A/N: "Amnesia" prompt on tumblr.
A/N 2: I warned you. (I'm sorry & sincerely hope they prove my fear of her not being in season 2 wrong!)
He makes himself forget her.
They cannot be together, he tells himself, and perhaps it is true.
Somewhere along the way he realized that he was harming her, hurting her in his carelessness; she ever-giving, he only taking from her - and he knows he has to stop. But he has no words of apology for her, and offers her no explanation: he chooses to forget, chooses to ignore the fact that, in this, he's hurting her even more, and helps along his willed amnesia with drink.
It works, for a while, until he spots her in a crowded street; and she sees him, holding his glance fervently. He feels the heat of her rise into his head. Sweat beads begin to tickle, but she does not give in. Asking relentlessly (and soundlessly) the questions whose answers he has refused her for so long; but even now he cannot satisfy, and breaks the contact, bowing his head and readjusting his bowler hat so her view will be restricted.
He makes himself forget her.
But sometimes, at night, when memories rise up, he dares to hope that she remembers for the both of them.