I had a really hard time going to sleep that night. When I finally did it was almost four in the morning and was awake again by five. I decided that I would just get up and get a shower and try my best to avoid all of them this morning. I'm just not ready to face them. After getting ready I snuck into Kendall's room and put a glass of water and some medicine on his bedside table because I knew based on how he was acting that he would be really hung over this morning.

I managed to sneak out of the house without waking any of them up. Luckily since I was the last to get home my car wasn't blocked in so I took my car and headed for the office. It was only about 6:20 but I knew that the quiet would give me time to think about things and collect my emotions before facing them. I had come to a conclusion earlier that Kendall, James, Logan and Carlos will probably hate and fight me on but it truly is the only way I see myself being able to keep my friendships and relationship intact.

Soon enough I heard a light knock on my office door. "Come in." I said, tensing slightly not sure which one of them it was. I was pleasantly surprised when it was none of them, instead in walked Harper, Jade and Maggie. "What are you girls doing here?"

Harper looked at me sadly, "Kendall called me this morning and told me what happened last night. So I called the girls and we decided to see what was going on through your head."

"I really don't know. It just hurt you know."

They all nodded, "We also talked to Maria." Jade spoke.

"She explained that she was to blame for what happened and she apologized to Carlos and Kendall. She said y'all talked last night." Maggie added.

I nodded my head, "She did, and I appreciated it. I can understand what she was feeling but that was really some messed up shit. I know that is wasn't all Kendall's fault but he is a grown man he should be able to control himself and his actions better."

"You're absolutely right, so how are you going to go about this?" I explained my plan to them and they agreed that the boys would argue with me. However they also agreed that it really is the best thing to do. After chatting for a little bit longer I gave them each a hug and thanked them for everything.

After the girls left I expecting at least of one the boys to come knocking on my office door immediately but they didn't. I'm really thankful that they are respecting me in that way. About one o'clock when I hadn't been out of my office all day I decided that now would be as good as time as any to sit down with all four of them and talk to them.

I walked out to find Logan and Kendall standing around the lobby desk with their backs to me. "Hey." I spoke softly.

Both of their heads turned and their faces lite up. "Hey, Ivy!" Logan greeted.

Kendall was once again looking at me like I was a sad puppy dog but I didn't correct him this time. He moved close to me and placed his hands softly on my shoulders. "Are you okay?"

I nodded, "Um, I kind of need to talk to all four of you. If you guys aren't busy."

They both nodded, "Sure, I'll go get Carlos and James and we'll meet you two in the conference room." Logan gave a smile then disappeared down the hall.

Kendall and I walked towards the conference room. Once we were inside he grabbed my hand and pulled me close to him and engulfing me in a huge hug. I hugged him back. I felt him kiss my head then I felt his breath next to my ear, "Ivy, I feel terrible about last night. I never meant for that to happen or for you to be hurt. I'm so sorry. I love you."

I pulled away from him and looked him in the face, "I love you too, we'll discuss that later." Just then Logan, Carlos and James came into the room. We all took a seat. Kendall beside me and grasping my hand like he never wanted to let it go.

"So, what's this about, Ivy?" James asked,

"I have something that I want to talk to you guys about and you guys won't like it."

Their faces all changed, "No, you want to move out again, don't you?" Kendall spoke panic clear in his voice. I squeezed his hand.

"No, I realize that being in that house with the three of you is where I am meant to be right. However, I do think that it is in the best interest of not only my relationship with Kendall but with everyone if I no longer work for the company."

As if on cue, "WHAT?" They all screamed at one time.

"No, you can't leave!"

"Guys, think about it. All our personal issues are disrupting work and that's not how it should be. I need to find a job somewhere else and that way I can keep everything separate."

"We don't mind." Carlos said, I looked at him,

"I know that you guys don't mind but I do. I will help you guys find someone to replace me. But not until I get another job lined up. This won't change anything, I will still be your roommate. I'll start paying rent."

"No, you will not." I looked at Logan, "Look, we may not be happy about this but we can understand," He paused and looked at the other guys and they all nodded in agreement. "but you are a part of this family so we will not take money from you." He looked dead serious.

"Fine, but I will start cooking more." I said with a smile.

Carlos immediately agreed with that. I gave them all hugs and thanked them for their understanding. I turned around after James, Logan and Carlos walked out and came face to face with Kendall. He came as close to me as he could without touching me.

"So, now that we know that you're not leaving the house just finding another job there is something else we need to talk about."

'What would that be?"

He sighed, "don't act like that. What about us? Are we okay?"

I walked passed him and back to sit down in one of the chairs. "I hope so, Kendall. I really want us to be but I just don't like how I feel right now."

He came around and kneeled on the ground in front of me, hands resting on the arm of the chair. "Tell me how you felt. I deserve to know what I put you through. I know I made a mistake. I know that I should have had my senses with me but I didn't."

"I'll be honest with you Kendall, I had flash backs to the times when I would walk in on Tyler with other women. Those times I was hurt but not very deeply because I was never truly in love with him. When I opened that door and saw you with her I felt like someone had stabbed a knife through my heart. I don't want to feel like that."

His eyes filled with tears, "I hate that I made you feel like that. I'm so sorry, Ivy. I'm worse than Tyler." He let his head hang down and I could see and feel his tears falling on my pants leg.

I tugged his hair slightly causing him to look back at me. I put both my hands on his face holding his face still and put our foreheads together. "Don't you ever think that. You are twice the man Tyler is. You made a mistake and are paying for it now. You are the one that saved me from him. Saved me from myself. For that I will always love you."

Our lips connected and it felt like everything was right in the world.

We pulled apart and he smiled, "So, you forgive me?"

I giggled, "I love your sorry ass too much not too."