Chapter Five
Maestro Schinkel frowned. The practice today was not going well again. This time it was worse because his only hope, the only person who was supposed to understand his requirements was doing a terrible job.
"Stop, stop! It's all wrong!" Maestro Schinkel scolded and banged his baton against the music stand in frustration. Turning to his most trusted student, Maestro Schinkel asked in displease. "Len, what's going on? Don't you understand that you are the first seater of the first violinists, the concert master?! Every single member here follows your lead and if you are not doing your job properly, it destroys everything!"
All the orchestra members felt cold sweat and exchanged a look with each other. Knowing although Tsukimori Len came highly recommended by Maestro Schinkel himself, still, when he made a mistake, Maestro was twice as hard on him as to anyone else.
"It's alright, Maestro." Smoothly soothing the atmosphere with a warm smile, Yunoki suggested as he comforted the angry conductor. "Why don't we take a half an hour break? The orchestra has been working extremely hard for the past few days, we still have plenty of time, let's take it easy."
With a sigh, Maestro nodded. "Alright, we will take a thirty minutes break. Meanwhile, Len, go and cool your head."
"Yes, Maestro." Standing up from his seat, Tsukimori gave his teacher a bow in apology.
As everyone left to take their break, Kahoko's eyes followed Tsukimori in concern. Knowing Tsukimori's music like no one else, Kahoko agreed with Maestro Schinkel that Tsukimori was performing abnormally today. He seemed…agitated and aggravated.
"Hino-san,"
Turning to the voice that called her, she found Yunoki standing there with his usual friendly smile as he handed her a bottle of green tea. "Here, have a drink. There are some finger food over there too if you would like some."
"Thanks," Nodding with a smile, Kahoko accepted the bottle of green tea.
"Actually," To Kahoko's surprise, standing on her other side was Kaji as he handed her a warm bottle of royal milk tea instead. "In a cold weather like this, I am sure Hino-san prefers some nice warm royal milk tea."
"Really? From my memory Hino-san likes green tea."
Noticing the hidden meaning in Yunoki's words, Kahoko felt blood rushed to her face immediately, reminded of the time she spent with Yunoki drinking green tea all night.
It was then; Kahoko noticed Tsukimori's focus on her. Looking up in surprise, Kahoko saw the unpleasant, troubled look in Tsukimori's eyes. However it was only for a short second as Tsukimori got up from his seat instead and left the room.
Seeing that, Yunoki gave a sigh and commented in concern. "I hope Tsukimori is okay. Performing like that was not something he would do."
"True…" Hihara agreed and joined in the conversation. In sympathy Hihara whispered. "I was surprised how harsh Maestro was to him. I mean, I know Maestro Schinkel is a perfectionist and stuff, but at least Tsukimori is his student, I thought he would be a little more lenient."
"Maybe because Tsukimori is his student, that is why Maestro had to be very strict with him." With an understanding smile Ousaki said. "He knew what Tsukimori's true capacity was, so he would want him to perform to his fullest."
Kahoko nodded in agreement to what Ousaki said. Still, Kahoko felt her heart bothered when she could clearly remember that look in Tsukimori's eyes. Maybe she was being paranoid, but she noticed Tsukimori's focus on her throughout the day. It was unavoidable for Kahoko to think that Tsukimori appeared to have something to say to her. However, he never approached her for a conversation and neither did he come anywhere near her.
At the same time Kahoko shook her head at the idea. Why would Tsukimori have anything to say to her anyway? Why hasn't she learned that since they last spoke three years ago, Tsukimori would never want anything to do with her?
"Oh yeah, Kaji-kun." Knowing that miserable thought was going to eat her up again, Kahoko turned to Kaji and asked quickly hoping to take her mind off the thought. "Amou-chan wanted me to check with you whether you have a favourite restaurant or something that you want us to hold your birthday dinner?"
"Oh yeah, Kaji's birthday is coming up." Hihara nodded and turned to Kaji. "What kind of food do you want? Italian? French? Chinese? Indian? Or sushi? Speak forward your request!"
"Request…I really don't mind where we have the dinner except," Kaji thought for a while, then with a happy smile he turned to Kahoko. "As a little request, is it okay if Hino-san spends the day with me?"
"Eh?" Not expecting that of course, Kahoko blushed.
Kaji smiled from within when he observed the reactions from the other two boys. Hihara's eyes opened wide in disbelief and Yunoki? Although outwardly there were not much of an expression change, but Kaji knew, Yunoki was not happy.
Well, Kaji Aoi wouldn't say that he was surprised. Before this, he had never made a move on Hino Kahoko. He had always kept to his position as a friend, a simple admirer. However, Kaji knew it was time he finally did something.
Seeing Kahoko's surprised, shy reaction, Kaji apologised with an embarrassed smile. "I am sorry, it is too much to ask right?"
"No, it's okay." Kahoko shook her head quickly. "I was wondering what to get for your birthday present anyway. It would be good that we can go choose one together."
"A present?" Kaji smiled in bliss with the word. "Fufu…Hino-san, I don't need a present. Having you say 'happy birthday' to me is the best present."
"But that is what you say every year," Kahoko giggled when she heard what Kaji said. "We have known each other for so many years now, and still you have not allowed me to give you one in return after all the presents you gave me, so you won't get away this year."
"So it is 'yes'? Where should we meet then?" Ignoring how Hihara had already turned into a stone with shock and Yunoki's dark aura penetrating him, Kaji Aoi asked in ecstasy feeling that he was the luckiest man on earth.
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With a sigh Tsukimori put down the violin in his hand. Alone here in the practice room, Tsukimori was annoyed that he was unable to cool down his head and recover as Maestro Schinkel commanded.
Holding onto his head Tsukimori frowned. He never knew he was such an emotional person. Nothing ever mattered to him but music, it was because of such a belief, Tsukimori was able to perform to his best. He never understood why when his parents performed music together, they were always so happy. They love what they do, and such zeal was clearly expressed from their performance.
Tsukimori could never approve of such performance. Inputting emotions into the music would interfere with a professional musician's standard. Yet, after knowing Kahoko, Tsukimori had found himself also a person that was easily swayed by his mood when performing. To his pleasant discovery, such a change had only positive effect and result. He was able to achieve the level of music he had been seeking.
Unfortunately now comes the side effect. After accidentally picking up the photograph of Kahoko and Yunoki coming out of a hotel room together, Tsukimori found the emotions he had towards Kahoko, something forbidden he sealed away had now come undone. When he played the violin, he would think about her, and whenever he closed his eyes, Tsukimori would be reminded of the 'things' Yunoki and Kahoko were doing before the photograph was taken. How Yunoki would lay his hand on Kahoko's tiny soft body, how he would have tasted her sweet lips, and how Yunoki was able to experience such intimacy with Kahoko.
The moment all these thoughts entered Tsukimori's mind, he discovered within him, there was rage, anger, something heavy and unpleasant like…jealousy?
No, I should not be jealous. Tsukimori would convince himself. What right had he to be jealous? When Kahoko pleaded to break up with him three years ago, when he stood outside her bedroom window, Tsukimori knew he had lost his right over Kahoko. He returned this time to Japan, knowing he will see her in another man's arms. He knew all this, but still, why could he not tolerate the thought of Kahoko and Yunoki together?
But wait, it doesn't make sense. Tsukimori thought it was Hihara that Kahoko was dating, and most of all, to his understanding, wasn't Yunoki engaged to Urahara Miyako? If that was the case, why did Kahoko and Yunoki come out of the hotel room together?
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That Kaji Aoi…
Yunoki cursed silently within as he walked along the quiet corridor. There was Kaji Aoi, declaring so honourably that he was happy enough to act as a protector, never did he consider himself worthy enough for Kahoko. Yet, putting on his innocent smile, Kaji Aoi successfully tricked Kahoko into a date with him.
It was all too unpleasant for Yunoki Azuma. The fact that Kahoko was always too naïve and friendly to everyone, and most of all…Stopping, Yunoki smiled mockingly to himself, the fact that he was getting all covetous and possessive like a little boy in love.
Whilst Yunoki walked along the corridor, allowing all these thoughts to run wild in his mind, he saw the door to one of the practice rooms opened as a familiar figure walked out of it. Immediately smile returned to Yunoki's face as he greeted. "Tsukimori, how was the practice?"
Yunoki noticed that adding to Tsukimori's already cold and aloof countenance, the unpleasantness strengthened when Tsukimori saw his face. "…Yunoki senpai."
"Knowing your skills, today was just a bad day for you," Pretending he did not notice the unfriendly expressions on Tsukimori's face, Yunoki said. "It was rare though for you to involve emotions into your performance."
Tsukimori did not respond immediately. Looking away, Tsukimori replied coldly. "I am just an amateur violinist. I still have a lot more to learn."
"You are too humble, Tsukimori." Giving Tsukimori a warm smile, Yunoki said. "Well, the break time is almost over, I guess we better return to the concert hall."
"Yunoki senpai," As Yunoki turned to walk away, Tsukimori suddenly stopped him. "I believe you are engaged to Urahara Miyako-san, right?"
A little surprised with Tsukimori's question, Yunoki stopped walking. "Yes, I am." Pausing, with a smile Yunoki nodded in realisation. "That's right, you were still in Vienna when I had the engagement party."
However it still does not explain the odd and random question that came from Tsukimori. Most of all, Yunoki pondered when he saw the look in Tsukimori's eyes with his answer. There was, disturbance, annoyance, and…anger.
Anger? Yunoki frowned with the thought. Turning to face Tsukimori straight on, Yunoki asked. "What's the matter, Tsukimori? I am surprised that you would enquire about my engagement…"
Tsukimori did not answer Yunoki's question. Instead, Yunoki could tell from Tsukimori's facial expressions that he had something to say but he was unsure whether it was appropriate. Unfortunately for a clever and observant man like Yunoki, he did not need Tsukimori to speak a thing for he already knew what Tsukimori's concern was in relation to.
"In that case…" As expected, after Tsukimori had finally collected what he had to say, in a cold and interrogating tone, Tsukimori asked. "What is Hino to you?"
Resting his hand against his chin, Yunoki smiled to himself. Humph… So, this was the reason why Tsukimori was performing badly today…Calmly and unstirred Yunoki gave Tsukimori a beautiful smile. "Hino-san? I cannot say that I understand the meaning of your question, Tsukimori."
Upon Yunoki's answer, the frown on Tsukimori's face deepened. Looking straight back at Yunoki in challenge, Tsukimori stated coldly. "I think you do, Yunoki senpai."
"You have changed a lot, Tsukimori." As if he did not notice Tsukimori's confrontation, Yunoki gave a sigh instead. "It's not like you to mind other people's business. But I guess," Stopping, Yunoki added. "You always become emotional and irrational when it concerns Hino-san."
Tsukimori's eyes widened in surprise upon Yunoki's statement.
"And if you must know," Unmoved, Yunoki gave Tsukimori the same calm and professional smile. "Hino-san is a very important junior to me, just like you, Tsukimori. Although we are no longer in the same school, but if you ever need any help, do not hesitate to come to me."
Leaving Tsukimori that superficial, surfaced answer, Yunoki turned and walked out of there. Knowing he was finally alone, that fake, pretentious smile disappeared from Yunoki's face as he thought to himself.
No, it is not time yet, I must be patient. As long as that old woman is still in power, I must make sure nothing is revealed. But when the time comes, on that day…
Slowly lifting his head, Yunoki's perfectly shaped lips lifted as the smile returned to his face.
I will strike.
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From a distance away, Kahoko could already see the tall youth with beautiful light brown hair waiting in front of the train station. In haste Kahoko speed up her walk as she came quickly before him. "Sorry I am late, Kaji-kun."
"Good morning, Hino-san." Greeting Kahoko with a beautiful warm smile Kaji Aoi replied politely. "There is no need to rush, I enjoy the time waiting for your arrival. Besides, you were not late at all, I was just early."
Kahoko blushed immediately with Kaji's natural sweet flattering words. It was always like this, Kaji Aoi would never speak anything negative of her, and he was always so kind, so caring like a gentleman.
"You should have waited in a shop or something," Kahoko said. "It is a cold day today."
"Fufu…but if I waited inside the shops, I would have missed the chance of seeing your arrival." In happiness Kaji replied. "I still can't believe you would spend the day with me."
"It's no big deal really," Kahoko shook her head. "So where would you like to go first?"
"Is there a place you would like to go?" Kaji asked Kahoko instead.
"Me?" Kahoko giggled. "Today is not for me, it's for you Kaji-kun. I will just go wherever you would like to go."
"In that case, shall we go to Chinatown?" Kaji suggested. As sensitive and caring as usual, Kaji added. "But since it is cold today, let's go buy some warm coffee. Holding them in your hands would make you feel better."
"Sounds good!" Kahoko nodded.
Smiling warmly from within, Kahoko realised that knowing Kaji this whole time, she had never really spend time alone with him. Although she already knew he was a gentleman, but Kahoko was most astonished to find how he could be so attentive at the smallest detail. Little things like how he would walk on her right hand side to make sure that his body was the one facing the traffic, and how he would gently hold her hand as they cross the streets.
Not to mention how he would not let her carry any luggage, and always open the door for her. Kahoko could not help but think Kaji was like a prince, and being with him, such pampering made her feel like a princess. Most of all, everywhere they went, all the girl's eyes would follow the tall and handsome Kaji.
Noticing the funny smile on Kahoko's face, Kaji asked. "What's the matter?"
Giggling, Kahoko shook her head. "No, I was just thinking how you are such a rare gentleman. You would make a perfect boyfriend."
"Fufu…you think so?" In happiness Kaji asked.
Nodding, Kahoko tilted her head and said in curiosity. "It's amazing though, it appears to me that you are as popular as Yunoki senpai, even during our high school days, you already had so many girls that confessed and wrote love letters to you. But until now, you have not settled down with anyone."
Kaji did not reply as he continued to smile to Kahoko's statement. He knew Kahoko would not have the slightest idea that she was the answer to her own query. "Hino-san," Knowing it is not time yet to reveal his feeling to her, Kaji pointed to one of the boutique next to them and changed the topic. "This one is on a 30% to 50% sale, do you want to go in and have a look?"
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With a long sigh, Amou Nami looked at the person walking next to her. "Hihara senpai, do you have to put on such a miserable face? Is it really that bad to end up going out with me?"
Quickly lifting his head, Hihara justified. "No, it's not that!"
Grinning, Amou patted Hihara's shoulder. "I know it was supposed to be me, you and Hino-chan that come to pick up Kaji's birthday present today, but as you know too, Hino-chan couldn't make it today, so instead," Stopping, Amou pointed to the other tall boy walking next to her. "I asked Tsuchiura instead!"
With his arms crossed, Tsuchiura stated. "I am a very busy man, can we just get this over and done with so I can get back to work?"
"Tsuchiura-kun," An evil grin came onto Amou's face. "Do you know how much you sounded like Tsukimori with that sentence?"
"What?!!!!" Nearly jumping off the ground in shock of horror, Tsuchiura groaned. "Do not, and I mean NEVER, relate me to that man!"
Still grinning, Amou laughed. "It's really funny you know, the way you both acted around each other, but I have always thought you two had a bond, like you were actually the best of friends."
"…Good bye." Leaving Amou that sentence, Tsuchiura turned and walked away.
"Just kidding, just kidding." Laughing, Amou grabbed onto Tsuchiura. "Alright, let's get the shopping over and done with so you will have time to return to your work before…" Amou stopped talking all of a sudden when she saw from the corner of her eyes two people coming out of a shop.
Noticing Amou's focus, Tsuchiura looked towards the same direction. "Hino and Kaji?"
"Are they on a date?" With a sudden realisation, Amou grinned. "So that's why Hino-chan couldn't make it today."
Upon both Amou and Tsuchiura's words, Hihara's face turned blue immediately. "Should, should we go now? We have to go choose a present…"
"No wait, this is actually quite interesting." Feeling her reporter spirit arising, Amou suggested. "Let's follow them."
"I, I don't think we should." Hihara shook his head at the idea quickly.
"Humph…" Amou took another look at the pale sad expressions on Hihara's face. "I am not sure what's going on, Hihara senpai. I thought Hino-chan and you were a couple? In that case wouldn't that make you more worried? I mean, don't you want to know what they are doing?"
"No, Kaho-chan and I were not like that, we were just…" Stopping Hihara replied with a lonely smile. "I am her senior and friend, that's all."
"Well, I still say we follow them." Amou insisted. "Let's say, it is because we want to make sure that we don't end up buying the same presents."
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"Kaji-kun," Kahoko complained as she looked to the shopping bags in Kaji's hands. "We are supposed to be shopping for your birthday present, how did it end up as my shopping spree?"
For some reason, Kahoko thought she accompanied Kaji all day today was to choose a birthday present for him, but in actuality, Kaji took her to various shops, and bought her many new nice clothes instead. Every time before Kahoko could stop him, he would have already gone ahead and paid for the item, and no matter how Kahoko made it clear to Kaji that she felt uncomfortable to have him pay for the items, Kaji would just always smile it off.
"Fufu…It is a man's pleasure to accompany a lady." Still beaming in joy, Kaji replied.
Seeing that smile, Kahoko gave a sigh secretly. Somehow, she had the feeling that Kaji is kind of similar to Yunoki sometimes. Underneath that smile, Kahoko could never figure out Kaji's true intention.
"Alright, if you feel that you really need to do something for my birthday, would you perform a violin piece just for me?"
"Now?" After Kaji's birthday request finally came through, Kahoko asked a little surprised. "But I didn't bring my violin today."
In a mysterious smile, Kaji replied. "Don't worry, I know just the place to go."
Following Kaji in curiosity, Kahoko found herself in front of a music store. The moment they entered, the shop owner greeted in politeness when he saw Kaji. "Good day, Aoi-sama. Here to pick out some more viola music?"
"Not today," Kaji answered in politeness. Gesturing to Kahoko, Kaji introduced. "This is my friend Hino Kahoko. She is an excellent violinist, an important member to the Yokohama Symphony Orchestra."
Blushing with Kaji's flattering introduction, Kahoko quickly gave a bow. "Nice to meet you. I am not as great a violinist as Kaji made it sound."
"You are too humble, Hino-san." The shop owner replied. "Aoi-sama knows good music when he hears one. So when he said yours is good, then you must be extraordinary."
Not knowing what to say Kahoko laughed along. She never understood why everyone would say that about her music. Knowing compared to others, she was not skilled, and her music was immature, but for some reason she always received high appraisal for her performance.
"I came for a favour today, I was wondering if I could borrow one of your violins and have Hino-san play a piece here at your shop?" Smiling, Kaji asked the shop owner.
"With pleasure, you know you have the right to anything in this shop anyway." To Kahoko's surprise, without hesitation the shop owner consented.
"Fufu…thank you." Turning to Kahoko, Kaji said. "Let's go then."
Although feeling a bit embarrassed, but since this was Kaji's birthday request, taking in a deep breath, Kahoko calmly placed the violin on her shoulder. A warm smile came onto Kaji's face when he heard the beautiful music being performed by the girl he fell in love with the first time they met. As he remembered, every sound, every note being performed by Kahoko was able to captivate and enchant him.
Kaji felt his heart ached a little when he was reminded of his lack of gift in music. Every time he hears Kahoko play, he would be reminded that he was undeserving of her. Unlike the rest of the group, no matter how hard Kaji practiced, he could never produce such a beautiful sound.
Sometimes Kaji Aoi would feel like he was like the stars. Although he could produce some sort of light, but when he was beside the sun, his little glow would vanish and become insignificant. Yet, although knowing he was unworthy of her, Kaji found himself longing for Kahoko. It was like the Greek myth of Icarus, the man who flew towards the sun knowing although the heat of it will melt the wax on his wings. Still marvelled at how close he could be to the sun, Icarus continued to approach the sun. Until he resulted in losing his wings and plunged straight into the sea in death.
Probably as foolish as Icarus, Kaji knew his pursuit of Kahoko would be of the same nature. But was it really so unwise to want something he did not deserve to have? Was it really bad to be greedy?
After Kahoko's performance, Kaji ensured the smile returned to his face as he applauded. "You captured me once again, Hino-san. Although it's my birthday, I still feel a little too luxurious to have your perform for me."
"Mou…Kaji-kun." Kahoko blushed once again. "You always exaggerate. It was only a little violin piece."
I am not exaggerating, Kaji would whisper within. On his outstanding, beautiful face however, Kaji would smile politely instead as he suggested, once again lifting the slightest discomfort Kahoko would feel from shyness. "There is quite a good collection of music items here in this shop, would you like to have a look?"
"Sure," Kahoko smiled sweetly in reply. "I was thinking of buying some new violin strings."
Accompanying Kahoko to the strings instrument floor, Kaji's emerald green eyes widened a little in surprise when he saw an unexpected familiar person also on the same floor. Not losing his calm and politeness, Kaji greeted with a big wave. "Hello, Tsukimori! What a surprise!"
Turning to the voice calling his voice, Tsukimori saw the two familiar faces. "Good afternoon, Kaji and…" Tsukimori paused for a short second before he added. "…Hino."
"Hi…hi, Le…" Quickly correcting herself, Kahoko squeezed out a smile and nodded to greet. "Tsukimori-kun."
Kaji noticed immediately from Kahoko's body language how shaken she was the moment she saw the face of the man she was once in love with. It was apparent to Kaji that somehow, in both negative and positive ways, Tsukimori still had a strong influence on Kahoko's emotions after all these years. Peacefully with a smile, Kaji turned to Tsukimori and asked. "Are you buying some new violin strings?"
"Yes." As if Kahoko was not there, Tsukimori replied, no sign of the slightest arousal of emotion within him.
"Great! In that case maybe you can assist Hino-san. I am a violist so I wouldn't be able to recommend anything to her." To Kahoko's horror, Kaji suggested.
Finally moving his eyes onto Kahoko, Tsukimori asked. "You are looking for new violin strings too?"
"Yes," Unable to look straight at Tsukimori, as a reflex, Kahoko's eyes moved away.
"All settled then," Kaji smiled. "I will be looking for some music CDs on the first floor, just come get me when you finished." With that sentence, Kaji conveniently left the two alone.
When it was just Tsukimori and Kahoko left, with a nervous laughter Kahoko said. "You really didn't need to help me, I have bought strings before." Turning away, Kahoko picked out the strings that she needed.
"You still use the brand I recommended." Tsukimori commented when he saw what Kahoko held in her hand.
Sensing her heart ached with Tsukimori's words, Kahoko squeezed out a smile. "It is indeed a good brand. I have been using it ever since you recommended this to me." Stopping, a sad lonely look came onto Kahoko's face. "Actually, you were the one that taught me everything I need to know about music."
Tsukimori did not respond immediately. After some time, Tsukimori asked realising this was the very first proper conversation they have had after three years. "So, are you still practicing the piano?"
"Yes, from time to time." Kahoko replied softly with a smile. "I have now finished the grade four exam for piano and my violin is just heading towards grade 6."
"You have progressed a lot," Tsukimori replied, deep within, his heart sincerely joyful for Kahoko. Every time Kahoko talked about music, her face would always brighten up with delight. That was the same kind of devotion and love he also shared. It made her so beautiful, so entrancing.
"I haven't really done much with my music career compared to you," Shaking her head Kahoko justified. "I always loved to hear you play the violin, and when I heard you now at the orchestra, wow, I am even more impressed." Stopping, Kahoko concluded whole-heartedly. "Your music now has transcended to such a level, I couldn't even describe it in words. All I could say was that your music has such powers, such ability to captivate anyone."
"My music is what it is now…" Softly and gently Tsukimori whispered. Once again the tone that he would only show in front of this one person, this girl that meant everything to him. "I could reach this stage because of you, Kahoko…"
Upon Tsukimori's gentle, sincere, compassionate words, Kahoko felt her heartbeat racing like crazy. Has, has her ears malfunctioned? Did Tsukimori just spoke something so personal, so touching to her?!
"I am sorry, that was inappropriate of me." Tsukimori apologised quickly noticing also the indication of his hidden feeling towards Kahoko. "I should not even be addressing you by your name anymore."
"No, it's okay, I am not offended by it." Quickly shaking her head Kahoko replied feeling her heart somehow joyful with the discovery that Tsukimori might still have feelings for her. For whenever Tsukimori called her by her name, it was an indication that he thought she was someone intimate, someone special to him.
"No, it is improper." Unfortunately, just when Kahoko thought there was hope, Tsukimori insisted, cruelly destroying all possibilities. "I do not wish to cause any misunderstandings, especially to your future boyfriend. Being able to address you so intimately, it is a privilege only someone special to you should have."
Although Tsukimori's voice was still the same calm and unemotional tone, his every word tore Kahoko's heart into pieces. "I," Quickly moving a further distance away from Tsukimori, Kahoko said, noticing her own voice dry. "I got to go. Kaji-kun is waiting for me."
Unable to take another look at Tsukimori, Kahoko turned and ran quickly away from there. However she did not head for first floor to find Kaji, instead, Kahoko ran into the soundproof practice room that she was just performing her song for Kaji. Closing the door behind her, the silent tears that uncontrollably fell down her cheeks became bitter sobs as Kahoko collapsed onto the floor and wept sullenly. It was amazing how it was not until after hearing the same rejecting words from Tsukimori did Kahoko finally come to understand that it was really over between them. How foolish of her to even hope, that somehow, somewhere deep within Tsukimori's heart, that he would have the desire to be together again. However it was also because of hearing those words again Kahoko was finally sober.
I can let go now, something I should have already done three years ago…
After Kahoko left, Tsukimori closed his eyes in frustration. He should have never allowed his feeling for her to become uncovered. His heart for Kahoko now would only become a burden to her. However, like he mentioned, his music could sound the way it does now because of Kahoko. To Tsukimori, music was no longer the only thing that mattered to him. Kahoko and music to him are now inseparable.
With his mind in a mess, Tsukimori left the store. To his surprise, the moment he exited the shop, he saw a few more familiar faces. "Hihara senpai, Amou and Tsuchiura?"
"Tsukimori-kun?" Amou called in surprise. "How come you are here? Are you following them too?"
With Amou's question, Tsukimori frowned. "Follow who?"
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Applying some powder on her face, Kahoko made sure that her eyes will not look so puffy and swollen from the tears. Taking another deep breath Kahoko forced herself to smile as she headed for the first floor where Kaji said he would be.
"Hino-san," Upon her arrival, Kaji greeted. "Got the strings you are looking for?"
"Yes, I have." Nodding, Kahoko replied.
Although Kahoko made sure that she looked normal and fine, but such a façade could never trick a vigilant person like Kaji. Kahoko need not say anything, but Kaji was confirmed Tsukimori hurt her once again. The moment Kaji noticed Kahoko's reaction when she saw Tsukimori, Kaji knew inside the girl he adores, there was still a feeling towards the man she once loved. At the same time, even though Tsukimori seemed to do a better job at hiding his feelings, but Kaji could still sense the buried undying love he also had for Kahoko.
Despite knowing he too was deeply in love with Kahoko, Kaji still made Kahoko's happiness the priority. If Tsukimori's return to Japan could mean genuine happiness for her, Kaji was willing to help them out. Unfortunately, from Kahoko's eyes, the despair she tried very hard to hide hurts Kaji. He knew now that there was no more reason to hold back, Kahoko deserves happiness, she should be pampered.
"Kaji-kun? What's the matter?" Noticing the serious and determined look on Kaji's face, Kahoko asked in surprise.
"Hino-san," With a gentle smile, Kaji asked. "I was just wondering before we meet up with everyone else for dinner, can we go to one more place?"
Not sure what Kaji had in mind, Kahoko nodded. Although Kaji looked so mysterious, there were no big surprises when Kaji led her to Rinkai Park, a place that she had been to several times with Kaji where they would practice music together on the weekends. The only difference was, as it was towards the late afternoons, the sun had began to set, making this beautiful park that outlooks into the stunning Yokohama Harbour even more stunning and romantic.
Romantic?! Kahoko felt her cheeks burning hot with the random word that popped into her mind. What the hell was she thinking? Kaji is a good friend! Although it seemed like a date, but it was only a time out with a friend to celebrate his birthday!
"Hino-san, how are you feeling? Is it too cold?" As usual, Kaji asked warmly in attentiveness. "Sorry for bringing you to Rinkai Park when the sun has gone down, the temperature does drop quite a bit." Following his sentence, gently taking off his own scarf, Kaji wrapped it around Kahoko's neck. "Here, hope this helps a bit."
Kaji's natural caring action for some reason made Kahoko speechless and nervous. His tall 180cm body standing over her, and his hands gently tying up the scarf for Kahoko. Not to mention the subtle fragrance of Kaji's cologne coming from his scarf making Kahoko's heartbeat racing. Ironically, Kahoko no longer required Kaji's scarf to keep warm, rather, her body had already started to heat up being so close to Kaji.
"Nice work, Kaji…" From a distance, Amou whispered still continuing on her spying mission. "Taking the girl to a romantic garden at the end of the date, building up the atmosphere as well, good job."
"You, you think Kaho-chan is touched?" In concern Hihara asked, crouching down behind the bush also next to Amou.
He knew it, he should have not gotten dating advise from his brother. But still, with sadness, Hihara knew he could never do a better job than Kaji anyway.
"Why not? Besides, look at how she blushed with Kaji's action. I bet you she is feeling really nervous right now." Grinning, Amou commented from her observation.
"It seems like you two are really into this whole spying thing." With a sigh Tsuchiura said.
With his arms crossed, Tsukimori said in displease to Amou. "Was this the 'something interesting' you were referring to? Hino and Kaji were just buying a present together. If there is nothing else, I will go to the restaurant first."
"Shh, I think he is making a move on her now!" Waving her hand at Tsukimori to hush him up, Amou whispered.
"Is this better now?" With a beautiful smile Kaji asked Kahoko.
"Th…thank you." Nodding quickly Kahoko replied. "But you will be cold too right?"
Shaking his head, Kaji replied. "It was my selfish request to come to Rinkai Park in such a cold weather anyway." Stopping, the expression on Kaji's face turned even softer as he added. "Because this was the place I first met you."
"This was?"
Nodding, Kaji explained. "It was when I was still studying at the old school. When I felt that my life had come to a dead end, I overheard your violin here at Rinkai Park and was rescued."
"You use big words on me again, Kaji-kun. I am really not that special." Kahoko blushed knowing that after three years, she still would blush every time with Kaji's sweet words.
Seeing Kahoko's shy, beautiful expression, Kaji smiled warmly. "I am truly glad that the musician I admire is an attractive girl. The more I admire your music, the more I found myself falling deeply in love with you."
"…Eh?" Not expecting Kaji to say that, Kahoko lifted her head in surprise.
Kahoko was not the only person that was taken by surprise. In excitement Amou whispered. "Oh my god, he did it! He confessed! And so smoothly too!"
Unfortunately Hihara and Tsukimori did not seem to share the same enthusiasm as both became speechless and their eyes fixed on Kahoko, waiting for her response.
"I surprised you didn't I?" Calmly smiling Kaji apologised, his face so sincere that Kahoko knew Kaji was not just using big words this time. Moving away from Kahoko, Kaji turned to face the beautiful Yokohama Harbour. "I never planned to confess to you because I knew I was never good enough for you."
"Kaji-kun…"
With a mocking smile Kaji continued, "Now I have really come to understand what it means to be greedy. I should be satisfied with the status of a fan, an admirer. Yet, the more I am around you, the more time I spend with you made me realise," Turning around, gently stretching out his arms from behind Kahoko, without warning, Kaji held her tiny body softly in his big manly arms. Leaning down, Kaji whispered passionately as he leaned his cheek against Kahoko's soft cheek.
"I want you for myself."
"Whoa!!" Amou bit her nails in thrill with Kaji's aggressive move. "Is Hino-chan going to say yes?"
To Amou and all the rest of the spying group's surprise, they found Kahoko stiff still in Kaji's arms. From the look on her face, it was obvious that Kahoko had forgotten how to react. Maybe because she had never expected to hear something like this from Kaji, and maybe because she had not been this close with a man other than Tsukimori.
At this very crucial moment, when all focuses landed on Kahoko for the result, as if to relief her from such pressure, Kahoko's mobile phone started to ring. As a reflex, Kahoko smoothly moved away from Kaji's embrace as with a soft apology to Kaji, Kahoko quickly answered the phone. "He…hello?"
"Good evening, Hino-san." A gentle male's voice came through from the other end. "It's me Yunoki."
"Yu…Yunoki senpai?!"
The moment Kaji heard that name from Kahoko's lips; a frown came onto his face. A call to Kahoko from Yunoki? At this perfect timing? Kaji would rather die than to believe it was a coincidence. With the thought, Kaji turned and looked towards the bush on their far left side.
With Kaji's focus shooting at their direction, as a reflex, the spying group including Tsukimori and Tsuchiura all ducked down.
"I was just on my way to Kaji's birthday dinner tonight, but I forgot the name of the restaurant, would you be able to tell me?" In his polite gentle mode, Yunoki asked.
"Yeah, sure." Kahoko nodded quickly. "It's at Khan, the Mongolian BBQ restaurant."
"Got it, thank you." Yunoki thanked with Kahoko's answer. "Oh yeah one more thing,"
"Yes?"
"When will you learn to not let a man put his arms around you so easily?" Speaking that sentence in his lower, cruel mocking tone that only Kahoko knew, Yunoki hung up.
Standing there like a stiff rock, Kahoko felt her jaws dropped with Yunoki's sentence.
"Hino-san?"
Kahoko quickly pulled her mind back when she heard Kaji's voice. Turning around, Kahoko squeezed out a smile. "That…that was Yunoki senpai. He is on his way to the restaurant already, so I guess we better go soon."
"I guess we should." Observing Kahoko's reaction, Kaji calmly gave a smile. However, Kaji was not going to let Yunoki destroy this moment that easily. Walking up to Kahoko, Kaji gave her a kind and warm smile. "Hino-san, I do not wish to stress you out. You need not give me an answer yet, I am willing to wait until you are ready."
"Kaji-kun," Lowering her head, Kahoko called not knowing what to say. She does not dislike Kaji, actually, she likes him very much. But, how would she deal with such a confession?
"Hino-san," Gently caressing Kahoko's long silky hair, Kaji called, his voice so tender, so accepting. "I understand that you are not ready, but I just wanted to let you know my heart for I no longer wish to hide this feeling. I desire the position of a man who is fighting to win your heart."
"But I," Kahoko felt so moved and touched by Kaji's heartfelt confession. Knowing what a wonderful person Kaji was, and how many girls would kill to be in her position right now, but with her heart so lost, how could she be worthy of Kaji's love? "I am not a wonderful person, I do not deserve such a treatment from you, Kaji-kun."
"Because you still have feelings for Tsukimori?"
Upon Kaji's unexpected statement, Tsukimori lifted his face in shock. At the same time, he noticed the same kind of astonishment from the group he was with as all eyes landed on him.
"Ka, Ka, Ka, Ka…Kaji-kun!! What…what are you talking about??" Kahoko stuttered in horror and turned away quickly not able to look at Kaji in the eyes.
"Fufu…you are so cute, Hino-san." Kaji chuckled. Gently holding Kahoko's hand in his, Kaji concluded. "Let's just leave it at that. Shall we go to the restaurant now?"
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By the time Kaji and Kahoko arrived at the restaurant, everyone were already seated. Kaji frowned a little when he saw the only two empty seats were the two chairs between Tsukimori and Yunoki.
Hmm…tough choice. Should Kaji let Kahoko sit next to Tsukimori or Yunoki? Kaji's mind worked out a quick calculation and realised, it would still be safer for Kahoko, if she sat next to Tsukimori instead of Yunoki. Acting most naturally, Kaji pulled out the chair next to Tsukimori for Kahoko. Upon such gesture, it would then make it rude for Kahoko to ignore that and go sit next to Yunoki instead. With a weak smile, Kahoko thanked and sat down next to Tsukimori. After he helped Kahoko to her seat, Kaji then seated himself in the empty seat next to Yunoki as he gave the dangerous senpai a testing smile.
"Sorry we are late," Kahoko gave a slight bow apologising to the people sitting at the table. To her surprise, the moment she lifted her head, she noticed funny looks on everyone's faces. Most of all from the corner of her eyes, she noticed a very uneasy look on Tsukimori's face.
"It's alright we have only just arrived too. Besides, this is a buffet style restaurant, so we can start anytime." Luckily the only innocent person within the group, Ousaki said. Turning to Kaji, Ousaki congratulated. "Happy birthday, Kaji-kun."
"Thank you, Ousaki senpai." Beaming happily Kaji thanked as if nothing had happened. "Let's start then, the buffet is just over there!"
Although the meal seemed like a normal friendly time outwardly, there was an unspoken strange heaviness travelling in the air. Tsukimori felt his mind in chaos when all he could think of was the one statement Kaji made. Was it true that Kahoko still has feelings for him?
Taking a peek at Kahoko, Tsukimori saw she conversed with everyone normally, and although she was sitting next to him, Kahoko felt really far away. Tsukimori hated himself for being troubled with the thought that Kahoko might still love him. What was he anticipating? Their love reunited after how he had hurt her so badly three years ago? With so many other men wishing to be with Kahoko, what right does he have?
"I am going to get some drinks from the drink bar, what drinks would everyone like?" Amou asked as she stood up from her seat.
"Coke please!"
"Ice tea,"
"Coke for me too."
"Lemonade."
Turning to Tsukimori who did not put in an order, Amou asked. "What would you like?"
"Just water."
"I will come with you, you can't handle all the drinks right?" Kahoko immediately volunteered.
Returning to the table with the drinks, Kahoko distributed the cups in the tray on her hand to the people on the table. Picking up the cup of water that Tsukimori requested, Kahoko secretly took a deep breath as she squeezed out a smile.
"Tsukimori-kun, here is your water."
"…Thanks." Feeling stiff and uneasy Tsukimori reached out his hand to accept the cup of water Kahoko passed to him. However, when accidentally Tsukimori's long fingers overlapped Kahoko's soft hand. In shock both Kahoko and Tsukimori let go of the cup together.
"I am so sorry!" Kahoko apologised in shock when she saw the water splashed all over Tsukimori.
"No, it's alright." Knowing he was partly to be blamed for the accident, Tsukimori said as he grabbed his napkins to wipe off the excess water all over him.
Quickly taking the stack of tissues passed to her by Amou, Kahoko leaned over to help Tsukimori clean up the mess. Unfortunately, since Tsukimori's mind had not functioned properly all night, not knowing Kahoko had leaned close to help, when he lifted his head, by accident, Tsukimori's lips brushed over Kahoko's soft tender lips.
Immediately all conversations on the table stopped, as time had stopped for everyone.
Tsukimori and Kahoko shifted away from each other in disbelief as both their faces turned bright red. Everyone else sitting at the table gaped at the unbelievable 'kiss scene' they had just witnessed.
"I…I am sorry." Tsukimori apologised quickly for he knew not what else to say.
"It's…it's okay…" Kahoko covered her mouth in dead embarrassment wishing she could vanish into the air like smoke. Not only was it the first kiss she had in three years, and not only was it with Tsukimori again, but most of all, EVERYONE SAW IT!!!!!
Quickly laughing along, Amou tried to soothe the situation. "Don't worry…it's, it's no big deal, it was just an accident."
"I…" Feeling that she was unable to stand the intense focuses on her, Kahoko whispered. "I will go get some salad." Immediately, Kahoko turned and ran quickly away from there.
With Kahoko's departure, all eyes moved onto Tsukimori instead. Not wanting to explain or dwell deeper into the situation, Tsukimori ignored everyone as he quietly picked up the cup from the floor and silently wiped the remaining water on the table.
"It was an accident, Tsukimori-kun. So I am sure Hino-chan understands too." With a few dry laughs Amou comforted.
"Yes, Tsukimori. No need to feel guilty at all." Yunoki joined in with a gentle smile. "I am sure it wasn't Hino-san's firstkiss anyway."
Tsukimori's hand stopped moving upon Yunoki's words. Finally lifting his face, Tsukimori picked up his things. Turning to Kaji, Tsukimori said, his voice cold. "Happy birthday, Kaji."
"Thank you." As a reflex Kaji thanked.
Nodding in acknowledgement, Tsukimori said no more as he turned and walked out of the restaurant.
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Sitting silently on the soft carpet in her bedroom, Kahoko felt all strength had left her as she leaned her back against the wall, and her fingers resting on her lips gently.
After she felt she was ready to return to the table once again, Kahoko found that Tsukimori had already left, and because of the "accident", the dinner ended not long after that. Knowing she was unable to deal with anyone, Kahoko returned home alone.
I am so hopeless…Kahoko smiled mockingly to herself. It was only a few hours ago she had made up her mind to let go for she finally was clear that Tsukimori no longer felt anything towards her. Unfortunately, as if life was playing a cruel joke on her, that little touch of the lips, something that was not even a kiss was able to remind Kahoko of every little wonderful moment she had with Tsukimori.
The ecstasy she experienced when Tsukimori confessed that Christmas night, the oneness she felt when they performed the violin duet together, their first date together, and of course…their first kiss.
Beep.
Turning her eyes onto her mobile phone, Kahoko saw the blue light flashing indicating a new message had come through.
You are such a forgetful hopeless wreck,
I am outside your house with the bags you left behind at the restaurant.
Come down at once.
~Yunoki~
Not expecting that, quickly Kahoko opened the curtains and looked out the window. Her eyes widened in surprise when she saw Yunoki really standing outside in front of his car, and her shopping bags in his hand.
"Yunoki senpai?!" Kahoko rushed out of the house and ran quickly up to him.
"You owe me big time," Yunoki remarked as he passed the bags to Kahoko. "I had to make a detour just to deliver these to you."
Blushing, Kahoko gave a bow in apology. "I am so sorry, and thank you for coming all this way just to give it to me. I had no idea and totally forgot about my bags."
"Well, I wouldn't be surprised considering how your mind had shut off after the accident." Yunoki smirked and said on purpose. "I certainly hope you were not sitting up there in the room just now reminiscing it."
Kahoko felt all the blood in her body rushed to her head with Yunoki's spot on diagnosis. In embarrassment Kahoko justified. "I, I certainly was not! That kiss was an accident, Len and I both know it, and…" Kahoko stopped all of a sudden realising that she was making it worse.
Most of all when she looked up at Yunoki, she noticed the gleam in his eyes changed with her statement. There was something dark, something dangerous.
"You call that a kiss?" Yunoki mocked. "I wouldn't call that more than a head butt. You really need to grow up and experience what a real kiss is."
Feeling her cheeks burning hot with Yunoki's words, Kahoko defended. "Of course I know what a real kiss is!"
"Because you have done it many times with Tsukimori?" Yunoki asked coldly.
Kahoko felt her heart pumping like crazy with Yunoki's question. "I, I am not going to answer that question, and it is also none of your business."
"Hehh…talking back at me?" Yunoki threatened as he moved step by step closer to Kahoko, successfully cornered her against the wall. Yunoki's beautiful seductive eyes looked down at Kahoko dangerously as he lifted her chin. "Are you asking to be bullied?"
In fear Kahoko asked, hearing her own voice trembling. "Yu…Yunoki senpai, what, what are you doing?"
Stooping down slowly, Yunoki whispered in a most suave, deep, seductive voice. "Teaching you what a real kiss is…"
Not giving Kahoko a chance to say no, Yunoki pressed his lips deeply onto hers. His hand found its way to the back of Kahoko's head as the fingers caressed the strands causing Kahoko's lips to unlock up a little in pleasure. In satisfaction, Yunoki's tongue slipped into Kahoko's mouth as it searched and played, sending indescribable vibes of pleasure that Kahoko had never experienced from the lips to the tip of her toes.
Losing all her strength, the shopping bags dropped from Kahoko's hand as her eyes closed without her mind's permission, causing Kahoko to sink deeper into the heated and lustful passion while both her lips and Yunoki's slid beautifully against each other. Unable to endure such painfully pleasurable sensation, a soft moan escaped Kahoko's mouth when Yunoki's mouth moved and nibbled gently against her lower lip causing Kahoko's upper lip to yearn for the same tingling sensational treatment. As if her wish was granted, Yunoki did so before he leaned in once again to play with her tongue once more.
Knowing he had successfully mesmerised Kahoko, Yunoki smiled victorious within as he gave Kahoko one last, lingering kiss before he finally moved away. Slowly opening her eyes again, Kahoko found Yunoki smiling at her, his eyes looking deep into her own as he whispered.
"Good night, Kahoko."