Rosalie's Approval

This is my last POV chapter, then we're back to omniscient narrator. Sorry i haven't updated in like 2 days, I've been suffering from headaches (stupid things). But in those 2 days i have been astounded by the number of emails i've received for reviews, favourites etc. So thanks everyone and i hope you enjoy :D

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Evie's POV

The drive home with Jasper was agonising, I could feel his eyes on me even though he should've been keeping them on the road ahead. I had no reason to worry though; we vampires are experts at most things and Jasper's driving was flawless. I wasn't going to die, and even if we were in an accident I would pull through a silly little car crash. Almost nothing could kill me.

The reason Jasper was watching me so intently was because I had a whole load of emotions coursing through me at that moment, he was confused and intrigued as to why I was feeling so many emotions at the same time. But I didn't want to tell him, the only person I wanted to seek comfort in was Esme.

All the conflicting emotions swirling around me hurt so much. Especially after listening to Edward try and explain himself to Alice on the phone. I knew I could've walked away and saved myself the extra hurt, but I'd needed to hear what he had to say, to know where I stood in this strange turn of events. But I still found myself in confusion.

Edward had said it was a mistake to Alice, yet I couldn't see if it was confirmed in his mind. This uncertainty let me feel a certain emotion...I felt hope for the first time in seventy years. I could hope that maybe he would leave Bella and come away with me. It was a long shot but there was still the possibility.

Jasper tried to subdue me on a number of occasions; he tried to make me feel at ease. However, just as he was about to perform his talent, I distracted him into looking back at the road. I wanted to feel my emotions no matter how much confusion, hurt, betrayal and anger I was experiencing. I didn't want to feel numb; it would only turn me into a body. A body without a soul.

A number of times in our three months together, Edward and I would discuss the idea of souls. He didn't believe that he had one anymore after turning into a vampire, in contrast, I agreed with Carlisle. No matter what had happened to us in the past, we still had souls.

I believe that if we still have emotions then we still have a soul. If we couldn't feel emotions then we were nothing more than zombies. But Edward thought that souls were different from my point of view. We'd argued for days about it, but we never came to an agreed decision, I believed what I wanted and so did he. That was the compromise.

We arrived back at the Cullen mansion and I was grateful that Alice wasn't home yet. I wasn't entirely sure how she felt about me but I was sure that she wouldn't like me. Edward had explained that I was no part of it, nevertheless it wasn't as if I pulled away from him, this is what had made it look worse for me.

That's when anger became more potent out of all the emotions. How dare he use the fact that I love him against me! He knew that I would be at my weakest when alone with him, and the idea of kissing me would be all the easier for him to carry out. My defences were down because I was forcing myself to fight for Bella's corner, it's not like I wanted to, but since I'd seen how happy Edward was with her I didn't want him to spoil it by running away again.

I'd seen tiny insights into her mind from the moment I'd looked at her asleep on her bed. She constantly worried that he was going to leave her human and run away, leaving her to force herself to live life half-heartedly again. I'd seen how hard it was to adjust to the fact that she'd lost the one true love of her life, I'd felt how much it had hurt, knowing that he wasn't there to look into her eyes every day and tell her that he loved her.

I'd felt a similar pain in the first twenty years of living in Denali. I'd look out the window every morning when the sun started to rise and I wished that I was back with my family, especially Edward. I'd miss the way he would ruffle my hair and tease me about my accent, it used to make me smile so much. I'd feel complete knowing that the man who saved my life cared about me and had formed the closest friendship he could with me.

I knew all along that he could never love me, not in the way I wanted. It was impossible; he didn't want a companion, he didn't see me like that, he saw me as nothing but Evie, his best friend.

Esme had wanted for us the same as I did; I had seen it in her mind and I was sure Edward had too. But not once had he shown any indication that he'd wanted anything more from me then friendship.

Until today, everything had changed today.

What did that kiss mean? Did it mean that he loved me in the way that I loved him? Did it mean that he wanted to escape from the worry and fear for Bella's life? Did he just do it because he had an opportunity to kiss me?

I wasn't sure.

Why had he complicated everything between us? I know that I hadn't really helped things when I'd made my little announcement yesterday, but I didn't expect it to change Edward's life. I'd just seen it as now he was clued in he'd just take it in his stride and move on, I assumed that he didn't want to do anything about it because he was in a relationship with the woman he loved and he didn't like me in that way.

I was so confused that my head hurt.

I blinked and looked at my surroundings to find that I was in the dining room; I had been so engrossed in my own world that my feet had made their way there without me realising.

Subconsciously I was hoping that Esme was home so I could talk to her about it all, but she was out. I blew a strand of hair from out of my face in frustration and twiddled a fork between my thumb and forefinger. I didn't know what else to do, I was stranded out on my island of many emotions and I didn't intend on returning to civilisation anytime soon.

However, someone made their way into the dining room but I paid them no attention, they were probably looking for someone else.

"I thought you were home." They spoke to me. I gave a quick look in the voice's direction and I wished I could stay on my island; unfortunately, civilisation was calling me back already.

"Why's that a good thing?" I asked in a monotone voice, I couldn't help but mope. It didn't help that I still couldn't focus on who the figure standing in front of me was.

"Because I think we need a little chat. You look like you need to get some things off of your chest."

"I don't want to talk about my feelings..." I stopped as I tried to guess who it was. The voice was female so I had a one in three chance of getting it right. "...Alice." I finished.

A laugh rang out in the dining room and it tinkled sweetly in the air. I guess I'd been wrong in my prediction.

"It's Rosalie." She smiled as I suddenly came back to my senses. Of course it was her, Alice would've shouted at me and Esme was still out.

All I could think then was why would Rosalie want to talk to me? She was the person I'd spoken to the least to whilst I'd stayed here.

She seemed a lovely enough person, otherwise why would the lovable Emmett be married to her? But I just always felt intimidated by her astounding beauty, and that's why I hadn't been more communicative with her.

"Sorry Rosalie." I blushed even though my cheeks technically didn't change colour. I was blushing on the inside though.

"It's ok. You looked weighed down with worry." She replied as she took a seat next to me. I actually couldn't believe that she wanted to talk to me about all of this. Alice was the more likely culprit to do this type of thing, but she was probably annoyed at me so there was no chance. I just always assumed that Rosalie was always in her own world and would only participate if there was something worth being a part of.

I suddenly felt slightly thrilled that she was taking an interest in me.

"Would you like to share?" she pushed. "The boys have decided to go out to play some football so it's just us. No one to interrupt."

Once again my mood shifted and now I was suspicious, I was sure that Rosalie had bribed them or something, I tried to look into her head for answers but she was guarded. That was what aroused my suspicion more.

"That's awful nice of you Rosalie, but I was hoping I could talk to Esme about this...Not that I don't appreciate your concern." I fidgeted in my seat, I felt mean saying it but at least I was being truthful.

"It's ok Evie." Rosalie replied still smiling although it faltered a little as she continued. "I just thought it'd be nice to discuss your problems...sister-to-sister and everything. I mean Esme's out at the shops and Alice would be another sister you could go to...if she were here. But I just hate feeling like the sister nobody can talk to."

She was trying to guilt trip me into telling her and I knew it, yet I was still intrigued by Rosalie's concern. What an earth could possibly attract her to my situation? Was she in love with Edward too?

That seemed unlikely; but it was still an option.

"I'd hate for you to feel like that Rosalie." I replied playing her game, I was going to play the naive broken hearted vampire for a while, then as soon as she made clear what her motives were, I'd clam up like a shell. "I suppose it's better to share than keep it bottled up." I added as I saw her eyes light up in anticipation.

"You can tell me anything, no matter how bad it is." She told me modestly.

"Edward kissed me." I started; I felt I might as well get to the point instead of skirting around it all.

"Shut up! Really?" Whatever she'd been expecting, it wasn't that.

"Really." I replied looking at her excited features, it was like someone had told Rosalie she was the fairest one of all. "Bella had a panic attack this morning and Edward caused it by tuning her out. He felt guilty and Alice made him stay away until she found out the reason. We went back to school and he started to consider a life with me instead of Bella, I argued against it and then he suddenly kissed me."

"He was considering leaving Bella for you?" Rosalie asked me wide eyed in surprise.

"Yes," I continued. At the moment Rosalie was acting like anyone would do, it made me doubt my original assumptions about her motives but I was still wary. "The main reasons were because I was a vampire and he didn't want Bella to give up her mortality just for him."

"I see...So what happened after that?"

"Alice saw the kiss in a vision and called Edward. She was pretty furious with him; she's given him an ultimatum. Tell Bella about it or she will. Alice won't let him visit Bella until he's decided he's going to tell her."

"So where is he now?"

"He's going to see Bella just to keep up pretences before he has to go and work out what he's going to say."

"Very interesting...so how do you feel about him?"

"We're friends...I mean he crossed a line by kissing me. He's in love with Bella, it was wrong for him to even consider it!" I paused wondering what had just come out of my mouth. Edward was right; I didn't have linear thought patterns.

"You didn't answer my question. You just gave a load of reasons why it was wrong for him to kiss you."

I looked away; it had been easier telling Esme. She was like my mother even though I'd never had one in my human life. Esme was caring and unjudgmental; I could tell her anything without fear of repercussion. Rosalie was a different kind of person; we'd barely talked in my two days here. I felt uncomfortable unburdening myself in front of her.

"I won't judge you Evie." She informed me. I looked at her with a shocked expression; it was like she'd just looked into my head. "You don't choose your emotions, you feel them and that's unstoppable. None of what you feel is your fault."

Something about the way she looked at me at that moment made me reconsider my thoughts about Rosalie. Maybe she didn't have a motive; maybe she did truly care about how I felt.

I hesitated for a while before I started; I needed to be sure that I wasn't being fooled.

"I love him." I admitted, "But I'm confused. I thought that he wanted nothing more than friendship, and then today he went and turned the tables on me. He was talking about a life together, a life free from complication...he said we would've been perfect."

Rosalie raised her eyebrows in concern, she was trying to figure out what this all meant. Was her wish going to come true? Was Bella out of the picture?

"He really said you would've been perfect?" she asked seriously.

"Yes, but I just think he was freaking out because Bella had a panic attack. I think he's realising that even though she's breakable, sometimes he won't be able to protect her. Anything could happen to her, whether it's a panic attack or a heart attack, he wouldn't be able to stop it."

"I don't think it's that Evie." Rosalie replied. Even though her face was still serious there was something behind her eyes that maybe I shouldn't have seen. I saw joy but I didn't know why Rosalie would be joyful about this situation. I thought that she'd make it clear soon enough.

"I think he's finally considering the thought of being in a relationship with another vampire. Sure, he loves Bella; we all know he loves Bella. We've had to bend over backwards in these last three years to make it work for them, but now you showed up he's seen how hassle-free everything would be. He wouldn't need to live life the way he has been." She stopped speaking as I looked at her with my own mouth open. Surely none of what she was saying was true. "Don't you see Evie? He can have his cake and eat it. He can have the life he had before Bella and he can be in love. He must've kissed you to make sure that your lives together wouldn't feel wrong, he loves you Evie, but breaking Bella's heart is now the problem."

"You're not serious Rosalie...I think you need to go feed or something. He can't be feeling like this, Bella is the one for him, the only one for him."

"If that's what you think Evie. But if he was so in love with Bella then why did he kiss you? Why has he ignored most of your animosity towards Bella? Why did he talk to Carlisle and tell him how he was torn between the both of you?"

"He spoke to Carlisle?"

"I happened to overhear the conversation..." she replied now suddenly fascinated with her nails.

"You eavesdropped didn't you?"

"You came home and cried in Esme's arms. He came home looking like someone died. I had to find out what was going on between you two. So when I passed Carlisle's office yesterday, I thought I'd listen and see if my theory was right, it seems I was." She looked back at my face as I tried to comprehend it all, he'd spoken to Carlisle. He said he was torn between us; maybe Rosalie's theory about Edward kissing me was right. "My suspicions arose the night you arrived actually, I saw the way he looked at you, the way you smiled differently when he stood at the top of the stairs. I knew you were closer than you both made out, the difference between then and now is that you're both aware of the way you really feel about each other."

"But would he really leave Bella to be with me?"

"I can't answer that." Rosalie admitted. "But if I had my way he wouldn't be with her anyway."

"Why is that?" I asked intrigued, I assumed everyone loved Bella in this house.

"Because I'm partly jealous of Bella." She looked at me and my jaw dropped open again. Rosalie was in love with Edward! What else could she be jealous about? Rosalie had everything going for her except for the fact she had Emmett instead of Edward. I loved Emmett like a brother but he was just no Edward.

"But why? I mean she's just a human!"

"That's why." She explained as I calmed down, she didn't love Edward. At least that was one thing I didn't have to worry about. "Before I was changed I had everything Bella had. A caring family, wonderful friends and life ahead of me...well, maybe not a life ahead of me after what Royce did...but you get the picture. Anyway, she's giving it all up and not appreciating what she has."

"So your argument is similar to Edward's?"

"In a way, but we both want her to stay human for different motives. He wants it for love, it want it because I think its common sense."

"So what's the other part of your dislike towards Bella?"

"Do you know how much danger she's put us all in?" she exploded, "First year she was tracked by a vampire named James, which led to us dashing halfway round the country to lure him away. But then he went and nearly killed Bella anyway, job well done there." She added sarcastically. "Then the second year she goes and cuts her arm open so that Jasper nearly kills her, then we had to move...again! Although I didn't complain about that, I enjoyed those quiet months alone with Emmett. Then Alice had a vision that Bella was trying to kill herself, so I panicked and called Edward to tell him what she'd seen. That turned sinister as Edward went to try and kill himself in Italy, which in my opinion was the stupidest idea he's ever had! Not to mention her best friend is a werewolf, so that didn't make me warm to her. And then this year, James' mate Victoria comes with a whole load of newborns to kill Bella to get revenge on Edward. The worst part of it all was that we were forced to ally with the werewolves, the stink was terrible!"

"Is that all?" I chuckled. It was nice having someone who wasn't as thrilled about Bella as everyone else. I could really see me making friends with Rosalie after this.

"I think that's everything." She smiled and then looked into my eyes. "You need to feed."

I looked into a large mirror that was opposite to where I was sitting and noticed that my usually amber eyes had darkened. "I think you're right." I replied.

"Want to go hunting later? I could do with some blood myself."

"Sure." I agreed as Rosalie walked out of the dining room. I then inwardly scolded myself, why had I thought that Rosalie had an ulterior motive? At least I knew now that it wasn't a motive but she just shared my dislike of Bella.

It felt better to have everything off of my chest and Rosalie had let me into her thoughts and feelings as well. I felt accepted by her finally and now I defiantly felt at home here.

All in all after that chat I felt better than I had done when I'd got home.

I came to the conclusion that Rosalie was understanding...you just had to dislike someone she did to get to know her a little better.

There's the button...my happiness is only a click away lol.

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