Disclamiar: I don't own D. Gray - Man, some really awesome person does…
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What if the Black Order happened across a dying Noah? The Order wouldn't let that kind of opportunity pass them by right? Because the Black Order is all about fu**ing with things they shouldn't. So I am taking that idea and mixing it with Kanda and Alma's past!
Allen is not a Second Exorcist! She is something else…
I'm sorry if you don't like it… but I had to… the stupid bunny wouldn't leave me alone!
Warning: Fem!Allen. Me and my crazy ideas… and keep in mind that Noah's are crazy…? Will be Poker Pair (Tyki x Allen) in the future! At some point... When Ellen's older...
Special thanks to Belletiger BT! Your so cool for giving me ideas and helping with working out the plot bunny's! The title of this fic Belletiger BT came up with! Thank you! : )
The small little girl watched her new friend Alma run around the large freezing room, the young boy running up to each pool of water within the room and talking happily about nothing all that important to each one.
To Ellen it seemed silly, the ones within the pools couldn't hear Alma, but yet the boy insisted on doing this everyday. The small little girl never entered the room, her stomach would feel heavy and the small child didn't like the sounds of the ones sleeping.
It was a nice routine though…
Little Ellen liked following the older boy around as they went to eat and then came here to talk to his sleeping friends. When she was with Alma she was free to wander (though she seemed to get lost quite easily) around the large underground compound that everyone within called home.
Though little Ellen was never left completely alone, there always being a man dressed in red around her and within sight of her. The men in red where like her shadow…
Though the men in red were not all that nice to her, not like that Shadowy Gentleman.
Little Ellen really liked him.
Though today's routine was broken when a new child emerged from one of the many pools of water…
Her silver eyes watched as the new boy emerged. Much like how it had been for her, though the small five year old noted that this new boy was treated like he was special.
Like he was something important…
The Adults were just so happy that he had awoke...
Little Ellen pressed closer to the stone wall, her pale face blank. She watched everything that was happening within the large room, she watched and listened. Because her eyes could only see so much, her eyes could be tricked.
But her ears could hear the truth. Her heart could hear the truth in the sound that flowed from everyone and everything. Little Ellen wasn't alone, but yet she was. Surely there had to be something that she was missing, because to the small five year old, the world was filled with nothing but bad sounds…
except for the few like her Nii-san and Alma…
But even then little Ellen was alone, because she was different.
This new boy was one of them, what her Nii-san called an 'Apostle of God'. She could hear the buzz that was connected to his tune…
Her silver eyes sharpened, but still her face remained blank other then the slight narrowing of her eyes. Her pale fingers resting against the cold stone. The small child could hear the other thing also, when Alma had first touched the new boy.
She hadn't realized that one could have music that would make another's sound complete. Alma's tune, the core of his sound, it flowed and became so whole when him and the new child touched or when they were close. Those two tunes, they complemented the other…
The small little girl wanted to sound like that. This place was filled with so many sounds, but none were what she wanted, none of them complemented her own tune. Little Ellen's small pink lips twisted down into a soft frown. The small child wanted many things, she realized. She wanted to find the tune that went with hers, she wanted to find that melody that she so loved to sing.
She didn't want to be broken…
The little five year old watched as the new boy was taken away, Alma following with a happy smile on his face. His sound also truly happy. That was how it should be, that was right. Though she didn't understand why, it was just one of those things that 'Just Was'.
It had been just a little over three weeks since the little white haired child had been forced to meet Alma. It had been a little over three weeks when little Ellen had seen, had heard, how out of place she was.
How unwanted she was.
Because she was broken. The small child was not like those that were within this place. Little Ellen was not like them, she was different. Now more then ever she wanted to find that sound, that melody that would make everything make sense. Because she was alone…
Little Ellen hated being alone.
"Ellen?" A familiar voice called out from behind her, the small child turned to look at the one that had spoken. Her Nii-chan was standing behind her looking a little worried. It was now that the small and thin little five year old realized that she was scowling. Little Ellen quickly twisted her small pink lips into a smile, though this did very little to make Bak's sound lighten.
But to hear his worry fade just slightly was better then nothing.
The young man walked over to her and kneeled down next to her. His gray eyes caring and little Ellen basked in that sound that was now coming from the young blond, her heart filling with joy. "Who was that boy? The one that's like Alma?" The small child asked in a curious voice. Her silver eyes turning back to look at the now empty room. "He is an Apostil of God too? He's special like Alma?"
The young man frowned but nodded his head. The small child turned her eyes back to her Nii-san. Ellen watched him stand and then extend his hand to her. Little Ellen smiled a happy smile and took the offered hand, her silver eyes flashing with contentment.
The young man smiled in return, though his sound was still concerned. "My mother and father want to do more testing on you…" Bak started, and little Ellen was quick to nod her head, eager to please her Nii-san.
The young adult led her down the halls and back to the room that all her testing took place in, but before her and her Nii-chan could make it all the way to the last door little Ellen paused, her small pale left hand slipping out of Bak's.
Her head tilted to the right, her silver eyes blinking as a new sound ghosted out of the room and reached her sensitive ears. Bak turned to look at her, his eyes filling with confusion, but little Ellen was lost in that sound that was just so familiar.
Though the small child also knew that she had never heard it before today…
Her soft blue slippers padding against the cold stone floor as the small child ran the rest of the way down the hall. Little Ellen could hear Bak call out to her, but the small child didn't pause and pushed open one of the double doors and entered the room.
All eyes in the room on her as soon as she entered.
Her silver eyes were wide and ignoring all of the adults within the room except for one. Ellen only focusing on the man dressed in black and gold, the man with the deep red hair that was standing next to Ms. Twi.
Red…
She loved the color red, it was such a pretty color. Such a familiar color…
Her small pink lips twisted into a wide delighted smile at the sight of the man, the small child run up to him without a second thought. The man with red hair turned and frowned at her, but that didn't detour her. Little Ellen reached him and quickly held out her hands. Her lips still fixed in a wide delighted smile.
Ellen's silver eyes fixed on his dark red hair. The small child could feel it, could hear it, his tune and its familiarity. She knew this man, but yet she didn't, but then that didn't matter. She remembered the man with red hair like fire…
The mans name fluttered across her mind and then past her lips like a soft whisper. Though it felt oddly foreign on her tongue when she tried to speak it. "Me-r- Cr- oss.~" She sang softly, she knew this man, she knew him!
Her silver eyes watched the man narrow his eyes at her and turn to look at Ms. Twi, a deep frown fixed on his handsome face. "Who's the kid?" he asked in a deep baritone.
Ellen tilted her head to the side and blinked.
How odd…
The small child knew this man, but it appeared that he had forgotten her…
The memory of the first time that they met ghosted across her mind. It had been not a very nice meeting. The man with red hair had almost died, but then… So had she… Little Ellen could remember the red on the ground and on her hands…
The rain hitting her face, she could feel it like it was yesterday…
But then there was something wrong with it all…
Little Ellen's silver eyes narrowed, but her smile didn't waver. The small child shook her head. She remembered this man, but yet she also knew that she had never seen him before today. His sound at the moment was confused, but also indifferent. The small white haired child titled her head a little further. Her silver eyes looking confused as her hands fell to her sides.
She didn't understand.
Another memory flashed before her eyes…
Dark brown eyes flashed with mirth, they were in a dimly lit bar and the General was downing yet another beer. If the man kept that up, he would be blind drunk before long.
A heavy sigh past lips that were twisted down into a deep frown, the sound seemed only to amuse the Exorcist General even more. The Red haired man smirked and leaned back in his chair. "You should have a drink, loosen up some." The man said, his smirk stretching wider. "oh, that's right. Your still a fucking snot nosed brat-"
Little Ellen's smile twisted into a frown. Her silver eyes flashing with the insult. Her small pink lips parted and the words past them in an upset and angry growl. "Fuck you Cross!" The small child then promptly kicked the tall red head in the shin.
Ms. Twi gasped, her black eyes widening at the words that the small little girl had just spoken, the four men dressed in red all seemed to take a step forward. Their hands raising and their mouths opening. The stench of magic became stronger…
General Cross hissed from the kick, but then he blinked, his dark brown eyes narrowing at the small child that was glaring angrily at him. Little Ellen didn't look away from the mans eyes, her own silver flashing. Her small pink lips twisting into an angry pout...
That was when the man threw back his head and laughed. The sound was deep and hearty, it bounced of the walls and seemed to fill the room with its mirth and arrogance. Little Ellen's silver eyes widened and her lips slid into a happy little smile.
She liked this man's laugh...
The man couched down, one hand messing up her short white hair, the other resting on his knee. His lips were pulled into a wide amused smile, but the small girl didn't miss the sharp look in the adult's dark eyes. "You're a cute little brat, what's your name?" He said in a tone that was lined with his amusement.
Little Ellen smiled wider at the man, her silver eyes flickering over to look at the Shadowy Gentleman in the two-way mirror that was on the far wall. His white eyes were narrowed and his white smile wide. He chuckled, one white gloved hand rose to place a finger against his grinning mouth.
The Shadowy Gentleman spoke then just above a whisper. Little Ellen nodded and turned her eyes back onto the man with red hair. The mans own eyes flickering over to the side to see what she had been looking at. "Ellen~!" she giggled out. Then the little girl placed a small finger to her pink lips, her voice just above a whisper, just like the Shadowy Gentleman's. "I am supposed to ask you about Tim, how is he?"
The man with red hair narrowed his eyes at her and little Ellen smiled wider as the man then stood a second after. Ms. Twi was then speaking, telling the Crows (That was what the men in red were called, though Ellen didn't know why) to stand down, that was when Bak finally entered the room…
It was about a half hour later, and after getting in trouble for swearing, that Ellen found herself sitting at the metal table again. General Cross and Ms. Renee, the young blond woman that Ellen had met on her fisrt day of being awake, stood on the other side of the table. Bak was standing next to her and to her right. Little Ellen was once again hooked up to those machines that could read her heart beat and brain waves. "We want you to help us find someone." Ms. Renee said in a cold tone, but little Ellen wasn't really listening to her.
Her silver eyes were fixed on the glowing green object that the red haired man had just placed on the table before her. Her very being focused on it. The small five year old could hear its buzz whispering and sighing, yearning for the one that matched its tune.
Little Ellen felt the need to reach out and touch, this glowing…
This glowing star, because it reminded her so much of a star...
This glowing star's tune just so beautiful. The soft green light pulsing and calling to her. She wanted to feel the vibration that its tune gave off…
Her silver eyes rose to look at the adults within the room, her eyes asking promotion to touch. Her Nii-san nodded and the small little girl reached out with her pale left hand. Her finger tips just barely brushing against the outer rim of the soft green light…
Its buzz wavered and pulsed with anger, her fingers burning. little Ellen pulled back her hand with a whimper of pain. The small child's lips twisting into a hurt pout before they twisted into an angry smile. Ellen could feel anger surge up and twist within her heart. The urge to lash out choking her.
The adults had only a second to react as the small five year old pushed herself up in her chair, her left hand raising and her silver eyes flashing gold as the little girl made to bring her hand down on the glowing green object before her…
To lash out at this fallen star, to crush and destroy it…
"Stop ~" The Shadowy Gentleman sang out and Ellen paused. Everything within the room seemed to come to a stand still. The men in red, the Crows, once again readying their magic, everyone within the room tense. "There is no need for that. It is simply afraid, you are different then the others within this world and it can feel that."
The small little girl lowered her hand and her silver eyes widened. Now that she listened she could hear it. She could hear this things fear of her, everything was afraid of her or hated her…
But then, Ellen knew what it felt like to be afraid, to be looking for something and not being able to find it. The Shadowy Gentleman smiled kindly at her, his white eyes flashing with patients. "You are special my little Ellen. You are just lost, but all lost things will be found. You just need to wait. ~"
She was lost? Lost like this little green star?
The little girl's lips twsited into a soft smile. Ellen smiling at the poor glowing little thing before her. Her silver eyes half closing as Ellen started to hum, hum that lullaby, that melody that she wanted to hear and find. They were both lost, but then the small five year old knew how to find where this poor little star belonged…
The glowing green stars light seemed to brighten, its buzz pulsing higher and it was now that little Ellen could her the tune that went with this glowing little stars buzz. It was faint and it sounded oh so far away, but she could…
Her small pink lips smiled with delight as her right hand rose and reached out to where she could hear and feel the stars matching tune was coming from. Her gold eyes far away and unfocused. It was there, the tune that went with this little stars buzz was just right there-
"Ellen?" Bak called out to her and the small girl blinked and her gold eyes bled back to silver. The young blond woman that was standing next to Cross was smiling, Ms. Renee was obviously pleased with what had just happened.
General Cross was frowning with distaste.
"Did you find it? The Accommodator that belongs to this Innocence?" Ms. Renee asked and Ellen smiled at the woman, the small child not really understanding her words, but knowing that she had finally made the young woman happy.
Little Ellen was delighted with this fact.
When Ms. Renee asked the small pale child where this Accommodator was, little Ellen simply pointed in the direction that she could still hear that tune coming from. This seemed to not be what the young blond haired woman was wanting, but that was the best the small five year old could do. She was then given a piece of paper that had detailed pictures on it, Ms. Renee called it a map…
Ellen had once again smiled and pointed up and to the right, completely ignoring the map on the table before her. The small little girl didn't understand when this seemed to make the young woman more irritated.
Ellen just wanted to make them happy…
"If you can not show us on a map, would you be able to take us to this 'Tune'?" Mr. Epstain, that one older man that Ellen didn't like, asked her. His dark eyes looking at her through his glasses. The small child didn't understand what the big deal was, but Ellen nodded her head, the small child eager to make the adults happy.
Because if she made them happy, this man happy, then that would make her Nii-san happy.
And then maybe their, all the adults within this place, sounds wouldn't be so hateful toward her…
The next few days past before she knew it.
Ellen sat within the mess hall, Alma and the new boy sitting on one side of the table, Ellen and Edgar on the other. Little Ellen swung her feet under the table to the beat of that melody, her small hands resting on the table as Alma talked about what he thought was outside of this place that they called home.
Next to Alma was the new boy, who was glaring at her. Ellen had learned from Alma that his name was Yuu. Though Yuu didn't seemed to want to talk to her at all. The other boy was watching her with his narrowed blue eyes, his shoulder length dark blue hair tucked behind his ears, his arms crossed over his chest as he glared at her more.
Edgar chuckled and corrected Alma on quite a few things that he had said, little Ellen listening intently to everything that was being said.
It was now that another man dressed in a lab coat came over to the small group. Ellen's silver eyes turned to the new adult and her small pink lips twisted into a nice smile to greet him. The young brown haired man smiled a forced smile back at her, before he placed what he was holding in his hands on the table.
It was three bowls filled with something that was pure white. Alma quickly took a bowl and took a spoon full of the white stuff. The older boy then put the spoon in his mouth and smiled with contentment. The small white haired girl titled her head and watched the new boy follow, also taking a bite of the white stuff in the bowl...
Edgar chuckled as Yuu made a face but took another spoonful. The older man turned his blue eyes on her, but little Ellen wasn't paying him much mind. Her silver eyes fixed on watching the two boys eat. "The third bowl is for you Ellen." Edgar said with amusement.
The brown haired man took a seat next to Alma, his eyes narrowing at the older man. "Are you sure about this Edgar? didn't Mr. Epstain say that she was not to eat anything outside of her planned diet-" The man paused as Edgar frowned at him.
Edgar frowned deeper at the younger male for a moment more before turning his eyes back to her, little Ellen quickly smiling at the adult. The man pushed the third bowl to her and smiling wider. "It's called ice cream. it's a special treat you get when you're good. If you do a good job today then you can have more when you come back, ok?"
Ellen smiled wider and nodded her head, her eyes turning to look at the white stuff in the bowl before her. The small five year old took the silver spoon and popped it into her mouth, her silver eyes blinking and her pink lips twisting into a confused frown.
It was cold, but…
Her lips stretched into a wide and delighted smile as the ice creams sweetness spread over her tongue. Her eyes filling with joy and the small little girl had the bowl cleared of the cold treat before anyone could blink. Edgar chuckled, an intrigued smile tugging at his mouth.
Alma and Yuu watching the small little girl stand on her chiar and take the bowl that was sitting forgotten in front of Yuu, the older boy just sat there and watched her inhale his bowl also.
"That's interesting. Do you like ice cream Ellen?" Edgar asked, the man blinking when both empty bowls were held out to him pointedly, just inches from his nose. The small white haired child smiling nice and wide as she eagerly nodded her head. Her smile wide in hopes of getting more sweets.
Yet another silly question.
"I like ice cream! It's sweet! I love sweet! ~" the little girl giggled. "-But not as much as music! ~ " she added after a short pause and a small thoughtful tilt of her head.
"Father what are you doing?" her Nii-san asked as he entered the room, his mouth set in a frown as he took in the mess on the small little girls face and the two empty bowls in her hands. "What did you give her? Mother's not going to be happy about this…"
Edgar just chuckled and took the two bowls from Ellen, who was still holding them out to him with hopeful silver eyes, and placed them back onto the table. "Alma and Yuu were getting ice cream, I thought that Ellen should get some too. The poor thing must be sick of just eating that gruel Sarinz makes her eat… and It's just ice cream."
Bak sighed heavily, one hand rubbing at his forehead. "You can't go giving her sugar! We don't know- !" The young man hissed out at his father, his gray eyes sharp. Little Ellen slipped down from the bench and was at the young blond's side in just a few steps. Her small pale hands amurging from the sleeves of her coat to take a hold of her Nii-san's right hand.
Ellen smiled up at the young man when he turned to look at her. The little girl wanted more sweet things, but also knowing that Edgar wouldn't be giving her anymore. She tugged on the larger hand that she was holding. "Nii-san can I have more please? I like sweet! ~" She sang out, her tone lined with hope.
The young blond sighed again and shot his father another angry look. The older man simply chuckled and waved at his son as two Crow came through the doors. Little Ellen only paid them an uncaring glance. "Looks like its time for you to go. Have fun!" Edgar said, his smile widening as his son continued to glower at him.
Ellen pouted with the fact that she wasn't going to get anymore ice cream, but smiled a moment later. Remembering that Edgar had said that she could have more if she did a good job today.
The small child giggled with the thought of more ice cream. Ellen liked sweets. She liked sweet just as much as she liked the color red…
But not as much as she like music.
She waved to the ones sitting at the table, her silver eyes flashing happily as Alma waved back. Yuu simply frowned harder at her and his glare turned colder, but little Ellen could hear his worry for her in his sound…
Just like how she could also hear how much Yuu truly liked Alma. Even when Yuu was always being mean to the other boy…
Little Ellen was led out of the mess hall, then down a few more halls and up a flight of stairs. The small child humming as they walked, her head swaying from side to side happily. Her silver eyes widening with surprise at who was standing at the two double doors that would take the small group to this outside.
General Cross pushed away from the doors and took his cigarette from his mouth. His dark brown eyes narrowing and watching every move that she made. Little Ellen could only smile with glee as one of the Crows unlocked and then pushed the doors open…
Please review! I like reviews! I hope I did Kanda ok... but anyway please let me know what you think and if there is anything you might want to see...
Oh, and just to clear it up some, yes... Ellen can find Innocence and Accommodators.
Next: Ellen and the outside world. It can be a very overwhelming place for a five year old… Especially when you have a Red Haired General that plans to use your cuteness to pick up woman and a Nii-san that is ready to kill said General… and two poor Crow stuck in-between…