Chapter 50: Past The Point of No Return

A/N: Warning mature content in this chapter.

It was dark out when Ashley opened her eyes again. She wasn't sure how much time had passed since she had blacked out but judging from the uncomfortable bed she was now occupying she knew she wasn't at home anymore. She could smell disinfectants and hear machine beeping in the distance. She figured they must have rushed her to the hospital. She looked down and could see John sleeping on a cot with one hand holding onto hers. He was sprawled out with his other arm behind his head. As if he could sense someone watching him he opened his eyes and grinned sleepily.

"Hey beautiful"

"What happened?" she asked removing the oxygen mask from her face. The moment she did she started having a very painful coughing fit. John jumped up and placed the mask back over his mouth and nose. Then he had a seat on the edge of the bed.

"You have pneumonia baby" he told her "your body temp spiked up really high and you passed out and have been sedated off and on for the past 5 days"

"Oh" was all she could say.

"Why didn't you tell me about the baby?" he asked. It was too dark to see his face but she didn't need to see it to know what was written all over it.

"I just found out and I was shocked and scared and I was going to tell you eventually I swear I was … I just didn't know how … I love you so much and the last thing I wanted to do was hurt you again"

"I'm not going to lie to you at first I was shocked and then I was pissed beyond all reason but then I started thinking about how devastated you'd be to find out that the baby was gone and I knew that would take precedence to anything I was feeling. I know how much you want to have a baby like every other woman in the world"

"I'm sad I'm not going to lie to you about that but I have you in my life and that is all I need even if I am never able to get pregnant again as long as I have you, Phinney and Faith then I don't need anything else"

"I love you so much" he hugged her "please never scare me like that again"

"I won't … you know I could probably make room for you next to me"

"You don't have to tell me twice" he grinned laying down next to her. He took her hand and brought it to his lips placing a gentle kiss on it before letting it rest with their fingers intertwined.

"John do you ever imagine what our kids would be like if we could have them?" she asked.

"Sometimes" he admitted which surprised the hell out of her "I always picture a little girl that is exactly like her mama in every way"

"I just want a little boy with your dimples" she traced the side of his face with her finger tips.

"Maybe we'll get lucky" he grinned at her mischievously.

"I don't think I like that look in your eyes Mr. Cena"

"Can't mean anything good" his grin grew and now he resembled the Cheshire Cat.

"Not anything good at all"

He began kissing her collarbone. Before moving down to her bare shoulder. She closed her eyes enjoying the feeling. But it was short lived when they heard foot steps down the hall.

"John please someone could walk in" she whispered.

"So where is your sense of adventure" he took a moment to look her in the yes "I have walked in on too many people having sex lately and now I think it should be my turn to be walked in on"

"Ok that's kinda strange"

"Don't ask I still have nightmares about it" but even that didn't deter him from his mission to show this woman how much he wanted and needed her. He took into consideration that she was still recovering from a bad case of pneumonia but he knew that what he was planning on doing to her would make her feel just as good as it would him. He slipped his hand under the covers of the bed knowing full well that she was wearing one of those flimsy hospital jonnies and nothing else. His eyes were twinkling with mischief as he crept his hand under the jonnie and began caressing her inner thigh.

"John " she hissed "not here"

"If you can honestly look me in the eyes and tell me you don't want me then I will stop" he said knowing that it would be hard to deal with the raging hard on he now had but he would do it for her to make sure that she was comfortable.

"Would you really not have sex with me if I told you I didn't want to?" she asked.

"Yeah … if you said not now and I forced myself on you that is rape in my book and I ain't about that"

"Will you at least see if there is a way to lock the door?" she asked.

His grin was back as he hopped off the bed and went to inspect the doorknob. There was no way to lock the damn thing but he opened the door a crack to see if anyone was coming. The coast was clear and John doubted that anyone would come to check on her anytime soon. He strolled casually over to her but stopped before he reached the bed and quickly rid himself of his shirt.

"Nobody is coming baby" he said 'let me show you how much I love you"

She gulped a little and nodded. There was no use fighting it John with his shirt off was quite persuasive. Inside her head were all these wicked thoughts of what she wanted to do to him the moment she was well enough. He climbed back into bed with her and rid her of the jonnie. He removed her oxygen mask and waited a moment to make sure she could do without it. She didn't cough at all which made him grin all the more. Bending down to capture her lips with his own. He broke the kiss and looked her in the eyes.

"If you need me to stop at any time just let me know ok"

"Ok" she said but doubted she'd want him to stop.

He kissed her again it was soft and warm but then his tongue danced against her lips looking for access to her mouth. She opened her mouth to let his tongue in. His left hand was free to caress her body at will. He eventually found what he was looking for with agile fingers began stroking her. She bit down kissed him deeper to muffle her cries of ecstasy. His mouth left hers as he bent down to take a nipple into his mouth. His warm tongue flicked over it. She bit down on her lip so hard she was surprised it didn't bleed. A low moan emerged from her throat. John took great pleasure that he could evoke such a sound from the woman he loved. When he finally grew bored with playing with her breasts he kissed her again. She began trying to unzip his jeans while still kissing him.

"Someone's a little eager" he laughed a little.

"Baby I need you" her voice was husky . She leaned back against her pillows as seductively as she could seeing as she was still in a hospital bed and she probably looked half dead. But that didn't matter to him, he loved her. He stood from the bed and stripped off his pants and boxers. She sucked in a breath as she always did upon seeing John naked. There was something so majestic to her about seeing him naked. He took his place over her and spread her legs with his knee. He entered her slowly taking his time because he knew she wasn't 100 percent yet. She grabbed onto his muscular ass and helped him move in and out. She closed her eyes enjoying the feeling of the man she loved inside her. She would never admit this to him but the rush of being caught only added to the excitement. The waves of climax washed over her then she gripped onto his shoulders and threw her head back. Knowing her like he did he kissed her again to quiet her. She shuddered a little beneath him as her pleasure overcame her. He was nearing his own climax now. He squeezed his eyes shut in and out he went until finally he exploded within her collapsing next to her carefully. She cuddled up closer to him and he wrapped his arms around her.

"I love you so much" she traced circles on his muscular arm.

He kissed the top oh her head "Me too baby me too"

Neither wanted to move but both knew they had to get redressed just incase someone did decide to check on Ashley. After getting situated in bed again both drifted off into a peaceful slumber.