They say when you love someone sometimes it's best to let them go. But how can you let go of the one person who's the reason for your existence?

[Callie's POV]

I didn't know what to do about the letter. She left me once again after swearing she wouldn't. I couldn't believe it. I loved her more than anything. I wanted to be friends and to have her in my life. And she's gone once again, its as if she died all over again.

"Addison how long ago did she leave?"

"Just as you came"
"I have to go. If she wakes up tell her I will be back"

I took off to Erica's hotel.

I got there as fast as I could and asked for her room number.

"Im sorry mam..Ms. Hahn checked out about 20 minutes ago."

"no…no..no…no…that cant be please…"

"im sorry"

I didn't know what to do. I couldn't possibly drive back to the hospital and face Arizona. One look at me and she would know. She would know that emotionally my heart is with Erica. I pick up my phone and I call Addy.

"Callie is everything okay?"

"I need you to come get me. Please I cant drive. She isn't here Addy, she's already gone."

"ill be right there"

"thank you"

We hung up and I sat down and waited for her to come.

[Erica's POV]

I stood behind the corner and watched as she sat there crying. As bad as I wanted to I knew I couldn't go over there. I loved her more than my own happiness. She will be okay, I know she will. She is strong, courageous and beautiful.

I walk past the backside of her and head outside to my taxi. I contemplated for a moment. There she was I could walk up to her right now and convince her to come to L.A. with me. We could be together forever.

I look at my phone and I see it's Callie. I want more than ever to answer it but I push ignore. She wont understand now, but she will soon.

I leave Seattle for good in about 1 hour. I do not want to but I know it is for the best. I board the plane and sit by the window, im alone which is good. Because the last thing I want is for someone to watch me cry. Im Erica Hahn, im supposed to be a heartless bitch who doesn't cry. Yet all I want to do right now is cry myself to sleep.

[Callie's POV]

I waited for Addison and as I cried more and more as each second passed. Why did she have to do this to me again? If all she was going to do was leave, why even come back at all. I can't heal from this again. I am on the verge of breaking down when Addison comes up to me and calls my name. I run into her arms and she holds me tight. She wipes away my tears and says don't worry I will take care of you. But how can you fix something that is already past the point of no return? There is no fixing me. Erica Hahn, damn that woman, but she broke me forever. God I love her so fucking much, but I love Arizona too. And she wouldn't do this to me. But Erica has twice already and would do it again. I take Andy's hand and follow her to her car. She takes me home and runs me a hot bath. I think to myself what good will a hot bath do, when all I want to do is crawl in a hole and die. This is supposed to be the greatest experience of my life. And it has been with Arizona. I take a hot bath and attempt to relax for once.

[Erica's POV]

I turned my cell off as we entered the runway. This was it, no turning back from here. She was my entire life from the moment I met her. I knew then I would love her forever. What I didn't think of was how love gets complicated. And people make mistakes. Real love survives those mistakes. I never should have walked out that night. I should have stayed and fought for her, for us.

But I walked away. God I am stupid. Arizona was there, and she's the complete opposite of me. I'm cold and heartless, while she is warm and bubbly. But that shouldn't mean a thing, I love Callie, just as much as her if not more. Ugh… Erica Hahn- the idiot. Damn me for not trying. Damn me for leaving…

Somewhere between yelling at myself and crying I passed out from exhaustion.

[Callie's POV]

After my bath, I crawl into my bed and Addison holds me while I fall asleep.

As I am sleeping I begin to dream….

(I walk inside my house. I just cant wait to tell her the news, Im pregnant. W e have been trying for almost a year. And when everyone else said give up, she stuck by my side. God I love her so much. I walk up to our room and open the door. I can smell the aromas' from the candles a mile away. She must have good news also. I take off my clothes and slip into the bathroom.

"Baby?"

"Callie, your home. I have missed you so much."

I get into the bath so that I am facing her. She pulls me close and kisses me softly.

I smile at her radiant beauty, she truly is god's gift to me. I pull her hand and place it on my stomach. She giggles and smiles.

"Are you telling me what I think your telling me?"

"Yes!"

"Callie….were pregnant? Like really really pregnant?"

"YES!!!!"

"OMG I have waited for this day. I love you baby I love you so much"

"I love you too"

She kisses me once more. And then she stops to reach for something that's under her robe.

"I was going to wait until the perfect moment to do this. But Callie, I cant think of a more perfect moment."

"What is it?"

"You know I love you more than life itself. And I want to spend forever and always with you by my side. You don't have to say yes right away, you don't have to say no either. But atleast consider it"

"Consider what?"

"Marrying me and making me the luckiest woman in the world'

I begin to cry absolute tears of joy.

"of course I will marry you"

"are you sure Callie Torres?"

"I have never been more sure of anything in my entire life. I want to shout it from the rooftops. I, Callie Torres, am madly in love with, and I want nothing more than to marry you Erica Hahn…" )

Just as the dream was getting good, I wake up screaming and in tears as reality hits. She's gone forever. Addison takes me in her arms and rocks me back to sleep.

[Erica's POV]

When I awoke again we had just landed in Los Angeles. I turned on my phone and I had 3 texts and 1 voicemail all from Callie and Addy. I read the texts first.

From: Addy

"Erica, hun call me as soon as you get to L.A. Callie is hysterical. But don't worry; I will take care of her. Love you Er.

~ Addy Montgomery"

From: Callie

"Erica. I need to talk to you call me now please."

From: Callie

"Er…please baby call me. I have to hear your voice. I have to tell you that I…please call me, I'm sorry."

I called my voicemail, it was Callie.

"Er..babe please come back. I need you, I want you in my life….I love you"

I erased them all and called Addy.

"Are you okay?" She whispered.

"Why are you whispering?"

"I am in bed with Callie. Give me one moment"

I wait as she leaves Callie's room and walks into the living room.

"How is she Addison?"

"Hysterical. She just had a dream about you and her. And she woke up screaming and crying. I just got her back to sleep about 10 minutes ago."

"Take care of her."

"I will. How are you? Are you home yet?"

"Not yet, still at the L.A. airport. Listen Addy, please babe take care of her. I love her so much. Make sure she is happy."

"I will Erica I promise."

{Addison was so into her conversation with Erica that she hadn't notice Callie coming out of the bedroom and retaining every last word.}

"OMG Erica….Let me talk to her."

"Callie..no. She is fine, but she doesn't want to talk to you"

"What? Why?" Callie screamed as her hysteria reigned its ugly head once more.

Callie began hyperventilating and crying even more. There was no controlling her at this point. She didn't understand Erica leaving again and she didn't understand Erica not speaking to her. All of this was far too much for mom and baby to handle…

Callie was in the process of begging Addison to let her talk to Erica when a sharp pain pierced her stomach.

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Callie screamed out in agony.

"Addison whats going on? Is she okay?"

"I will call you back"

Addison hung up on Erica and went to help Callie.

"Baby you need to breathe and calm down."

"I cant…cal—m do---wn. Pleea---see call Er—ic—a" Callie begged as the pain got worse.

"Fine I will call her.."

Just as Addy dialed Erica's number Callie passed out….