*(A/N - Again, thanks for the reviews; it's great to know that people read my story. I'm sorry about the last chapter, I read over it and realized the words and spaces were kind of screwed up when I was uploading it which made it hard to understand. I'm sorry I'll try to fix it as soon as I can. Sorry again for not putting out this chapter out sooner. It's a good thing finals are finally over. ( again thanks for reading)*
// Thoughts// "What's being said" *( Flashback )*
* Disclaimer - I don't own anything but the plot of this story.*
The Screen Behind the Mirror - Beyond the Invisible
Life, the most difficult thing that we must deal with. For so long I've been eternally alone. I didn't…no, I wouldn't let it show. It hurt so much to realize that I'll have to live this hell called my life for eternity.
*( I didn't stay that long at the orphanage I went to. The people there were…well to put it shortly, different, like me in a way yet not so. My roommate was the most annoying of them all…probably a side effect of losing her parents. Speaking of which, here she comes now.
"You're here again," she said in an annoyed voice. Ever since I came here I just ignored her but week after week it's getting harder to do so.
"You know I don't understand you, always sitting in this room with the lights off. Why do you always wear black and-"
"Can you shut up?" I shouldn't have said that, I just know she's going to go off…like the silence before the storm.
"What the hell is your problem!?!"
"What's your problem?"
"…" I left her speechless.
My roommate left the room and I was glad because my head was killing me. It's always like this, I don't understand myself. I know I can heal but it's as if something else is there inside me. Something extremely deadly, like some kind of uncontrollable beast.
A few hours later it was time to eat dinner and go to bed etc. Unfortunately, my head was still killing me. I knew I couldn't complain to the instructor because this headache seemed so abnormal in every way.
The lights were out and I was laying there looking at a random spot in the ceiling that for some reason caught my undivided attention. My head hurt, my roommate was snoring, and I felt like I was splitting from my body. Things couldn't get any worse, of course almost instantaneously, it did.
My headache got worse even though it seemed almost impossible since it was bad from the beginning. It felt like something was eating and eating me. I couldn't take, my vision began to fade and I immediately sat up to try and regain my focus.
Suddenly, I started to hear so many ancient words jumble up in my head. It said something like…well I don't know; only a few words were clear to me. To tell the truth, I really don't want to know what anything is trying to tell me at this hellish moment. Then I noticed a weird light from the corner of my eye. I looked down and realized (rather late) that my hands were glowing this eerie greenish kind of color, // what the hell is happening to me. //
Once again, words came into my head and I tried to ignore it for a second time. It started to get louder and louder until I realized that it wasn't going to leave me alone. Only four words jumped out at me, death...reborn…revolution...don't. The question on how I deciphered this ancient language or how I knew it was an ancient language rested in my mind. Either way I had no clue what it was trying to say and didn't care because my headache was beyond control at the moment.
// it hurts so much…I can't take it; I just can't...TAKE IT ANYMORE! //
Then it happened; everything snapped, I felt like I had no control over my body. I noticed my body getting up, I tried to tell myself not to but it didn't work. Then it ran to the door, opened it, and ran out. I told my body to stop but again it didn't listen. It ran into the dark and bleak street and stopped to look around. Then it turned to the right and ran down the sidewalk.
// Damn, this is so weird watching your own body move on its own.//
It kept on running and I noticed that there was a rose bush in the way. My feeble attempts to tell my body to move out of the way didn't work. It ran right through the bushes, I saw blood seek through the torn pieces on my dress and then realized that someone was controlling my body. If I was possessed then, the thing that possessed me would have felt that.
It ran down the street with a trail of blood from the wounds flowing behind. My body suddenly ran off course, it turned to the woods and rapidly sprinted in little zigzags avoiding the trees. It suddenly stopped looked down and I realized that there was a 15 meter steep cliff below us, // no…don't do it //. I knew my brain or whoever was controlling me wasn't listening on the account that it didn't listen before.
It jumped down and of course I didn't feel pain because I really wasn't in my body or I was…never mind, this is just confusing me. It ran to the center and stopped… it was quiet. I felt a gentle wind flow throughout the forest. Then I regained control of my body and at that very moment a huge surge of pained filled my body from the previous happenings and I ended up unconscious.
When I woke up I tried to focus my eyes and sit up but my body wouldn't let me. Only thing I knew was that I was in this dark kind of spacey room thing and it was unbelievingly cold. I felt goose bumps spread throughout my body and then noticed a dark figure in the corner of my eye. It had some kind of ancient robe on and a hood over its head. It held this long glaive in its left hand. Then a spell rang through the room and I finally realized…I finally realized it.
I was not unconscious or sleeping. I don't know why or how it happened but for some unknown reason…I'm dead.)*
Death, that feeling is so familiar to me. I never wanted to live to see everybody's mistakes repeated over and over; but I have. I never wanted this power; but I have it. Most of all, I never wanted to be reborn over and over; but I have to. I once made a promise or someone to visit me in their or my death…you always kept that promise, Ami.
*( I was at Ami's apartment talking about… well nothing in particular before school. I then remembered something that was once told to be important.
"Ami, you said you saw something in English"
"Oh yeah, I forgot," a grin played on Ami's face. "I saw a gundam tattooed on Duo's arm" Ami's grin disappeared and came to a serious face, "Shinegami."
"So what," I had a hard time connecting Ami's ideas with my own.
"Well all this time you've been trying to say that Duo and me belong together when it should be you and duo. Do you get it…your like the queen of destruction so technically your Shinemegami".
I smiled for a moment at Ami's awkwardness but what she said technically was true except for the part of me and duo being together.
"Please don't tell me this is what you've been trying to tell me".
"Of course not, but it does have to do with the fact that shinegami was tattooed on duo's arm."
I waited silently for her to continue.
"What does Shinegami Mean?"
"God of death."
"Well, what did one particular G-pilot always call himself during the war?"
"I'm not sure but I read some time ago that one of them called himself shinegami. Look Ami, I'm really not in the mood to play Blue's Clues, can you please get to the point"
"Well I finally found some evidence that they are gundam pilots. The gundam that was tattooed on duo's arm was called Deathscythe. If no one remembers the war then why would they have that on their arm?"
"Why didn't you say so from the beginning?"
Ami smiled and said, "I tried to build up suspense"
I sighed but couldn't help but smile "I guess we should get to school before we're late…or we could skip."
"We could…but can't because we have a test in history."
"Oh well, let's go."
We both picked up our things and left. Before Ami locked her door she spoke.
"Y'know, Hotaru why don't we drive today?"
"Why…?"
"I guess we can…but we'll still be late."
"I don't care," Ami said with one of her carefree smiles.
Ami and I skip because I've been through so many schools through all my lives, it isn't even funny and Ami's IQ is at and even above college level. It makes sense once you think about it. Also we both have our driver's license, yet for some reason we rather walk instead of drive unless we're in a lazy mood. When we reached school we were late.
"I guess we can skip 1st period since we're this late," Ami said with a smile.
"You had this planned all along didn't you?"
"Why don't we go to your spot," Ami said, changing the subject.
When we reached the spot we sat down and there was a peaceful silence. I always love these times…when your just sit-.
"Hotaru…there's still something I haven't told you yet," Ami said interrupting my thoughts.
"What?"
"We have to do a project…my partner's duo."
"So…"
"He's going to come over today and-"
"You want me to come too… Ami you need to remember that I'm your friend and not some stranger. I mean, you would have done the same thing for me."
"I know, I just thought you wouldn't want to do it."
"I don't, but anyway what do you have to do?"
"It's easy actually; we have to examine flaws in some of Shakespeare's plays."
"Duo has to come over to your apartment for that?"
"He thinks so…"
"You know, things would be so much easier if they just had pictures of the g-pilots."
"Yeah, it's a shame they were all erased…or at least said to be erased."
There was another moment of silence, the leaves on the trees rustled. The wind flirted with the feeble looking grass. I glanced over at Ami…her eye's were closed which telepathically told me to close mine…I did. Not one thought clouded our minds.
*Ring*
Both Ami and my eyes opened, and my mind shot back to reality. I felt so solemn to be brought back to this hellish school.
"Shall we go," Ami said as we stood up and reached out her hand. It basically told me that I was going even if I didn't want to, which I don't.
"Yeah…"
We reached our next class, which was History…wait a minute.
"Ami…I got an idea," I whispered over to her.
"Wait, let me guess, you want to talk to the history teacher."
"Yeah, I mean if anybody should remember the war it has to be this old fart. Most old people like to reminisce on the past."
"Actually, that's a good idea… we could talk to him after class."
"This is turning out to be a mystery…a really corny mystery."
"Like the Hardy Boys?"
"What?"
"Never mind…"
"No wait, isn't that the old mystery book series?"
"You know what it is?" Ami whispered in shock
Almost embarrassingly I said, "I lived for a long time…I had to do something to occupy myself."
"Right, I forgot."
About ten minutes later the bell rang and students left the classroom. It was empty and silent; the only sound that could be heard was the teacher writing something and our quiet footsteps. We reached the desk and I looked at the teacher for the first time…well first time this close. Gray streaks ran all over his hair and the wrinkles showed almost like ditches on a battlefield. He casually looked up, smiled and said, "What can I do for you ladies."
"I was just wondering, what was the last war we were in…the one involving the colonies?" Ami started
"It seems you already know"
"Wait, you remember it?" I said with shock hidden in my voice.
"Yeah," he said as he got up to file something. "It's weird how nobody remembers the war, right?"
"Do you know about the gundam pilots or even how they look like?" Ami said wondering what answer she was going to get.
"Sure do…there were 7 of them. Five of them were young boys and the other two were in there late twenties or even early thirties."
"How come you remember it but never said anything about it?" Ami said again.
"I and a couple other people were told to take an oath of silence."
I finally asked a question that basically changed our lives forever. "Why are you telling us this?"
"Because I know"
Students began to pile in and Ami and I got out of our temporary moment of shock
"Can w-we talk to you after school?"
"Please," he said with a grin.
When we walked out of the class we realized we just received a shock that never even crossed our minds.
"He was referring to our powers wasn't he?" I said.
"Yeah…but how?"
Those were the only words that came out of Ami's mouth that moment. All this time we were wondering about the g-pilots when other options were never explored.
Has he told the Gundam Pilots…?
Were they leading us in a trap…?
Was this all planned…?
For the first time I felt worry…but why? I never felt it before. Is it because I'm now happy? That for once in my life, I have someone who cares just to be taken away from me. I feel so much death…so much death and destruction awaiting.
I never told Ami…and I can never tell her until the end.
I can never tell what I'll have to do if…
This world, this chaotic world…
Comes to destruction…)*
*(A/N- Does this count as a cliffhanger? Anyway, just so you know I don't really know what Shinegami and Shinemegami means, hell I don't even know if it's a word. I just know it has to do with death and destruction. Also, I'm not sure if I spelled Duo's gundam right. Anyway, sorry again it took so long to get this out and thanks very much for reading.)*
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// Thoughts// "What's being said" *( Flashback )*
* Disclaimer - I don't own anything but the plot of this story.*
The Screen Behind the Mirror - Beyond the Invisible
Life, the most difficult thing that we must deal with. For so long I've been eternally alone. I didn't…no, I wouldn't let it show. It hurt so much to realize that I'll have to live this hell called my life for eternity.
*( I didn't stay that long at the orphanage I went to. The people there were…well to put it shortly, different, like me in a way yet not so. My roommate was the most annoying of them all…probably a side effect of losing her parents. Speaking of which, here she comes now.
"You're here again," she said in an annoyed voice. Ever since I came here I just ignored her but week after week it's getting harder to do so.
"You know I don't understand you, always sitting in this room with the lights off. Why do you always wear black and-"
"Can you shut up?" I shouldn't have said that, I just know she's going to go off…like the silence before the storm.
"What the hell is your problem!?!"
"What's your problem?"
"…" I left her speechless.
My roommate left the room and I was glad because my head was killing me. It's always like this, I don't understand myself. I know I can heal but it's as if something else is there inside me. Something extremely deadly, like some kind of uncontrollable beast.
A few hours later it was time to eat dinner and go to bed etc. Unfortunately, my head was still killing me. I knew I couldn't complain to the instructor because this headache seemed so abnormal in every way.
The lights were out and I was laying there looking at a random spot in the ceiling that for some reason caught my undivided attention. My head hurt, my roommate was snoring, and I felt like I was splitting from my body. Things couldn't get any worse, of course almost instantaneously, it did.
My headache got worse even though it seemed almost impossible since it was bad from the beginning. It felt like something was eating and eating me. I couldn't take, my vision began to fade and I immediately sat up to try and regain my focus.
Suddenly, I started to hear so many ancient words jumble up in my head. It said something like…well I don't know; only a few words were clear to me. To tell the truth, I really don't want to know what anything is trying to tell me at this hellish moment. Then I noticed a weird light from the corner of my eye. I looked down and realized (rather late) that my hands were glowing this eerie greenish kind of color, // what the hell is happening to me. //
Once again, words came into my head and I tried to ignore it for a second time. It started to get louder and louder until I realized that it wasn't going to leave me alone. Only four words jumped out at me, death...reborn…revolution...don't. The question on how I deciphered this ancient language or how I knew it was an ancient language rested in my mind. Either way I had no clue what it was trying to say and didn't care because my headache was beyond control at the moment.
// it hurts so much…I can't take it; I just can't...TAKE IT ANYMORE! //
Then it happened; everything snapped, I felt like I had no control over my body. I noticed my body getting up, I tried to tell myself not to but it didn't work. Then it ran to the door, opened it, and ran out. I told my body to stop but again it didn't listen. It ran into the dark and bleak street and stopped to look around. Then it turned to the right and ran down the sidewalk.
// Damn, this is so weird watching your own body move on its own.//
It kept on running and I noticed that there was a rose bush in the way. My feeble attempts to tell my body to move out of the way didn't work. It ran right through the bushes, I saw blood seek through the torn pieces on my dress and then realized that someone was controlling my body. If I was possessed then, the thing that possessed me would have felt that.
It ran down the street with a trail of blood from the wounds flowing behind. My body suddenly ran off course, it turned to the woods and rapidly sprinted in little zigzags avoiding the trees. It suddenly stopped looked down and I realized that there was a 15 meter steep cliff below us, // no…don't do it //. I knew my brain or whoever was controlling me wasn't listening on the account that it didn't listen before.
It jumped down and of course I didn't feel pain because I really wasn't in my body or I was…never mind, this is just confusing me. It ran to the center and stopped… it was quiet. I felt a gentle wind flow throughout the forest. Then I regained control of my body and at that very moment a huge surge of pained filled my body from the previous happenings and I ended up unconscious.
When I woke up I tried to focus my eyes and sit up but my body wouldn't let me. Only thing I knew was that I was in this dark kind of spacey room thing and it was unbelievingly cold. I felt goose bumps spread throughout my body and then noticed a dark figure in the corner of my eye. It had some kind of ancient robe on and a hood over its head. It held this long glaive in its left hand. Then a spell rang through the room and I finally realized…I finally realized it.
I was not unconscious or sleeping. I don't know why or how it happened but for some unknown reason…I'm dead.)*
Death, that feeling is so familiar to me. I never wanted to live to see everybody's mistakes repeated over and over; but I have. I never wanted this power; but I have it. Most of all, I never wanted to be reborn over and over; but I have to. I once made a promise or someone to visit me in their or my death…you always kept that promise, Ami.
*( I was at Ami's apartment talking about… well nothing in particular before school. I then remembered something that was once told to be important.
"Ami, you said you saw something in English"
"Oh yeah, I forgot," a grin played on Ami's face. "I saw a gundam tattooed on Duo's arm" Ami's grin disappeared and came to a serious face, "Shinegami."
"So what," I had a hard time connecting Ami's ideas with my own.
"Well all this time you've been trying to say that Duo and me belong together when it should be you and duo. Do you get it…your like the queen of destruction so technically your Shinemegami".
I smiled for a moment at Ami's awkwardness but what she said technically was true except for the part of me and duo being together.
"Please don't tell me this is what you've been trying to tell me".
"Of course not, but it does have to do with the fact that shinegami was tattooed on duo's arm."
I waited silently for her to continue.
"What does Shinegami Mean?"
"God of death."
"Well, what did one particular G-pilot always call himself during the war?"
"I'm not sure but I read some time ago that one of them called himself shinegami. Look Ami, I'm really not in the mood to play Blue's Clues, can you please get to the point"
"Well I finally found some evidence that they are gundam pilots. The gundam that was tattooed on duo's arm was called Deathscythe. If no one remembers the war then why would they have that on their arm?"
"Why didn't you say so from the beginning?"
Ami smiled and said, "I tried to build up suspense"
I sighed but couldn't help but smile "I guess we should get to school before we're late…or we could skip."
"We could…but can't because we have a test in history."
"Oh well, let's go."
We both picked up our things and left. Before Ami locked her door she spoke.
"Y'know, Hotaru why don't we drive today?"
"Why…?"
"I guess we can…but we'll still be late."
"I don't care," Ami said with one of her carefree smiles.
Ami and I skip because I've been through so many schools through all my lives, it isn't even funny and Ami's IQ is at and even above college level. It makes sense once you think about it. Also we both have our driver's license, yet for some reason we rather walk instead of drive unless we're in a lazy mood. When we reached school we were late.
"I guess we can skip 1st period since we're this late," Ami said with a smile.
"You had this planned all along didn't you?"
"Why don't we go to your spot," Ami said, changing the subject.
When we reached the spot we sat down and there was a peaceful silence. I always love these times…when your just sit-.
"Hotaru…there's still something I haven't told you yet," Ami said interrupting my thoughts.
"What?"
"We have to do a project…my partner's duo."
"So…"
"He's going to come over today and-"
"You want me to come too… Ami you need to remember that I'm your friend and not some stranger. I mean, you would have done the same thing for me."
"I know, I just thought you wouldn't want to do it."
"I don't, but anyway what do you have to do?"
"It's easy actually; we have to examine flaws in some of Shakespeare's plays."
"Duo has to come over to your apartment for that?"
"He thinks so…"
"You know, things would be so much easier if they just had pictures of the g-pilots."
"Yeah, it's a shame they were all erased…or at least said to be erased."
There was another moment of silence, the leaves on the trees rustled. The wind flirted with the feeble looking grass. I glanced over at Ami…her eye's were closed which telepathically told me to close mine…I did. Not one thought clouded our minds.
*Ring*
Both Ami and my eyes opened, and my mind shot back to reality. I felt so solemn to be brought back to this hellish school.
"Shall we go," Ami said as we stood up and reached out her hand. It basically told me that I was going even if I didn't want to, which I don't.
"Yeah…"
We reached our next class, which was History…wait a minute.
"Ami…I got an idea," I whispered over to her.
"Wait, let me guess, you want to talk to the history teacher."
"Yeah, I mean if anybody should remember the war it has to be this old fart. Most old people like to reminisce on the past."
"Actually, that's a good idea… we could talk to him after class."
"This is turning out to be a mystery…a really corny mystery."
"Like the Hardy Boys?"
"What?"
"Never mind…"
"No wait, isn't that the old mystery book series?"
"You know what it is?" Ami whispered in shock
Almost embarrassingly I said, "I lived for a long time…I had to do something to occupy myself."
"Right, I forgot."
About ten minutes later the bell rang and students left the classroom. It was empty and silent; the only sound that could be heard was the teacher writing something and our quiet footsteps. We reached the desk and I looked at the teacher for the first time…well first time this close. Gray streaks ran all over his hair and the wrinkles showed almost like ditches on a battlefield. He casually looked up, smiled and said, "What can I do for you ladies."
"I was just wondering, what was the last war we were in…the one involving the colonies?" Ami started
"It seems you already know"
"Wait, you remember it?" I said with shock hidden in my voice.
"Yeah," he said as he got up to file something. "It's weird how nobody remembers the war, right?"
"Do you know about the gundam pilots or even how they look like?" Ami said wondering what answer she was going to get.
"Sure do…there were 7 of them. Five of them were young boys and the other two were in there late twenties or even early thirties."
"How come you remember it but never said anything about it?" Ami said again.
"I and a couple other people were told to take an oath of silence."
I finally asked a question that basically changed our lives forever. "Why are you telling us this?"
"Because I know"
Students began to pile in and Ami and I got out of our temporary moment of shock
"Can w-we talk to you after school?"
"Please," he said with a grin.
When we walked out of the class we realized we just received a shock that never even crossed our minds.
"He was referring to our powers wasn't he?" I said.
"Yeah…but how?"
Those were the only words that came out of Ami's mouth that moment. All this time we were wondering about the g-pilots when other options were never explored.
Has he told the Gundam Pilots…?
Were they leading us in a trap…?
Was this all planned…?
For the first time I felt worry…but why? I never felt it before. Is it because I'm now happy? That for once in my life, I have someone who cares just to be taken away from me. I feel so much death…so much death and destruction awaiting.
I never told Ami…and I can never tell her until the end.
I can never tell what I'll have to do if…
This world, this chaotic world…
Comes to destruction…)*
*(A/N- Does this count as a cliffhanger? Anyway, just so you know I don't really know what Shinegami and Shinemegami means, hell I don't even know if it's a word. I just know it has to do with death and destruction. Also, I'm not sure if I spelled Duo's gundam right. Anyway, sorry again it took so long to get this out and thanks very much for reading.)*
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