*( Hey, Thanks for the reviews they were greatly appreciated. Unfortunately, this is going to be another long A/N (does anybody even read these). This chapter got out sooner than I expected. The gundam pilots will finally appear in this chapter. Just so you know ahead the second part of this fic might be a tender subject for some people. Also I'm making this up as I go basically I liked to be surprised on how I decide to end things. Another thing is these stories might take awhile to get out cause I'm concentrated more on school then my stories. So, if I take awhile to update just know that I haven't died or anything and I'll update as soon as I get a chance. Just so you know Hotaru and Ami go to a public school meaning in my mind they're not wearing uniforms. If you're wondering what they're wearing, hotaru is wearing some kind of gothic attire just like that in the anime (all black if I remember correctly). And Ami is wearing well... who cares just picture them in whatever you want. The gundam pilots are ex-pilots in this fic. Mainly because I hate writing action scenes but also because I haven't watched gundam wing in years (in other words they might be a little out of character). The next chapter will probably take awhile to get out just so you know ahead of time. Thank you for reading or at least scanning through this long author note. )*
// thoughts // "what's being said" *( flashback )*
~*~ Disclaimer- I don't own anything but the plot of this story ~*~
The Screen behind the Mirror: T.N.T. For the Brain
The rain finally stopped and my cold was beginning to show slight signs of improvement. For some reason, my mind kept wandering to the past. When people are misunderstood its amazing on how quickly we'll label them 'bad'. I always wonder why do we do that? In their eyes they might see something good but in the eyes of others why do we fail to see that same good. Is it because our minds are different even thought both person's brains are made up of the same substances. I learned not to judge people to quickly something we all should know how to do. Nevertheless, we as people could be ignorant. We might never take the time out to think why does this person do things so differently. Everyday I wonder inside this same question, why is that?
~*~*~*~*~
*( I was walking in the woods around lunchtime with Ami right beside me. I realized during this past few weeks that Ami was smart... well at least more serious about school then I was. We've been spending a lot of time together since last week. It was in a way a good feeling. It was almost like when you're fighting a battle and you see that the enemy is finally weakening. I began to know the true Ami and she began to know the true Hotaru. The bell just rang and it was time to go to my personal hell called school.
My next class was chemistry. I sat in the back, the seat next to me was empty. It didn't bother me any, it meant that I didn't have to listen to some idiot telling me how weird I am for the whole period. I hated chemistry but little did I know that after this day I would hate it even more. It all happened when HE came. It wasn't the fact that I didn't like him... well I didn't but it was the fact that I didn't trust him, it was like he knew to much. He gave a strong impression that showed he wasn't who he was supposed to be. Also, his personality sucked... like mine.
" Listen up we have a new student today, his name is Wufei Chang. Please show him respect, now why don't you sit next to..."
I had that familiar feeling; the one I felt when I met Ami. Even though I prayed against it I had a strong feeling that the teacher was going to say my name.
" How about... Hotaru".
// Shit //, the guy had some kind of little ponytail and appeared to be Chinese. He walked up to the desolated desk next to mine and not that I cared but he looked at me as if I was inferior.
// Damn, what's his problem //.
I didn't bother looking at him; still there was something about him that I didn't trust. He appeared to be a normal school boy but I knew he wasn't. Also, it was beginning to get annoying when some of the girls looked back and smiled at him. It was so obvious that they liked him you could tell by their face getting redder and redder.
// Idiots, they'd fall in love with a log if it looked cute enough //.
The guy kept on mumbling stuff like 'weak onnas' and something about 'inferior'.
// What the hell is his problem //.
I got so tired of his stupid mumbling so I told him "will you please shut up".
"You think I'm going to listen to some stupid girl telling me what to do".
// Jeez! I've had about enough with him. What the hell is wrong with him. He acts like a devil and all these girls seem to think he's some saint //.
"Bastard"
"Hmph, bitch"
That's it, I didn't care...I just didn't care anymore. I wanted to get out of this class. The teacher was blabbing on and on about finding the moles of a substance. My chemistry partner was an idiot, I don't want to even try to retaliate to this blockheads insults. He can think I'm a sissy for all I care I just want to get out... now! There was only one person I wanted to see... Ami.
The teacher started to write down our homework assignment and let us loose saying to work on your homework and make sure you don't get too loud.
I actually started to do my homework and for what I could see he did too until a swarm of girls went over to his desk and started talking to him. // Damn they're loud, they don't even know about his hatred toward women //. He started to say stuff like 'stupid onnas get away from me'.
It was kind of funny cause they weren't listening to him. Too bad I didn't have time to laugh because they were too loud and were annoying the hell out of me. They were testing my patience. I guess I failed that test cause I walked out of the class right then and there. I saw that guy glance at me but then turned around. I was happy since the class was so loud nobody noticed me leaving except that Chang guy. I smile played on my lips when I realized that the guy was still suffering with all those girls back there.
I was going to go to my spot until' I heard some voice from behind me say something.
"Shouldn't you be in class"?
I turned around only to meet cerulean eyes staring at me.
"You don't know how happy I am to see you".
"Same here, how was your class"? Ami said as her voice showed a little bit of worry.
" *Sigh*, I don't even want to talk about it. I take it yours went bad since you're out here right now".
"It was shit".
Ami normally didn't curse so I guess her class was really like hell.
"What happened"? I asked in a voice that showed a rare hint of concern.
"This guy with a long braid came to our class today. He just couldn't shut up. He sat right next to me so it annoyed me more than anybody else in the class. These girls started to talk to him and smile while blushing. It was dumb because I couldn't understand how anybody could fall in love with someone at first glance. There was something about him though, its like he had some motive for being here. Anyway, I started to get mad when he started to talk to me. I just couldn't concentrate at all. I finally told him to 'please be quiet' but he still didn't listen. He kept on blabbing on and on. Finally I realized I wasn't going to get any work done so I walked out during the teacher's lecture."
After she finished her long story, she did a deep sigh. I was somewhat surprised on how Ami's story was so similar to mine.
"Jeez and I thought my class was bad".
"Hotaru... Did some guy with a ponytail come to your class"?
"Yeah, he's the reason I'm out here. How did you know"?
"Well, Duo, the new guy that came today said that one of his friends were in your chemistry class... did you notice anything weird about him"?
She said the last statement a little quieter.
"Yeah... I didn't trust him, his eyes were... cold, well its like he's seen so many lives taken away and even took some away himself".
"Thought so, I felt the same thing from the guy that came in my class too. I was thinking of going home to look up some stuff on them. Do you know that guys name"?
"I think its Chang Wefui or maybe wufei... well one of those. Want me to help you"?
"Yeah, if you don't mind"
We began to walk away. I stopped dead when I saw that new guy in my class only now there were five of them.
"Uuhhh Ami... do you mind if we go around"?
"Why"? I didn't bother answering, the change of emotions on her face showed she saw what I meant. We calmly walked away so they wouldn't notice any sudden movements.
"I don't think they noticed" Ami said in a hush tone of voice.
"Yeah" I mentally laughed realizing that he skipped class early too. We walked the rest of the way silently. That was one of the reasons I liked Ami. You know the feeling when you're with people and it's so quiet, it could make you feel like you should be talking. I never get that feeling around Ami. There was always a comfortable silence around us.
We finally made it to Ami's apartment. She lived alone like me. We both lived off the inheritance our parents left us.
"Do you have anything to eat"?
"Yeah check the fridge," Ami said while typing something on the computer.
"That's weird" Ami said while looking off the computer screen. "Remember those five guys we saw in the forest that just came to school today"?
I looked at her silently telling her to go on.
"All five of them enrolled the same day and have no kind of connection with each other at all except maybe being friends and look at their record". I walked over to the computer screen. "It's clean, almost like their hiding something..."
There was a long silence.
Umm Ami...just out of curiosity, why are you making such a big deal about this? I mean, yes, I sense something weird about them too but still... you seem kind of freaked out about-" Ami interrupted me something she rarely did.
"Have you ever heard of the gundam pilots"?
"Yeah... there was a big deal about them awhile back... everybody forgot about them though".
"Its uncanny isn't it, I mean after they destroyed their gundams everybody forgot about the whole incident including them... Its just weird... Its not everyday when there's this big war is going on and it's the center of attention and when its over everybody, every book, everything acts like the war never happened... almost like history was erased. If they are the gundam pilots I think they came here because of a mission".
"So basically, you're saying that they're here for a reason but... I'm having a hard time thinking of what that reason is".
"Yeah, same here. I mean if they're gundam pilots what would they want at a public local high school? There's nothing special about this place and I seriously doubt they came here for the fun of it".
There was another long silence; the only sound that could be heard was the humming of the computer.
"Let's just wait it out Ami, I'll try to keep an eye on them ok".
Sure... umm Hotaru"?
"Yeah"
"Can you make sure you don't use your powers publicly"?
"Sure, Are you thinking they might be here because of magic".
"Don't know, just look around if you're going to use magic."
"Ok"
I had hunch that Ami might be worried that the gundam pilots came here to investigate some sort of magic. Why would they do that? Wait a minute; magic hasn't been introduced to the world yet. I forgot that cause it seemed so common for Ami and I to use magic. To others though it had been some unexplainable force. That's why she didn't let the guys see her when she helped me in the forest last week. Jeez, I'm slow... well I guess I just wasn't that worried about it. Could Ami be thinking that all along? That the gundam pilots came here to see if magic really existed. Why now and here of all places, shouldn't they have done that a long time ago?
"Hotaru... "
"Yeah... " There was a moment of mutual understanding. I finally realized why Ami freaked out about them. Without saying or thinking we both said something in unison that might change out lives forever.
"Something's coming... " )*
~*~*~*~*~
We all like to think we have a strong mind... or at least want people to think we do. We all put up some kind of front trying to lead ourselves into thing that nothing's wrong until its too late. I saw you everyday... I saw death flow all over your face. I knew you were hurting because I felt it... no I feel it myself. But I'm thoughtless... I'm a chicken... why didn't I do something about it?
~*~*~*~*~
*( *Sigh*, another boring day in school... no hell. I walked through my familiar spot debating on whether to skip my next class or not. As I kept on walking, I saw this figure in the distance. It was obviously one of a freshman who was holding this blood red rose. // What's she doing here and why is she so depressed. I see her around school and she's usually so happy //.
I should have said something encouraging. Why? Because I saw doom and death written all over her face. Kind of like mine... except she'll have no rebirth. // Oh well, she'll get over it //. Those words didn't take away her hopeless look and never did. When I reached her, she looked at me then smiled a gentle smile yet tears threatened to fall down her face. I smiled back and walked away.
For the next few days, I saw her sitting under the same tree holding the same blood red rose swirling it around her small fingers. // Gosh, she looks even more depressed than me //. I was fixing to walk away until she said something.
"What do you think of life?"
"What do I think? It could be hell sometimes... well most of the time in my case but it's worth living". I had a hard time believing my words, but if it'll make her feel better then oh well.
"Do you know when you lost it all? That feeling that nobody will ever be there for you".
"..." Yeah I feel it everyday when I wake up.
"I'm sure you know what I'm talking about".
"... Of course we all feel it". I was trying to think of something encouraging to say. For some reason though a strong aura of death surrounded her. I should know cause that's my specialty.
"I feel it even more"
"Maybe you should go back to-"
"No, the old saying says every end must have a beginning and every beginning must have an end". She kept on blabbing on.
I was growing tired of listening to her rambling on and on about how sorry she feels for herself. I didn't talk to her to hear her talk about how life isn't fair. I learned that lesson a long time ago and reviews of that lesson pop up every frigging day of my entire life. She really thinks she's the only person who's ever hurt. I just couldn't take it so I began to walk away.
"Looks like you'll leave me too".
I stopped walking, looked back, and told her something. When I think back on it I could have been to hard on her but you can't bring back the past.
"Listen, we all have to take a trip to hell sometimes. Some more than others, but the important thing is that we make it back. The way you're going with that attitude you'll be there for a long time".
"Longer than you think".
I ignored the last statement and had the strongest feeling that she was going to die. Too bad though, I didn't think it would be so soon.
I walked away and stopped dead in my tracks when a gunshot rang throughout the forest.
I slowly turned my head toward her direction and blood flowing down her head mixed with tears still falling down her pale face.
For some reason that taste of ink filled my mouth. It wasn't sad... well to a degree it was but you can't change the will of ones own mind.
I looked down at the ground and saw that blood red rose. I gently picked it up and placed it on her chest. I said a quick prayer and walked away. This would be a bad scene to be caught up in.
As I walked away, I started to think of how weak would you have to be to realize that nothing... not a person... a place... not even death could repair your forever-shattered heart.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Dangerous Mind
Why do you hate to be weak?
Why do you want to be strong?
Do you truly hate to endure the pain
that you felt for so long?
Is it a crime to take away your life
Just so you can take away the pain?
Or do you just choose to ignore the people
Worst off in a different domain?
Why do you try to hold back the tears...
The tears that threaten to fall?
Do you truly think that ending your life
will mean your weak after all?
I see you holding that weapon
not the gun or the knife
But something that lies within...
Called your dangerous mind.
~*~*~*~*~
*( A/N- I just wanted to say I wrote this whole chapter INCLUDING the poem at the end. Therefore, I'm practically begging you to PLEASE don't plagiarize it. I worked so hard on it; I would never copy anybody's work and claim it for my own and I beg that you don't do the same. Just so you know I trust y'all cause if I didn't I honestly wouldn't of posted this poem. Much thanks for reading and please tell me what you think. )*
~*~Sayonara, please review~*~
// thoughts // "what's being said" *( flashback )*
~*~ Disclaimer- I don't own anything but the plot of this story ~*~
The Screen behind the Mirror: T.N.T. For the Brain
The rain finally stopped and my cold was beginning to show slight signs of improvement. For some reason, my mind kept wandering to the past. When people are misunderstood its amazing on how quickly we'll label them 'bad'. I always wonder why do we do that? In their eyes they might see something good but in the eyes of others why do we fail to see that same good. Is it because our minds are different even thought both person's brains are made up of the same substances. I learned not to judge people to quickly something we all should know how to do. Nevertheless, we as people could be ignorant. We might never take the time out to think why does this person do things so differently. Everyday I wonder inside this same question, why is that?
~*~*~*~*~
*( I was walking in the woods around lunchtime with Ami right beside me. I realized during this past few weeks that Ami was smart... well at least more serious about school then I was. We've been spending a lot of time together since last week. It was in a way a good feeling. It was almost like when you're fighting a battle and you see that the enemy is finally weakening. I began to know the true Ami and she began to know the true Hotaru. The bell just rang and it was time to go to my personal hell called school.
My next class was chemistry. I sat in the back, the seat next to me was empty. It didn't bother me any, it meant that I didn't have to listen to some idiot telling me how weird I am for the whole period. I hated chemistry but little did I know that after this day I would hate it even more. It all happened when HE came. It wasn't the fact that I didn't like him... well I didn't but it was the fact that I didn't trust him, it was like he knew to much. He gave a strong impression that showed he wasn't who he was supposed to be. Also, his personality sucked... like mine.
" Listen up we have a new student today, his name is Wufei Chang. Please show him respect, now why don't you sit next to..."
I had that familiar feeling; the one I felt when I met Ami. Even though I prayed against it I had a strong feeling that the teacher was going to say my name.
" How about... Hotaru".
// Shit //, the guy had some kind of little ponytail and appeared to be Chinese. He walked up to the desolated desk next to mine and not that I cared but he looked at me as if I was inferior.
// Damn, what's his problem //.
I didn't bother looking at him; still there was something about him that I didn't trust. He appeared to be a normal school boy but I knew he wasn't. Also, it was beginning to get annoying when some of the girls looked back and smiled at him. It was so obvious that they liked him you could tell by their face getting redder and redder.
// Idiots, they'd fall in love with a log if it looked cute enough //.
The guy kept on mumbling stuff like 'weak onnas' and something about 'inferior'.
// What the hell is his problem //.
I got so tired of his stupid mumbling so I told him "will you please shut up".
"You think I'm going to listen to some stupid girl telling me what to do".
// Jeez! I've had about enough with him. What the hell is wrong with him. He acts like a devil and all these girls seem to think he's some saint //.
"Bastard"
"Hmph, bitch"
That's it, I didn't care...I just didn't care anymore. I wanted to get out of this class. The teacher was blabbing on and on about finding the moles of a substance. My chemistry partner was an idiot, I don't want to even try to retaliate to this blockheads insults. He can think I'm a sissy for all I care I just want to get out... now! There was only one person I wanted to see... Ami.
The teacher started to write down our homework assignment and let us loose saying to work on your homework and make sure you don't get too loud.
I actually started to do my homework and for what I could see he did too until a swarm of girls went over to his desk and started talking to him. // Damn they're loud, they don't even know about his hatred toward women //. He started to say stuff like 'stupid onnas get away from me'.
It was kind of funny cause they weren't listening to him. Too bad I didn't have time to laugh because they were too loud and were annoying the hell out of me. They were testing my patience. I guess I failed that test cause I walked out of the class right then and there. I saw that guy glance at me but then turned around. I was happy since the class was so loud nobody noticed me leaving except that Chang guy. I smile played on my lips when I realized that the guy was still suffering with all those girls back there.
I was going to go to my spot until' I heard some voice from behind me say something.
"Shouldn't you be in class"?
I turned around only to meet cerulean eyes staring at me.
"You don't know how happy I am to see you".
"Same here, how was your class"? Ami said as her voice showed a little bit of worry.
" *Sigh*, I don't even want to talk about it. I take it yours went bad since you're out here right now".
"It was shit".
Ami normally didn't curse so I guess her class was really like hell.
"What happened"? I asked in a voice that showed a rare hint of concern.
"This guy with a long braid came to our class today. He just couldn't shut up. He sat right next to me so it annoyed me more than anybody else in the class. These girls started to talk to him and smile while blushing. It was dumb because I couldn't understand how anybody could fall in love with someone at first glance. There was something about him though, its like he had some motive for being here. Anyway, I started to get mad when he started to talk to me. I just couldn't concentrate at all. I finally told him to 'please be quiet' but he still didn't listen. He kept on blabbing on and on. Finally I realized I wasn't going to get any work done so I walked out during the teacher's lecture."
After she finished her long story, she did a deep sigh. I was somewhat surprised on how Ami's story was so similar to mine.
"Jeez and I thought my class was bad".
"Hotaru... Did some guy with a ponytail come to your class"?
"Yeah, he's the reason I'm out here. How did you know"?
"Well, Duo, the new guy that came today said that one of his friends were in your chemistry class... did you notice anything weird about him"?
She said the last statement a little quieter.
"Yeah... I didn't trust him, his eyes were... cold, well its like he's seen so many lives taken away and even took some away himself".
"Thought so, I felt the same thing from the guy that came in my class too. I was thinking of going home to look up some stuff on them. Do you know that guys name"?
"I think its Chang Wefui or maybe wufei... well one of those. Want me to help you"?
"Yeah, if you don't mind"
We began to walk away. I stopped dead when I saw that new guy in my class only now there were five of them.
"Uuhhh Ami... do you mind if we go around"?
"Why"? I didn't bother answering, the change of emotions on her face showed she saw what I meant. We calmly walked away so they wouldn't notice any sudden movements.
"I don't think they noticed" Ami said in a hush tone of voice.
"Yeah" I mentally laughed realizing that he skipped class early too. We walked the rest of the way silently. That was one of the reasons I liked Ami. You know the feeling when you're with people and it's so quiet, it could make you feel like you should be talking. I never get that feeling around Ami. There was always a comfortable silence around us.
We finally made it to Ami's apartment. She lived alone like me. We both lived off the inheritance our parents left us.
"Do you have anything to eat"?
"Yeah check the fridge," Ami said while typing something on the computer.
"That's weird" Ami said while looking off the computer screen. "Remember those five guys we saw in the forest that just came to school today"?
I looked at her silently telling her to go on.
"All five of them enrolled the same day and have no kind of connection with each other at all except maybe being friends and look at their record". I walked over to the computer screen. "It's clean, almost like their hiding something..."
There was a long silence.
Umm Ami...just out of curiosity, why are you making such a big deal about this? I mean, yes, I sense something weird about them too but still... you seem kind of freaked out about-" Ami interrupted me something she rarely did.
"Have you ever heard of the gundam pilots"?
"Yeah... there was a big deal about them awhile back... everybody forgot about them though".
"Its uncanny isn't it, I mean after they destroyed their gundams everybody forgot about the whole incident including them... Its just weird... Its not everyday when there's this big war is going on and it's the center of attention and when its over everybody, every book, everything acts like the war never happened... almost like history was erased. If they are the gundam pilots I think they came here because of a mission".
"So basically, you're saying that they're here for a reason but... I'm having a hard time thinking of what that reason is".
"Yeah, same here. I mean if they're gundam pilots what would they want at a public local high school? There's nothing special about this place and I seriously doubt they came here for the fun of it".
There was another long silence; the only sound that could be heard was the humming of the computer.
"Let's just wait it out Ami, I'll try to keep an eye on them ok".
Sure... umm Hotaru"?
"Yeah"
"Can you make sure you don't use your powers publicly"?
"Sure, Are you thinking they might be here because of magic".
"Don't know, just look around if you're going to use magic."
"Ok"
I had hunch that Ami might be worried that the gundam pilots came here to investigate some sort of magic. Why would they do that? Wait a minute; magic hasn't been introduced to the world yet. I forgot that cause it seemed so common for Ami and I to use magic. To others though it had been some unexplainable force. That's why she didn't let the guys see her when she helped me in the forest last week. Jeez, I'm slow... well I guess I just wasn't that worried about it. Could Ami be thinking that all along? That the gundam pilots came here to see if magic really existed. Why now and here of all places, shouldn't they have done that a long time ago?
"Hotaru... "
"Yeah... " There was a moment of mutual understanding. I finally realized why Ami freaked out about them. Without saying or thinking we both said something in unison that might change out lives forever.
"Something's coming... " )*
~*~*~*~*~
We all like to think we have a strong mind... or at least want people to think we do. We all put up some kind of front trying to lead ourselves into thing that nothing's wrong until its too late. I saw you everyday... I saw death flow all over your face. I knew you were hurting because I felt it... no I feel it myself. But I'm thoughtless... I'm a chicken... why didn't I do something about it?
~*~*~*~*~
*( *Sigh*, another boring day in school... no hell. I walked through my familiar spot debating on whether to skip my next class or not. As I kept on walking, I saw this figure in the distance. It was obviously one of a freshman who was holding this blood red rose. // What's she doing here and why is she so depressed. I see her around school and she's usually so happy //.
I should have said something encouraging. Why? Because I saw doom and death written all over her face. Kind of like mine... except she'll have no rebirth. // Oh well, she'll get over it //. Those words didn't take away her hopeless look and never did. When I reached her, she looked at me then smiled a gentle smile yet tears threatened to fall down her face. I smiled back and walked away.
For the next few days, I saw her sitting under the same tree holding the same blood red rose swirling it around her small fingers. // Gosh, she looks even more depressed than me //. I was fixing to walk away until she said something.
"What do you think of life?"
"What do I think? It could be hell sometimes... well most of the time in my case but it's worth living". I had a hard time believing my words, but if it'll make her feel better then oh well.
"Do you know when you lost it all? That feeling that nobody will ever be there for you".
"..." Yeah I feel it everyday when I wake up.
"I'm sure you know what I'm talking about".
"... Of course we all feel it". I was trying to think of something encouraging to say. For some reason though a strong aura of death surrounded her. I should know cause that's my specialty.
"I feel it even more"
"Maybe you should go back to-"
"No, the old saying says every end must have a beginning and every beginning must have an end". She kept on blabbing on.
I was growing tired of listening to her rambling on and on about how sorry she feels for herself. I didn't talk to her to hear her talk about how life isn't fair. I learned that lesson a long time ago and reviews of that lesson pop up every frigging day of my entire life. She really thinks she's the only person who's ever hurt. I just couldn't take it so I began to walk away.
"Looks like you'll leave me too".
I stopped walking, looked back, and told her something. When I think back on it I could have been to hard on her but you can't bring back the past.
"Listen, we all have to take a trip to hell sometimes. Some more than others, but the important thing is that we make it back. The way you're going with that attitude you'll be there for a long time".
"Longer than you think".
I ignored the last statement and had the strongest feeling that she was going to die. Too bad though, I didn't think it would be so soon.
I walked away and stopped dead in my tracks when a gunshot rang throughout the forest.
I slowly turned my head toward her direction and blood flowing down her head mixed with tears still falling down her pale face.
For some reason that taste of ink filled my mouth. It wasn't sad... well to a degree it was but you can't change the will of ones own mind.
I looked down at the ground and saw that blood red rose. I gently picked it up and placed it on her chest. I said a quick prayer and walked away. This would be a bad scene to be caught up in.
As I walked away, I started to think of how weak would you have to be to realize that nothing... not a person... a place... not even death could repair your forever-shattered heart.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Dangerous Mind
Why do you hate to be weak?
Why do you want to be strong?
Do you truly hate to endure the pain
that you felt for so long?
Is it a crime to take away your life
Just so you can take away the pain?
Or do you just choose to ignore the people
Worst off in a different domain?
Why do you try to hold back the tears...
The tears that threaten to fall?
Do you truly think that ending your life
will mean your weak after all?
I see you holding that weapon
not the gun or the knife
But something that lies within...
Called your dangerous mind.
~*~*~*~*~
*( A/N- I just wanted to say I wrote this whole chapter INCLUDING the poem at the end. Therefore, I'm practically begging you to PLEASE don't plagiarize it. I worked so hard on it; I would never copy anybody's work and claim it for my own and I beg that you don't do the same. Just so you know I trust y'all cause if I didn't I honestly wouldn't of posted this poem. Much thanks for reading and please tell me what you think. )*
~*~Sayonara, please review~*~