While this writing I had my own soundtrack that inspired me, my choices are not necessarily what Amy Sherman Palladino would choose however I think the emotions invoked by the songs fits my theme and chapter.

Soundtrack Chapter 6

1. Big Girls Don't Cry by Fergie (Can be found on youtube)

Note: Unfortunately fanfiction dot net doesn't react well to youtube hyperlinks; as a result I am unable to provide direct links to the songs here.

Review Questions from Chapter 5

iwannabegilmore – Sometimes having feelings for each other does not automatically resolve all problems, there are just too many underlying issues that can't be fixed by one night of passion.

Curely-Q – It wasn't just for closure, proximity even if it's only for one night with the one you love after 2 years apart is a good thing. My premise when writing this was half a loaf is kinda better than none.

Future Chapters: Chapters 7 – 8 have been written and betad, however I am struggling with Chapter 9, once I have posted Chapters 7 and 8 in the next few days I don't have an estimate for when the others will be ready. I hope that the fact that this chapter is nice and long will pacify you till then. I will try not to take too long writing them, thanks for bearing with me.

This Chapter

I struggled with Lorelai's voice; I hope I did her some justice.

Chapter 6 –Daylight

January 24, 2009 – Massachusetts

After getting home, Rory called Finn to thank him and regale him on the previous night's activities. After she hangs up the call, she gets out of the car and goes into the house.

She opened the backdoor gently, took off her shoes and walked on tip toe across the kitchen. As her hand connects to her bedroom door, she hears someone clearing their throat and then kitchen lights come on. This caused Rory to jump in surprise as she hadn't expected her mum to be up yet, Lorelai loved having a lie in on Saturdays.

"Busted!"

"Mum.!.ehm..Morning Mum"

"Good morning to you to daughter of mine and what time do you call this?"

Lorelai's eyes squinted suspiciously as she took in her daughter's rumbled attire and wet hair. What she saw in front of her was not to her liking; her beautiful intelligent daughter was acting out of character, Rory did not stay out all night without calling her mother, and she did not come home looking like that.

"I know that you are all grown up and stuff and have not lived at home in years, however Rory, I would expect that you give me the courtesy of a phone call or a text if you are not coming home," snapped Lorelai.

"Mum I'm sorry; I got caught up catching up with friends and forgot"

"I'm not buying that Rory. You ran out of here without telling me where you were going, which was bad enough, but to make things worse you did not come home or even let me know that you weren't coming home. I have not slept a wink and have been full of worry about where you were, and if something had happened to you. Did you even bother to check your messages?"

"Mum I said I was sorry." Rory said exasperatedly. She was in an elated mood and didn't want anything to ruin it. Lorelai's current mood was not the best time to tell her that her forgetfulness had something to do with Logan. It was bound to end up as a rehash of Lorelai's disapproving diatribe on her un-Rory-like behaviour following the no-strings incident with Logan. She wanted to preserve her elated feeling, it has been such a long time since she felt this happy and she didn't want an argument with her mum to dampen it.

"Mum, I'm sorry" she repeated more earnestly. "My brain is foggy and practically brain dead due to lack of sleep, can I have a nap and I promise you when I wake up we can discuss this further". And with that she made her way into her bedroom shutting the door behind her.

Unfortunately, Lorelai was still on the warpath following Rory's unacceptable behaviour, that somehow unintentionally she didn't register nor did she want to register Rory's earnestness. She barges into Rory's room.

"We have not finished talking young lady; you don't get to dismiss the conversation."

Rory had not expected Lorelai to follow her and jumped in shock as a result of the intrusion.

"Goodness mum you scared me."

"Hmm, so let's see, you went to a Yale alumni party last night, stayed out all night without letting your mother know that you were not coming home, thereby scaring your mother and Luke to death with worry by the way, only to sworn in the next morning with damp her and rumbled clothes like you had a good roll in the hay. A good roll in the hay was it?"

Rory blushed at this comment and Lorelai's eyes widened in surprise at this revelation.

"You had sex last night didn't you?" she said accusingly.

"So who was he? He must have been good for you to forget to call your mother that you were not coming home last night."

"Mum it wasn't like that."

"Ooh hang on didn't you say something about hanging out with old friends…hmm…old friends. So I'm guessing that Logan was at this party and is the reason behind this re-emergence of uncharacteristic Rory."

"Mum I told you that I didn't want to discuss it now, can we discuss this later?"

"You should have thought about that before you gave me a sleepless night, was he there and is he why you look the way you do?"

"And so what if he was," she replied defiantly

"Oh my god, we are not doing this again Rory! What is wrong with you? Did you even at least address some of the issues that caused your last break up?"

The guilty look on Rory's face spoke volumes.

"Rory what were you thinking!" snapped Lorelai.

"I wasn't thinking ok, obviously I am my mother's daughter," replied Rory tartly in defiance.

"Oh no, you are not going to blame this on me. You make your own decisions Rory, just like you made your decision to stay out all night without telling anyone."

"Really mum, I make my own decisions?!"

"Ooh Rory that wasn't the plan, you were meant to go to Harvard. Rory you can't drop out of Yale that wasn't the plan. Rory you were meant to go to Chilton and you are not going to Stars Hollows High because of a boy. Rory you were meant to do the things that I didn't do."

"I repeat those were you choices Rory!"

"Really those were my decisions, wasn't it your life long ambition for me to go Harvard ever since I could crawl because news flash mum a crawling baby can not decide to go to Harvard all by its self, it automatically became my choice most of my life because you spoon fed it to me."

"Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god" exclaimed Lorelai exasperatedly.

"Who graduated top of her class from Chilton and Yale respectively. Who is now the new Assistant Features Editor for an online magazine? Rory you made those decisions yourself; I didn't put a gun to your head or force feed them to you."

"This is coming from the woman who isn't receptive to the word "NO" and will hammer her opinions at you till you give in?! Don't for a second think because you put a funny twist on things it means that you are not a carbon copy of Emily Gilmore!"

Lorelai's jaw drops, she is taken aback at Rory's words, the shock causes her legs to give way and she sits on Rory's bed to calm down.

"Tell me that you did not mean that Rory!" she says dejectedly

"Sometimes mum you can be as forceful as grandma and like grandma when you don't get your own way you can be hell to live with," Rory responded as she made her way to the bed to join her mother.

"Rory you hurt me!" she said with her right hand on her chest.

"You and grandma are more alike than you think."

"Kill me now!" Lorelai puts her hands over her eyes and falls on the bed dejected. She lies there for a few minutes, whilst Rory looks around the room uncomfortably.

"You know being like grandma isn't all that bad…"

"Could you just finish me off now, because you have done such a good job at butchering me," interrupted Lorelai returning to a sitting position.

"Mom I didn't mean it in a bad way, if it helps a lot of the time you are not like grandma at all plus we are best friends. We are still best friends right?"

"Yes Rory we are still best friends," replied Lorelai, clasping Rory's hands in hers.

"And as your best friend, what is going on with you? It is unlike you to go out and stay out all night without letting me know. I know you've been away from home for a while now but you can't have changed that much that I know longer your behaviour?"

"I am still me, Rory. Last night wasn't planned at all. I found out that Logan was going to be at a party so I crashed the party in order to see him."

"So how did you find out that Logan was at this party?"

"I found out from Finn"

"Ahhh Finn."

"Mum!"

"Sorry, please continue."

"As I was saying before I was rudely interrupted," said Rory causing Lorelai to smile at her quip and draws a zip across her mouth. "The reason I crashed the party is because I didn't want Logan to bolt."

"Why would he bolt?"

"Logan has been incognito for over a year, no one had heard him nor did they have his phone number nor have they seen him in two years. Finn said Honour had to literally beg him to get him to come home yesterday."

"So I'm guessing that this party was at the Huntzbergers?"

"Yes it was. So when I found out that he was going to be about 30 minutes away without thinking I jumped into the car and went to see him."

"Obviously you had time to change clothes so you didn't literarily jump in the car."

"Am I telling this story or are you? Ok so I got dressed, made Finn promise not to tell anyone that I was coming over and jumped in the car."

"Without telling mummy?"

Rory gave her mum the eye and continued "Finn had to sneak out of the pool house to come and get me and then snuck me into the pool house to where Logan was. Anyway, as soon as we got into the pool house, Logan took one look at me and bolted."

"He bolted?"

"Yeah he bolted like there were a pack of hyenas after him. So I ran after him and then I kissed him and then…." Rory made a motioning gesture with the hands

"Rory Gilmore wanton sex goddess, they should write a book about you."

"I was scared that he would bolt again hence why I kissed him and you know the story after that."

"So I'm guessing that the hand motioning thing took all night?"

"You could say so" she replied embarrassingly looking down at the floor.

"So where do you guys go from here?"

"We have closure I guess, last night was about closure."

"Rory!" she said worriedly.

"That was all he could give me and I'd rather have that than the constant heartbreak I have been carrying for the past 2 years. My heart has basically been an empty shell and I ached for him so much and I just couldn't continue living my life hating myself for how things ended between us," she said nearly in tears.

"You didn't get the chance to wallow," she replied sadly as she gently touched Rory's hair. "We also never really discussed what happened between you two, I guess I kind of felt that you made the right decision and there was nothing to discuss, why…why did you say no and why did you two break up?"

"He wasn't part of the plan mum; we had a plan, Chilton, Yale, overseas correspondent then marriage way in the future. Plus you never liked Logan."

"It's hard to like the guy who made your daughter have a no strings relationship."

"He didn't make me do anything. I suggested it and pushed the no strings part of our relationship."

"You suggested it because he didn't do strings."

"He didn't force me; I chose to go into it myself."

"And last night….."

"Again, I initiated things; he didn't even want to go into that."

"I find it odd that this sort of behaviour only comes out from you when you are around Logan. This is typical of that world they always feel they are entitled, that they can do whatever they like."

"I've got news for you sister. All the guys you've dated, except Luke, are from that world."

"They are so not!"

"Really? Let's see…. Max, Dad, Jason, what's the name of that guy who took you fishing and then spent the weekend in New York double dating with Sookie and Jackson?"

"Fine!"

"If that world if so bad why is it that almost every guy you have dated is from that world?"

"I don't know….hang on, this is not about me this is about you Rory and your desperate attempts at having some sort of relationship with Logan."

"I am not desperate to have some sort of relationship with Logan!"

"Really Rory! Then what do you call last night? What about the time you were on the bathroom floor crying and about why he doesn't like me why won't he call me; then we had bridesmaids, should I go on!"

"I recall someone not getting out of bed or out of the house for days because she broke up with Luke, ooh and that's not all who slept with Dad because Luke wouldn't elope with her, who had sex with Dad on grandma's balcony during dinner with guests!"

"I get it Rory, you are me! Sometimes I like that you are mini-me but I don't want you to have my relationship track record." She said frustratedly.

"Though you and Logan were shaky to begin with and things worked out well in the middle and you both matured a lot with the long distance thing and living together but at the back of my mind I just never felt you guys would work and maybe in the end this is not the guy or the relationship for you."

"So you never thought we would last! I knew it, I knew you disapproved."

"What has my disapproval got to do with the state of your relationship?"

"It was one of the reasons why I said no to marrying Logan."

"Rory!" She exclaimed sadly.

"You don't respond well being told no. Have you seen you when things don't go according to your plan? I remember someone not talking or wanting anything to do with me when I went off the plan and dropped out of Yale. I remember being shipped to Europe with Grandma when I lost my virginity to my married boyfriend. I also remember someone losing it when I mistakenly fell asleep at Miss Patty's with Dean after my first dance."

Lorelai's jaw dropped.

"Rory if my opinions didn't count when you had the stringless thing, when he became your boyfriend or when there was the bridesmaids issue why did it matter when he asked you to marry him?"

"Those things weren't forever nor did they affect the plan, marriage to a Huntzberger does."

Rory's last sentence left them both silent for a while.

"You know what kid, I think I was also a teeny weenie bit jealous of Logan."

"Really! Why?"

"It's like the golf thing with Dad all over again. It's weird for me that you fit in so comfortably into that world; you fit comfortably with him, with them Adolf and Eva. I can't relate to it. Do you remember that dinner party at my parents were we all met Logan formally? I just felt like I didn't fit in, you were all having these conversations that went over my head and Richard and Emily were gushing over you two, they have never gushed over any guy I brought home, maybe except your dad but that years later after we had you. I felt I was losing you and throughout your relationship with Logan I felt like an outsider."

"Mom, I didn't mean for you to feel like an outsider."

"It wasn't anything you did honey, it's as I said I can't relate to that world and I guess it never occurred to me that even though I didn't relate to that world that you would so perfectly. I mean you love the DAR for goodness sake!"

"And Mom you could never lose me" said Rory as she smiled at her mother clasping her hands in hers.

"I know and right back at ya kiddo," Lorelai responded smiling back at Rory.

"Mom."

"Eh hun"

"Your disapproval wasn't the only reason I said no to Logan," said Rory sheepishly.

"I was scared Mum, you know how I love to plan things, Logan wasn't part of the plan, marriage wasn't part of the plan for donkey years, the proposal took me by surprise and as much as I love Logan, the thought of being a Huntzberger and having my life controlled by Mitchum, Shira and Elias Huntzberger left me in hives. You should have seen Mitchum when we went for a meal with him on Logan's birthday. "We'll take care of you Rory" she said mimically.

"You and I have to plan Logan's next steps Rory" she continued mimically.

"The thought that the rest of my life was going to be planned and controlled by these people scared me. And you know me mum, I wont want to hurt their feelings, I wont put up a fight, I'll just do what Mitchum tells me and then blow off steam passive aggressively after ten years when it'll be 2.4 kids too late."

"Back to my original statement then why are you desperately trying to have some sort of relationship with Logan if you have all these cons?"

"Because I am scared that we'd end up like you and Dad, the right people but never the right time. Then when the right time came, that shipped had sailed away a long time ago."