What has happened to us?
Chapter 10:
Loren's POV:
How could I have been so stupid? I loved him and he just broke my heart all over again by saying that 'I was right, I was a rebound girl'. But, I could admit it was my fought by telling him 'that if he was jealous, good because I was over him'. It was true I don't love him. But my question is why do I care so much of what he thinks I'm supposed to be over him and happy and to also create a new live but, every time I do it goes right back to him. Long forgotten about the party I changed out of my dress and had put on some baggy sweat pants and a white-t. Then had put my hair into a messy bun I really didn't care about my appearance like he said I'm the rebound girl so why don't I just dress like one. No one will care what happens to me he surely doesn't. Why should I fall for someone else they will just leave me like my dad and now Eddie? God I hate them. I loved them and you see what they do, they just leave not caring who gets in there way or who they hurt. Trying to clear my mind I thought I could make some tea and just stay in the dark until the sunrise after all its only twelve o'clock. Coming out of my room I see someone that I don't really want to talk about and that is…..my mom.
Nora: I was hoping you would come out of your room soon.
Loren: What are you doing here? *crossing my arms over my chest*
Nora: Well, there are a lot of reasons why I'm still here.
Loren: And that would be. *getting smart*
Nora: *Noticing she was getting smart* don't get smart with me.
Loren: Why it's not like I'm a kid anymore.
Nora: You're right you are not a kid anymore but you're my kid so sit down. *getting annoyed of her smart remarks*
*Loren just sat down*
Nora: Good now are you going to tell me what the hell is going on with you.
Loren: I really don't want to talk about it. *not making eye contact with her mother*
Nora: Well I guess I'm going to be here all night because I'm not leaving.
Loren: Uh, find I will tell you but, on two condensations.
Nora: And that will be.
Loren: One, do you mind making me some tea and two you leave right after I tell you.
Nora: I will make you the tea but we will have to see about me leaving.
*Nora stood up to put the kettle on the stove, then placed to cups with tea bags in them and poured the water in cup and put a little bit sugar and just the right amount of honey*
Nora: Here you go.
Loren: Thanks *moving the tea bag up and down trying to avoid her mother staring at her*
Nora: So are you going to tell me or not.
Loren: Are you sure you want to listen because you can leave right now and forget all about me and this exact day right now.
Nora: Nice try and it can't be that bad of a story so stop stalling and tell me already.
Loren: Fine, it all happen about three months ago when I found out Eddie cheated on me.
Nora: Oh, honey why didn't you just tell me.
Loren: I didn't want you and Max to break up or have some problems in your relationship because of me and Eddie.
Nora: Nothing would have happen to us I'm just worried about you are you sure you're ok.
Loren: Yeah I'm fine. *trying to sound convincing*
Nora: Loren, I can see right through that.
*That's all Nora had to say and Loren started crying*
Loren: Every time I feel like I'm about to fall in love with a boy it just seems like he runs away. *sniffling*
Nora: Hey, listen to me *holding her cheeks so she could see her daughter's eyes* there are going to be guys out there that will run and they won't but you will find your soul mate it won't be easy but nothing is easy in life.
Loren: *Getting out of her mother's hug* but the worse is when he cheated on me with Chloe do you know how painful that was to see the love of my life go back to her. *still crying*
Nora: I'm so sorry.
Loren: It isn't your fought; it's mine because I was the dumb ass to think that a cute rock star would fall for a girl like me.
Nora: Do not ever call yourself dumb again. *shaking her head*
Loren: Why not uh, Trent didn't even have the dignity to say goodbye to his only daughter or even to you but, you got to see him one more time I didn't have that chance.
*Now Nora was crying*
Loren: All I could remember was you crying every single night trying to figure out what in the hell we were supposed to do or how we were going to live.
Nora: But we found our way.
Loren: Barely, we had to stay over friends' houses to wait until you got a job, when Trent had a perfect life. Not once did he send you money or send me a card for my birthday.
Nora: Are you blaming me for this.
Loren: No I'm not *standing up from her chair* blaming anyone for this I'm blaming myself for this.
Nora: Why you did nothing wrong.
Loren: Because I was the daughter that took everything for granted I didn't stand the fact that when he left he was never coming back and I didn't appreciate that I had a father when some of those kids outside the real world don't have anyone in their life.
Nora: Are you kidding me Loren *standing from her chair now* you never took anything for granted every day you made sure that I was ok when your dad left you did not cry once. Or the time when we moved from house to house you did not complain once. This is why you are the girl you are today.
Loren: And what would that be a girl that is worthless or a little girl falling for the wrong guy because she is a hopeless romantic.
Nora: Neither you are a mature young adult that I love so much and never doubt it for a second to giving birth to you.
Loren: Well, there you heard the whole story now will you please just go.
Nora: No, have you not heard a single thing I said.
Loren: Oh, I have its just not coming to me right now because every day I feel the exact same way I feel right now and that is the girl right here in front of you pathetic and the person that puts on a shield to act tough because she has to.
Nora: Not with me you don't have to act tough all the time if you give people a chance to show you what makes you feel proud of yourself or- *she got interrupted*
Loren: Stop, I don't want to hear it because it's hard trying to show people the real me because they will see how strong I am and not give a damn about me or my heart.
Nora: You know what I'm tired of hearing you put yourself down like this because over one guy.
Loren: It's not just him mom it's Trent to do not know I have dreams of him leaving us over and over again. I'm pretty sure you don't because it sucks.
Nora: Do you not think I miss him to honey I miss that little girl always with her father being happy.
Loren: It sure doesn't seem like it.
Nora: Your right it doesn't seem like because I found a man that loves you and me, who cannot wait to be your stepfather.
Loren: And I love Max to but a little girl always will wants her real father with her. But every time I see Trent. *she stopped because she didn't want to say what she was about to say in front of mother*
Nora: Every time you see Trent in your dreams go on tell me what were you going to say.
Loren: Every time I see Trent I just want to hurt maybe not even hurt him make him feel the same pain that he made me feel for eighteen years.
Nora: Oh, sweet heart you don't want to do that.
Loren: How would you know because he didn't just leave you he left me to?
Nora: Your right I don't know but I do know why you slapped Eddie.
Loren: And why would that be.
Nora: Because he called you a 'rebound girl' and for that would make me want to slap him to. *trying to lighten up the mood*
Loren: You know trying to lighten up the mood is not going to work with me because I'm stubborn and don't let things get over me.
Nora: It was worth a try but I do want to give you a little advice for yourself and then I will leave. *sitting down*
Loren: If it's something stupid or dumb I don't want to hear it.
Nora: Have I ever given you dumb advice.
*Loren just shook her head*
Nora: Know sit down and stop getting smart with me.
Loren: After all I am your child so I get the smartness and the stubbornness from you. *sitting down also giving a smirk*
Nora: Good point but stop interrupting me so I can get this out.
Loren: Ok sorry.
Nora: One of my advices would be never forget but always forgive.
Loren: So you're saying if Trent came into your life again you would forgive him.
Nora: No I would not but we are not talking about Trent we are talking about Eddie.
Loren: Ok, so I should just forgive him that easily after all the things he said to me today or rather yesterday after all it is four in the morning.
Nora: Yes I am because you started it by calling him in your room and asking or at least telling him that he was jealous.
Loren: Ok fine I will apologize but do you mind if I can get some sleep after all we have shopping to do today for your wedding. *smiling*
Nora: Yes, I finally get to see that small of yours. *smiling to*
Loren: Ok mom time to leave.
Nora: Ok, Ok I'm leaving *standing up from her chair and walking to the door*
Loren: Hey mom *opening the door* thank you.
Nora: For what sweet-heart.
Loren: For letting me open up and tell you what was going in my life and not letting me call myself worthless and the other stuff I was saying.
Nora: Oh, you're welcome but I'm your mom that is my job to help you through the good and bad stuff that is in your life.
*Loren didn't even say anything she just hugged her mom really tight not ready to let her go just yet*
Nora: Honey your squeezing me a little too hard.
Loren: Oh, sorry.
Nora: It's ok but just never leave my out of the loop ok you can call me anytime day or night.
Loren: Ok I love you.
Nora: I love you too. *once said Nora left, Loren went to the table and picked up the cups and placed them in the sink. Loren got inspired to write another song and it was called Dreaming with a Broken Heart. She thought it was the perfect song to express her feelings and to show that she was not the only person who had her heart broken*
So, I'm finished and I love all you guys for liking or maybe even loving this fanfic. I have been reading all of your comments and I love them keep them coming and I see that people are doing requested one- shots so if people want me to do some just write a review or just simply inbox me on tumblr also the song is by John Mayer.