Disclaimers to Stephenie Meyer and Tomoko Hayakawa.

Btw, Bella did not see what Edward wrote, Bella just couldn't bring herself that she kissed Edward, and she wasn't thinking clearly when she wanted to jump (crazy, I know.)

For those that know the story, I'm not completely sticking to YamaNada, because I added a special scene. Oh, and let me guarantee you love it too. (The next chapter).

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"Bella, please be reasonable," Edward said in his silky voice.

"I can't. I won't. I will never be able to forgive myself, for kissing you. You're a dazzling creature, and I'm an insignificant thing compared to you!"

"Bella don't you understand?! There's more to life than kissing," Edward cautiously. Edward took a hesitant step forward. Bella didn't react.

"Without love, a kiss doesn't mean anything," Edward said and he took another step forward. Bella's eyes were full of doubt.

Jasper's jaw went tight and his arms stiffened. Emmett and Carlisle did so as well.

"What's wrong Jasper?" Alice asked in a soft voice. Edward answered her question.

"Don't you realise that you're lucky?" Edward said.

"Lucky to have kissed you?" Bella said scornfully.

"No, lucky that you can choose who you want to kiss! Do you think just because you think I'm dazzling no one else thinks that too? Do you realise how many times I've been kissed with force? Do you know how many times I've had to have a police escort so I don't get sexually harassed anymore? And you want to kill yourself because of one drunken kiss that didn't mean anything? If I thought of that, I would be already dead!" Edward yelled at her. Tears were streaming down Bella's face. Alice's eyes had welled up.

"I never knew," Alice whispered. Jasper hugged her from behind. Edward was near to Bella.

"Does it matter if I love you or not?" Edward said in a light voice.

"I don't know," Bella said softly back.

"Take my hand, come back," Edward said. Bella took his hand and then she slipped. She slipped over the ledge. Bella was hanging over the side, holding Edward's hand. Edward's hand held her on tight. Edward was slipping over the ledge as well. Edward grabbed onto Bella's other hand.

"Just let go Edward, I'm not worth it!" Bella screamed. Her legs were flailing.

"Don't be stupid," Edward replied. Her fingers were beginning to slip, "hold on to me."

"No. I deserve this, this is karma punishing me," Bella said softly.

"Then let karma punish me for doing it to you," Edward groaned. Emmett was by Edward's side. Emmett had hold of Edward's waist. Edward was nearly over the ledge and was holding onto Bella.

"If I die, then you won't be troubled by me," Bella said to Edward. Bella was already giving up.

"If you die, do you realise how guilty I'd feel? You hold a higher reserve in my life Bella, I love you," Edward said. There was a silence.

"What?" Bella asked, her fingers almost slipping. He did not just say what she thought she heard. There was no possible way of that happening.

"I love your cooking, you are the most exquisite cook I've ever met," Edward corrected himself, he started grabbing at her arms, trying to get a better grip of Bella. Bella was quiet. Emmett, Carlisle and Jasper grunted as they pulled Edward and Bella up. Edward and Bella lay on the stone ceiling, embracing the fact that they had just lived through an ordeal.

Edward sat up first. Bella followed suit.

"But I was wondering," Edward said softly, crossing his knees and tracing patterns on his leg with one, long, finger. Another fantasy popped into his mind.

"Wondering?" Bella asked her face suddenly close to Edward's.

"Since, I saved your life, I was wondering if," Edward started. Bella was growing impatient.

"What do you want Edward?" Bella asked in a frustrated tone. Her breath swirled on his face. Their faces were really close.

"Well, do you want to go to the Christmas dance with me?" Edward asked.

It was something that had slipped from his mind during the time on the island and had come back when he was bombarded with requests. It was something that had bugged him for a long time. It was something that he wanted to do since he realised he first thought he had fell in love with Bella.

"I can't dance," Bella said worriedly. Edward started to laugh. There was a sharp pain in Edward's arm. Bella was pouting, but her face was still close to Edward's.

"It doesn't matter, I can dance," Edward said to Bella's frown. Bella huffed and stood up.

"Fine. I will," Bella said quietly, "but only because you saved my life."

Bella walked off, her head spinning. What had she done? For months and months she had hated Edward's guts, she denied the fact she kissed him, she tried to stay away from him. She even tried to kill him.

Which had extremely different outcomes; a voice in Bella's mind snidely reminded her. Her heart was racing and the familiar feeling of something constricting her breath came back to her. Bella shuddered. Bella didn't even realise that she was supposed to walk down some stairs until she tumbled down them. She was falling, falling out of the conscious state that she was in.

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"Bella are you okay?" Alice voice came out of the haziness. Bella's eyes focused to the light.

"Where am I?" Bella asked, her throat hurt, it was like a burning sensation at the back of her throat.

"In the hospital, you fell down the stairs," Alice said, "It's a surprise you didn't break anything but we had to take you here to check."

"What?" Bella asked.

"Don't you remember, you were on the rooftop, and you somehow fell down the stairs?" Alice asked in a scared voice.

"No. I'm pretty sure the last thing I remember is scoring 97% on the Trig test, what did Edward get?" Bella asked lightly.

"Bella? Are you all right?" Alice asked, her face was in full view, she was biting her lip, "Edward saved your life, and he asked to you to the dance, which you agreed to do so."

"Did I? I don't remember it," Bella said, her mind was blank. She tried searching for it. Alice had reached behind her and slammed a button. Bella looked down at herself; she was in some kind of dress.

"How long have I been out cold?" Bella asked Alice. Alice looked up.

"Twelve hours," Alice said stiffly.

"You've been here for twelve hours?" Bella asked in astonishment.

"No. Edward's been here for twelve hours, when he saw you stirring he called for me to come, I came here 10 minutes ago. It just kind of you know, felt right," Alice said. Alice's eyes looked as they were hiding something. Bella didn't have time to ask why Alice was hiding something, because a doctor had walked in.

"Doctor, she doesn't remember anything," Alice said rapidly.

"Hmm. Must be some kind of amnesia, from the experience," the doctor said softly.

"She also has been having some nightmares, she was screaming in her sleep," Alice said in a more confident voice. Alice's face was hard.

"Has she ever had any other cases of amnesia? Did she once forget something after a traumatic experience?" the doctor asked Alice. Alice nodded

"Just once, but it wasn't like this time," Alice said to the doctor. The doctor walked out of the room and returned with a wheelchair.

"Where am I going?" Bella asked nervously.

"The the psychology department, I think I know what's wrong," the doctor said grimly.

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