Chapter 16 changing memories
Rufus came over shortly after Serena left. I really wanted him to be there when I got the results. " Wow," he said when he saw the test," I haven't seen one of these in a while."
" Yes it has been a while," I said. If I was going to have a baby at this age I was going to have to mentally prepare for the 18-year age difference between Serena and the child.
So I took the test. We waited a while trying to talk about different things while we waited for the results. Finally the time came to check. I was so nervous. If I was pregnant I would have to deal with another child. If I wasn't, I wouldn't get another child. Frankly I was confused which one was worse.
As we stared down at that symbol on the test I had a flash back. I was sitting in my bathroom alone, crying, knowing things wouldn't be good from that point on. Now as I stared down at that same symbol, he was by my side, and instead of terror I felt joy. I couldn't believe things were finally working out. He kissed me then like he never had before. " Do you think I'm too old to have a baby?" I asked him then.
" I think this is a great age to have a baby," he said.
I had no idea how I was going to break this news to our kids, but I didn't want to think about that. All I wanted to do was celebrate with Rufus.
To be continued...