16th of September (PM)
I woke up to see 12:24 written on the alarm clock. Felix was gone and the convention was going to start at 1PM. I swiftly made my way to the wardrobe. I wanted to look good, as i said before, first impressions are crucial. But i wasn't sure if i was getting all dressed up to be "presentable" or to look good for Toby. Shit... The thoughts that were crossing my mind... I knew i shouldn't, but i couldn't help thinking about last night over and over again. His voice, his sweet scent, his green eyes, his tasty lips... I couldn't get my mind off of him.
I picked out a cotton candy pink dress that went loose under the breast. it had a tulle, fluffy short skirt. I wore my plain white pumps. put on some make-up, didn't forget to put on an eyeliner.
It was quarter to one when i left the room, i was almost running in high-heels to be there for Toby's performance. I was like a high-school girl crushing, on a popular boy.
When i got there the empty chairs which witnessed our first encounter with Toby last night, were all taken, as i imagined. and there was the man who enchanted me with his charms, on the stage, behind his keyboard. As he performed and the audience laughed at his voice changes and gestures, i felt an urge so disturbing that i was disgusted by myself. I felt like i had to have him.
Felix wasn't in sight, i assumed he was backstage. I got there but the guard on the door wouldn't let me in. Then a voice that sounded familiar but i didn't really figure out how, called out to me:
-Hey you're (name), right? Felix's girl!
-Yeah, you can say that, i guess. Um, do i know you?
-Well, I'm Jack. You know, from Jacksfilms.
-Now it all makes sense! Oh, i'm so stupid, i LOVE your "Your Grammar Sucks" series!
-Why, thank you! Are you having some trouble getting backstage?
-Yeah, they won't let me in!
He made a gesture to the guard and opened the door for me. It was a nice room with dark red couches and wooden tables and equipments all over the place.
I felt a hand on my waist, and as soon as i smelled the Jean Paul Gaultier, i knew who it was. Being around him made me feel guilty, but it only got worse. I heard the people clapping and Toby entered backstage. People on the backstage applaud him too when he came in.
Felix: Hey Toby come over here, i want you to meet somebody!
Toby: Hi, you must be the famous girlfriend! he said, faking a smile. he acted as if we had never met. as if i had never kissed him. he was a good guy, and i could tell.
Me: Yeah, but i'm also known as (name). And you must be Tobuscus! I really like your videos!
Toby: Heh, thank-
Felix: I guess you have already met with my other bro over here, Jack.
Jack: Yeah we met, and she owes me one.
Jack winked at me and i forced a small laugh. I was just so tense. As if i wasn't feeling like crap enough i was supposed to hang out with both Toby and Felix. I wasn't feeling so good.
Felix: Oh, i think it's my turn. (name), the speech will last about an hour, but you're in good hands with my bro's here, okay?
he kissed me on the temple and rushed off to the stage. The mad applaud he got when he got on to the stage was only a dim noise to me. Toby was looking at me, as if he now suddenly remembers everything that had happened. I started to feel ill and dizzy.
Me: Guys... Um... It was a pleasure... meeting you.. But... uhm... I'm not feelin-
i collapsed. i remember Toby shouting my name and taking me in his arms before i fell completely unconscious. shortly after, i found myself in a room, with all the Tobuscus t-shirts lying around, i knew it was Toby's. I heard Jack saying "Oh good, she's up"
Me: What happened, where am i?
Toby brought me a cup of coffee.
Jack: One minute we were talking, and the next, you were on the ground.
Me: OH SHIT! THE BABY!
Jack: Ca-calm down, what baby? What are you talking about?
Luckily Toby interfered.
Toby: Jack, um, why don't you check if Felix's speech is over.
Jack: But he'll be up there for at least another 30 mi-
Toby: Just go, Jack.
Jack: Ok, fine, whatever.
I started feeling dizzy again as soon as i was alone with Toby. He sat down onto the bed i was laying on. He looked at me over his shoulder.
Toby: How are you feeling?
Me: Shitty.
Toby: That's normal, i guess.
he turned to me, putting his hand on my cheek and caressing it.
Toby: I'm so sorry.
Me: What for?
I put my hand on his hand which was on my cheek. He sighed.
Toby: I caused this, didn't i?
Me: No... Well, yeah, but it's all on me. Trust me, you didn't do anything wrong.
Toby: But i want to. I want it so bad.
He leaned over me, pinning me to the bed. My heart started beating so fast that i was afraid he could hear it. But i was all for this. I knew it was wrong, and i knew for sure i was going to regret it, but i didn't mind.
Me: What if Jack returns?
Toby: He won't. Don't worry.
He rose up my skirt as i unzipped his trousers. He covered my body with animalistic kisses, but trying not to bruise. He lowered his trousers and slid down my white laced panties. I was thirsty for him and i could see the lust he had for me burning in his eyes.
I tried to hush my voice, knowing the walls were paper thin. But it was getting harder with his every deepening thrust. The thought of shame and guilt was more than enough to push us over the edge. I tried to hold my scream in, as i felt his throbbing member cumming inside me.
We were done but neither of us made the slightest attempt to move for a minute or so. Our breaths were returning to normal. then, he fell by my side.
Toby: Fuck...
Me: Yeah, that's a way to put it.
He started laughing.
Toby: But i gotta admit, that was hothothothot!
We heard a knock on the door and the smiles of triumph on our faces faded away. I guess that's when i truly comprehended what we had just done. Toby went to open the door, not forgetting gussying his self up on the way.
Toby: Jac- Hey, Felix!
Felix: Is she OK?
Swede promptly came beside me and pulled me into the tightest hug ever, i felt like i couldn't breath. He was almost shaking with the fear of something that might had happened to me.
Felix: You are burning up, we should take you to a hospital!
Me: I'm okay, i'm okay... Just take me to our room, all i want is to sleep through this.
He helped me get up from the bed i just made love to one of his best friends. I wanted to go and never return. What was with me and these stupid conferences? I always tended to mess something up whenever i attended one.
We left the room after he thanked his so called "bro's" and i just glanced at Toby, wanting this to be the last time i saw his piercing green eyes. Or he was going to ruin everything.