Chapter 34 – Regret, Tears & A Brother.
Smackdown went by fast for everyone THANK GOD! Amaya left to go back home Tuesday night. She didn't mean to be a complete bitch to Roman. It killed her to just end everything on Monday night, but she was hurt. She did love both men and yea she might've felt closer to Roman than Seth but it didn't mean she loved either man more or less than the other. She was very hurt by Seth lying to her; don't get it twisted she wasn't mad because he'd been spending time with her sister. She loved her sister; her sister had a new lease on life and deserved to be happy and if Seth was the one to do that than Amaya would NEVER stop it from happening.
Amaya could take a lot of hurt, she could take physical pain, she had from John Cena when she was his assistant on a few occasions the year she worked with him. There were two things in life that never had any excuse for; One was cheating – you're unhappy in your relationship/marriage you get out you don't fuck around. Two was lying – there was never any reason to lie about anything for anytime.
She just wished Roman could understand her need for time and space. She was hurting and she realized she was probably hurting him in the process but she had to separate herself from them and just go back to being their assistant and friend; at least until she got her head on straight. It was a foreign feeling for her to be sitting at home on her days off and not actually be anywhere or hearing from anyone.
She felt alone and she felt lonely. It was her own fault for breaking things off with Roman the same night she did Seth. By Wednesday, she had already cleaned her house from top to bottom. She'd gone for a jog 5 miles long and came back and showered and it was only 3 PM. She knew if she didn't get up and do something she was bound to go stir crazy. She pushed up from the couch and was going to head into the kitchen to cook some dinner when her phone rang and by the ringtone she knew it was Amyra.
Amaya swallowed hard as she sat back down and picked up her phone hitting the answer button. "Sissy, is everything okay?" She asked her twin.
"I guess I should be asking you that since Seth told me what happened." Amyra stated softly. "I owe you an apology."
Amaya shook her head even though her twin couldn't see it. "No you don't owe me anything. You weren't the one that lied to me. You weren't the one that hurt me." She stated firmly; because it really wasn't Amyra's fault. Amaya never asked her sister if someone came to see her when she couldn't. "Honestly it's none of my business who comes to see you. You're a grown woman you don't need my permission if anyone visits you."
"We've told each other everything practically since birth. I should've told you about Seth coming and visiting me and Safina." Amyra mumbled slightly.
"No Seth should've told me himself instead of lying." Amaya snapped. It was still a sensitive subject.
Amyra knew how Amaya was with people who lied to her. She didn't forgive easily and she NEVER forgot. "I won't let him come see me anymore if that's what you want. I won't. He hurt you and I'm not going to reward him for being an ass."
"No don't do that Amyra. I've already talked to him; actually it was more of a threat to certain parts of his anatomy that I know he doesn't want to live without. I know he's unsure of how he feels for you, but me; he's always been up front about how he felt for me. He loves me but he's not in love with me and that's a big difference. I feel the same for him. I do love him but I'm not in love with him." Amaya admitted. "If he wants to spend every day off with you and Safina; maybe he's just what the doctor ordered."
"What about you and Roman; how do you feel about him? Seth said you broke things off with him as well; that kind of surprises me. I figured if anyone was sticking around with you if would be the big man." Amyra stated honestly.
"What do you mean? Why would you think Roman would be the one to stick around?" Amaya asked curiously.
Amyra laughed. "You can't be serious Amaya Ann Walker. That man is crazy about you. It was the looks he was giving you that first time I ever met any of them that threw up a big red flag to me that something was going on. He literally couldn't take his eyes off you. You are so naïve sometimes my beautiful twin."
Amaya shook her head. "You're crazy; this was nothing serious, it was just for fun. We had our fun; sometimes a little too much fun and now it's done. Roman Reigns can have any girl he wants; hell he can have any Diva he wants, why in the world would he ever want me?"
Amyra glared at her phone. "Amaya Ann! You've got more beauty in your pinky then those Diva's do in their entire bodies. There is no comparison and there never will be; most of those Diva's are bitchy little princesses who wouldn't know a good man like Roman, Seth or Dean if they came up and slapped the shit out of them."
Amaya couldn't help but laugh. "Whatever Roman feels for me I'm sure it can't be too serious. Besides I'm pretty sure his opinion of me has changed. I spent 7 months letting him and his best friend have sex with me. Then I broke up with him."
"GOD DAMN IT AMAYA IT WASN'T JUST SEX!"
Amaya's eyes snapped open at the sound of a baritone voice. "SETH?" Amaya practically chocked out. "Amyra Marie Walker, please tell me he hasn't been listening to this whole conversation!" Amaya pulled her fingers through her hair.
Amyra laughed. "No, he took your niece for cookies and milk again and I had you on speaker phone when he came back after the milk knocked out your niece. He only heard the last thing you said and he seems a little perturbed by that last statement."
"You're God damn right I'm perturbed." Seth snapped.
Amyra smirked as Seth suddenly cringed when he realized he'd just yelled with Safina in is arms and he looked down hoping he didn't wake her up. Amyra touched his arm. "It's okay Seth that kid could sleep through a slew of siren blaring fire trucks."
Amyra watched as Seth set Safina down on the small bed and covered her up before he turned to Amyra and pointed to the phone. "By all means go for it."
Seth picked up the phone and hit the speakerphone button. "Amaya, I fucked up. I fucked up big time. I lied to you and I shouldn't have and I know I broke your trust and I'm sorry for all of it. But I want to get it back and if it takes me a thousand years to do that; then I've got my work cut out for me. Clearly things will never be the same between us, but we were friends at one point and I would like to get back to that. But Roman - Roman didn't do anything to you and I'm telling you right now he likes you say. But right now you're punishing him for something I did and that's not right and you know it." Seth sighed heavily. "It was never just sex between the three of us. It was so much more than that. And it was never just sex with Roman involved. He had a lot of times when he had to remind himself to share and to not put my head through a wall for even touching you. He likes you a lot; more then he will ever admit if you don't confront him about it."
Amaya sat on the couch as she thought about everything Seth had said to her. She honestly didn't want to talk to him, but apparently he had tons to say to her. She started listening when he apologized a few times. Of course it had only been 18 hours since everything came to head. The timer on her oven beeped signaling her pizza was ready to eat. She walked into the kitchen and set the pizza tin on the stove top when her doorbell rang. She honestly wasn't expecting anyone, but figured what the hell.
Amaya walked to the door as she unlocked it and opened it; familiar grey/blue eyes looking back at her. "I thought you could use some company princess."
Amaya's eyes filled with tears as she watched Dean step into her house. She closed the front door numbly. Dean put his back down on the floor in the foyer before he opened his arms and she crashed against his body as he wrapped his arms around her body and she felt herself crumbling against him.
Dean didn't do well with females who cried and even worse with those who sobbed in his arms. But for Amaya he would do anything. She was like a little sister to him; a little sister he never had in his life. So for her he would listen to her heart breaking sobs. He kissed the top of her head before he leaned down and scooped her into his arms. He knew after a few hours she had to of been craving any kind of human contact and why not him? He didn't look at her in a sexual way, he loved Zaria and before Z left for Washington he told her he was going to comfort Amaya. Zaria smiled softly at him and said 'And that is why I fell in love with you.' She kissed his lips and got a plane.
Dean walked into the living room and sat on the couch as he placed Amaya on the couch next to him. "It's okay princess I got you."
Amaya calmed herself down. "Where's Zaria?" She sniffled out.
Dean chuckled. "Well she went to Washington to see her parents and I was going to go with her, but unfortunately Bryan was going to be there and me and Danielson don't get along so well; don't get me wrong I'd do anything for Zaria, but she hasn't exactly told him she's in love with me." He cringed. "That's what she was going to tell him this weekend with her parents. If she wants me to bury the hatchet with her brother; I'll have to promise not to lodge it between his shoulder blades."
Amaya couldn't help laughing out loud. "Oh my goodness Dean, if you two ever get married Bryan will go to the nut house when he goes insane and takes everyone with him." She smiled softly. "I'm glad you two found your way to each other. You both deserve some happiness. I know you haven't had a lot in your life. I remember when you told me about your past." Amaya thought of Dean as a brother; they were close. Even after they'd first met all those months ago when she was still John Cena's assistant; they kept in touch all the boys did which was how they kept their friendship. Once she became their assistant she grew closer to them. They were friends before they were anything else.
Dean nodded. "It feels good to be loved and feels even better to know I can return her feelings. I was a miserable asshole before I met Zaria. You know me I was detached from everything and everyone. Well except for Roman and Seth and then you slowly ebbed your way into my life. The three of you really are my family. I don't like what Seth did to you, but I won't shut him out of my life and I know Roman won't either. Roman is just pissed because Seth hurt you in the worst way a man can hurt a woman. It's disrespectful for a man to call out another person's name when making love to someone else; the lying didn't help his case any either."
Dean sighed heavily as his arm tightened around Amaya's body; he wanted to make sure she felt loved. "Seth has to figure out a way to earn your back into his life. And you've got to figure out if you can distinguish your different feelings between Roman and Seth. We both know Roman would never hurt you. He'd die before he ever let anyone hurt you; well physically hurt you at least. But don't think for a second he didn't want to punch the shit out of Seth. I just got to him before Roman did."
Dean and Amaya sat eating cold pizza and drinking beer together before Dean turned to Amaya and smirked. "Girl you're a mess. What are you going to do about Roman? You know you crushed him when you ended things with him? And him ignoring you all of Tuesday even up until Smackdown ended was him trying to show you he didn't need you to continue living; even though it killed him and he'd rather cut off his left arm than let you know it killed him."
Amaya smiled weakly as tears slid down her cheeks again. "I know. Believe me; I know because I hurt myself more, by cutting him off from my life. As soon as I left last night I regretted everything that I said to him on Monday. But I'm so confused and so scared that Roman is going to end up doing the same thing that Seth did. Even though I know in my heart he would never do it."
"Then why break things off with him?" Dean asked as he tossed their plates onto the coffee table and pulled her back next to him to comfort her the only way he knew how.
Amaya swallowed hard as she burrowed into Dean's side. "Because I never thought Seth would do it and he did."
"And if Roman ever did it; it would cause pain that no doctors could heal." Dean stated.
"Yea…" Amaya nodded.