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I am so sorry for the long wait. I have been busy and on vacation but now I am back and I will hopefully be able to upload the following chapters fast. :)
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Kurt looked in the mirror, horrified by the sight of his face. His eyes were red and swollen, and his cheeks rosy. His lower lip was quivering. There was no way he could hide this at work today. He started crying again, knowing it would only make it look worse. This was his first day back after that night. The night he almost couldn't bear to think about. The night Blaine had told him about the other guy, the night they had broken up and the night he had felt so lost, betrayed and hurt all at once, and it hadn't disappeared. The night that was followed by the morning after where he watched Blaine walk out of his door. It had been a week. Every day had been like a marathon, where he had to drag himself over the finish line every time. And everything reminded him of Blaine, when he made coffee, he would think of him and Blaine sitting at the Lima Bean, holding hands. When he put on his robe, he would think of Blaine in the robe he had that matched Kurt's. But the nights were the worst, because when he got to bed he would remember all their sleepovers, Blaine's arms wrapped around him and the first time they were together.
He remembered how they laid in bed afterwards under the covers and Kurt resting his head on Blaine's chest while Blaine was running his right hand through Kurt's thick hair, and holding Kurt's hand with his left. They were smiling, feeling safe and never wanting to face the real world again. "This is it," Blaine said. Kurt frowned, "What?" he asked. "I think this is the happiest I will ever be." Blaine looked at Kurt not able to see his face. Kurt smiled widely, and then turned to lie on his stomach resting his chin on Blaine, facing him. "Me too," he said, reaching out to touch Blaine's cheek and Blaine smiled, closed his eyes and pressed his face into the palm of Kurt's hand.
"I don't want to ever forget this feeling, this moment. You and me." Kurt said. Blaine shook his head. "Me neither. But we won't. I'm sure of it. You and me and how we feel is not something you forget. Ever." They smiled and looked deeply into each other's eyes, when Blaine said: "I love you more than you know." "I love you more," Kurt said, and Blaine laughed a little. "I doubt it," he said lifting his eyebrows, smiling. They both let out a laugh. Then Kurt said: "No matter where I go next year, what I am doing, wherever we are in this world I will love you and I promise you I will never let you go." Blaine smiled and nodded his head slightly. "I know. We have our ups and downs, but I never doubt that we will always love each other and be together." They smiled. "Come what may, right?" Blaine said. "Right." Kurt said with a smile. "And believe me, wherever you go, I will follow like a puppy. You will not get rid of me that easily. I will never let you be without me." They both laughed. "Good," Kurt said. He pressed his face into Blaine's chest, kissing it and taking a deep breath. Blaine smiled and stroke Kurt's hair. "When does your parents get back?" Kurt asked. "Tomorrow." Blaine answered, looking at Kurt's face, who at that reply started to smirk. "Oh…" he said, tracing his fingertips, from Blaine's lips to his chest. "What did you have in mind?" Blaine asked, pretty sure of the answer. Kurt shrugged, "I don't know.." he said, and then he leaned in for a kiss.
He was still crying when he saw Rachel in the mirror behind him. She was looking at him, sad and not surprised by the sight of Kurt crying, because he had been crying every day since that night. Sure she had broken up with Finn too, but she hadn't seen him in months before that. Kurt's pain couldn't be compared to how she was feeling, so Rachel had comforted him, the best way she knew how. She had held him when he cried, she had dried his tears, she had bought the new Vogue for him, something he would usually do himself, she had bought ice cream, and cuddled them both on the couch, forcing him to participate in her Barbara Streisand marathon. All things that used to cheer him up, but now he hardly smiled any more, and Rachel was out of ideas of what to do.
So now, seeing him crying, she walked up behind him and hugged him tightly and he took her hands and cried. Then he faced her. "I can't go to work looking like this!" he said. "I can help you, come on!" She looked at him, feeling so sorry for her friend. She grabbed his hand and started dragging him to her room. "Maybe I should just call in sick." Rachel stopped and looked at him. "No Kurt. I love you, but you need to get out of this apartment." Kurt looked at the floor. "Hey, look at me." She forced his eyes to meet hers. "You are the most brave, fabulous, wonderful, good-hearted, strong person I know, and you can do this! You are stronger than me, than anybody I know, so you are going to go to work today, see Isabelle, go to that meeting and kill it with your fabulous ideas!" Kurt smiled slightly at her enthusiasm. "And it will take your mind off of things for awhile, and…. I think that would be really good for you Kurt." She looked at him with a look of worry for her friend, but also a touch of desperation for him to feel better. Kurt nodded, dried his tears and squeezed her hand. "Okay," he said. "Good. Now let me help you with those eyes."
She fixed him up the best she could, however you could still see his red eyes through the makeup, but she had done an okay job. Kurt packed his things and when he took his phone, the display said: 2 missed calls. 5 unread messages. He deleted them. He knew who it was from and the display had said the same every day for the last week. He had to breathe deep a few times so he wouldn't burst out crying again and jump in bed and hide under the covers all day. "Bye," he yelled to Rachel who was in her room. She came out, gave him a hug and a kiss on the cheek. She took a grab on his shoulders and said in a firm voice; "Remember, you are fabulous, brave and strong." Kurt nodded, taking another deep breath. "Okay, go on. Love you." "Love you," he said and gave her a vague smile and then walked away to face the world.