The italics are Tony's memories. You won't recognise some of them, I made them up =D. This chapter took me forever to write because I kept changing it, I just couldn't get it right! So I'm sorry it took so long. I'm not actually too keen on this chapter, I don't think it does the characters or story plot any justice really. But there we go, that's life =D. I hope you enjoy it regardless!

"Penny for your thoughts?"

"They're not worth that much!"

Tony ran his fingers through his hair and sighed deeply. His tears had dried up a few days ago, and now, all that was left of him was an empty, broken shell. For the past 3 days he had held Ziva's hand, not moving once. Both McGee and Abby had come in numerous amounts of time to offer coffee, or something to eat, but Tony had always answered that he didn't want anything. Once, he had asked McGee where Gibbs was.

"Erm, we don't know Tony. We haven't seen him since... well you know since...."

"Since what McGee? Since Ziva was shot? Just say it!" Tony had yelled. McGee's face fell and he hadn't come back since. He understood that Tony was stressed, so he hadn't taken it personally, but he could never seem to say the right thing.

"I just feel so useless." McGee had said to Abby that night. They were driving the nurse insane, by refusing to move from the waiting room.

"I know Tim. Same here." Every night was the same routine for them, they cried themselves to sleep in each other's arms. Kate, Paula. It was reaching an unbearable point for them, and Ziva was the last straw. It was tearing them apart, because they knew that the second they lost Ziva, they'd lose Tony as well.

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"Why do you push me away?! Every time I get close to you, and I think I might have a chance of getting in that head of yours, you just push me Ziva! You're so scared of being hurt; you push people away so that you can't get attached!"

"What do you know Tony?! You are not a psychologist! I do not need analysing! When did you start to care?!"

"I have always cared for you!"

"Come back to me, Ziva. Please." Tony sobbed. "Please come back to me." He kissed her hand and cried into her chest. "I need you...I need..." He spluttered. "You keep me sane. You stop every bad thought and feeling in my body with just a look. You have to come back. Just have to."

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Gibbs sat on the ark bench deep in thought. He half expected Fornell to turn up and sit next to him, like he had 4 years ago, but this time it was different. Ziva wasn't dead...yet. So many warnings he had from his gut, but Gibbs being Gibbs decided to ignore it, even though it was against his better judgement. He had put too much faith into Ziva and now she was lying in a hospital bed dying and Tony be her side, falling to pieces.

"It's a bit like Déjà Vu isn't it?" Came a familiar voice.

"Fornell?" Gibbs asked stunned. That was freaky.

"Yeah. Heard about David." He said as he offered Gibbs a flask containing what smelt like scotch. Gibbs smiled and shook his head. "Last time we were here, I told you about Ari."

"Yep."

"I can't tell you anything about this Jane character though, except for her father killed himself when she was 25 leaving her as sole carer for the sister who was only 7 at the time."

"Cassandra." Gibbs commented. "What happened to the mother?"

"No one knows. She disappeared 6 months before the father died. And before you ask, yes he was a suspect."

"Thank you Tobias." Gibbs said.

"Gibbs you're saying thank you?" Fornell chuckled. Gibbs however didn't smile. "Go to the hospital. Check on her. She's not Kelly." Fornell said as he walked off.

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"Tell me about her." Tony whispered one night.

Ziva didn't need to ask what he was talking about. "An angel. My angel. She was smart, and incredibly beautiful. I was always scared I was going to lose her. She wasn't perfect though!" Ziva had laughed. "She was so naughty, but she knew she could get away with it. She was the most spoilt child I have ever met! I love her more than anything, even though she is not here. She's still in my thoughts every day." Ziva murmured.

"I'm sorry." Tony whispered. They were silent for a few moments.

"Tell me about her." Ziva asked as she pulled herself up to look at Tony. It was Tony's turn to understand.

"Kate? She was my sister. I loved her like a sister. I guess she was one of my best friends. She was so funny, and smart. She always smiled even when she was hurting. And she teased me! I miss her. When I close my eyes even now, all I can see is her, lying there. I can't ever forget that picture." He looked down.

"I'm sorry." Ziva whispered. Tony laughed without humour at their sudden reversal of roles.

Tony looked at the blood still on his hands. He hadn't been able to bring himself to wash them, because that would mean leaving Ziva, something that wasn't an option.

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Cassie had been walking for three days now, and the numbness still hadn't gone yet. She had resigned to sitting on a park bench, and dusk was beginning to intoxicate her surroundings.

She couldn't bring herself to think of what had happened. Jane had killed Ziva to protect her. To prevent Tony and the grey haired man from finding out the truth. All along Cassie had known about Jane, she just hadn't put the pieces together. That left her as much as a murderer as Jane. She could've stopped everything, but she didn't, and it was her fault that Ziva was dying. She reached for the sleeping pills in her pocket and sighed.

"I'm sorry." She choked. She took the lid off and she let the pills fall freely down her throat. She smiled as the darkness filled her mind and crept through her thoughts. She didn't even feel herself fall from the bench to the floor.

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"I was just..."

"Having phone sex?"

The only thing that kept Tony alive now, was the steady bleep that told him that Ziva was alive. Even if it was barely, she was still alive.

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"Gibbs!" Abby cried as she leapt into his arms. "Oh Gibbs!" She sobbed. Gibbs just stood there, stroking Abby's hair.

"It's OK Abs. I'm here now." He soothed.

"Where the hell were you?" She yelled as she pushed away. She punched him in the stomach with frustration. "Dammit Gibbs! We needed you! Ziva needs you! Tony needs you, and you just walk off? How the hell could you be so selfish!" She collapsed in tears again, and allowed herself to be pulled into Gibbs again.

"I'm sorry Abby. I am so sorry." He sighed. "How are they?" He asked McGee.

"Not good. Both of them." He answered. "Tony is worrying me boss. He hasn't had anything to eat or drink in 3 days." Gibbs just nodded and went to say something, but was cut off by his cell.

"Gibbs." He answered.

"My goodness Jethro! I have some news!" Ducky exclaimed on the other end.

"Go on then Duck." Gibbs prompted.

"I have performed the autopsy on Jane. And I found something most worrying. Her pancreas is in perfect health! This woman does not have diabetes!"

"She wasn't the one that trashed Ziva's flat." Gibbs realized as he hung up. "McGee!" He yelled. "Find me Cassandra Mills." He barked.

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Gibbs stood staring at the unconscious girl through the glass window.

"Boss, she was brought in about an hour ago. She was found in a park, with a bottle of sleeping pills next to her. The doctors don't think she'll pull through." Gibbs nodded and walked away, leaving McGee watch the girl slowly die.

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"Abby, I need you to run a back round on Cassandra Mills." Gibbs said as he pushed Abby into her lab. She nodded and started up her computers and glanced at the clock. 3 AM, but Abby wasn't tired.

"Uh Gibbs?" She called as she finally pulled her page up. "Her birth certificate. Cassandra Mills wasn't Jane Mills' sister. She was her daughter."

"What?" Gibbs asked. "Did she know?"

"Um, well here's an adoption certificate here. Oh. Cassie was adopted by her grandparents. I don't think she knew Gibbs, they could've easily hidden it from her."

"Father?"

"Um, unknown" Abby shrugged

"That's good Abs." He kissed her on the cheek and walked out.

"I just wish it could help." She sighed.

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"Ah come on! You know you love me!" Tony joked. Ziva just stuck out her tongue.

Tony was so deep in sleep, he didn't notice the dark figure slowly creep into the pitch black hospital room.

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"Time of death, 3:35 AM." The doctor announced. "Good effort everyone." One of the nurses had a tear rolling down her eye. It still hit her when they couldn't save some one as young as that poor girl. She wiped it away and began to mumble a prayer for God to spare the young suicide's soul.

McGee watched on, as their final lead on the case slipped away.

OK, I hate this chapter, it's cheesy and w/e. But it was a sort of filler of sorts. I'm nearly done now, and I know I said Jane wasn't innocent, I lied ;) She just thought she was. Now you're all wondering what's happening huh? Well you're gonna have to wait a while, I'm so busy so apologies in advance for the late update! See you soon guys!

Annie