the pieces on the frying pan and showed him how to flip them.

"Would you please get some banana and strawberries from the fridge we need to cut them up." I asked him

He did as I asked and I showed him how to slice them up and we worked together in silence. When we were done we had a large stack of French toast and a sizeable amount of sliced fruit.

"Now you can use butter, syrup and powdered sugar on them I personally like butter, syrup, banana and powdered sugar. What do you like?" I asked him.

"I like the same but strawberries instead of bananas." He said smiling at me. My heart melted when he did that.

We settled in the dining room with our food and slowly ate. I was sitting at the head of the table and he was in the chair to the right of me. He grabbed my knee and brought my leg up to rest at his side. He began to massage my leg up and down. It felt amazing how his fingers kneaded my skin and muscles. I felt a little moan slip through my lips as I closed my eyes and enjoyed his touch. I glanced at him after I did that and he had his eyes on his food and a little smile on his face. AHHHH I can't let him seduce me like this. This is not what I wanted. Oh gosh who am I kidding I wanted nothing more than for Edward and I to be together and live happily ever after. But I was completely terrified of him and all of his experience.

As we were sitting there eating Jake came down the stairs freshly showered and dressed.

"Hey Bells how's your leg feeling?" He asked

"It's much better thank you Jake, Did you sleep ok I know I sure didn't." I smirked at him.

"Yeah sorry about that was I snoring that loud?" He asked jokingly

"Yes you were that loud you are so sleeping on the couch tonight or I'm going to have to find somewhere else to sleep." As soon as the words left my mouth I felt Edward's fingers squeeze my leg tightly and I yanked it away from him and blush burned my face.

"Anyway help yourself to some breakfast Jake." I said as I saw him shoving a piece in his mouth.

"Mmmhm thanks" He said as he gulped down some orange juice.

After breakfast we all settled in the basement awaiting Alice's instructions.

"OK so this project is taking off like a snowball down a hill. We found a place to shoot the video thanks to the best future sister in law Rosalie and we have a great camera crew set up with Jake assisting and all of you wonderful friends and brothers are going to help me. I am so excited so here are the lyrics to the songs so you can learn them but you will of course be lip sinking. Now Bella we have to get your leg stronger so Emmett is taking you to the gym to do some exercises and the rest of us are going to be practicing dance moves." She said as she paced back and forth across the room swinging her little hands in the air like she was conducting an orchestra.

"Um Alice I can't dance so shouldn't I be practicing?" I asked raising my hand like a 8 year old and everyone laughed at me. Of course my cheeks turned bright pink.

"No Bella you are not going to be dancing exactly like the rest of us. I have one of the girls from the hip-hop dance club at school and she is going to help us out with our little weak leg problem. I don't see why you couldn't have broken and arm instead. At least I could have worked that into outfit but a small pasty leg just won't do." She said giving me a hug for reassurance.

"Well it's not like I did it on purpose geez Alice you think I wanted to have a broken leg?" I said with a pout.

"Quit yer Bitchen ladies and let's get back to work." Jake said standing up.

After our little meeting Emmett took me to the gym where he made me do all of these leg things and I hated every minute of it but he took me out for ice-cream when we were done so that made up for it but just tiny little bit. We got back to the house and as soon as we entered the house I broke out in laughter.

All of the furniture was pushed aside and music was blaring. There was this little girl who was built like Alice but with a body like Rosalie and hip-hop clothes on. She was grinding on Edward showing Alice how she should be grinding on Alice. Jake was standing in for Emmett while Rosalie was backing her thing up and I could have died at the look on Emmett's face when he saw that scene.

Once they saw that we were back Rosalie froze and Jake ran in the other room while Emmett stalked after him.

"Get back here you little shit I saw where your hands were." Emmett bellowed up the stairs after Jake. Rosalie was running after them to calm down Emmett.

"Emmett get back here he's just a kid give him some slack. Don't make me come up there after you EMMETT get back here." She screamed from the bottom of the steps.

I noticed that Edward was staring at me and was now very far away from the little hot tamale that he had just had his hands all over.

"How's your leg?" Alice asked as she came over to me.

"It hurts more now but he said that it is supposed to. Emmett told me to take a hot back with some Epson salt so that's where I'm going." I said holding up my CVS bag and headed for the stairs.

"Good we'll show you later what to do just concentrate on your leg ok." She said. I waved my hand over my head dismissively as I stalked up the stairs stomping my feet like a child. But then regretted it as it only made my leg hurt even more.

I soaked in the bathtub with the Epson salt for a while until the water got colder. Then I stood up and took a shower. I hadn't realized how sweaty I got from exercising. There was a knock on the door while I was drying off.

"Who is it?" I asked.

"Jake" He replied.

"You can come in." I said wrapping a towel around me.

He came in and sat on the edge of the tub. "Hey we are going to a club to practice more do you want to come with us?" He asked.

"Yeah I'll go but I don't know how much fun I'll be." I said shrugging my shoulders.

"Well you have to go because I need someone to dance with and don't worry about your leg I'll help you. I have been watching music videos and I have a few ideas of how to work around it." He said grinning at me.

With that he left the bathroom to get ready. I went to my room to change and found Alice picking out clothes for me. She picked out a pair of skinny jeans and a light blue silky shirt with a low neckline. She even had my black flats picked out for me.

"OK I'm going to do your hair and make-up now ok no arguing you owe me for breaking your leg when I need you the most." I stuck my tongue out at her and sat in the chair while she fussed with my hair and make-up.

My hair was straightened and hung long down my back. I hadn't noticed how long it had gotten since I usually threw it up or had it curly most of the time. I had light make-up on with a little glow to it. I got dressed and met her downstairs where everyone was waiting for me.

APOV

Everyone was dressed perfectly and looked amazing. Well that was of course because I picked out there clothes. Even Edward let me pick out his clothes. I had noticed the way he has been hanging around Bella and that trick about making her go on a date just so he would help me with my project was full of hoowey if you ask me. I didn't mind thought I knew they would end up together eventually it was the rocky road they had to travel to get there that was interesting to watch.

I had a sneaky suspicion that Jake was in love with Bella too but I wasn't sure because that could just be friendship love. I felt bad for the 3 of them. Not everyone could have a perfect relationship like Jaz and I. I do hope that everything works out for them in the end. We took 2 cars to the club because of room. Edward drove Jake and Bella in his car while Rosalie drove Jasper, Emmett and I in her car. We had decided to go to Hammerjacks downtown because there was a DJ playing there that Emmett likes.

We got our hands stamped for under 21 at least those of us who were. They didn't even card Emmett and Jake. I was shocked because Jake was only 17 and he didn't get a stamp. Sooo not fair. But I was going to have fun dancing with my man. Jaz was a southern gentleman but he knew how to get down. We found a booth in the back that was pretty secluded and quiet. The guys went to get us drinks while we put our stuff down.

All the Single Ladies by Beyonce' came on and Rosalie and I jumped up and ran to the dance floor leaving Bella with the stuff. I felt kind of bad but she insisted that we go. We danced around together before Jaz and Emmett joined us. I could see Jake pulling Bella up to dance while Edward dug in to some food he ordered.

We danced for a couple songs before heading to the table to get some food. We got a bunch of appetizers and passed them around the table. I was having so much fun hanging out with everyone. I noticed that Edward was drinking a little more than he normally does. I hadn't seen him get up to dance yet. I made a mental note to get him up on the dance floor some time tonight.

Jaz and I were dancing together while Emmett and Rosalie disappeared somewhere to probably to make out. Jake and Bella went to get more drinks and I saw her limping a little as she made her way back to the table. After a few minutes Jake took Bella back to the dance floor. It was too cute the way they were dancing. He was holding her leg up by her knee pit and she was holding on to him for dear life. It looked a little provocative but with the silly laughing they were both doing it was obvious there was nothing sexual about it.

Jaz excused himself to the restroom so I took that opportunity to talk to my brother.

"Hey Edward why haven't you gotten up to dance all night?" I asked resting my head on his shoulders.

"I don't have anyone to dance with." He said looking sad. I was not sued to this Edward. Where is the arrogant cocky confident brother of mine that would have girls hanging all over him.

"Well why don't you ask Bella to dance or one of those girls over there." I pointed to a group of girls that had been ogling him from a few tables away.

"She is busy with Jake and I've had 1 of them and I don't want to lead her on." He said as he waved to the girl who was now waving at him. He smiled his crooked grin at her and looked back at his drink.

"Well if I ask Jake to dance will you ask Bella?" I said pleading with him with my pouty lip and big eyes.

"Really? Yeah of course. I don't like the way he keeps grinding on here like that and the way he is holding her leg it's not right." He said as he glared at them.

"Edward he is helping her because of her leg and besides look at their faces they are being silly there is nothing sexual about it. God can't you see she doesn't look at him the way she looks at you?" God he was actually blind to how Bella felt about him.

"Wait how does she look at me?" He said turning to me with full attention.

"She looks at you like her heart is aching." I said that and jumped up to cut in on Jake and Bella. I tapped her on the shoulder.

"Mind if I cut in?" I asked Bella.

"Oh not at all here ya go be careful with this one Alice he has roaming hands." She said to me as she winked at Jake.

"Hey I was helping." Jake replied.

EPOV

I saw Alice cut in on Jake and Bella and then Bella was on her way back to the table. She sat down next to me started chugging her drink. She finished it and grabbed Jake's beer and chugged that. Shit was she getting drunk? I hope she wasn't still taking those pain meds. Her hair was sticking to her face a little. Her face was glistening with moisture it was driving me nuts. I kept picturing her in bed bouncing on top of me getting all sweaty with me. I shook my head and tried to get rid of my beer goggles. I shouldn't have been drinking this much.

"Do you want to dance?" I asked her. Hoping to dance some of the alcohol away.

"Ok but be careful of my leg ok." She replied taking my hand as I led her to the dance floor.

We got a not so crowded spot and I gripped her hips and she put her hands on my shoulders. I bent my knees a little to try and get us face to face. She began to sway a little swirl her hips to the music. I couldn't take my eyes off of her hips. I know I should have been looking into her eyes but I couldn't help it. We danced like that for a few songs but I couldn't tell you the names of them.

"Can we get a few drinks?" She leaned into my ear to ask. I nodded and led her over to the bar.

"Can you get ma a shot of 151 and Smirnoff triple black with grenadine?" she asked. I nodded. I think I was in a daze looking at her. I couldn't function right I just did whatever she asked me to. I had never been like this around any other girl or woman except my mother. But I just did what she wanted because she was my mom and I was a good son. Hell even Alice had to pout and bat her eyelashes most of the time or just threaten me. But not Bella I would just nod and do whatever she asked.

I handed her drink and she chugged a third of the triple black and then poured the 151 into the bottle. She put her thumb over it and flipped it upside down and back right side up. She removed her thumb and then downed it straight. It was one of the sexiest things I had ever seen. I stared at her throat as it moved when she swallowed the liquid. I chugged my beer when I noticed she was waiting for me. We set our empty glasses down and she pulled me back on to the dance floor to where we were dancing before.

We began to dance again this time her eyes were a little glassy. She must have needed some liquid courage because I was not prepared for what she did next. Mariah Carey's song Your Girl came on and she lifted her leg up onto my hip. It slid down and she put it up again.

"Ed-ward you have to hold it pleeease." She said as she lifted her leg a third time. I listened of course and slid my fingers behind her knee to hold her leg up.

I could feel the warmth of her skin through her jeans and it was sending sparks of electricity through my body. She reached up and hooked her hands around my neck and pulled me closer to her. I pulled her leg closer to me. Her body was now pressed flush with mine and she was grinding into my now growing groin. I could feel her hot breath on my neck as I ducked my head to inhale her scent in the crook of her neck. I felt her fingers entwine in my hair. Then I heard her start to sing along with the song in my ear.

"SEE, I USED TO BE SO SHY SIT AT HOME AND FANTASIZE

BUT I AIN'T WASTIN' NO MORE TIME CAUSE I'VE GOT TO MAKE YOU MINE"

I felt her warm soft tongue flick out from her mouth and lick behind my ear.

"I'M GONNA MAKE YOU WANT TO GET WITH ME TONIGHT I'M GONA PUT THOSE NAUGHTY

THOUGHTS INTO YOUR MIND I'M GONNA SHOW YOU CLEARLY I CAN ROCK YOUR WORLD

YOU'RE GONNA KNOW FOR SURE THAT I SHOULD BE YOUR GIRL"

She sang the words in my ear so seductively. I felt her pull herself closer to my neck and she buried her face there. I felt her mouth moving and sucking on my skin. I let out a low moan against her hair on her neck. I brought my hand up from behind her back to move her hair so that I could get to her flesh. I was grinding into her movements with my hips as we danced to the song. I don't know if you could consider what we were doing as dancing but I would have much rather been lying down on a bed doing the things we were now doing. I began to kiss and lick her neck like she was doing to mine. My back was starting to ache a little from leaning over into her so I bent my knees more to try and reach her.

I felt her pull away so I pulled away. I was terrified she was going to be mad at me. I braced myself mentally for her to flip out on me. But I was surprised when all she did was look in my eyes and mouth words to me.

"Up" she said as she squeezed her leg around my waist. I didn't understand what she was saying at first.

Then she pulled me hard down so that my face was next to her and she spoke into my ear. "Pick me up." She said.

I bent my knees and placed my hands on her thighs. I slowly slid them up the back of her thighs and rested them where her ass cheeks met her thighs and squeezed. I felt her life her legs and wrap them around my waist as I lifted her ass up and pulled her against me. She shifted her weight up a little higher and wrapped her arms around my neck. Our faces were lined directly in front of each other.

She stared into my eyes and I could feel them burning my soul. Looking at her like this and touching her was making my ache and burn for more. Bella's legs tightened behind my back as she linked her ankles together. She leaned forward and kissed me full on the lips. I let out a small gasp in her mouth. I was not expecting that. Her lips were soft and warm. She tasted like cherries from the grenadine.

Bella's fingers pulled my hair as she pressed my face into hers. Our lips were mashed together as our tongues swirled around together in her mouth. I opened my eyes and noticed that hers were closed. To the side all I saw was a curtain of her chocolate hair on both sides of us. I wanted to go somewhere anywhere but I needed to get off of the dance floor with her. I broke our kiss. We were both panting for air and I know my heart was racing.

"Hold on tight" I told her as I reached up and moved her hair out of the way. I spotted our table where Alice, Jasper and Jake were staring at us with their mouths opened. When they noticed I was looking at them they quickly turned away.

I glanced around the room and saw a window ledge where people had been sitting earlier. I hiked her up against me and slowly walked over to the window and sat down with her now in my lap. Her legs were still circling me. I brought my hands up to cup her face and attacked her mouth with mine. We were kissing fiercely. She tasted sweet and soft. I wanted to taste every inch of her. I broke our deep kiss and trailed light kisses down her jaw and to her neck. I crossed her collar bone and found myself sucking and licking behind her ear. My arms were wrapped around her back holding her tight against me. I could feel her fingers running through my hair pulling me closer to her skin.

She started to grind her warm pussy into my dick. I could feel the heat coming from inside of her and through her jeans. It felt so fucking good. Her rhythm was perfect. I could only imagine being inside of her. My mind trailed off to what it would feel like. I felt her head fly up and turn around. I immediately looked over her shoulder to find Alice and Rosalie glaring down at me. Jake and Emmett were standing behind them. Jasper was holding everyone's stuff standing off to the side with a smirk on his face.

"Um not to interrupt or anything but they are closing up and we need to go home." Alice said with her hand on her hip tapping her little foot.

"Ok" I said as I released my arms from Bella's back. I grabbed her waist and lifted her up while she unlocked her ankles from behind me. She was blushing the deepest shade of red that I have ever seen on her. She walked over to Jasper to take her purse.

I stood up expecting her to walk back over to me but she walked over to Jake and started talking to him quietly. He was glaring at me with daggers in his eyes. We walked back to the cars and I was definitely able to drive now. I was no longer drunk I was too damn aroused. I kept touching my lips missing her taste and her touch. She was hiding behind her hair and behind Jake as we made our way to the car. Jake slid in the front leaving Bella to sit in the back.

As we drove home I stole glances of her through my rearview mirror and she was looking out of the window at the lights and neighborhoods as we passed by. When we got home Jake carried her inside and took her up to her room. And then Alice cornered me.

"What was that about Edward huh why did you do that?" She asked glaring up at me.

"I didn't start it she did." I replied.

"Edward I know you two like each other it's obvious but she just broke up with her boyfriend do you really want to be the rebound guy or do you want something real out of all of this?" My sister asked staring at me seriously.

I had to think. I wanted her in every way possible. I wanted to be inside of her I wanted to kiss her nonstop. I wanted to taste her and feel her in my arms. I wanted to talk with her and laugh like we used to. I wanted to share my secrets with her and for her to show me how to cook stuff. I wanted to download stupid movies and cuddle in bed and watch them together. I wanted to have a snowball fight with her and go to the beach. There were so many things I wanted to do with and to Bella that I knew I didn't want to be the rebound guy.

"I want her every part of her." I confessed to my sister with my head hung down in my lap resting in my hands.

"Edward I know it's hard but she is confused and possibly drunk you need to be the adult and grown up here and take a step back. Just be there for her and take it slow." Alice always knew the right thing to do or what to say. I was kicking myself now for what happened.

Why is it that whenever Bella and I get the courage to be physical it is always something that I end up wishing never happened? It wasn't that I regretted it because I definitely did not. It was that I wanted more all of the time and I wanted her to want me the same way that I wanted her. I need her to love me and accept me for who I am. Not a guy she has a crush on or just thinks is cute. I mean how well did we really know one another? Not very well. There were things I wanted to know about her before we got to this part. There were things I wanted her to know about me before we got to this part. God this is why I didn't fall in love. It's too complicated.

I went up to bed that night and tried to fall asleep but I just stared at the ceiling thinking of her. Thinking of kissing her of holding her in my arms. I have to admit that I didn't shower or change out of my shirt that night. I smelled like her and my lips tasted like her I didn't want to wash it away. I could always brush my teeth in the morning. I licked my lips and savored the taste of her as I closed my eyes and breathed in her scent from my shirt. I heard a soft knock on my door. I got up to open the door and there stood . . .