27th of September
It was a long, 12 hours flight to Gothenburg. It was 6AM when i saw Felix waiting for me at the airport. Seeing him made me put every bad thought aside. Seeing him made me feel... at home.
-I missed you.
-I missed you too Felix.
Out of clear sky, he swiped me from the ground and spun me around in the air. I was laughing so hard that i couldn't even manage to tell him to stop. He then lowered me, and kissed me. The feeling of belonging came right back.
-Hey, i got something for you. It's nothing much but the moment i saw it, i just wanted you to have it.
-Oh Felix, you really shouldn't ha-
He took out a medium sized rectangular dark-red leather box, he opened it. It was a beautiful silver necklace with a blue cameo of a mother embracing her newborn. I gasped and my eyes teared up. This was probably the sweetest thing anyone has ever given me.
-You like it?
-It's beautiful Felix!
-Here, let me...
I turned around and he put the pendant on my neck.
-It looks better on you than it did in the box, he smiled. I lifted on my toes and hugged him, never wanting to let him go again.
We got into his car, and he started driving his way home. I was going to see where he lived, where the magic happened, for the first time.
-So, how was your second trip to LA?
-Nah, it wasn't as stirring as my first time there.
He looked at me and started laughing, i forced myself to join him. He had no clue what went on.
We had arrived at an apartment complex with pale yellow sidings on the outside of the buildings. It was a cute place. His home was kinda small, bigger than mine but way smaller than Toby's.
He took and put my coat in the closet which was standing by the entrance and carried my luggage inside. It was a cozy livingroom, with his recording equipments set on a high table.
After he helped me get unpacked i was kinda hungry and it was already 07:30 so we went out for breakfast. He took me to "Systrarna Olsons Våffelbageri" (which is a great waffle bakery) in Liseberg. Liseberg was an Amusement park but the rides hadn't been open yet, since we were too early in the morning. Also, i wouldn't be able to ride any of them anyways, so it was fine by me. But it looked quite amazing, i could had only imagined what it looked like at night.
We ordered our waffles and sat down. he excitedly started speaking.
-I've got some news for you!
-I'm all ears.
-First of all, do you remember the day i went to the Disneyland?
-Yeah...
I suddenly remembered how terrible that day was but tried not to show it.
-Well, that day i needed to tell you something, but i didn't really get the chance.
He placed his hands on mine.
-I've been looking for a place to live since then.
I knew that already, but i wanted him to enjoy the moment so i acted surprised. he continued enthusiastically.
-(name), I found the perfect place for us. You, me, our baby. I'm not a spender and for the last two years i made a lot of money over YouTube, so i will be able to
afford it easily.
I didn't want to live in Sweden but i had to ask where this "perfect place" was, even though i dreaded the answer.
-So um... where exactly is it?
-Tarrytown.
My eyes brightened up, it was one of the inner suburbs of New York, in 40 minutes distance of my college.
-Well what's it like?!
-It's an old white house with a big green front yard. It has 4 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, and everything.
-wait.. That's 2 more rooms than we need.
-Uh... I thought i'd make one of them my office and the other one's for... maybe our baby won't like to be a single child. just in case.
-Hahaha, you really are planning forward, aren't you?
It was like a dream, the beautiful images that popped into my head... Felix preparing the barbecue, our son or daughter playing with his or her baby sibling... It was the ultimate fantasy of any woman. It felt too good to be true. I was scared that any moment i'd wake up to find myself laying in my own bed, in my own rotting room.
I was happy and i wasn't planning to let this amazing feeling go ever again.