Author's Note: I hope you like it! :)

Blaine was lying on his bed, low music filling the silence in the room. Blaine's brother, Cooper, had just been to visit and had dinner with him and his parents. The first time the whole family had been together for a long time, just the four of them. "I'm here!" was the first thing he yelled all through the house when he entered the front door. Blaine slowly walked down the stairs, not up for a night of him bragging. "Hey little brother" he said to Blaine and hugged him, when he reached the bottom of the stairs. "How are you?" "I'm….. hanging in there," Blaine answered. Cooper squinted his eyes at him, but accepted the answer, and then shrugged. "Well, I am great!" Cooper said. "I have a big audition tomorrow." He said with excitement. "Let me guess. Another Michael Bay movie?" Blaine asked with a touch of sarcasm. "No, and technically I never had a Michael Bay audition. They cancelled, but thank you for reminding me." Blaine shrugged. He didn't really care.

Blaine didn't eat much at dinner and looked at his plate most of the time. His thoughts were all mixed together and all he wanted to do was curl up in bed and be alone. "Hey, what's up with you man?" Cooper said, playfully hitting Blaine on the shoulder. "Nothing," Blaine said a little annoyed. "Okay… How is Kurt?" The sound of his name being said out loud sent pain straight to his stomach and shivers down his spine. Blaine stared at his food and a moment of silence went by before he looked Cooper in the eye and said in a low voice: "I don't know." Coopers face transformed from a smile into a realization. "Did you break up? Blaine I'm so sorry. Why didn't you tell me?" Blaine shrugged. "Blaine, why didn't you tell us?" he heard his mother say. "Because I don't really want to talk about it, okay?" he fought to hide his tears.

He was so filled of anger towards himself and his heart was so broken he couldn't bare it anymore. "But… what happened?" Cooper asked in a soft voice, seeing his brother start to cry in front of him and he gently put a hand on his shoulder. Blaine looked up again and in Cooper's eyes through his tears and said; "I kissed someone else." Cooper looked surprised. "I messed up. I was so alone and I missed him and I didn't want to feel that way anymore and… I don't know what I was thinking. I've lost him. Forever." He was holding back sobbing. "It's okay. It's going to be okay." Cooper said, pulling Blaine into his arms, and he hugged him for a while. His parents got up from the table and went over to hug them both.

Then his mother fed them cake and hot chocolate and they all sat by the fireplace in the living room talking and laughing and Blaine had felt safe for a little while and knew that they were there for him and it felt nice. Before Cooper left he pulled Blaine aside. "Listen Blaine, I have seen you guys together. You love each other so much. He'll forgive you. I know he will! It will be okay. You just have to make him see that! Make him remember how you feel about each other." Blaine nodded. "Thank you, Coop. I hope you're right." They hugged each other, this time longer than usual. "And good luck tomorrow! You'll kill it." "Thanks buddy. Love you." Cooper said and padded Blaine's shoulder. "Love you too." Blaine said.

Blaine stayed on his bed staring at the ceiling, thinking, out of ideas of how to make things right, considering what Sam, Tina and Cooper had said to him. Make him remember, do everything you can. He couldn't go to New York right now, because he had missed days of school after he came home the last time, and he couldn't afford any more days off. He had tried texting and calling, but that didn't help. Then he thought of another way he may be able to give Kurt the message he wanted him to receive; Rachel. It was the quickest and only way, and he had to try. He immediately sat up straight, took his phone and dialed her number. He waited..

"Hello?" He heard Rachel's voice say. "Hi Rachel! It's Blaine. God, I am so glad you picked up! I really need to talk to you!" he rushed the words, afraid that she might hang up on him before he could say anything. There was a pause, but she didn't hang up. He could hear her breathing, then sighing, "What do you want? Why should I listen to you, when you hurt Kurt like you did?". "Because we both love him." Blaine said quickly. "And we both want him to stop hurting." Rachel could only agree to what he said. Blaine took the silence as a sign of her wanting to listen so he continued: "And because I am so sorry and I am hurting every day. I know you're siding with Kurt in this, and you should! But I love him and I miss him and I feel so bad about what I did. The kiss was such a huge mistake! I was just so lonely, and confused, and scared that Kurt was slipping away from me. I started to fear that he was moving on without me and that our future weren't the same anymore."

Rachel listened as Blaine talked with a broken voice. He didn't sound the same, and she believed him. Also she knew how one kiss could change everything, and hurt people; she had been in that situation several times. "I don't know what happened to me.. to us. We forgot what we had. But we're supposed to be together forever, I see that so clearly now, and that was the promise, and that is our future, I know it. You know I love him with all my heart Rachel! I do. I know that it doesn't justify what I did, but love is really all that matters right?" It wasn't a question he expected to get an answer to, but as he started to say these things, he found himself not being able to stop. He hadn't talked to anyone about anything since he left New York, and he was bursting at the seams with all these emotions and he was fighting to hold back the sobbing as he spoke, but he let a few tears roll down his cheeks silently, as he talked about what he had been battling for weeks. There was a pause, when Blaine said: "I was kind of hoping you would help me reach him?"

He waited for her to answer and it took a while, before he heard her take a deep breath and say: "Fine. But I don't think he wants to talk to you if I gave him my phone, and honestly I don't want to put him in that position, because he is really broken up about this. I had to push him out of the door for work the other day, and all he has done is lie in bed and cry." It hurt Blaine to hear this, and Rachel knew that so she stopped herself. There was no reason for her to make Blaine feel even worse than he already did, even though she was hurting too, seeing Kurt like that. But she decided to help Blaine out, because she knew Blaine, and when he sounded like this, he was sincere, and Blaine would never lie about a thing like true love, actually she didn't think he had ever lied.

"But I can give him a message from you, if you want. And try to explain to him that you love him, even though what you did was stupid." She said. Blaine let out a sigh of relief and answered: "It was stupid! Thank you so much Rachel! I owe you!" Blaine saw a very small glimmer of light at the end of the dark tunnel that had felt endless. Blaine gave Rachel the message he wanted to be passed on to Kurt, said goodbye to her, and looked at the picture of him and Kurt on his night stand. He had no idea what would come of this, but all he could do now was hope. Hope was all he had to hold on to right now. It wasn't much, but at least he had something.