Written by: Alice Victoria Love

A Xenosaga fan fic

Chapter 2

Rubedo stared at Nigredo while in class. A deep seething hatred for his brother started forming in the pit of his stomach. Why did Nigredo have to mention to him that he liked Luna? What the hell did he have to do that for? Of course, Rubedo already knew that answer. It was because Nigredo knew Rubedo liked Luna and Nigredo wanted to make sure that he would get her.

No matter how much Rubedo liked Luna, he wouldn't hurt his younger brother like that. He growled in frustration in his head. That sorry excuse for a brother. What's worse is that Nigredo had mentioned that to him just before lunch yesterday. Just before Luna had practically thrown herself on him. He sighed, imagining the look of want on her face. He could feel a light blush spread on his face and tried to think of something else.

He started to think of the math homework he would have but he suddenly went back to Luna. Her silver eyes begged for him as she laid on top of him on his bed. He smiled at the image and closed his eyes. Her aqua hair cascaded from her shoulders and she slowly slid her shirt off, revealing her perfect body. Her skinny frame and amazing curves were too beautiful not to touch. As Rubedo started to rub her sides she took his hands and moved them to her breasts. She wore a bra that matched the panties he had seen. She slipped his hands under her bra and gently squeezed. He caressed her soft luscious breasts gently. She moaned out his name and a sigh escaped his lips.

"Rubedo…" Luna moaned again, tilting her head back in pleasure. He smiled and whispered her name.

"Rubedo, dude. What are you doing?" A voice that was not Luna's entered Rubedo's fantasy. He opened his eyes to see Nigredo standing in front of him. The bell had rung and it was time for Rubedo to go to the next class. Rubedo could still feel the blush on his face.

"Uh... I was sleeping. What did it look like?" Rubedo spat at Nigredo.

"Oh really? Well you whispered 'Luna' while you were sleeping." Nigredo countered, barely containing his laughter. Nigredo then couldn't hold on to his laughter as he noticed Rubedo's blush darken.

"Sh-Shut up!" Rubedo looked away and picked up his bag and left Nigredo, walking quickly to his next class. He had to stop thinking of Luna. He would never get to have her unless Nigredo stopped liking her, and Rubedo was sure that would never happen.

Nigredo sighed as his laugh finally died down. He decided to let go what Rubedo had whispered while he was daydreaming. After all, he was sure Rubedo understood what Nigredo had been trying to tell him when he confessed his love for Luna. Nigredo was ecstatic to be in the next class, which was 3rd period, because he had it with Luna. Then he remembered that she would probably still be mad at him. He frowned and left the classroom, walking briskly to his next one. He spent too much time thinking and realized he might be late for the next class.

As he entered the classroom chaos was already there and he sat behind Luna. Nigredo had a seat to the right of Luna. He took his seat just as the bell rang for class to get started. He turned to look at Luna and gave her a smile. She didn't meet his gaze. In fact, she didn't take her eyes off of the board. There was a distant look in her eyes that told Nigredo that something was wrong. He frowned and turned away from her, a strong pang of guilt hit him hard.

He shot a look at Luna as chaos tried to hand her a note. She didn't even acknowledge the fact that chaos had tapped her shoulder. She just continued to stare at the board. Nigredo shared a look with chaos that told him that chaos was worried as well. Nigredo nodded at chaos to tell him that someone should talk to her. chaos returned the look and Nigredo took it as chaos would handle it. Nigredo felt somewhat relieved. He knew his words would be lost on Luna anyway.

As the bell rang Luna picked up her stuff and exited her trance like state. chaos casually strolled over to her and smiled.

"Hey Luna, what's up?" He asked her, a gentle smile on his face.

"Oh… Nothing really… Just thinking mainly. What about you?" She replied a little too casually. chaos gave her a look. "Okay… I just… I kissed Rubedo last night… And he rejected me…" She whispered to him. chaos frowned.

"Oh Luna… I'm sorry… Do you know why?" He asked her with pure sympathy in his voice.

"He said he just couldn't do it... Then he apologized…" She whimpered in the middle of her sentence. chaos could tell she was genuinely hurt. However, he knew of Nigredo telling Rubedo that he liked Luna. chaos wondered if Nigredo knew about said kiss. chaos put his arm around Luna's shoulder in comfort.

"There, there… It's okay. If he rejected you then he didn't deserve you in the first place." chaos said softly to her, hoping his words would comfort her instead of hurt her more. She smiled at him and almost all of her worry vanished.

"Thank you chaos. You're always such a good friend." She said to him, starting to regain her old jovial personality. chaos pulled a string out from his pocket.

"I'm glad you're returning to your old self. Now I can do this!" He chuckled dangling the string inches above her head. She instantly dropped everything and started reaching desperately for it. She whimpered as he pulled it just out of her grasp. He laughed and let her have the string allowing her to study its vibrant colors.

"Green and purple today…" She whispered studying the string closely. chaos nodded and let her keep it as they went their separate ways to class.

Luna sat in her seat with her normal cheery mood and doodled on her desk, every so often pulling her aqua hair out of her face and tucking it behind her ears. Rubedo looked over at her, if his gaze met hers he would quickly turn away. She seemed normal. Maybe he didn't hurt her as bad as he though he did.

It was until after class that he realized he was dead wrong. Instead of going to him when the bell rang to go to lunch, Luna picked her bag up and walked straight to the cafeteria. Of course she gave him a passing glare on her way out. He sighed knowing what was coming. He suddenly wished she hadn't thrown herself on him. The images he had in his head started to return. He felt a slight blush spread across his face. No! He couldn't let his imagination take control this time.

It took everything he had to not imagine Luna on top of him naked and grinding her body against his, begging for him to take her. He shuddered and slowly walked to the cafeteria hoping his growing erection would be gone by the time it took for him to get to his seat.

Nigredo smiled at Luna as she took her seat next to him. She returned his smile and Nigredo silently thanked chaos for whatever he did to fix her. Nigredo liked it when Luna was in a good mood. It made him be in a good mood. Luna never even looked at Rubedo as he made his way to their table. He greeted everyone awkwardly and sat down. Albedo eyed him and Rubedo gave him a look that explained everything. Uncomfortable boners are uncomfortable.

Lunch went on normally just casual conversation with Luna playing with the string and occasionally jumping in with a lighthearted joke. She was a more lovable person when she was in a good mood. She smiled more, and interacted with others more instead of retreating back into her protective shell. You can always tell when she has gone into her shell. The amber circles cover her eyes and they are no longer silver but instead the iris is entirely amber. It frightens a lot of her friends when she does this. They never know when she will come out again. She is a… Spontaneous person at times.

Nigredo had full intentions to make Luna his today. As soon as lunch was over Nigredo looked at her and smiled. She smiled back at him but tilted her head to the side in confusion. "Something wrong Nigredo?" She asked him with a slight joke in her voice.

Nigredo had no idea what the joke in her voice was for. He never knew why she did that when someone is trying to be serious. Maybe she hates conflict. "Will you meet me out in the park tonight… Say around 9?" Nigredo asked her with his most casual smile.

"Isn't that a little late to be outside the dorms?" Luna gave him a wry smile and a small blush spread across her cheeks. Nigredo instantly blushed in return. He scratched the back of his head nervously.

"Oh... I hadn't meant it like that Luna…" He said quietly not sure how she would react. She stared at him with a blank expression for a second before playfully punching him in the arm.

"I knew that silly!" Luna giggled and got up to go to her next class. Nigredo stared at her as she walked by him. In that time she took to give him a blank stare he realized that she had no idea about his feelings for her. This was going to be more difficult than Nigredo thought it would be.

Nigredo sat on one of the park benches. The sky looked beautiful tonight. The moon was full and shining in all of its greatness. Stars decorated the sky and created stories with their shapes. He gazed at them in amazement. The park looked beautiful as well. The moon shined down on it creating a silver tint on the park. The flowers that had been planted stood out brightly with the help of the moon and stars. The grass was full of lush green colors. The minimal amount of trees was just the right amount for this small park.

Nigredo thought of Luna. He imagined her beautiful face smiling at him with that cute little blush creeping across it. He sighed as he pictured himself pulling her closer to him and keeping his arms wrapped tightly around her. He pictured her looking up at him with that adorable 'I don't understand' face. He would then take her chin in his hand and kiss her lightly. He sighed and smiled to himself. He couldn't wait to be able to kiss those pretty lips of hers.

"Hey." A voice called to him from behind. Nigredo turned around and was stunned. Luna let her hair down and allowed it to do whatever it naturally does, which is straight but slightly wavy. It fell to her stomach and curled out at the ends. She wore a dark purple tank top and a black light zip-up jacket. She had a short dark purple and black plaid skirt with knee-high black boots. Her leggings were an aqua color that matched her hair and had a lacy pattern.

Nigredo took her sight in and let go of a deep breath he had been holding. "You… You look beautiful." He whispered to her, not taking his eyes off hers. She smiled back at him.

"Now I know that's not what you had me come here for." She winked at him. Nigredo smiled. Good she's in a playful mood. He thought to himself fist pumping in his head.

"No, of course it's not." Nigredo said, finally able to break from his shock. "I had you come here because I have something to tell you." He patted the spot next to him on his bench. She looked at his hand blankly then slowly and timidly made her way over to the bench to sit next to him.

"Oh? And what would that be?" She asked him her shyness coming out. He chuckled at her and patted her head gently.

"Why so nervous Little Blue?" He teased her playfully. She felt a blush spread across her face at that name. Nigredo, Rubedo, and Albedo always call her Little Blue. It started in grade school when she first met the brothers. She had first met Albedo and as soon as he saw her he started commenting on her blue hair. At first he teased her but he soon grew to like her hair. She was such a scrawny girl back then. So Albedo then bequeathed her with the name Little Blue.

She shook the memory away and smiled at him. "Oh… I'm not nervous." She said playfully punching him in the arm. He chuckled and looked back up at the stars.

"The stars are beautiful tonight… Just like you…" He whispered, a strong amount of sentiment in his statement. She blushed and looked up at them as well.

"They are pretty tonight…" She whispered. She looked back at him quickly, her patience running thin. "If that's all can I go now?" She asked him not wanting to wait any longer. He sighed and looked into her eyes lovingly.

"No… It's not all I had to say… I wanted to tell you… That… I think I'm in love with you…" He whispered searching her face for her reaction. Her expression was blank and she stared back at him.

"You… What?" She asked needing to hear it again. He frowned.

"I like you… A lot… I have for a while now… I want to be with you… I want to be able to make you happy and to have you at my side. I want… You." He admitted to her, letting all of his feelings go in the few words he could think of on the spot to describe his emotions for her. He stared into her eyes, searching for any of the feelings to be returned. He knew looking for it was futile because he never really knew what she was thinking.

She opened her mouth to speak but she couldn't think of anything to say. A dark blush spread across her face and her eyes were wide. She tried to force a blank expression onto her face but she couldn't. The emotion that was obviously on her face was shock. She had always suspected that Nigredo fancied her but she never knew he would have the guts to say it to her face, yet here she was listening to Nigredo spill out his feelings for her. The shock finally ebbed away from her face. She tried to say something but still nothing came out. Say something! I feel the same about you! I'm not sure that's a good idea! ANYTHING! She thought to herself begging for words to come out of her mouth.

Instead of words coming out of her mouth, a small squeak came out. It sounded like a gasp and a sharp shriek happening at once. Her eyes widened in embarrassment and she got up running away from him quickly. She couldn't look him in the face after that embarrassing noise came out. She was always rather good with her words.

"Wait!" Nigredo called out, getting up to run after her. He tried to catch up to her but she just kept running faster. "Luna! Wait!" He called out to her. When she reached the parks opening gate she sprinted down the street to her dorm. He stopped at the gate to catch his breath and marvel at how fast she can be. He knew that she was crying when she was running. He could hear her extremely labored breathing. Sure running makes you breathe heavier but that was not running breathing… That was crying breathing. He frowned and fell to his knees slamming his fists onto the ground. "Damn it!" He wailed. He looked at his fists and realized his knuckles were bleeding. He then realized that one of his fingers was having a sharp pain run through it. He whimpered and pulled lightly on it. He screamed out in pain. Definitely broken… He decided he would go to the nurse before he went to his dorm. I hope this doesn't change things between us… If I can't have her in a relationship… I still want her to be my friend… He thought sadly as he slowly walked to the school campus towards the nurses office.

End of Chapter 2

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