Chapter 4 everyone knows

So that's what happened he explained everything to them except the part about our love child. We had agreed to sort things out with that before anyone else knew.

Dan seemed happy for his father that he had finally found his much deserved happiness, it didn't seem like this was a total surprise to him. Jenny didn't take things quite as well as her brother though.

She was trying hard to be happy for her father but I could tell she was a bit shaken. They left to go to they're mother's house shortly after Rufus explained everything. It was better to give them time away to think about everything.

My kids would have to find out sooner or later as well. Serena already knew something was going on. She had overheard me admitting to my mother that I was in love with Rufus. I explained things, not well but I did my best. Serena wasn't really who I was worried about though. Erik had been acting sad after Bart died and Chuck left. No, it would not be easy telling Erik.

We had breakfast before we did anything else. I was so happy that we could be together that I almost forgot about what happened last night.

" So what do you think we should do?" I asked Rufus.

" Well to start I guess we should tell people about us, like Erik and also Alison needs to know, I don't want her finding out from the kids," he said.

So it was settled we got dressed and he called and told Alison. She didn't seem to care much but appreciated hearing it from him. I was pleasantly surprised with her reaction so I decided it might be a good time to tell Erik.

We took a taxi back to Manhattan and we couldn't help ourselves. We had to be broken apart by the driver in order to realize we had reached my apartment. We held hands and kissed in the elevator which probably wasn't such a great idea considering we were on our way to tell Erik. We got a little to carried away and when we got up to the apartment Erik was standing right there and saw us making out. " Uhhh mom is that you?" Erik questioned.

We immediately broke apart realizing we had already given things away. " Hi Erik, yeah it's me, " was all I could think to say.

" Umm is that Dan's dad?" Erik said confused.

" Yeah hi Erik nice to see you again," Rufus said trying to patch things up. Her heart was racing she really didn't want her son to find out like this. He'd been through so much in the last year and I was sure that the last thing he wanted to see was his mother making out with someone only a week after her husband died.

" Mom can you explain this please?" Erik asked.

" Well Erik I uhh well I'm in love with Rufus," I could barely breath I was so nervous.

" Yeah that's kind of what I was thinking," Erik said, " As long as your happy now Mom I'll support you,"

" Yes I am very happy Erik, thank you for being so understanding," We hugged and he went to go meet Jonathen somewhere.

We were left alone then, again. We knew we had to deal with some serious issues. " Why did you keep it from me?" he asked with hurt in his voice.

" I was so young Rufus, so confused my mother didn't want anyone to know what had happened and I couldn't fight her," I said," I really tried Rufus but how could I tell you now, all these years later of what I had deprived you of, I was afraid I would lose you again," I started crying again I was so shaken. We stopped talking about it then and took another cab back to Brooklyn; I hated being in the apartment I had shared with Bart.

" Well what now?" Rufus asked.

To be continued...