PLEASE READ AUTHOR NOTE. THIS CHAPTER MAY CONFUSE YOU IF YOU DON'T

( I decided not to discontinue my story, I want to thank the people who reviewed or just read my chapters. It puts a smile on my face when I realize people besides me can appreciate a story that is not centered around couples. The reason I wrote this story was to give a different outlook on Hotaru and Ami. I wanted to go more in depth with their character. I read some of the other fan fictions and very few stories do that. If you are confused, this story is all a flashback on the last an beginning years of Hotaru's life. They are not sailor scouts, but they do have their same powers. The gundam pilots no longer have their gundams, but they still go on missions. In this chapter if you did not read or do not remember the beginning of chapter's 5 and 6 it will confuse you… I guarantee. I recommend that you go back and read the beginning of those two chapters. I do not want to bore you so I will get straight to the story. Again thanks so much to the people who reviewed my last chapter (you know who you are); you do not know how happy that made me to keep on writing. Thanks for reading! )

Disclaimer – I do not own anything but the plot of this story

// Thoughts // "what's being said" (Flash back )

The Screen Behind the Mirror – Camera Obscura

( We tend to walk around this world hoping that someone will love and understand us completely, that they would cherish us no matter what our faults and failures are. I think that is everybody's dream. I wonder why people think that I would be different. I know I am destined to destroy everything, yet what is wrong with wanting to be loved or maybe just…understood?)

( Ami, the gundam pilots, and I continued to walk down the desolated street. I was stuck in my own world, so I failed to see how Ami and Heero started to find a lot in common. One minute Ami was comforting me, then the next they were talking about how big their hard drive is. Duo seemed to be intently listening, the rest just walked along as if they were not even phased by this miraculous transition of attitudes.

I felt so out of place in this crowd. I saw Quatre look back at me and smile, something I could not do at that moment. He slowed his pace, and waited for me to catch up with him. I did not want to talk to him, more or less, be near him, yet it was better him then Duo or Wufei.

"Are you ok, you seem more down then ever."

"you should know why," I said meaner then I intended. "Sorry, that didn't come out right."

"It's ok, we all can get under the weather sometimes." Quatre looked at me and smiled again. I inspected it closely, only to realize that his intentions were genuine. I smiled back, its like the saying says, 'if you can't beat them, join them.'

I saw the park up in the distance. Another bad feeling came over me. I felt my body shiver and tremble almost violently. // Something is going to happen. //

"Are you ok," Ami asked as she looked back at me.

"I am fine," I felt odd as this comment caused everyone to look at me.

She walked closer to me and said a little quieter, yet the others heard anyway. "You just trembled, it seemed like something was wrong."

My head started to hurt and my mind could hardly think. // Why does this feeling feel so familiar? //

My mouth felt as dry as I desert as I tried to speak, "I was just a little cold, you know how that is." I looked up at Ami and smiled. If we were alone I knew she would say, 'but you are never cold, and it's 75 degrees out here.'

"If you want, you could wear my jacket." Duo said with a smirk on his face. There was no way he could get me in that, it was way too big. Besides, I know that they can care less about my well-being.

"I'm fine," I said in a tone that was trying to sound nice.

We entered the park and my headache came back with full force. Ami and Heero were still talking about computers, and other stuff while Duo looked on with a smile. Ami looked a little different, like her mind was not there. //It must be because of what happened a few minutes ago.// The rest were sitting down on a bench, enjoying the beautiful day. My knees began to feel weak and trembled, I have been walking in the sun to long. I walked to a tree and sat down in the shade.

My headache turned to a migraine …I could not even think. My hands began to glow this eerie looking green color and the same words played into my mind. She was calling me… Setsuna. I tried to regain control of myself, yet I could not. My violet eyes clouded over, as my hands stopped glowing. I got up, and so smoothly, my legs got up and walked over to Ami.

"Ami, I'm going to take a walk," I tried to scream, and tell her not to believe me, but I could not. That is why the feeling was so familiar. It was when something took over my body and led me to Setsuna, that day so long ago.

"Oh, I'll go with you." Ami said with a smile on her face. I wanted to say yes, but I had no control over my body or mind.

"It's ok, I just need to be alone."

Ami looked at me with worried eyes, as I turned away. I was not myself, this was not helping me hide the suspicion that flowed around me… not in the least.

Ami

I watched Hotaru walk away… too smoothly. She was definitely not acting herself. It started a while back when she started to act distant from me. It was as if she wanted to tell me something, but she could not. I know Hotaru has had a rough time in this lifetime, but what could be so secretive, that she could not even tell me what is going on.

"Are you ok Ami," Duo asked shooting me back to reality.

I looked at him and said, "I am going to see if Hotaru's alright."

As I was walking away, I felt Heero's hand grip mine and say, "We can't let you do that."

"Why? What is wrong with you all, every time Hotaru and I go to do something, you all are there. Always, around me, as if you are protecting me. What is going on?!" I did not mean to sound so desperate, but it had to stop. All of this, they probably knew by now were magic users.

By this time they all gathered around me. Wufei reached in his pocket and pulled out a white piece of paper. He looked at his comrades, and they all shook their head as if saying 'yes'. He handed me the paper. I looked at them, and their eyes looked different, they looked so serious.

I took the paper from Wufei's hands and read it:

Ex-pilots 01, 02, 03, 04, 05 new mission is to protect magic user, Ami Mizuno from what ever harm may come near her.

I read the paper again and again searching for some special persons name, yet could not find it. "What about Hotaru?"

"We asked if there was somebody else, but it turned out it was only you," said Duo in a serious tone.

"Why do all of you need to protect me, since you already know, I am a magic user. Anyway, you all are pilots, don't you have anything better to do."

"Actually, we're ex-pilot's and we are just following orders." Quatre said to me with serious eyes just like Duo. I was growing tired of this.

"Like some damn puppet." There looks did not change and I was not about to wait around to see it. I walked away and slowly stopped when I heard a gun click. Without turning around I sighed and said, "I don't care about my life, but I do about Hotaru's… what do you want."

I felt Duo walk up to me smoothly and say "Funny, I bet she would say the same. We know you have the power of water, but what about Hotaru."

I turned around to face them. " I know that is not all you want, I am not an idiot. As soon as I tell you, what are you going to do?"

"Hmph, accomplish this mission and leave," Wufei said with ego to big for his body.

"This will go a lot smoother if you just come with us. I know you do not want to lose conscious at a time like this," Trowa said obviously wanting to get this over with.

I looked at Heero's tranquilizer gun still pointed at me. They were right, it was not going to do me or Hotaru any good if I was knocked out.

"I am not leaving Hotaru here."

"We will come back for her," Duo said.

"I don't believe you."

Quatre stepped forward and said, "We promise, believe me, I do not want to see her hurt either."

This surprised me, but for some reason when I looked in his eyes, I could tell he was telling the truth.

"Sigh, ok." I did not want to go, but since I was miles from home, had no car keys with me, and did not sense Hotaru anywhere near here, I decided to go with them. Anyway, five against one is impossible to beat. As we were walking to their car, only one thought clouded my mind.

This must be the end.

Hotaru

As soon as Ami and the gundam pilots were out of sight, my body ran through the rose bushes, and everything imaginable. The thorns tore my dress as I felt blood seep through my skin. I wanted to scream for it to stop, but I could not, I had control over nothing.

My body leaped down a hill and again I found my self in a circle surrounded by trees. A breeze swept over me as the wind flirted with the gentle grass. I regained control of my body, and again, I fell into Setsuna's mysterious world of the dead.

I woke up and saw Setsuna's face in the distance, my body ached so much.

"Why do you keep doing this to me!? Can't you just zap me here or something."

"Sorry, the only way for you to see me is for you to be dead. Anyway, this is only the second time" Setsuna had a serious look on her face.

"Why can't everything be different? Is there another way for me to get past destroying this world…I don't…"

"I know you do not want to do this, I know all your feelings." Setsuna looked at me with sympathy in her eyes, she was not lying.

"What will happen if I don't destroy it at all?"

"Didn't we go through this last time."

"Yeah, but you told me what time I would have to destroy it, not if I don't destroy it."

"If you do not destroy the world, then it will be destroyed anyway along with humanity, but they will not be reborn again. That is why you have too."

"I don't get it…."

"Your ultimate move is called Death Reborn Revolution because only you have the power to destroy and have this world start over again. I do not want to see everything die and not have the chance to start over. I hoped you would understand in time, that is why I did not tell you this before…It was too early."

"I think I see what you are saying, I am saving it…that is why you wanted me to destroy it at the right time. If I wait too long, it will be destroyed without any hope of rebirth."

"Will you do it?"

"Yes, if I have to, but… can Ami be reborn, and everybody else?"

"In time yes …but remember, you will never be reborn or rest in peace. You will live in a world of nothingness. That is the price of using this move. Are you still up to it?"

I nodded my head. I have lived too long anyway, but with Ami, decades can turn to minutes.

"You must remember that you cannot tell anybody this, if you do then everything will be ruined."

"That means that… the gundam pilots will still think of me as a threat. Ami will still think that I am hiding something, and the whole world will still hate and despise me. I hope I am doing the right thing…

I wanted to think that everything will turn out all right, but nothing in my life has ever been easy.

Would the world want to start all over again?

Maybe the people who live here do not want to be reborn.

How can I decide to do this thinking that everyone will agree with my decision?

I never wanted to be here, but maybe they feel the same way I do.

How can Setsuna and I decide their destiny without their consent.

As if Setsuna read my mind she said, "I do not know if the world or the people would want to start over, but I hope this is the best…for the future. I will see you soon."

I wanted to ask Setsuna more questions, but before I could utter a syllable, I began to fade away. As I regained conscious, my body began to hurt like hell. My previous problems shot back like rapid lightning, and then in the darkness of the night, I realized I was surrounded by everything…

Yet…

Nothing…

alone again…

( Well, that's it for now, I hope I didn't confuse you too much. I just thought some of the things in this story should be cleared up before I got farther into the storyline. Many writers assume that the readers know what is going on in their stories, when the readers have no clue what the writer is trying to say. I know how that is and I try my best to make sure everything is clear. So, if you are lost in any of this story, or if I did not explain something enough, tell me. If you read the beginning of chapter's 5 and 6, you probably were not confused in this chapter. Anyway, hope you enjoyed it, and again I want to thank all the people who review, or even take the time out to read my story. Ta-Ta for now. )