A/N: Sorry it's taken me a little while to write this, I've been busy typing stuff up for a report. R&R pleaseee.
Bella's POV
"Carlisle what do we do? Listen to his heart its barely beating" I as the panic began to set it
He took a deep breath "There are two options Bella" I knew instantly what the two options were. If he died I wasn't far behind him but turning him into a vampire for my selfish needs was not something I wanted "Bella we're running out of time." Carlisle said pulling me out of my thoughts
"Give me a syringe" I said to Carlisle "The venom will work faster if its injected into his heart wont it" I had made my decision
Carlisle nodded "With the sedation and the pain killers Edward will have little pain for most of his change" Carlisle explained trying to put me at ease. I took the syringe and let it drain the pool of venom in my mouth "Quick Bella…" Carlisle said quietly as his heart slowed more.
I leant down inhaling his beautiful scent one last time before I let the syringe sink through his beautiful soft human skin, I carefully emptied the syringe of venom and as the change begun.
Edward gave my hand one last squeeze before all movement stopped Jasper smiled "Its all done" I sighed lowly knowing that the entire house would hear it, I closed my eyes for a moment hoping for a heart beat but all that could be heard was a loud silence.
"Bella? What's going on?" how was I supposed to tell this beautiful boy that I had turned him into a monster
"I. um. We had no choice but to turn you…" I got up and ran, knowing he hated me.
Edwards POV
I looked at the spot where Bella had been, everything was so much clearer now. Why had she run? She knew this had been what I wanted.
"She didn't want to turn you into a monster" Carlisle silently answered my unspoken question
"Do you know where she would have gone?" I finally spoke ignoring the burning sensation in the back of my throat, I looked around at Bella's family who stood there looking shocked and also slightly apprehensive.
"How is he so controlled?" Rosalie thought
"This is impossible" Jasper said silently to himself
"How is he so calm?" Carlisle thought curiously
"why are you all so shocked at my calmness? Oh god is something wrong with me?" I ran my hands over every inch of my body trying to find the problem
"You see Edward, most New born vampires would have drained every human within a 50 mile radius by now" Emmett bluntly
"Oh" was all I could get out
"this is a very good thing Edward" Carlisle smiled
"we need to find Bella. I need to show her that I don't hate her" the burning in my throat was intense but bearable
"First you need to feed Edward, Emmett and Jasper will help your feed right now and then we can find her" Carlisle's words and thoughts told me I didn't need to worry.
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I walked toward the meadow still stuck in my human habits, I knew Bella would be there and If not there then my bedroom at Renee's. Carlisle had spoken to Renee and convinced her that living with him and his family would be the best thing for me for the duration of my legs healing. I Arrived at the meadow to see Bella curled up in a ball sobbing tearlessly, she had heard me by now and was probably expecting me to yell at her.
"Isabella Marie Cullen" I growled playfully.
Bella's POV
I looked up to see Edward standing there with a huge grin on his face "why did you leave me like that?" he asked sitting beside me
"You don't hate me?" I asked barely able to choke out the words
"why would I hate you Bella? Forever is what I want" he smiled is dazzling smile
"how are you so calm?" I asked unable to compute his calmness
"I don't know" he shrugged "your family already took me hunting"
"I'm sorry for turning you Edward. I know that you're happy but I'm still sorry" I sighed
"Bella." he paused for a moment "I am happier then I've ever been. I understand that you didn't want to turn me into a monster, but we're not monsters. None of us chose to be this way and we're choosing to live relatively normal lives." he took another deep breath having kept his eyes on me the entire time "I will not accept your apology for saving my life" the tone of his voice told me not to argue with him as he smiled triumphantly.
"Fine Edward you win" I chuckled letting him enjoy his small victory.
A/n: Sorry its so short guys but you guys get the gist of the chapter. I had thought of turning him earlier but I changed my mind, I think this works well and don't worry there will be a Renesmee and Jacob may come into it eventually too. Oh and Laurent is staying. Hehe. I have a super soft spot for him, he meant no harm. R&R