A/N: So, the plot thickens. I love that my plot thickens!

WARNING: There is A LOT of emotional turmoil in the chapter. Proceed with caution.

Song for Chapter

You Shouldn't Kiss Me Like This- Toby Keith

While you Loved me- Rascal Flatts

Chapter 10

I paced around my hotel room racking my brain for answers. The stuffiness got to me and I pulled my white shirt over my head throwing it toward my suitcase. The stripped tank top rose up just a little above my jeans. I still had to write a speech for Jake, think of something for a bachelor's party, and get to work on a story that I had lost my ending to. I was screwed, completely and utterly screwed.

I plopped down on my bed and stared at my computer screen willing an idea to come to me. Ever since my talk with Charlotte a million different scenarios had passed through my head. Would the main character run back into the arms of safety? Would she stay and risk her heart? Only I had the answers to these questions.

My phone buzzed in my pocket and reaching for it, I prayed it wasn't Riley. I hadn't talked to him since he had left but he would hear the remorse in my voice. The selfishness in me didn't want to give him up just yet.

I saw that the caller was Alice and with a sigh of relief I flipped the top open. "Hello?"

"Shut up Emmett." I heard Rosalie say in the background.

"Hello?" I asked again. "Alice?"

Alice's breathless voice came over the phone. "Sorry, Emmett's acting like a douche." She paused. "Anyway, Rachel's parents are here along with Conley and Jonathan's mom and dad. We all have plans to go to one of the smaller shows around here. You game?"

I thought for a second. To go or not to go, that seemed to be the question. "Um, Alice I really need to work on the speech for the wedding." I tried to worm my way out of it.

She sighed. "Bella, Bella, Bella all work and no play makes Alice very unhappy. Come on it'll be fun."

"Fine." I groaned giving in to her pleas.

She laughed happily. "Good, because I already got your ticket."

"Okay, what time should I be ready?" I asked hoping she wouldn't dress me.

"I'll be there at 5:30. Make sure you're out of the shower by the time I get there." She wasn't giving me a choice.

"Alice." I groaned. "Can't I just dress myself tonight."

Her voice was suddenly tight and pleading. "Please Bella. Trust me."

I wasn't sure what was up with her tone of voice but I gave in. I'd be back to California in less than a week and I would once again be able to dress myself. That brought another thought to my mind.

I hung up with Alice and leaned back against the headboard. I couldn't let myself get near Edward. I knew that if I were to come in close proximity with him then I would give in. I couldn't give in. Not anymore. I wouldn't compromise the sanity of everyone around us. If Edward chose to come looking for me when I was gone, I wouldn't say no. Until then, I would let fate deal the cards.

I started typing up the speech for the reception when my stomach started growling. I ignored it too engrossed in my story to worry about my digestion process. About an hour later I had an empty stomach and a finished speech. Satisfied with my progress I stood up looking around the room for a directory to some food.

There were three loud knocks on my door. I checked the clock to make sure it wasn't time for Alice to be here and then headed to the door. I opened it and was met with Edward; a take out box was pushed toward me. "Hungry?" He asked.

I stepped back letting him into my room. He walked past me and his familiar scent wrapped around me sending butterflies flapping chaotically in my stomach. I stuck my head in the hallway looking both ways. Satisfied that no one was watching, I closed the heavy door dead bolting it and leaning against the cool metal.

Could I resist Edward? Nope. Did I want to resist Edward? Absolutely not. Was I crazy? No, insane.

I pushed my body away from the door and trailed behind Edward hesitantly. He sat on the edge of the bed placing the food beside him. He opened his arms willing me to come to him. I gave in to the dark side and let him wrap his arms around me. I would be out of his life in less than a week anyway. It wouldn't hurt to enjoy him while I still had a chance.

His mouth found my stomach and he kissed it lightly pulling me down into his lap. "How was your day?" He asked placing a soft kiss on the corner of her mouth.

I pulled away from him snatching the white foam box from behind him. I opened the box and set it down on the desk and closing my laptop, pushing it aside. "I finished my speech." I said taking a bite of pizza.

Edward seemed to examine me for a second before getting up crossing the small space between us. He sat down on the desk's chair and pulled me into his lap. "I wasn't done holding you." He whispered against my skin kissing my arm.

I wrapped my arms around his neck kissing him softly. I knew that I would regret this later; I knew that this would take my guilt on a trip worth wishing this never happened. Yet, I gave in.

I let him trail kissed down my neck. I let him hold me tightly to his chest, and I let him run his hand through my hair. I pulled away to take another bite of pizza and settled myself comfortably in his lap.

"How was your day?" I asked watching his face.

He shrugged. "We had tux fittings then we went to Pizza Villa." He stated the obvious waving his hand over the box. "We have dinner and a show tonight. You're coming right?"

I nodded. "Yeah, Alice said she has a ticket for me. I wasn't really given a chance."

Edward nodded. "We should "magically" end up sitting together." He chuckled using air quotes.

The realization that Charlotte would be there along with Rachel popped in my head. I jumped up looking between Edward's quizzical face and the bathroom. "Did I do something?" He asked opening his arms to me.

I shook my head quickly. "Uh, I have to uh, um, take a shower." I said pulling open the drawers of the hotel dressers.

"Oh, well I guess I'll go then." Edward stood hugging me from behind. "I'll see you tonight."

I nodded waving him off. "Yeah, okay. Bye."

I walked him to the door and he lingered in the doorway. "I love you." He whispered leaning in to kiss me lightly.

He said the words. He hadn't spoken these words to me, in two years. The words hit me like a ton of bricks and I nodded quickly before closing the door. I dropped to the ground letting the guilt, shame, regret, and sorrow flood my body. I needed Riley, I needed a straightjacket, and I needed my mommy.

I hadn't yearned for my mother's soft touch in ages. In retrospect, I agreed upon doing the next best thing. I pulled myself together and fished my phone from my pocket. I hit speed dial for my best friend and her cheerful voice came over the phone.

"Alice here!" Her cheerful voice didn't have the effect on me that it use to.

"Alice," I whimpered. "I need you."

"Oh Bella, I'll be right there." Faster than it seemed possible, the door clicked open and Alice slipped into my room. I didn't even want to know how she had a key to my room.

Like a best friend should, she wrapped her arms around me holding me together. I cried on her shoulder confessing everything. I confessed how I slept with Edward, talked with Charlotte, and how I wasn't sure I could truly return his feelings.

As always, Alice didn't judge. She didn't tell me how messed up my life was, she just listened. When I was done, she rubbed my shoulders and jumped up saying she knew exactly what I needed. She glided across the room and threw my white shirt at me. I pulled it over my head and she grabbed my hand yanking me out the door.

She wouldn't tell me where she was taking us. She just pulled me along reassuring me that this would help. We walked down the bustling city streets for a couple of minutes before she pulled me into a shop with bright yellow walls. A cheerful song played in the background and I had to admit, after a waffle cone of Ben & Jerry's cookie dough ice cream, I was feeling a lot better.

We walked back arm in arm and Alice suggested that I call Riley and fill him in. She then suggested that I stay away from Edward. She said she was going to make the arrangements where Jasper slept in my room and I would room with her. I figured with Alice's help I could be Edward free in one week or less.

Alice understood the best she could that it wouldn't be easy. She saw that this was probably the best choice. We walked into the nearly empty lobby and she led me down the hall to the elevator. The doors opened with a ding and Alice pressed the button taking us to the floor for our rooms.

She helped me pack silently as I walked to the bathroom gathering my shampoos and make up. I felt like a druggie. This was my first step to becoming clean. This was my choice to go to rehab. Edward wasn't mine to want and I shouldn't covet him like I did.

I just needed to get through this week, talk to Riley and hope he accepted me, and then I needed to finish my story. I could do this, right? I could get through this week would a major break down. I would get through this week without a major breakdown.

Alice grabbed one of my bags while I grabbed the other one. She walked me down the hallway and we turned a corner. She slipped into the room as I followed behind he closely. Jasper was sprawled across the bed chatting on the phone when Alice sat my bag down on the floor.

"Hey Jazz, Bella's going to room with me for the rest of the week." She tossed my room key to him giving him a chaste kiss. "The room number is on the key." She laughed devilishly.

He sighed shrugging his shoulders. "M'kay." He chuckled in defeat. He was totally whipped.

Alice fluttered around the room throwing stuff haphazardly into Jasper's small black suitcase. He had only brought the bare minimum and Alice pushed him out the door with his suitcase, three bags full of new clothes, and my room key.

She then proceeded to hang my clothes up around the room and I helped her pack my stuff in the drawers of the hotel room. I had a good feeling about this. With Alice by my side I was sure I could resist temptation. That was until three loud, angry knocks pounded on the door.

A/N: Oh who could it be? I know and you don't –sticks tongue out at readers- mwahahahahahahaaha. Okay well it's spring break for me, which means I should be able to update a little quicker. Oh well hope you enjoyed this chapter of angst and moving.

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