New Beginnings
Author's Note: I know I'm new so you'll have to forgive me as I try to get into a rhythm between work and school. I honestly didn't think about where I would take this story after the first chapter so bare with me if some stuff sounds a little funkier in the story than others. I also have been reading a story by JJ Twi1ight and got the idea to add foot notes of songs or pictures of things in the story that are a little harder to add in words.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything you recognize except for my witty conversation banter! =D
DPOV
(Start Diary of Jane by Breaking Benjamin)
I know that what happened last night could have gone a lot differently if I had let it, but I just couldn't bring myself to have to possibly come to terms with something I didn't want to hear from Chloe. The slightly faded memory of whispering that I needed her flashed through my head. I just sighed and kept my arm draped over my eyes to try to keep the light from the morning sun away as long as possible.
Light daydreams floated through my subconscious, my mind picking out different futures I could have with Chloe. Most of them included her being by my side day and night, but a few were more unbearable to acknowledge. These few instances included Simon and Chloe being together, or her not being in my life at all. The more my mind dwelled on the more unpleasant futures, the more I realized I had become dependent on her being in my life.
My life was beginning to revolve around Chloe and I wanted to be upset for allowing myself to get soft, instead I took a deep breath and shook my head as if answering my own argument that I didn't need to be angry. The more I thought about her, the more I worried about her, and the more I wanted to be able to protect her from everything that could possibly harm her.
I turned my head to the side and looked at my alarm clock; it said 9:45 am. A low rumble from my stomach told me I had to get up and eat otherwise I would never recover from the morning grumps. I smirked inwardly at the thought of what Chloe called my mood when I couldn't or didn't eat in the morning and ended up being super grouchy.
Placing my hand on the edge of my sheets, I pulled them back just enough for my legs to slide out from underneath and onto the floor. I took a moment and stretched all four of my limbs and felt the better for it. Standing up, I walked over to my desk chair and grabbed the two sizes too big shirt and threw it on along with some baggy sweatpants. A smile played at my lips as I walked downstairs hearing Chloe's laughter waft up to my sensitive ears.
SPOV
I know I should stop thinking about her, but without her actually saying she didn't like me, I don't think I could possibly tear myself from her life so easily. The glance I stole at Chloe proved to be worth it as I caught her smiling at me as she grabbed some eggs from the fridge.
"I hope you aren't too hungry Simon, you know I can't really cook, but I owe you some eggs don't I?" She nudged into me laughing light heartedly, my heart skipping a beat at her touch.
"Psh, you know me, if I survived with Derek so long, especially with his cooking, I think anything you whip up for me will be just perfect." I slyly stood up from the bar stool and went behind Chloe wrapping my arms slowly and gently around her waist, testing the waters so to speak. Since she didn't object, I grabbed my left wrist in front of her stomach and squeezed a little to get a small squeak out of her.
'God I could get use to this so easily.' I saw her neck and face tint with a shade of light red; my body reacted before I could think. My face nuzzled into the side of her head, my lips grazing ever so gently across her delicious looking skin. Her soft gasp made my hands slide to her hips, gripping them firmly as my lips found the nape of her neck.
Chloe stepped away from my grasp and turned to look at me with the deepest blush I have yet to see grace her lovely face. She looked at me with a deep desire, but seemed completely confused by the feeling. Her eyes slid off to my right for a split second and then back to my face, her small frame shaking a little as she turned back around to the burner where she was cooking the eggs.
"Morning Simon," a deep voice rumbled behind me and a flash of fear stole through my body. 'How long has Derek been standing there?'
DPOV
I thought I heard Chloe gasp, thinking it was because of another page of the comic Simon had been drawing about our "adventures." Never could I have readied myself for the scene I took in as I strolled into the kitchen. I stopped dead in my tracks when my brain finally registered Simon's hands and lips on Chloe's hips and neck. My heart dropped, broke into a million pieces, turned to ash, and blew away in the winds to the four corners of the earth when Chloe turned around and met my gaze. What she saw there, I don't know. Heartbreak? Sadness? Jealousy? Rage? Probably that and more as my life seemed to be slipping into the void of nothingness again.
"Morning Simon," he knew he had been caught, his body had stiffened and I could tell he was scared, at least for a moment. 'As he should be, touching my…' No, I knew Simon liked Chloe, I just never thought that my seemingly harmless nudging would produce full blown make-out sessions in the middle of OUR kitchen. I could feel the time I had left to make sure Chloe knew about my feelings for her closing faster than I had first anticipated. Honestly, that scared me worse than battling Liam and Ramon, hell even the whole of The Pack for that matter.
I coldly brushed past Simon, gently leaning into Chloe as I reached for the muffins next to the stove, grabbing more than a few for my breakfast. My ears picked up on her quickened heart beat as my hand had brushed over hers. In truth, I would have smiled, but I couldn't be the one to make her feel like that, especially after what I just saw Simon doing to her. 'There is no way she is into me, I don't know what the hell I was thinking when I said I needed to tell her I cared for her so strongly.'
CPOV
'There is no way this is happening right now. Oh my god Derek is going to think I'm screwing his brother! Oh god what am I going to do?' My concentration on the eggs was lacking to say the least, the wooden spoon killing the eggs more than scrambling them.
"Morning," my eyes were downcast toward the stove where the eggs I no longer cared about were starting to burn. Derek's high temperature made my heart speed up a little, even more when he started to pull away. What he was doing felt like absolute teasing torture and there was nothing I could do. 'If Derek liked me he would have said something already wouldn't he? I mean he's so blunt about everything else…' I shook my head as the burning smell entered my nose and brought me back to earth as I took the eggs off the burner and turned the stove off.
"Sorry Simon, I suddenly don't feel well. I think I'm going to head back upstairs to get some rest." I side glanced at him very quickly before heading up to the second floor flying past a bewildered Derek. I almost stopped, almost. My heart was beating out of my chest as I slammed my door shut and collapsed onto my bed crying myself into a very dreamless sleep.
SPOV
Hearing the door slam shut from upstairs, I just stared at the ceiling. We've been so wound up over this whole keep away from the Edison Group, that maybe it's time to relax a little. The place we were staying was actually Andrew's. We, and when I say we I mean Derek, managed to set up a good security system to be able to keep this as our main head quarters so to speak. We've been here for two and a half years. Derek and I both turned 18 a little while back; Tori turned 18 just a few months ago. Chloe, she turns 18 in two days. My heart skipped a beat thinking about Chloe being of age and able to choose what it is that she's want out of life.
Looking at Derek, I had doubts she would pick what I wanted, me. That was not going to happen while I still had blood flowing through my veins, and air going in and out of my lungs.