*( A/N Hey! Thanks for the reviews. I thank the people who review all my chapters. It helps me know that someone is interested in my story. I didn't think I would have this chapter out this early. Oh yeah, I know this isn't how Hotaru's life goes in the anime; I decided to change her story a bit. If you notice, in some parts I implied a bit romance; still I will not do couples for the reasons stated in my last chapters. Well words are short and I need to shut up. ( Thanks again for the people who read the author notes.)*
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The Screen Behind the Mirror - Morphing Thru Time
It was a long time ago…I don't want to remember but I do. I don't want to think about this but it always roams my mind. You were my first real father, yet I never understood you. Always in your lab doing experiments. It's your fault…it's all your fault, at least that's what I said then. You always wondered about my powers and what made me have it. It was always like that, I can remember it…but please…don't make me.
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*( I walked casually down the school halls. As I continued walking, I heard a faint sound of someone crying. I saw a red stain of blood off in the distance and began to quicken my pace. When I got there, I saw a girl crying with accompanied by an unconscious guy.
" Please be alright, "said the crying girl.
// Be alright…this guy is way far from dead.// I let a cold purplish aura flow from my hand, his wounds healed up fast. Unfortunately, they both saw what I did.
// *Sigh* here it goes again //.
" What the hell did you do to me?!" said the boy
Isn't it obvio-"
" Just stay the hell away from us you freak!" They both walked away
// I just saved his life and they call me a freak…excuse me for caring //. The rest of the day went normal, being teased, ignored etc. School was finally over; it was time to get away from this hell yet walk into another one…home.
When I got home, I saw my dad in the living room reading a book. He looked at me and smiled very gently, ( not the one when he is in his hysterical mood ).
"How was your day?" said my father
" *Sigh*, the same as always."
There was a long moment of silence.
" I can see you used your powers…you seem weak."
" Yeah, I healed this guy."
" You should rest." I nodded my head and left the room.
// Dad doesn't care about me…just my powers.//
I sat on my bed and decided to do my homework. While I was working dad came in with a tray.
" I bought some tea and a snack just in case you want some."
I was surprised I never expected my father to do this. I didn't even know I was mumbling.
"…You do care…"
" I'm sorry I didn't hear what you said"
" …I mean thanks…dad."
He smiled and walked away. I was happy yet sad cause I was so blind before. He cared about me all along…I was just too ignorant to see it.
My thoughts were interrupted by a loud boom.
// It came from the lab…no.//
When I came in, I saw a figure in the distance. I started to run in that direction.
// …Please…//
I felt tears forming at the back of my eyes
// …Not now…please not now //
When I reached the figure, I saw it… no him. Tears threatened to fall down my face and I had a hard time trying to withdraw my face away from his… yet…he looked so peaceful. I didn't know what to do. I just gently wrapped his hand with mine.
" …Daddy…don't leave me now…won't you stay with me…you can't leave me alone…please live." I was now the crying girl I saw earlier today yet my case couldn't be fixed with magic.
He held my hand tight then let go. I lost a lot of things that day yet I learned a lot too. One thing I learned is how to cry…that forbidden feeling I thought I would never feel. I just let those wet tears fall down my face; I didn't care though…because now I was alone…truly alone. )*
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After that I want through countless parents and rebirths…only to start think that maybe it was my destiny to be alone. Why was I mad at my real father? Simple…he left me alone…I liked to think that if he wasn't a scientist this wouldn't of happened, yet in the back of my mind I knew it wasn't true. It was all thanks to a little thing called fate. At times, we like to blame our mistakes and/or crappy life on someone else. We just can't walk around and think its no one or our own fault. It's because we can be weak at times…we want to blame everybody else, yet we never like to look at ourselves.
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*( It was time for school; my body ached and told me to skip. I knew I couldn't on the account of I skipped way too much and I still need to catch up on my schoolwork. When I reached school, I saw Ami off in a distance waiting for me.
" Hey," I said in a casual way.
" Hi Hotaru…you seem kind of tired." That's Ami for you, always seeing past my fronts I try to make.
" I wasn't too excited about school today."
" Is it because of your chemistry partner," Ami said but knew what the answer was going to be.
"Yeah…we have a chemistry experiment today. The teacher had the nerve to say that this counts 3 times as a test grade. I mean what kind shit is that…can't he realize I'm already doing bad in his class with all the absences I have. Then he had the nerve to sit that Chang guy next to me who acts like a…" I kept on rambling on and on.
Ami started to laugh and it made me shut up and smile. It's weird cause Ami always makes me feel happier…I don't know why but she does.
" Hotaru, we should be going to class…"
" Yeah, wouldn't want to make you late."
" You should go too."
" Don't worry Ami I'll go."
As the day grew on, I started to get tired. Finally, the lunch bell rang and I left my class.
" Hey Hotaru." I mentally jumped
" Jeez, Ami you always sneak up on people… I wished you'd stop"
Ami just smiled and I couldn't help but smile back. // Why do I feel so happy around you? //
While we were eating, I started to think about the gundam pilots.
" Hey Ami…if those guys operate little robots, shouldn't they be smart."
" Yeah… you know, now that you say that the pilots should already know all the material the teacher's present them."
" You think they're smarter than you?" I said with a smirk on my face.
" Hotaru this is serious…remember when we looked at their record?"
" Yeah, we saw it last week."
" Everything about them is just too perfect."
"Except their personality…listen I'm good at reading people and I'm positive that I see death in their eyes." * Ring *
"Damn… class starts already…Hotaru, I'll try to talk some things over with Duo and you-"
" If you're trying to tell me to talk to Wefui-"
" Wufei"
"Whatever, he has got on my nerves ever since he got here."
" Please try…"
" * Sigh * ok but I'm not going to guarantee anything."
Ami smiled and said, " let's go."
We both walked to our classes, I personally hated to go to any class but chemistry just about did it. // Now I'll have to work with that bastard //. The guy with the ponytail in Ami's class annoys her but they're opposites. He's loud and outgoing, Ami's quiet and laid back. I always tell Ami that opposites attract but she just tells me to shut up. Wufei's personality sucks…like mine, we're more alike then we want to admit…that's probably why we can't stand each other.
Ami and I parted and I walked to my newfound hell. My spirits lowered when I saw him sitting there.
// I hate my life //
The teacher was trying to shut everybody up like always and I took my seat. About a minute later, the class quieted down
" Ok class, as you know were going to do a experiment today." The teacher kept on blabbering on about to make sure you write the molarity of the substance etc. Finally, he shut up and let us loose. I heard Wefui or whatever mumbling something like "reduced to this". He turned his head toward me and spoke.
"Do you know what to do."?
"Umm…I did this awhile back but can't remember."
"Hmph"
" What's that supposed to mean"?
" Idiot, I'll do it, I learned this years ago…it's amazing how it hasn't left my mind."
// Ok Hotaru, don't get mad, just relax. I should just ask him where he came from so Ami can't say I didn't try to get some information.//
" Where did you transfer from?" I said in a tone trying to act nice.
Wufei just ignored me and started to pick up a test tube.
" Jeez, you're a bastard." I said more to myself than him.
He put the test tube on the rack and just stared at me…I stared back.
// He's cute in a way but his attitude sucks //. For some reason we kept on staring at each other till the teacher stopped us.
" Can we please start working."? I looked at the teacher then at the untouched stuff needed for the experiment and handed Wufei a test tube. We didn't blush…just kept on working like that never happened.
" I could be asking you the same question."
"What are you talking about?"
" You don't look or act like anybody here…you stand out." Wufei said as he was mixing some substances.
" Hmph, who would want to look or act like these people around here…you know you still haven't answered my question." I said in an annoyed voice.
" Nowhere you'd know…hand me that beaker over there." I would have said no but since I'm not doing anything, I might as well participate in some way.
" You're dodging my question Wefui."
"Wufei"
"Whatever, why can't you at least tell me where you're from."
" Why can't you at least shut up."?
// If this experiment didn't count so much I would of left…no I wouldn't even be here. I tried to act nice but it didn't work. I'm sorry Ami, I know I failed but it's impossible to work with this guy. I hate him so much…but I tried so hard to act nice.// My thoughts were interrupted by Wufei saying something.
" Hey…hey onna."
" Hotaru."
" Whatever, heat this up with the burner."
When I got the test tube out of his hands I began to sense these weird feelings from him.
" I sense…mixed emotions from you," I said without looking at him.
" Sense?"
Since I didn't feel like talking I just nodded. I was tired of arguing, I just wanted to get away from this bastard…no this class.
This class didn't help anybody's situation. It just made our suspicions of each other grow stronger. I just wasted my time…that's all this is…a waste of time.
The class finally ended. " I can't believe I lasted that whole period with him."
" I can't either" I turned around calmly cause I knew who that voice belonged to.
" Ami…"
" So, how was your class?"
"Please don't make me remember it…you?"
" Same, Duo blabbed and flirted through the period and I couldn't concentrate worth shit, the class got loud and I managed to leave without anybody noticing. I found out some information about those guys, though."
I smiled and noticed we were already in the forest. My smile came to a frown when I saw him with those four other guys. Ami looked at me and we both nodded, we calmly walked away yet I guess the gods were against us cause the guy with the long ponytail saw us.
" Hey Ami, Can I talk to you for a sec?!!"
Ami looked like a deer caught in the headlights. I knew going over there was the last thing on her list.
" Well Ami, I'll just wait for you here." I said with a supporting smile on my face.
" No, you're going too." I couldn't refuse cause I knew Ami would of done the same thing if I was in her situation, so I loyally followed.
When we reached there, Ami tried in a way to act happy yet it failed greatly. I didn't even bother trying…I was annoyed.
I looked at my surroundings; there was a guy (who I think was Japanese) with gravity defying hair who was leaned against a tree. He appeared to be sleeping yet I knew he wasn't. Somewhere near him was the bastard AKA Wufei leaning against a tree, acting like he wanted no part in whatever they were doing. Somewhere along the side was a Japanese guy with messy chestnut brown hair. I saw him around school his face showed no emotion. The last guy was someone with blond hair, he appeared to be Arabian. Also, he seemed like the only nice one besides the American guy with the long ponytail. Speaking of which he began to speak up.
" Do you know if we had any homework In English?"
Ami mumbled something like " you wouldn't know would you." I think the guys heard her.
"What" said…I think his name is Duo.
Ami coughed and said, " I mean no… I left early"
" You did, I didn't notice… oh well, it was probably easy anyway. Hey, you haven't met them have you?"
" Umm…no but-" Ami was about to give an excuse to leave but Duo started doing introductions.
" Guys this is Ami and you are…"
"…Hotaru." Duo smiled and finished up the introductions
" The guy with the blond hair is Quatre, the other one with the messy short hair is Heero, the one next to him is Trowa and…you already know Wufei right."
" More or less." Quatre was the only one who said "nice to meet you"… the rest acknowledged our presence by shaking their head.
// Note to self- they need to work on their conversation skills… so do I. //
Ami finally said, " we have to go but it was nice meeting you"
" Yeah…"
As we neared the end of the forest Ami smiled and said, " what do you think?"
" They're pretty cute," I said with a smirk on my face. Ami smiled but a serious look quickly formed which told me to get serious.
" *Sigh* I felt pretty uncomfortable around them, It was like they were examining our reactions to everything"
" I felt the same thing from them…oh yeah I forgot to tell you something I saw in English"
I looked at her and she said " but I'll tell you later."
We finally reached Ami's apartment.
" Hotaru…thanks for coming with me"
"Huh… oh we're friends right" Ami gave one of her smiles, which for some reason made me feel better. Why am I not depressed…why does Ami make me feel more happy. I just don't understand.
" Hotaru… I'm glad you're here…"
There was a long moment of silence
It hit me…It finally hit me. Ami makes me feel good because I never had anybody there to understand or even want to understand me. I never had anybody to truly care about me…or anybody to escape too. It sounds corny but I finally know why…why I'm truly happy.
"Me too." )*
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*( A/N - Sorry to butt in again. You wouldn't believe how hard of a time I had with the introduction scene. I tried not to get everybody too much out of character. It was hard to think of what everybody would say and I had a hard time remembering how the pilots were in the anime. Anyway, Thanks for reading and please tell me what you think. )*
.:*:. Please review .:*:.
.:*:.Disclaimer - I don't own anything but the plot of my story.:*:.
The Screen Behind the Mirror - Morphing Thru Time
It was a long time ago…I don't want to remember but I do. I don't want to think about this but it always roams my mind. You were my first real father, yet I never understood you. Always in your lab doing experiments. It's your fault…it's all your fault, at least that's what I said then. You always wondered about my powers and what made me have it. It was always like that, I can remember it…but please…don't make me.
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*( I walked casually down the school halls. As I continued walking, I heard a faint sound of someone crying. I saw a red stain of blood off in the distance and began to quicken my pace. When I got there, I saw a girl crying with accompanied by an unconscious guy.
" Please be alright, "said the crying girl.
// Be alright…this guy is way far from dead.// I let a cold purplish aura flow from my hand, his wounds healed up fast. Unfortunately, they both saw what I did.
// *Sigh* here it goes again //.
" What the hell did you do to me?!" said the boy
Isn't it obvio-"
" Just stay the hell away from us you freak!" They both walked away
// I just saved his life and they call me a freak…excuse me for caring //. The rest of the day went normal, being teased, ignored etc. School was finally over; it was time to get away from this hell yet walk into another one…home.
When I got home, I saw my dad in the living room reading a book. He looked at me and smiled very gently, ( not the one when he is in his hysterical mood ).
"How was your day?" said my father
" *Sigh*, the same as always."
There was a long moment of silence.
" I can see you used your powers…you seem weak."
" Yeah, I healed this guy."
" You should rest." I nodded my head and left the room.
// Dad doesn't care about me…just my powers.//
I sat on my bed and decided to do my homework. While I was working dad came in with a tray.
" I bought some tea and a snack just in case you want some."
I was surprised I never expected my father to do this. I didn't even know I was mumbling.
"…You do care…"
" I'm sorry I didn't hear what you said"
" …I mean thanks…dad."
He smiled and walked away. I was happy yet sad cause I was so blind before. He cared about me all along…I was just too ignorant to see it.
My thoughts were interrupted by a loud boom.
// It came from the lab…no.//
When I came in, I saw a figure in the distance. I started to run in that direction.
// …Please…//
I felt tears forming at the back of my eyes
// …Not now…please not now //
When I reached the figure, I saw it… no him. Tears threatened to fall down my face and I had a hard time trying to withdraw my face away from his… yet…he looked so peaceful. I didn't know what to do. I just gently wrapped his hand with mine.
" …Daddy…don't leave me now…won't you stay with me…you can't leave me alone…please live." I was now the crying girl I saw earlier today yet my case couldn't be fixed with magic.
He held my hand tight then let go. I lost a lot of things that day yet I learned a lot too. One thing I learned is how to cry…that forbidden feeling I thought I would never feel. I just let those wet tears fall down my face; I didn't care though…because now I was alone…truly alone. )*
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After that I want through countless parents and rebirths…only to start think that maybe it was my destiny to be alone. Why was I mad at my real father? Simple…he left me alone…I liked to think that if he wasn't a scientist this wouldn't of happened, yet in the back of my mind I knew it wasn't true. It was all thanks to a little thing called fate. At times, we like to blame our mistakes and/or crappy life on someone else. We just can't walk around and think its no one or our own fault. It's because we can be weak at times…we want to blame everybody else, yet we never like to look at ourselves.
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*( It was time for school; my body ached and told me to skip. I knew I couldn't on the account of I skipped way too much and I still need to catch up on my schoolwork. When I reached school, I saw Ami off in a distance waiting for me.
" Hey," I said in a casual way.
" Hi Hotaru…you seem kind of tired." That's Ami for you, always seeing past my fronts I try to make.
" I wasn't too excited about school today."
" Is it because of your chemistry partner," Ami said but knew what the answer was going to be.
"Yeah…we have a chemistry experiment today. The teacher had the nerve to say that this counts 3 times as a test grade. I mean what kind shit is that…can't he realize I'm already doing bad in his class with all the absences I have. Then he had the nerve to sit that Chang guy next to me who acts like a…" I kept on rambling on and on.
Ami started to laugh and it made me shut up and smile. It's weird cause Ami always makes me feel happier…I don't know why but she does.
" Hotaru, we should be going to class…"
" Yeah, wouldn't want to make you late."
" You should go too."
" Don't worry Ami I'll go."
As the day grew on, I started to get tired. Finally, the lunch bell rang and I left my class.
" Hey Hotaru." I mentally jumped
" Jeez, Ami you always sneak up on people… I wished you'd stop"
Ami just smiled and I couldn't help but smile back. // Why do I feel so happy around you? //
While we were eating, I started to think about the gundam pilots.
" Hey Ami…if those guys operate little robots, shouldn't they be smart."
" Yeah… you know, now that you say that the pilots should already know all the material the teacher's present them."
" You think they're smarter than you?" I said with a smirk on my face.
" Hotaru this is serious…remember when we looked at their record?"
" Yeah, we saw it last week."
" Everything about them is just too perfect."
"Except their personality…listen I'm good at reading people and I'm positive that I see death in their eyes." * Ring *
"Damn… class starts already…Hotaru, I'll try to talk some things over with Duo and you-"
" If you're trying to tell me to talk to Wefui-"
" Wufei"
"Whatever, he has got on my nerves ever since he got here."
" Please try…"
" * Sigh * ok but I'm not going to guarantee anything."
Ami smiled and said, " let's go."
We both walked to our classes, I personally hated to go to any class but chemistry just about did it. // Now I'll have to work with that bastard //. The guy with the ponytail in Ami's class annoys her but they're opposites. He's loud and outgoing, Ami's quiet and laid back. I always tell Ami that opposites attract but she just tells me to shut up. Wufei's personality sucks…like mine, we're more alike then we want to admit…that's probably why we can't stand each other.
Ami and I parted and I walked to my newfound hell. My spirits lowered when I saw him sitting there.
// I hate my life //
The teacher was trying to shut everybody up like always and I took my seat. About a minute later, the class quieted down
" Ok class, as you know were going to do a experiment today." The teacher kept on blabbering on about to make sure you write the molarity of the substance etc. Finally, he shut up and let us loose. I heard Wefui or whatever mumbling something like "reduced to this". He turned his head toward me and spoke.
"Do you know what to do."?
"Umm…I did this awhile back but can't remember."
"Hmph"
" What's that supposed to mean"?
" Idiot, I'll do it, I learned this years ago…it's amazing how it hasn't left my mind."
// Ok Hotaru, don't get mad, just relax. I should just ask him where he came from so Ami can't say I didn't try to get some information.//
" Where did you transfer from?" I said in a tone trying to act nice.
Wufei just ignored me and started to pick up a test tube.
" Jeez, you're a bastard." I said more to myself than him.
He put the test tube on the rack and just stared at me…I stared back.
// He's cute in a way but his attitude sucks //. For some reason we kept on staring at each other till the teacher stopped us.
" Can we please start working."? I looked at the teacher then at the untouched stuff needed for the experiment and handed Wufei a test tube. We didn't blush…just kept on working like that never happened.
" I could be asking you the same question."
"What are you talking about?"
" You don't look or act like anybody here…you stand out." Wufei said as he was mixing some substances.
" Hmph, who would want to look or act like these people around here…you know you still haven't answered my question." I said in an annoyed voice.
" Nowhere you'd know…hand me that beaker over there." I would have said no but since I'm not doing anything, I might as well participate in some way.
" You're dodging my question Wefui."
"Wufei"
"Whatever, why can't you at least tell me where you're from."
" Why can't you at least shut up."?
// If this experiment didn't count so much I would of left…no I wouldn't even be here. I tried to act nice but it didn't work. I'm sorry Ami, I know I failed but it's impossible to work with this guy. I hate him so much…but I tried so hard to act nice.// My thoughts were interrupted by Wufei saying something.
" Hey…hey onna."
" Hotaru."
" Whatever, heat this up with the burner."
When I got the test tube out of his hands I began to sense these weird feelings from him.
" I sense…mixed emotions from you," I said without looking at him.
" Sense?"
Since I didn't feel like talking I just nodded. I was tired of arguing, I just wanted to get away from this bastard…no this class.
This class didn't help anybody's situation. It just made our suspicions of each other grow stronger. I just wasted my time…that's all this is…a waste of time.
The class finally ended. " I can't believe I lasted that whole period with him."
" I can't either" I turned around calmly cause I knew who that voice belonged to.
" Ami…"
" So, how was your class?"
"Please don't make me remember it…you?"
" Same, Duo blabbed and flirted through the period and I couldn't concentrate worth shit, the class got loud and I managed to leave without anybody noticing. I found out some information about those guys, though."
I smiled and noticed we were already in the forest. My smile came to a frown when I saw him with those four other guys. Ami looked at me and we both nodded, we calmly walked away yet I guess the gods were against us cause the guy with the long ponytail saw us.
" Hey Ami, Can I talk to you for a sec?!!"
Ami looked like a deer caught in the headlights. I knew going over there was the last thing on her list.
" Well Ami, I'll just wait for you here." I said with a supporting smile on my face.
" No, you're going too." I couldn't refuse cause I knew Ami would of done the same thing if I was in her situation, so I loyally followed.
When we reached there, Ami tried in a way to act happy yet it failed greatly. I didn't even bother trying…I was annoyed.
I looked at my surroundings; there was a guy (who I think was Japanese) with gravity defying hair who was leaned against a tree. He appeared to be sleeping yet I knew he wasn't. Somewhere near him was the bastard AKA Wufei leaning against a tree, acting like he wanted no part in whatever they were doing. Somewhere along the side was a Japanese guy with messy chestnut brown hair. I saw him around school his face showed no emotion. The last guy was someone with blond hair, he appeared to be Arabian. Also, he seemed like the only nice one besides the American guy with the long ponytail. Speaking of which he began to speak up.
" Do you know if we had any homework In English?"
Ami mumbled something like " you wouldn't know would you." I think the guys heard her.
"What" said…I think his name is Duo.
Ami coughed and said, " I mean no… I left early"
" You did, I didn't notice… oh well, it was probably easy anyway. Hey, you haven't met them have you?"
" Umm…no but-" Ami was about to give an excuse to leave but Duo started doing introductions.
" Guys this is Ami and you are…"
"…Hotaru." Duo smiled and finished up the introductions
" The guy with the blond hair is Quatre, the other one with the messy short hair is Heero, the one next to him is Trowa and…you already know Wufei right."
" More or less." Quatre was the only one who said "nice to meet you"… the rest acknowledged our presence by shaking their head.
// Note to self- they need to work on their conversation skills… so do I. //
Ami finally said, " we have to go but it was nice meeting you"
" Yeah…"
As we neared the end of the forest Ami smiled and said, " what do you think?"
" They're pretty cute," I said with a smirk on my face. Ami smiled but a serious look quickly formed which told me to get serious.
" *Sigh* I felt pretty uncomfortable around them, It was like they were examining our reactions to everything"
" I felt the same thing from them…oh yeah I forgot to tell you something I saw in English"
I looked at her and she said " but I'll tell you later."
We finally reached Ami's apartment.
" Hotaru…thanks for coming with me"
"Huh… oh we're friends right" Ami gave one of her smiles, which for some reason made me feel better. Why am I not depressed…why does Ami make me feel more happy. I just don't understand.
" Hotaru… I'm glad you're here…"
There was a long moment of silence
It hit me…It finally hit me. Ami makes me feel good because I never had anybody there to understand or even want to understand me. I never had anybody to truly care about me…or anybody to escape too. It sounds corny but I finally know why…why I'm truly happy.
"Me too." )*
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*( A/N - Sorry to butt in again. You wouldn't believe how hard of a time I had with the introduction scene. I tried not to get everybody too much out of character. It was hard to think of what everybody would say and I had a hard time remembering how the pilots were in the anime. Anyway, Thanks for reading and please tell me what you think. )*
.:*:. Please review .:*:.