Disclaimer: I do not own Torchwood or the characters, sadly. But I do own my own character, Lily Crawford.

Nor do I make any profit from this.

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A/N: What will Lily decide? Jack or Ianto? Will it come to that? Who knows? I know! Lol. Hope you like. Quick question. Do you think Lily is a little bit Mary-Sue ish? She seems so to me. It could change. ;) Just to WARN anyone who may be offended by this that there is a mention of a threesome at the end of this. Btw this chap is dedicated to my crazy twat of a friend Mike, who encouraged me too enthusiastically to write this chapter. Lol, running joke. Also rating had been increased.

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Chapter 4 – Jack or Ianto?

I lay down on the medical bay table. I still hadn't opened my eyes. I liked the quiet darkness of it. No one spoke to me. Occasionally someone would talk to me, make sure I'm still conscious. I lay in the quiet darkness humming a tune under my breath. I heard someone approach me. I wasn't sure who until I heard their voice. They were whispering to me, barely.

"Lily? Are you still awake?" It was Jack.

"Yes" I breathed back. There was a small intake of air, in relief I think.

"Did you hear what I said down in the Archived to Ianto?" Jack was still barely whispering.

"Yes" I breathed back again. Jack began to talk normally again, it made me jump slightly.

"Wel-" I jumped at that point and Jack laughed, not his booming laugh I had heard once before but quiet and soft.

"You should get up" Jack's hand pressed lightly on my shoulder.

"Mmm" I said in agreement. I slowly opened my eyes; the light was too bright but they adjusted quickly. I looked about, from what I could see nothing had changed. Jack was sitting next to me, his big blue eyes raked my face trying to judge how I was, I think. I gave him a small smile, which he returned.

"How do you feel?" He sounded a bit worried. I sighed and sat up a bit more, propped up on my elbows.

"I'm fine"

"Want some help getting up?" he sounded a bit awkward.

"Err…no it's cool."

"Yeah…of course…I…eh…better go"

"Sure" I sighed again. I felt a bit better after that, no idea why. My head felt clearer, I felt hope that I could find away through this and hopefully avoid hurting Jack or Ianto.

Maybe there was no way of doing this without hurting one of them.

It was then that the noise of a loud clatter, smash and splash. I sat up quickly, swung my legs over the side, jumped off and ran up the medical bay stairs. Ianto was frozen; he didn't seem to notice the debris of tea/coffee, broken mugs and a slightly dented tray lying at his feet. I looked around wildly trying to figure out what is wrong. I couldn't see anything that shouldn't be there. It was then that Ianto came flying at me, hugging me tight whilst picking me up. My eyes were squeezed tight but I'm pretty we span in a circle. Gwen laughed at the sight and Jack stared moodily from his office.

What was the real reason he was pissed off. Because he liked me but Ianto liked me too and I got on really well with Ianto. OR Jack wasn't bothered when Ianto split up from him but when there was the possibility I liked Ianto back, Jack got jealous and tried to win Ianto Back. OR does Jack honestly love Ianto and I'm getting in the way. There was one thing in common with all of these (apart form the centre around me, Jack and Ianto.) was that either way I choose I have to hurt one of them. I knew which one I was afraid of hurting (Ianto). I had read Jack's files before coming here. I know of his reputation as a serial flirt and omnisexualism. Is that even a word? Either way I really, really didn't want to hurt either one of them.

Ianto eventually put me down, after some more spinning in a circle and me giggling whilst trying to tell him to put me down. I felt dizzy once on solid land. I had to lean against a desk just so I didn't fall over. Ianto was the same. My eyes flickered up to Jack who was now grinning, like he was struck by a sudden idea. He walked down the stairs towards us. Ianto and Gwen's smile quickly vanished. Mine stayed in place, even if it was forced.

"Well team, seeing as we've been getting on well in the past few days. I say we go home a bit earlier and meet later on for a drink, to celebrate the latest member of out team. How about it?" He sounded enthusiastic and sincere. Gwen had one of her largest smiles I had seen so far. It was slightly creepy. Ianto looked cautious, like he didn't trust what he was hearing. My smiles was less forced now, more natural. I was the first to speak up.

"I rather like that idea actually" Gwen nodded in agreement.

"I can surprise Rhys" Her smile got bigger, didn't think it was possible but there you go. Ianto stared at us, as though we were completely mad.

"No, I have work to do in the flat" he tried to sound sincere too but it didn't hide the untrusting under-tone to his voice. Me and Gwen looked at each other and had a moment of non-verbal communication. We both nodded and in perfect synchronisation turned to Ianto eyes on full puppy-dog mode and lips on cute pout mode.

"Pleeeaaassseeee?" We both said it at the exact same time. A direct hit from this should have melted his face but he was fine. Gwen and I stared at him like this for a while until he sighed.

"Fine, I can't stay to long though" I felt my spirits rise when he said this. Ianto didn't look to happy about it, so I cocked my head slightly and gave him an innocent grin. He rolled his eyes at me in a typical Ianto fashion.

"Lily you're going to regret this" he muttered lightly under his breath. I don't think I was supposed to hear but I did. I wanted to ask what he meant but it seemed a bit rude to be listening if he was talking to himself.

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We all, except Jack, left work about quarter to four ish. Gwen and Ianto walked me to my flat. Gwen pointed out where she lived and if I ever wanted I could visit at any time. Ianto gave me a sympathetic smile and left.

My cat Whiskas greeted me as usual when I entered; meowing pitifully as though I never fed him, which I did. He had this way though of making people feel bad. I flopped onto the couch. Whiskas got annoyed when I didn't pay him any attention so he began biffing my leg with his large paw. I patted my stomach and he jumped up on top of and then curled up. Somewhere deep in my left coat pocket my mobile was ringing. It was Tom. Oh great! Actually yes, I need style advice!

"Hey Tom"

"Hello cheeka"

"Cheeka?"

"Yes, what it's my new word?"

"You never say cheeka and your talking funny again, sort of gay Spanish with a hint of Scots"

"I am not!"

"Oh God Do you fancy Enrique Iglesias again?"

"No" I knew Tom was lying because had went higher than normal and he only ever talked like this when he fancied Enrique Iglesias.

"Okay Tom. Anyway, was there a reason you phoned?"

"Yes, I wanna know how my little working girl is doing" I sighed.

"What's wrong cheeka? Are you being bullied by the other children?"

I gave a feeble laugh, it was the best I could do at the moment. I took a deep breath and explained everything that had happened over the past few days. He 'ummed' and 'ahhed' his was through the story, only asking the occasional question like, Explain what Jack and Ianto look like exactly, how nice is Ianto's bum and whichever one you don't choose can I have him? That last question made me laugh properly. Tom wasn't much help when it came to these sorts of things, he pretty much said have them both and choose which one was best.

"Also, I'm going out for a drink with them and that woman, Gwen, I told you about. What should I wear?"

"Hmmm, depends, who do you wanna look?"

"Something that is cute and little bit sexy. Nothing too obvious though. It's only at a pub by the way"

"Hmmmm" he said again.

"How about…got it! The floaty skirt that Pablo says makes your legs longer. And...Err…that low cut purple top that makes the girls look-"

"Tom! it's going out for a drink, not partying!"

"Fine, same skirt though, white tee-shirt with your black half jacket thing, which comes to just under your bust, the one with the brass looking buttons and probably you're new knee high boots. You can accessorise yourself, right?"

"Of course, don't you know that term for the half-jacket thing?"

Tom sighed before answering

"Yes, but you wouldn't have understood what I meant."

"Fine" I mumbled, a bit annoyed.

"Then you'll be fine, every other girl will look like a monkey compared to you"

"You talk some rubbish Tom but thanks anyway, I need to go get ready. Bye, love you"

"Whatever makes you happy…bye loves" the phone went dead.

I began my process as I liked to call it by showering, normally the warm water help me relaxed but I was too nervous for it too work. I had exactly (after my shower) 1 hour and 30 minutes to get ready. I got myself dried off, underwear on and I slipped on an old nightie until after I had done my hair. I completely dried it and pain stakingly curled sections, using almost a full tin of hair moose. The curls were loose curls and although it took ages and used most of a tine of moose, I thought it looked great. Make-up wise, it was the norm, eye-liner, mascara (lots) and lip gloss I wore what Tom had advised, although it felt a bit dressy, so I changed my skirt for a pair of jeans, but more normal and less dressy.

At exactly quarter past seven Ianto and Gwen pressed the button to buzz me in my flat. I let them in and waited for them o chap the door. I was stood a few feet away waiting to open the door. Gwen and Ianto were having a conversation, I know eavesdropping is wrong but I heard my name and was inclined to see what was being said about me. I leaned a bit more towards the door. Their voices were a bit muffled but I could pretty much hear everything you were saying.

"Has she still not given you an answer?" It was Gwen and she sounded, very obviously, annoyed. Ianto sighed.

"No, if I ask again Lily will probably think I'm needy and desperate. Besides I don't even think she likes me in that way" Poor Ianto! He sounded so upset about it, I wanted to throw open the door and dive into his arms, but that is completely stupid thought.

"Ianto! Are you blind??? She likes you, they way you like her. It's sort of obvious love"

"Shh Gwen, she's hear us and then wonder why were having a conversation out in the hallway instead of ringing the door bell"

That's sounds like my cue. I opened the door and tried to look surprised when I noticed them there.

"Oh good, I thought I heard voices. Ianto looked as though he couldn't say anything, as his cheeks slowly turned very red. Gwen looked me up and down and said in a very cheery voice (no surprise there then).

"Wow Lily love, you look lovely" She had her usual big grin,

"Err…thanks" I returned the grin, which came surprisingly easily. Ianto still hadn't said anything but sort of gawped slightly. Gwen elbowed him in the ribs.

"Oh…yes...err...Hi Lily, you look...eh...nice" This made me giggle slightly.

I had only every seen Ianto in his suits, so it was weird that she should be dressed in jeans and a tee-shirt but he looked really nice, so I wasn't complaining. After this strange start to the night, everything afterwards came surprisingly easily. We walked for about 10 minutes to the nearest best pub. It was a Tuesday night, so all in all not busy, although Gwen pointed out that if the Welsh rugby had been on, it would be packed. We all ordered drinks and sat down at a table. We had some light conversation but there was some silence. But it wasn't awkward, well not for me anyway but more comfortable, thoughtful, nice, friendly silence. If there is such a thing.

Jack turned up 15 minutes late, a Weevil had escaped and he had to capture it before it attacked anybody.

"What's a Weevil?" Gwen and Ianto looked at me, clearly in shock.

"Did Archie not tell you about Weevils?" Obvious answer questions, how they annoyed me.

"Well obviously not, otherwise I'd be saying oh yeah those Weevil things with the Weeviling and so on" I gave a slight snort and downed the rest of my drink. There wasn't much left but it was enough for everyone to look at me again.

"What?" I said. Have they never seen anyone drink fast before? I am in Wales, right?

"Nothing, it's just that, you seem very Welsh" Gwen looked down when she said, a bit lost for words. This was very unlike her.

"Welsh?" I asked a bit surprised but not offended.

"Well being in Wales was bound to have an effect" I tried to do a Welsh accent, came out a little bit dodgy but I thought it was okay. Everyone again was in stunned silence. I was staring at the glass stains on the table, trying to make a picture. Everyone including me burst into a fit of laughter. When we calmed down a bit Gwen said

"That…was rubbish" We all laughed again but not as much as we had done. There were some minutes of that carefree easy silence again. No one needed to talk.

"I know" Jack said suddenly, breaking the silence. Gwen and I jumped, where as Ianto turned to answer Jack. They both looked at us, Ianto rolled his eyes and Jack shook his head. I stuck my tongue out at them and Gwen laughed at me. I liked this. The silly easy chatter, that seemed to flow naturally from us. I thought tonight was going to be tense and awkward but it was fun and carefree, which I know I've said several times but it was.

"To continue what I was saying before I almost gave Gwen and Lily a heart attack. I think we should have a drinking contest"

"Ohhhh I've done one of them in a while, I'm in." Tom and I used to do them all the time. I always won. I sound like an alcoholic, which Tom is convinced I am but I'm not. I rarely drink anymore.

Ianto wasn't so sure but agreed anyways. Gwen took a while for a decision because she fretted about Rhys and work; then again she wanted to because as she said she is Welsh.

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4 vodka shots in: Jack was clearly winning, who came after that I don't know. As for what happened after this I don't know. Only that Gwen was passed out on the table.

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I woke up about half ten in the morning. Sore head, queasy and a mouth as dry as the Sahara, all in all no the best morning I've ever had. I was about to get up to get a glass of water, when I heard a large yawn coming from behind me. I froze in place. A voice called out

"Where the hell am I???"

"Jack?" I asked the voice. My voice was horrible, all raspy because of the dryness. I swallowed and that seemed to return my voice back to the norm, a little bit.

"Lily?" I was sure it was Jack now.

"What are you doing in my flat?"

"Your flat!!!"

"Shhhh, neighbours"

"Sorry…do you remember anything about last night?"

"Hmmmm" I thought back to the night before it was clear until jack suggested a drinking contest. I got random moments but nothing substantial to figure out what happened. Then there was another yawn. I wiggled around in my bed and realising for the first time, I was naked!!!

I slowly sat up and noticed my bedroom in utter chaos. Clothes lay scattered all over my bedroom. My bra was hanging from the door handle. A pair of boxers where on the lampshade from the ceiling. Clothes everywhere. I looked what was on my bed, me (naked!!!), Jack (naked too!!!) and Ianto also naked. I wanted to scream but my dry throat wouldn't let me. Ianto woke up at this point. Jack had been watching him sleep all, whilst I was discovering we were all naked. Ianto looked up at me, his eyes huge. He opened his mouth and I knew some of things he was going to say. I spoke first.

"This is my bedroom in my flat; Jack is here too and we are all naked. Bathroom is just down the hall on the left. Ianto nodded, stood up, found his boxers and made his way quickly to the bathroom.

"Do you remember anything?" I asked quietly.

"Only what you know" I nodded my head in silent agreement.

What had happened? Did we all…? Ohhhh crap a doodle.

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A/N: Did you like? Don't worry, all will be revealed (oo...er) in the next chapter. Please read and review as always?

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