Bella's POV

I rushed out the Dr. Harris' office and stormed out of the building. I ran to my truck that Charlie had bought me after my mom's funeral with the money my mom had left for me. I put the keys in the ignition and turned up the radio to as loud as it would go. I searched though my purse for my pills and popped a handful in. I wasn't sure what song was playing but it had an edge to it that just made me want to drive faster. I got to the cemetery in record time and parked right next to my mother's grave. I sat against the oak tree that shaded my mother's grave and began to speak to her as I always did.

"Mom…why did you leave without me…..Why didn't you say goodbye or leave a note or anything…" I said though tears. "I still love you…I hope you know that…I'm not mad at you for leaving…I just wish you would have said goodbye…because the last words I said to you were…"and by now the tears where streaming down my cheeks " 'Why cant you take care of yourself for once you old had'…I didn't meant that and those where not the last words I wanted to say to you….the last words I wanted to say to you where 'I love you' or really anything but what I did say."

"But why did you come back to find me…you where safe where ever you were before….he didn't know where you where….why?" and the silence hung in the air and cut though me like a knife. I suddenly couldn't stand it anymore I needed my mother I needed to touch my mother.

I began to dig though the dirt with my bare hands.

Edwards POV

Emmett and I where playing Halo while waiting for Bella to come home from her physiatrist and she was over an hour late. Emmett and I were starting to get worried so finally we decided we better just go look for her. Bella was usually only one of two places. Either in her room or at her mothers grave. Since she wasn't in her room that made it pretty easy as to where she had to be so Emmett and I headed to the cemetery.

When we got close enough to see Bella's truck we both let out a sigh of relief and turn around and go home but I saw Bella suddenly get up from where she was sitting and just start digging up her mother grave. Emmett must have seen it too because he shut off his Jeep and we both got out and ran towards Bella.

I got there first and picked her up. She let out a shrill scream and started to kick blindly at me.

"Bella relax its just me…Edward"

"LET GO…THIS IS MY PLACE….GET OUT OF HERE!" she shouted at me. The words felt like they were burning me but I didn't let go.

"Bella…please talk to me what happened?"

"My mother died that's what happened" She looked at me with a scarily detached face. "My mother died and it is all my fault."

"Bella it not your fault" Emmett and I both said at the same time.

"Yes…it is" she said faintly under her breath.

"Bella look at me…it is NOT your fault" I said emphasizing the not. But she started to cry and then she started to shake in my arms. I turned her around to look at her face and just as I did I saw her eyes roll back.

Emmett let out a gasp and said "Can you carry her to the Jeep?"

I picked Bella up and ran faster then I though possible with Emmett right behind me. I climbed into the back seat and laid Bella down having her head on my lap so I could hold her head still. She started to shake again and I held her head as tightly as I could.

I took out my phone once she had stopped shaking and called my dad.

"Dad…Bella is having/had a seizure and Emmett and I are headed to the hospital"

"I will have a team ready and waiting at the door….any idea what caused this?" he asked now in his calm doctor voice.

"No…we found her digging at her mother grave." I answered feeling pathetic for not knowing more.

"Ok well I just paged my team and they should be at the door waiting how long till you get here."

"We are turning the corner now."

Emmett drove faster then I had ever seen him drive before which was saying something and we made it to the hospital in record time and Emmett pulled right up to the door of the Emergency room. My dad opened up the door of the Jeep as his team brought a stretcher for Bella.

"On three" my dad said.

"One…two…three…" and they lifted Bella out of the Jeep and onto the stretcher and then quickly carried her away. My dad said only a moment longer to say.

"We are going to have to run some test to find out what is wrong….you guys should call Charlie or have the nurse at the station do it…well I got to go and don't worry Bella will be fine." And then he disappeared.