Ciel woke up and felt that the wound above his right eye was hurting. He hissed lowly and moved in the bed to find a arm around him. He got scared at first, then he remembered that Sebastian had slept in his bed. He sighed and turned around slowly not to wake the other up. Sebastian was beautiful as he slept. His face was calm, dark lashes rested on his cheeks and soft, but still firm lips was parted and small breaths came from the other man. Ciel had the urge to lean closer and kiss him. Though he couldn't risk him wakening up like that and he told him he didn't like the man.

He scanned his face and it was perfect. No flaws at all, nothing. He wrapped his arms around the older and snuggled against his chest. If he woke up he could blame that it was cold and he cuddled up to the other for warmth. He didn't fall asleep though, he laid there for a half hour without being able to fall back to sleep. Soon the man he embraced started to stir and soon he felt a hand through his hair and he pretended to look like he just woke up. It didn't work.

Ciel wanted to push away but instead stayed in Sebastian's muscled arms. He felt safe and didn't want him to let go. Sebastian didn't seem to have any thought of moving away either. The others hand kept stroking his soft hair and soon he felt those soft lips against his head; that was when he pushed away.

"What are you doing ass?"

"I thought we were cuddling so I kissed you."

"I know what you fucking did."

"Then why did you ask?"

"Fuck you Sebastian. Just shut up."

He mumbled and looked into his odd brown colored eyes. They showed off a bit of red in the sunlight that was flattering to his pale skin and pitch black hair. Ciel found himself searing at the man and looked down on his chest instead. Sebastian chuckled.

Ciel blushed as he cuddled up to the other again. He was just so warm and Ciel was slightly cold due the cold weather and he didn't live in a apartment that had that good heat system, he usually slept with lots of clothes but Sebastian, he was still warm, and soft. It attracted Ciel in a way. His heat and softness.

Why do I like him.

Ciel hid his face in the elders exposed chest and mumbled for himself. The other chuckled at this and caressed his hair gently. The boy hesitated of the thought to kiss him, any part of him. To feel his skin made him almost go crazy. But he couldn't help it. He looked up at him and pressed his soft lips against Sebastian's collar bone. He was shocked over what he had done and stared down at the younger male that just had kissed his collar bone. Ciel continued to leave kisses up to his jaw line and stopped there. He pulled away and looked into those crimson eyes and leaned up to his lips and pressed them together in a small kiss.

Sebastian stared at him as the younger pulled away, then smiled. Ciel looked back at him and sat up in the bed. He laid against the wall and Sebastian was in the way for him to get up so he crawled over him and want to the kitchen to get some water for himself. Sebastian had apparently followed, he leaned against the door frame and watched the younger of the two.

"You want me to make breakfast?"

"Yeah. I can help."

"No. You can sit down. You have to rest your eye or something I guess… And you'll just be in the way."

"Ass."

Ciel muttered and sat down on the counter so he could watch what he did. Sebastian began to place egg, bacon, bread and lots of other stuff that he was going to make breakfast out of.

"You know it's only you and me. And I don't eat that much. Usually I just take a diet shake on my way to school."

"No wonder you're so skinny."

"Fuck you I'm happy with how I look."

"I like the way you look too."

Ciel huffed and watched as he began to stir egg salt and pepper together in a small bowl then poured it down in the fry pan that was placed on the oven and coated in butter. The other moment Ciel was kissing and cuddling up to Sebastian and now he was bitching around again.

He must think I'm mental or something.

He looked at the watch and then back at what Sebastian was cooking. How was he this good at making food? He was like twenty! Ciel could barely make pasta without fucking it up in some way. He didn't seem to be that kind of person who could make food.

He snapped out of his trance as he got a kiss and a smile from Sebastian. Ciel stared at him with a pout.

"Breakfast's done."

Ciel's frown turned to a smile and he kissed Sebastian back and jumped over to the table to eat. It all looked so good. Scrambled eggs, bacon, toasted bread with butter on it and orange juice. Ciel dug in immediately. Sebastian did the same.

A loud thud sounded from the living room and Sebastian came rushing in, afraid Ciel might got hurt. Ciel laid on the floor, hand on his head and made small whimpering sounds. He steadied himself on one arm and Sebastian put his hands on his shoulders and slowly helped him up. It was still hard to walk without walking into something or trip. They sat down on the sofa and Sebastian looked at the small red bruise that had formed on his cheek from either falling or walking into something. He rubbed his thumb over it gently with a smile.

"You got to be careful."

"I know…. It's just, it's not that easy to get used to only using one eye."

"It can't be that hard-"

"Shall we stab your eye with a fork and then see how good you can walk."

He snapped at the other male. It wasn't mostly that he only had one eye, he felt a tad dizzy as he walked and made it even harder.

"Sorry."

Ciel looked down as the other apologized. He hated that he had to be taken care of. Even though it was his own choice, he felt like he was bothering Sebastian. Said man lifted his chin and leaned down to kiss him. Ciel looked into his eyes and waited for their lips to collide. But then, of course, his phone started ringing and Ciel begged Sebastian to go and get it for him.

"Yes hello?"

"Oh Ciel Hi. It's Rachel. I called to see if you had gotten home from the hospital."

"Hi mom. Yes I'm home."

"I'm so very sorry for what happened to your eye. We would love to come visit you and make sure you're alright…but we are going on a holiday tomorrow and we won't be home for one week. So we can't come over now."

"Yeah."

"I have to go pack now. Are you sure you're fine alone? I could call Lizzie and ask her to take care of you."

"No. I'm good."

"Good. If you need anything or if there's something wrong you can call Lizzie."

"Mmh. Bye."

"Good bye."

Ciel hung up and sighed. His life just got a bit worse.

So a fucking holiday is more important than your son huh? And dad didn't even say hi…. Lizzie was right. They hate me, more than I thought. I'd be better dead. So I don't stand in the way for them. Because that's what I am, in the way. They wouldn't care. Not a bit. No one would.

Ciel's thoughts continued in that way, down. He hated himself now. He felt like a burden that just was something for the world to toy with when they were bored. His family just admitted they were going on a holiday one day after Ciel, their son, only child, had an car accident. He had completely forgot the other male in the room and just sat there and stared with a dead vision on the wall.

"Hey, Ciel."

Sebastian said and put a hand on his shoulder. He could tell something was of. Ciel looked up at him, feeling a bit better to know that at least one person was here and actually cared if he disappeared from earth forever. But he still didn't smile, he sat there and looked at Sebastian. Sadness, loneliness and slight fear played in that one deep blue eye that held tears back. Not wanting to cry more in front of the other. He never cried when another human was in the room, so back at the hospital he had showed his weak side.

Ciel stood up and slowly walked to his room, where he was heading in the first place. His walking was careful and he ran a hand over the wall as he walked. Not wanting to fall. He could hear the other male start walking after him and wrapped his arms around his shoulders to stop the younger.

"I can see you're bothered. What is it?"

"Nothing. I'm just fine."

"No."

He picked him up and carried him over to the bed and laid him down on it. Ciel facing the bed and Sebastian straddling his waist, holding his wrists over his head. Ciel blushed at the possession he was in and started to struggle but for no use. He was weaker than the other and smaller. So words had to fight for him.

"Sebastian stop!"

"Not until you tell me why the fuck you looked so sad."

"It was nothing!"

"I don't believe you."

"Why do you even care!?"

"Because I like you!"

They fell silent for a moment. Just sitting there in the same pose they started this fight in. The question was, did he want to tell Sebastian what was actually going through his head? How his life felt so miserable.

"Sebastian get off of me."

"I said I fucking won't until you tell me."

"I don't want to."

"Tell me."

"…It hurts."

"Oh, sorry I'll get off."

"I didn't mean that! It fucking hurts! My fucking life hurts!"

Ciel yelled into the bed that softly muffled the cries.

Fuck it all! If he wants to know why don't I fucking tell him!?

Sebastian was quiet and watched the boy that now was still.

"Ciel. It'll get better if you talk."

"Get the fuck of me and I might tell you fucker."

He mumbled and felt the weight disappear from his waist and his hands were freed. He pushed himself up by his elbows and slowly sat up. His back facing Sebastian who looked over at him a bit worried.

"….no."

"No?"

"I can't tell you."

"But if you keep it all in it'll get worse."

"Let it get worse. I don't fucking care! No one would care if it got worse."

"I would. I don't want you to feel bad."

Ciel shook his head and let out a small unsecure laugh as he brought his knees up to his chest and wrapped his arms around them.

"What's with you Sebastian?"

"What."

"Why do you care? About how I feel."

"I fucking told you it's because I like you."

"What do you mean by that?"

"I don't fucking know. Maybe that I care for you and would like to date you…. But fuck it."

"Date me huh?"

Ciel looked to the side and saw the shadow of the other on the floor. He sighed and rubbed his face. He didn't want to bother Sebastian. He cared for him as well even though he might not want to admit it. He was just a bitch who could have what he wanted but didn't take it. Seriously, Sebastian was serving himself on a silver plate right now and Ciel ditched it. Something was really off about him. He knew that himself as well.

"I'll tell you one thing."

He said in a low tone and turned his head a bit so he could glance at the raven haired man.

"My family don't want me. That's all you have to know."

He turned his head back and looked at the wall. Was it a smart thing to open up like this. What if he got hurt by him. What if he got more hurt than he already was. He clinched his palms into fists and leaned his head against his knees. This pain was enough, he didn't want more of it. Sebastian had been quiet for a good twenty minutes now and soon he felt a hand on his shoulder that slowly moved down over his back.

"I'm sorry for that."

Ciel yanked his shoulder away and laid down on the bed, still not looking at the other. He just wanted to be alone, yet he wanted Sebastian to be there. He thought the other might get up and walk away, but he sat there and looked at the boy. Soon Ciel couldn't handle it anymore and he turned to the other, now laying on his back, looking into those brown red eyes. He reached out a hand towards Sebastian's face but he didn't reach so the man leaned down so the younger could complete his task. He ran his fingers over his jaw line and chin, stopping there and ran them over his pale lips. They were so soft. He couldn't fucking resist.

He ran his hand down to the V-neck collared shirt and pulled him down. He stopped centimeters away from his lips to speak. His lips ghosting over the others as he spoke.

"I don't fucking know why I do this."

He smiled a bit for himself as he closed the distance between their lips. Not letting go of his shirt e pulled him closer and soon a tongue was darting out and licking his pink lips. Ciel opened his mouth and let the elder male in to explore his mouth. He wrapped his slender arms around the others neck and tried to push his tongue back so he could taste the other more and started a small battle with their tongues. A hand cupped his cheek while the other softly ran up and down over his side. His hands gripped the back of his shirt and slightly moaned as Sebastian's hand stroked over his thigh.

After awhile of their wet muscles fighting together Sebastian 'lost' and let the younger explore his wet carven. A satisfied moan came from the boy as he won and he was going to take his price. This cheered the young boy up a bit, but the pain was still there. But the pain got mixed up with feelings, feelings for Sebastian. He pulled away to breath and looked into his eyes with a faint smile as he gasped for needed air.

"I'm sorry."

Ciel mumbled not looking away from him as he spoke.

"Sorry for what?"

"For being an ass."

Sebastian chuckled at him and kissed his four head, wrapping his muscled arms around the younger boys waist.

"I think it's cute."

"That I act like a idiot?"

"Yeah."

"Well I can continue-"

"No. You're cuter when you're like this."

Ciel nodded with a small smile and rested his four head against his chest as he was held by the other.