Chapter 24 – Saying Goodbye For Now

Friday, brought Seth back to the group and Amaya was glad he was back. She knew Roman was taking a relaxation day and he and Dean were spending the better part of the day on the couch gaming with Call of Duty. Seth wasn't feeling up to gaming so he opted to go with Amaya to the hospital.

The drive was quiet but not awkward; it was quite comfortable. As they were walking into the hospital Seth took her hand in his and laced their fingers together as he kissed the back of her hand. "You know for the last few weeks, we've definitely been getting too familiar with hospitals."

Amaya smiled as she pulled him into the elevator, glad no one else was on the elevator as she looked up when he blocked her against the wall. "I know first your mom and now my sister. You know if this was too hard for you; you didn't have to come."

Seth shook his head. "No, you were there for me the whole time my mom was sick and you'll never know how much I appreciate the distraction you provided for me. I can only hope Roman and I did the same for you for the time we were here."

Amaya cupped his beard covered jaw as she smiled softly. "You guys did a perfect job. I promise. I know I got quiet a lot when we were altogether but I just have a really hard time thinking about Amyra or talking about her without letting my emotions get the better of me."

Seth nodded. "It's understandable baby. I can't imagine knowing what you know and knowing you can't do anything to stop it. I mean if it was someone Roman and I could kick his ass. But something that you can't see or touch there's no way to fight it physically." Seth sighed heavily. "I just wish there was more that we could do for her. She's so young and beautiful to have to go through something like that. And I can only handle seeing you with tears in your eyes so many times before you start breaking my heart."

"There's nothing we can really do. But I do appreciate the support I am getting from everyone."

As the elevator dinged they stepped off and went to Amyra's room. Safina was there and got to meet Seth and Amaya smiled softly as she watched Seth bond with her niece. She didn't realize how great Seth was with kids. Amaya could tell Amyra was in dire need of some quiet time. "Hey Seth, could you take Safi to the cafeteria and get her some cookies and milk." She squatted down next to Saf. "What'ca say Saf? Cookies and milk?"

Safina smiled as she nodded excitedly. "Sure."

Seth squatted down to be on her level. "You don't mind coming with me?" he chuckled when she wrapped her arms around his neck and he stood with his arm under her rear so she wouldn't fall. "We'll be back mommy and auntie Amaya." He winked down at Amaya as he turned and left with her.

Amaya sat next to Amyra. "Is Aunt Lucy at her doctor's appointment?" Their aunt Lucy had a check-up once every 6 months since she was a breast cancer survivor she always had to be checked to make sure it wasn't coming back.

"Yea, you know she ain't going anywhere though." Amyra smirked. "So when were you going to tell me you're with both Roman and Seth? I mean you don't even need to deny it; it's written all over your face. I mean don't get me wrong you seem happy with the two of them, but do you really think it's going to last? You do know eventually jealousy will play a HUGE role in it. Roman is eventually going to want you all to himself and Seth will eventually want the same thing and then you'll have two best friends fighting over you and you'll have to choose and what if you chose wrong? What if you chose the wrong guy and he ends up being the biggest asshole when you've got him alone and no one else to run to because you dumped the other one high and dry."

Amaya frowned. "Ouch. Do you wanna tell me where this is coming from? Because right now; I'm just having fun. I mean I love both of the boys equally and I really don't see us having that kind of problem. We have ground rules that we set and follow. And it works for us."

"It doesn't matter; I just don't want you getting hurt in the end." Amyra stated honestly. But even she could tell when both boys looked at Amaya. Once looked at her as she was a wife and the other looked at her as a girlfriend only.

About an hour later, Amyra smiled as she looked over and saw Seth walking back into the room with Safina sleeping on his shoulder.

Seth chuckled lightly. "Who knew cookies and milk would put her out?"

Amaya and Amyra both raised their hands. "It was the milk – not the cookies." Amaya stated as she stifled a giggle. "But she'll be your best friend now because you gave her cookies."

Seth shook his head. "Where should I put her?" He was so gentle with her not wanting to wake her up or jostle her little body out of the slumber.

Amaya pulled the small cot out and unfolded it and watched as Seth leaned down and gently placed her niece on the bed. He took the soft Minnie Mouse blanket from Amaya and covered the little girl up. He leaned over further and softly kissed her head.

The three days they spent in Mendocino were relaxing and rejuvenating to all five of the friends.

Saturday they were all supposed to fly out to rejoin the tour; Amaya had to go see Amyra one last time. The doctor's had said she was actually doing really great with the treatments, she'd been responding better to them than anything other's they'd tried and was even doing better than some of the other CF patients in the hospital. Amyra sent everyone out of the room to talk to Amaya on her own.

Roman sent everyone out to the rental. He stayed back and leaned against the wall with his hands in his pockets. He could just tell this talk was going to be all bad.

Zaria never had so much sex in her life and definitely wasn't complaining about any of it. Dean would sneak into her room in the middle of the night and the magnetic attraction would be too much for Zaria to handle. Her thoughts went to the previous night with Dean and how sensual he was. It wasn't hard and rough like before. He took his time to explore every inch of her body, making love to her for hours on end and didn't leave her bed like he had all the other times in the past few days. They might have been dating, but Dean liked to give her; her space. And Zaria had never slept so well and deep since she started working for the WWE. She would only admit it to herself that sleeping in Dean's arms felt right, perfect and she never wanted it to end. But it did and when she woke up the next morning, Dean was already up in the shower getting ready to go back on the road with the WWE. So they sat out in the SUV in the far backseat with her legs sprawled across Dean's lap and Zaria had a book in hand, -one of the many Dean had purchased for her- waiting for Amaya and Roman.

Amaya watched as everyone left the room and Roman and Seth each squeezed her hand and headed out as well, closing the door behind themselves. "What's going on Myra?"

Amyra smiled as tears immediately slid down her cheeks. It was the first time she'd cried in a really long time. "Look, we are both realist when it comes to CF because we know the statistics don't lie. I honestly have maybe a year or so left, if I'm lucky and I'm not sure how Aunt Lucy is going to handle everything once I'm gone. I need you to promise me if something happens to Aunt Lucy you'll take Safi. Aunt Lucy doesn't want her to go to anyone else in the family because they are stuck up assholes with money and I don't want her raised the way she was and she knows it and she agrees. I need you to sign the papers. I need you to be there for Safina when she has nightmares and gets her first boyfriend and gets married. I need to you to be there for her because I can't."

Amaya couldn't refuse and would never. She nodded and watched as Amyra handed over the papers and Amaya signed on every dotted line. Amaya sat holding her twin and kissing the top of her head.

"You better get going or you're going to miss your flight." Amyra stated honestly. She pulled Amaya's head down and kissed her forehead and both of her cheeks. "You keep those boys inline they are very lucky to have you busting their asses for them. I love you sissy."

Amaya nodded. "I love you too. I'll call you when we land." As soon as she stepped out into the hall and closed the door she leaned against the wall and the waterfall of tears that she'd been holding in finally broke free.

Roman caught Amaya as soon as she stumbled away from the door, holding her close as the love of his life sobbed violently against him. He had no idea what Amyra said to her and could feel his blood boiling, gritting his teeth. Why the fuck was fate so unfair? Why was god doing this to Amaya and Amyra, sweet twins that had never done anything to deserve this kind of pain? If god stood in front of him at that moment, Roman would've jack slapped him and demanded he spare Amyra's life. She had a beautiful little girl and loving sister along with a boatload of other people that didn't want her to die. "Come on, I've got you." He whispered, lifting Amaya up in his arms and carried her out of the hospital, letting her cry on him. He tossed the keys to Seth and sat in the back, not once releasing a crying Amaya. "Drive."

Seth frowned and nodded, peeling away from the hospital heading to the airport.

Dean frowned deeply when Roman carefully climbed into the SUV with a sobbing Amaya in his arms. Whatever had happened or whatever was said Roman couldn't get Amaya calm down for at least 10 minutes of the drive to the airport. Everyone in the vehicle was quiet; no one really knew what to say. Dean stood and leaned over the back of the seat and kissed the top of Amaya's head. "I'm here Princess; we're all here." He just wanted her to know he was there if she needed him for anything. He didn't forget all the little things she did for him as the Shields assistant and right now when she needed the support he wouldn't let her down; he refused.

Amaya finally calmed down long enough to explain to Roman what had happened. "I couldn't cry she was sitting there crying the whole time she was talking and all I could do was just nod and force myself to keep it together." She sniffled as Zaria handed her a tissue as she wiped her eyes as she leaned over and kissed Roman's cheek softly. "I'm okay." She could see the worry in his eyes. "She just – Amyra said she's got about a year or so left give or take a month or two. She wants me to take Safi if – if something happens to Aunt Lucy; she's getting older and she'd not really in the best of health." She shook her head. "I would do anything for any of them. I would do anything for any of you. When I'm not home you guys are my family. I guess you're my family 24/7 like with them too."

She buried her face in Roman's shoulder and felt his arms tighten around her. She hated saying good-bye, but at least it wasn't the permanent goodbye. It was just Goodbye for now.