HII i'm sooo sorry i haven't updated in sooo long! I had a surprise trip to France and had no internet, then i had exams, then i had more revision and coursework, but it's all done now! So here you go, i'm posting two because you deserve it :)

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I was sitting at the table, fed up with my mum and brother. Tonight was the night my mum had decided we should all sit down for dinner. It wasn't that I didn't like eating with my family; only I wanted to go out. I had wolfed down my dinner at lightning speed, but my mum insisted that I wait until everyone was finished before I left. My brother was really taking his time.

My brother finally finished talking and swallowed his last bite of Sheppard's pie. I stood up a little too quickly, knocking my chair over behind me. I wasn't quick enough to catch it as it crashed to the floor.

'Have you got somewhere to be Beth? Or are you just planning on destroying all the furniture?' My mum put her hands on her hips.

'Yeah, sorry, I'm going over to the Cullen's, once I've cleared up.' I added in the last bit quickly when my mum raised an eyebrow at me.

'Oh you are, are you?' My mum was so frustrating sometimes.

'I mean, please can I go to the Cullen's.' I said, my voice flat, not hiding my irritation with my mother.

'Yes, but change your attitude Beth! You can be so rude!' My mum exclaimed, turning away from me to wash up. I heard my brother snigger. 'You too Spencer! You do nothing around this house! You're playing on your games, leaving mess everywhere –' I didn't hear anymore of her rant as I made a quick getaway out the front door. These speeches happened more frequently in our house as mum got more and more fed up with me and my lazy brother.

I couldn't get to the clearing quickly enough, but fortunately for me, I didn't have to get as far as the clearing to meet Jasper. As I neared the woods, he appeared at my side.

'What's up?' He asked, scaring me as I hadn't noticed him. My original fear quickly disintegrated as his cool arm wrapped around my waist. I couldn't stop myself from sinking into his body. I put my nose to his chest and breathed in deeply. His scent was intoxicating.

I was so taken by his presence I hadn't noticed we were in the clearing. He sat down pulling onto his lap and I turned to face him. I brought my face close to his, pushing my lips against his. Warmth flowed through me as he kissed me back, pulling me closer to his body.

After a while Jasper pulled away, resting his chin on my head.

'So,' Jasper said, 'what's with all the negativity? You feel like you're going to kill someone.' I remembered my previous annoyance before Jasper had arrived. I groaned.

'I could kill someone.' I said; my annoyance clear. 'My mum has just been driving me crazy recently. She thinks I go out too much and spend too much time with your family. Apparently I don't spend enough 'family time' at home. Just another one of her lectures on the way out left me in a sour mood.' I pouted and furrowed my eyebrows to emphasize my point. Jasper chuckled at me.

'You're funny when you're angry,' he said, still laughing, 'but maybe she's right, you do spend a lot of time out here with me, and you're rarely out my house now, seeing as you can't manage to conceal your thoughts.' He laughed at this too.

'I'm sorry if I'm not used to someone browsing through my thoughts whenever!' I said, half jokingly but with a little dig at Jasper and Edward too. 'I guess you're right though, I reckon we're going to get caught one of these days!' I believed what I was saying too. We couldn't really keep hiding this from everyone successfully. I had to give two different excuses to Ruby and my mum, good job they didn't talk too much. But Jasper had to tell his family eventually, and I agreed that it was up to him, when he was ready, but he really was dragging it out.

'So when are you going to tell your family about us?' I asked, voicing my thoughts. His chin lifted from my head suddenly.

'What do you mean?' He asked. He seemed confused, yet what was there to be confused about?

'Well I figured you were going to say something eventually...?'

'Beth...' He hesitated with his answer. This wasn't good. 'I don't think they would react well. I was with Alice for such a long time, I can't just forget her! I loved her! I think this is just better kept quiet, our own secret, you know?'

'No Jasper, I don't know. Your family are the most understanding group of people. What do you think they're going to do? They will be happy that you're moving on! They want you to Jasper! They don't want you to be miserable and mope around your whole life on your own! Stop using your family as excuses, you know they want you to be happy!' I couldn't believe I had just got so angry, I wasn't expecting it, but I felt like Jasper was ashamed of me or something. I understood if he was worried about telling his family, but never telling them? I didn't know if I could go on keeping this a secret from my best friends, my family. It wasn't fair.

Jasper hadn't said anything while I had been thinking about what I had said. He was sitting, looking straight over my head, his arms no longer around me. Even though his skin was cold, I felt suddenly even colder in the dark woods. I felt bad; I had been harsh to him.

'Jasper, I'm sorry, it's just...' I faded off as he slowly shook his head, still not looking at me. I didn't know what he was thinking or doing. Rather than say anything else, I stood up to leave. If he wanted me to stay he would make that clear. As I edged away from him, still facing him, but he seemed oblivious to my movement. With that, I turned and tried to keep my composure as I walked away. When I was no longer in his eyesight, I ran as fast as I could back to my house, tears threatening to spill over my eyes. I couldn't get back quick enough, the first tears running down my cheeks so I could taste the salty water in my mouth. As I opened the door, Spencer was sitting on the couch.

'Hey, Beth, what's up?' He jumped up from the couch and came straight over to me, concerned. I just shook my head, hating that I couldn't tell him anything, but keeping true to Jasper. He simply pulled me into a hug, not forcing me to say anything.

When he let me go, I jumped straight in the shower. I stood still in the shower, letting the water fall over me, letting my tears flow. My thoughts raced as I tried to figure out what had just happened. So was that it? Was it over? Because of some stupid comment I made? I just wanted Jasper to understand how I felt, that it wasn't just about him. I had to lie to my best friends, come up with cover stories. It wasn't a way to have a relationship – based on lies. Did that mean we couldn't be together? The thought of this made my body shake with tears. I couldn't face it, even though we hadn't been together long I wanted to stay with Jasper for as long as I could. He made me feel special.

After a longer than normal shower I got out, still red eyed and headed to bed.