Chapter Six:
He pushed me off of him and shoved me to the wall pinning me there with his hands on my shoulders. His hands tight, rough, those merciless fingers digging into my shoulder blades. He maneuvered his hand so that it was tight around my throat. Almost as soon as his cold hand wrapped around my pale neck making it seem like a cobra strangling its prey ready to devour it completely, I could feel the fear and hurt on him as it rained over me just as it did him. As if a dark cloud hung above our heads drowning out all reason.
"Why do you keep helping me?" He asked in a harsh angry voice as he looked down on me. His eyes seeming to shoot right through me piercing my heart making it bleed, making it bleed for him. My body felt numb as a reply lingered on my mouth.
"Because I don't want to see you hurt!" I yelled back not thinking about what I said. My jaw tightened as I looked down embarrassed. I felt his grip on my throat loosen and then finally break away from me completely. He turned away from me and walked to the door. I ran up to him and grabbed onto his arm tightly afraid to let go as I snapped my eyes shut. My other arm grabbed onto his shirt as I hugged him from behind. I felt him turn and then I realized that I was clutching his chest. I opened my eyes a bit as I blushed feeling his cold chest against my cheek. "Don't go." The words slip out of my mouth as I feel my frantic heartbeat thud hard in my chest. "Don't… I mean, I don't think Carson will be able to bear it if you go away. He's fond of you, you know, and I couldn't watch someone close to his heart leave. Not again." I said trying to collect myself. There was a long pause and then Jake turned and walked out of the room. I sighed as soon as the door was closed. I leant up against the wall and slid to the floor. I pulled my knees to my chest and put my head down. I was exhausted and I knew I desperately needed sleep, but it seemed like my thoughts kept me from sleeping. I thought about my life before I left to come to this place. I had gone to school and took swimming classes and pre med classes. That's where I learned to stitch up a wound. I think Cameron wanted me to become a doctor so I knew I could protect my brother if anything happened and I could support both of us. But at the same time I kind of wanted that too. I wanted to be independent and be able to keep myself on two feet like a baby learning how to walk.
I sighed and stood up. I walked out to the bow of the boat and stared blankly at the dark water. I wanted to know why Jake had acted the way he did but I knew that I wouldn't know until I asked but I also knew that I wasn't about to do that. I looked over the water with thoughts racing through my mind. I took a long dragged breath and screamed. I screamed at the darkness and the innocent creatures that lurk within it. I put my head down making fists and snapping my eyes shut. I couldn't stand how much of a jerk Jake was being but when it came to it I felt like I couldn't tell him that. Like I knew he had some good in him. "Why is he such an ASS!?" I heard myself yell much softer than my previous scream.
"Maybe it's because he's hiding his feelings." I heard someone say from behind me. I turned only to see the dark image of Cameron.
I smiled, "Oh, you've got to be kidding me!" I said with my back to the railing. "He's not that type of guy Cameron."
He walked a little closer to me letting me see his face. He stared blankly at me. "You think that only because you like him."
I was suddenly willed with anger. "How do you figure that?" I heard my voice raising.
"It makes perfect sense." He said. I looked at him confused. "You act as if you hate him but you use that hate to forget that you actually like him." He explained.
I rolled my eyes and walked back to my room where I found myself that Sunday in August. It was the day we landed in Boston.
"Wake up Alice!" I heard my brother yelling my name. I opened my eyes to see my brother on top of me bouncing like an idiot with a huge grin on his face.
"What is it?" I asked as I sat up.
"We're here" I heard Cameron say from the doorway. I rubbed my eyes and the picked Carson up and swung him around.
"Ok, go make me some hot chocolate and I'll be out alright?" I asked Carson.
"Yeah, yeah, just don't take too long." Carson said as I put him down smiling. "Oh, and you know, I'm not a kid anymore! I'm twelve!" He said walking out closing the door. I changed into dark jeans and a tight white under armor tank top. I wore my red bikini with white polka dots on it under my shirt. After I changed I put my hair into a low, tight ponytail.
"Thanks!" I said with a smile as I picked up the green mug filled with steamy dark brown goodness. I took a sip and followed my brother out to the bow of the boat. I looked at the land and sighed. It had been a while since I had seen land. I followed Cameron and the others down to the docks and into the restaurant.
sorry it took so long I've been pretty busy lately but I promise the next chapter will come sooner.