A/N: thank you to everyone who has supported this collection. It's been a long while since I updated, so I thought I'd add something.
Worth it
She didn't like it. She had only ever told one person, one blonde haired bright eyed girl who she had felt the urge to divulge the secret to. No, the military was not for her. But she did it anyway. When she really thought about it, she did many things she didn't like. Driving, for instance. There had always been something about the whirr of machinery, the unpredictable reactions of fellow motorists and the flimsy defences they had in case of accidents. But she had learnt to drive anyway, it had its uses. Paperwork was another. She doubted it was physically possible to enjoy a task so tedious, even though her companions constantly joked it was what she lived for. But the paperwork had to be done, so she did more than her fair share of it. However, the thing she most despised was killing. The splatter of blood that hit her face, hit the wall, covered the sand as she pulled the trigger. The startled faces of her unsuspecting victims in their final moments of life, the faces that would haunt her dreams for eternity. There was no one sane who could possibly enjoy these moments.
Yet, she would continue to do all these things. She had made a promise, she had a duty and she would perform it to the best of her abilities. Because every time she did he smiled. A small barely visible smile that was saved just for her. A smile that told her that he understood what she went through, what she did and that every small gesture was appreciated greatly.
And it was those smiles that somehow, made everything worth it.
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