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Adam hesitated for a moment, trying to judge Kurt's mood before he approached him with the question that had been on his mind since their earlier conversation. It was useless though. The man was a perpetual block of ice emotionally outside the odd moment. He turned to regard him curiously as he entered the room where she was seated at a desk, reading through a stack of documents. As he met his gaze he wondered why he even cared so much. Maybe it was just being stuck in close quarters, a desire to understand him, even if Adam knew they were never getting back together. Might as well make the best of it. Maybe understanding him might prove useful later.
"Yes Adam? You wish to speak with me I presume? Or did you simply come to stare into space, in which case I advise choosing another location." Kurt's voice interrupted his musings abruptly. Clearing his throat and collecting his thoughts a bit he asked the question which had been bothering him.
"Why?" he asked, and Kurt raised an eyebrow at the former Hufflepuff.
"Why what?" he asked in return.
"You loved Wes." Adam said, and he scowled at him.
"I thought we cleared this up already." he said tersely. Realizing he misunderstood the question, Adam quickly amended himself.
"You loved him, even when we were together. When ever I mentioned him, you'd look like you were at another place and hushed up. Why did you ever date me knowing that he would always love you?" he asked. Kurt folded his hands together and rested his chin on them.
"Why do you even care?" he challenged, and Adam sighed and took to pacing as he tried to answer him.
"I don't know.. I just… the question had been bothering me. I can't understand it. I want to." he explained his own confused logic. It was apparently enough as Kurt's expression turned thoughtful as he spoke.
"I was scared. I loved him without question from the start and that was terrifying. He understood me in a way no other could, and so I wished to give him everything, even my heart." he paused and gave a faint smirk before continuing "I know you believe I have no heart. I hear the whispers… and perhaps it's true. Perhaps my heart, the last of my humanity died the day he did. I have never loved another before or since. He was the most constant thing in my world since I was a child, even if our relationship had never been the steadiest. Nothing else could compare. He gave my life purpose and joy and sorrow and love and heartbreak. I miss him so much every single day." Kurt explained. Adam leaned against the wall and slid down it so he was sitting on the floor. He raised an eyebrow at him and waited for him to respond.
"Wow." Adam said, trying to process what he had just heard. Who would have thought the Dark Lord's shadow of all people could express such a degree of love? A bemused smirk fixed itself on Kurt's face.
"Just wow Adam? Or has the nargel got your tongue?" he inquired amused, clearly delighting in his ability to shock him still.
"I guess I'm just surprised how deeply you loved." Adam admitted "You aren't exactly the warm fuzzy type." he said and he barked a laugh.
"No, I suppose I'm not." he admitted. "Is your question answered?" Kurt asked and Adam gave a nod as he stood, understanding the moment had passed and he wished to be alone with his memories.
"It is. Thank you for your time, my lord." he said turning to leave. As the door slid shut behind him Kurt leaned back in the chair and shut his eyes remembering happier times, and the man he would have given anything for.