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"Oh my God McGee! Ziva fell asleep where?!" Abby squealed.

"Well, just in his lap, I mean nothing happened! Well, at least I don't think so." Abby grinned. "Please! Don't tell them I told you! Ziva will kill me!"

"Oh my God, Oh my God! I knew it!" Abby bounced. "It's so obvious between them. So how late were you watching them last night?"

"I was not watching them! I was checking the CCTV and everything for suspicious activity."

"Yeah, yeah McGee! When's Tony coming in today? I can't wait to speak to him!"

"He's not, remember. He's with Ziva on the weekends. And... please, please don't tell them!" He begged. Tony wasn't so bad. Ziva...terrifying.

"Oooh! Goody!" She clapped. "Now, get up to MTAC and update me when things happen!" She said as she pushed him out the door.

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"Shall we go for a meal tonight? You know keep up the whole 'lover' thing?" Tony asked. He put emphasis on the 'lover' and Ziva laughed.

"No, I am too tired. You can go out though. You don't need to stay here you know." After her dream, Ziva hadn't had any chance to rest during the day and was now emotionally and physically drained.

"How I about I cook you dinner here? No offence, but you look exhausted." Tony touched her arm and Ziva turned to look at him.

"That would be very nice Tony, but you do not have to do that for me."

"I want to. You promised to tell me what was up with you this morning."He pointed out.

"Forget it, everyone in MTAC will hear. There are some things I do not want known by everyone."

"Leave it to me." Tony grinned as he pulled his cell phone out. Ziva cocked her head towards him as he spoke on the phone. She smiled as he told someone that they owed him. It seemed that every one owed Tony something.

"Sorted!" He laughed as he got off the phone. "No MTAC feed tonight. I just spoke to Mike, there will be a 'glitch' tonight, but he'll sort it out tomorrow. The outside ones will work though. Gibbs will be none the wiser!" He grinned

"Oh. Well thank you for this Tony. I mean it. It will be nice to have a night off. But I do not understand. Why are you doing this? It'll be a boring night."

"Because, I am your partner." He said shrugged simply.

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"So you gonna tell me what's wrong?" Tony asked as they rested on the sofa with a bottle of wine. Tony had made lasagne for them, and Ziva had to admit, it was pretty good. Ziva sighed and slowly shook her head.

"I am sorry. It's so hard for me to open up. If that happens... well people tend to leave me."

Tony lifted her chin with his finger. "Hey, I am not going anywhere. Do you understand me? I'm not leaving." He slowly moved to kiss her, but she pulled away.

"You will not say that when you know the scars I have inside me. I am a wreck of a person."

"That's stupid Ziva. You just need to trust me." He took her face in his hands again and looked into her deep brown eyes. "Trust me." He whispered.

"I... I don't know where to start." Ziva stumbled.

"From the beginning" He said simply. He leaned back again to give her space.

"I was 19 when it happened. I was already in Mossad and I was quickly becoming one of their strongest 'weapons' I suppose." She sighed and ran her fingers through her hair. "Sorry, it's just, this is so hard." Tony nodded and put his arm around her.

"Hey, don't worry if you can't do this." He whispered.

"No, I think I have to." She closed her eyes, swallowed, and breathed deeply, trying to muster the courage to do this. "His name was Ehud and he was a friend of mine. He was a good friend, although he often thought we were more than that. I would often catch him watching me. I tried to tell him, that we could not work out together, but he would always smile, and say 'but I can try'. One night, when I had just come home from 5 months of hard training, he threw me a party with all my friends. However, I started to get tipsy, even though I had not been drinking alcohol. I told him that I thought someone had been spiking my drink and asked him to take me home.

"Little did I know, he had planned it all. He had got me drunk and drove me along the back roads. I kept telling him that it wasn't that way home, but he ignored me." Ziva had tears in her eyes and she seemed angry.

"He... he stopped the car, and I noticed, he had an evil look in his eyes. I told him he was drunk and tried to escape but... but... I will not tell you the rest, because then I will have to remember it and feel it all over again. I can tell you the rest, but I will not relive that again." Tears were falling freely down her face now. Tony pulled her into his chest.

"I should have been able to stop him. I'm Mossad! I should ... I should have... I am sorry. I think because he was a friend, I only realised what had happened until after it had happened. I took it hard, but didn't tell anyone. I felt weak." She shuddered. "You don't want to hear the rest."

"I do."He brushed the hair from her eyes. "I want to help you."

"What makes you think I need help, Tony? I can manage myself." Ziva snapped

"No, actually Ziva, I don't think you can. Come on."

She sighed again and looked at him. "I found out I was pregnant about 2 months later." Tony looked away and his hand curled into a fist.

"The bastard!" He spat.

"I loved my unborn baby. It was not her fault, and I decided to have her. I told my father I did not know who the father was. He hated me for some time, but he forgave me when he saw her. She was so beautiful. She had dark skin and deep chocolate brown eyes. As she got older, her hair formed into curls, not unlike mine, but less frizzy! I loved my little Zara. Tali, Anna and Ari all helped me. Ari especially." Tony looked away and his jaw clenched.

"He was not always the monster Tony. He was a good man once, but my father's betrayal, sent him over the edge. He made me tell him what had happened and he supported me through everything. He always bought Zara things and he would often look after her for me. Being a single parent is not easy and I needed all the help I could get."

"What about Ehud?" Tony asked, trying to keep his anger concealed, but he was failing and his hands were shaking with fury.

"He was never seen again after I told Ari." Ziva smiled. "He was a good man, and a good brother. I went to him when Zara... when Tali and Zara were... were killed." She coughed.

"Oh Ziva." Tony gasped. "I'm so sorry... I...what did you do?"

"I threw myself back into training, and I killed the men that had set up the bombing. I never grieved my Zara. I do not want to though." She started to cry again and she stood up. "If I leave all my emotions behind it will not hurt, and I can move on." She fell to the floor and began to openly sob.

"I want her Tony" She spluttered. He jumped off the sofa and took her in his arms. She fought him and kicked him and punched him, but he held her wrists and took her blows. She cried and he rocked her. She carried on fighting, until about 5 minutes later, when she gave in to 9 years worth of exhaustion. She was tired of fighting and pretending.

"I want her Tony." She sobbed into his t-shirt.

"I know Ziva. I know." He kissed the top of her forehead and carried on rocking her. He carried on rocking her long after she feel asleep in his arms. He didn't know what her outburst meant, and he was a little scared of it. Ziva had always been the strong one, and watching her go through her pain, made him realise, that she was human like the rest of them. Not some mindless killing machine. He carried her and put her into bed. She didn't even notice when he moved and he stroked her hair whilst she was sleeping.

"Oh Ziva."He whispered. He sat on her floor for a while, thinking. There was no way he could ever leave her now, and he made it his mission, to finally make her happy again.

A/N: OK, I know, Tony and Ziva were very OOC here, but I had to put a little something in! Next chapter will be more case related, and all will be revealed fairly soon! Well done to all those sticking with this! I know it's not great, but hey, it's my first one, so... you know!!