Jackson couldn't believe that this was it for them. Maybe if he would've forgave her sooner then they could've worked it out and she'd still be here with him.

He left the airport and headed to Joe's bar. This night more than any other night, he needed to drink away all his stress. He had so many regrets when it came to how he handled things with April. They both could've handled things better. As Jackson got his third round, Alex walked into the bar.

"You look terrible." Alex said to him.

"You always know how to make me feel better." Jackson joked.

"Kepner?" Alex asked.

"I told her I love her and she - she left." He said as he took another gulp of his drink.

"You should be relieved, you got the get out of jail free card. It's Kepner." Alex laughed. He noticed Jackson's facial expression and quickly took it back. "Sorry dude. I'm just saying, things have a way of working themselves out. If it's meant to be, she'll be back." Alex said as he ordered a drink. Right then Jackson's phone rang, it was April. He hesitated for a moment and then ignored the call.

The next day Jackson wanted to drown himself with work to keep his mind off of April. At the end of his shift, he was just ready to go home and go to sleep. He thought about calling April several times, but decided against it. What was the point now? He should've gone to Tulane. He never admitted it to anyone, but he was planning to leave Seattle after Mark passed. He had decided to stay because he was hoping April would come back for him. He couldn't bare the thought of never seeing her again. He still couldn't. Jackson got to his apartment and threw his bag on the floor. Right then he heard a knock on the door.

"April." He said shocked at the face staring him back.

"I couldn't go. Well I did, but I came back. And now - somehow I ended up here. We never agree on anything and I - I guess someone who doesn't know us might say it could never work. But those people are wrong because I feel something with you that Matthew couldn't give me. And that no one that's not you could give me." She said scared of the words coming out of her mouth. "But- but Jackson, what if it isn't enough?" She sighed. She was rambling. But her rambling was just one of the many things he loved about her.

"Then we'll find a way to make it enough." Jackson responded while holding her hands.

"Jackson, I'm scared." She said scared at the thought of losing him.

"Me too." Jackson replied while staring into her eyes.

He couldn't hold himself anymore, he grabbed her, kissed her and closed the door. He carried her to his bed and got on top of her. That night they didn't just have sex - they made love. For the first time, April didn't feel guilty. Sure she wasn't married to Jackson, but she loved him. She was convinced that she'd never feel this way for anyone else so even if it didn't work out, at least she would know in her heart that her first time was with the love of her life. It was pure. When they finished Jackson gave April a kiss on the forehead.

"I love you too." April said to him.

"What?" He asked.

"That's why I came back - because I needed you to know I love you too." She said. He hesitated.

"April I never did say sorry for my part in what happened. I should've been more considerate. I mean it was your first time and maybe you just needed someone to walk you through it all and I failed to do that. I just - I know sex, I've always been good with sex. But I never knew anything about love. So when that came into the equation, I didn't know what to do but walk away." He said to her.

"I don't blame you Jackson - for any of it. I compared you to a car crash, anyone would've ran! I needed the time apart to put things into perspective. This is all new to me too so I guess we'll be learning together." She smiled.

He hugged her and they both fell fast asleep. They were both experiencing something they never had before - expressing their emotions and falling in love.

The next morning they woke up and started getting ready.

"I have to go beg Hunt for my job back." April said as she put clothes on.

"What, you haven't talked to Hunt about coming back yet?" He asked surprised.

"Well when I came home last night, Hunt wasn't exactly the person I wanted to see." She laughed.

"I'm head of the board, I'm sure I could figure something out." He said as he kissed her and walked out the door. "I love you." He shouted on his way out.

"I love you too." She yelled back. There was something so right about all of this to her.