Chapter 36

It had been a month since Amaya had broken things off with Roman. She was miserable and she wasn't afraid to admit she missed him. He still refused to talk with her. She'd be lying if she said it didn't hurt. She attempted to talk to him on a few occasions and he really just wasn't having any of it.

The guys had gone to the gym as always before Monday Night Raw. Zaria looked over at Amaya who was standing on the balcony trying to get fresh air. The wind kicked up and was blowing her caramel colored hair all around. "How are you doing sweetie?" Zaria asked with concern.

Amaya nodded. "I'm here. I'm uh – I'm good." She sighed heavily before she walked back into the hotel suite and into her room before closing the door. Amaya had never felt so miserable in her entire life. She pushed her earbuds in her ears as she turned her MP3 player on as she worked on the guys schedule and getting their flights back home booked for Wednesday morning.

Zaria knew Amaya was hurting from Roman not talking to her; not that she could help it. Roman was immensely stubborn and even though he missed her as much as she missed him; he was still standing firm about not speaking with her and Zaria had had just about enough of the silence between them.

Zaria looked up as the guys came back into the hotel suite; Dean immediately walked over to her and captured her lips. Zaria couldn't help as she laughed against his lips. He pulled her against his body as she wrapped her arms around his body letting him take her into his body.

Zaria and Dean pulled apart when Amaya's door opened she walked out with papers in her hand. "Pre-printed flight home tickets; as always show your driver's license on Wednesday." She handed them out to the three boys before she turned back and went back to her room and closed the door.

Zaria shook her head. "So Roman when are going to get your head out of your ass and talk to Amaya?"

Roman scowled as his grey eyes looked at Zaria. "What business is it of yours Zaria?" He asked gruffly.

Zaria pulled away from Dean. "You know what - it's not my business. But I'm telling you right now you're going to lose her. She's been trying to talk to you for a month and you just stand or sit there like an ass and listen to her and with no reaction she walks away and then you just walk away as if you didn't hear her. She's practically BEGGING for some kind of verbal and physical reaction and she gets nothing."

Zaria could tell Roman was going to say something so she held up her hand. "No just shut the fuck up. I'm tired of hearing how she hurt you because she broke things off with you. Well guess what? She was in pain and she needed time to heal from what happened. And sometimes girls just need to be alone to heal. I'm telling you right now you're going to continue to ignore her and she'll only take the silent treatment from you for so long before someone will come a long and want to hear what she has to say. Because there are other guys on the roster who would listen to her talk nonsense for hours on end just to get some kind of attention from her. She's beautiful and intelligent and eventually she's going to move on and when she does I don't want to hear shit from you. You will get no pity party from me Roman because as of right now you don't deserve one. You know for someone who claims to be in love with her; you seem to be the one who is hurting her the most right now."

Roman growled in Zaria's direction; if dirty looks could kill she would've been dead three seconds ago.

Dean puffed out his chest; not that he had far to puff it out. "Man, do not be growling at my woman and don't get pissed off at Z. She's speaking her mind and you know she's telling the truth. Everyone in this room knows she's telling the truth. The only one who seems to not realize it is you big man. I love you like a brother and best friend but I love Amaya like I would if I had a little sister and if you can't see how you're treatment of her is affecting her, then you seriously need to go to the eye doctor. Because she would literally do anything for you man."

"Is that really everyone's opinion? How about you Seth? You seem to be the only asshole who hasn't commented on the situation." Roman snapped out; clearly his mood had soured fast.

Seth shook his head. "It's my fault she broke things off with you. I'm the one that hurt her; yet you're still talking to me and not her. Shouldn't you be pissed off at me? My actions and lack of heart is what caused her to walk away from both of us. If you don't start talking to her now or soon at least; I'm scared you'll lose her for good and I don't think you really want that. And Dean's right, don't growl at Zaria, she's right. There are plenty of guys on the roster who would listen to her speak absolutely retarded nonsense and come back for more; even if they don't have a snowballs chance in hell with her as long as she is giving them the slightest attention they will keep coming back and eventually she will give up on you and walk away with one of them. At this point it's just a matter of who can talk a better game than you."

Roman shook his head. "You guys are all assholes. Is there anyone who can take into consideration that this woman hurt me?"

Zaria scoffed. "Roman, she didn't do it on purpose, just like Seth didn't mean to hurt her, but he did. It's a vicious cycle with the three of you. We are seeing it from every side conceivable. We know you're hurting Roman, we're not blind. We see it with the way you carry yourself in and out of the ring and we can hear it in your words. Every word you speak is full of pain and anger regarding the whole situation."

Dean shook his head. "It's not that we don't see it from your side or can't. We understand you're hurting big man and all of us would rather cut out our hearts that to see you hurt, but you never even told her you loved her. You never told her you were in love with her. You let her walk away without any word. You didn't even put up a fight and that's not you Roman. You've fought for everything you're entire life, why would you just give up so easily when she walked away?"

Seth pushed off from the wall he was leaning against with his hands in his pockets. "I'll tell you why he gave up."

"Shut it Rollins." Roman snapped.

Dean cringed even he knew not to bring up the big man's insecurities with the whole three-way relationship. He had confided in him and
Seth about them in confidence.

Zaria was intrigued now. "No don't shut it. Tell me; tell us. How are we supposed to help Roman if you aren't completely honest about everything?"

Roman scoffed. "That's the beauty of it all. You don't. You keep your nose out of my business and out of my personal life and worry about your own life."

Zaria gave Roman a sour look. "Don't talk to me like that Roman; I've done nothing to you. I'm trying to help you get the woman your supposedly in love with. Clearly Seth and Dean know what's going on with you so tell me; what is the big bad Roman Reigns so insecure about?" She knew she was pushing him, but she also knew if she didn't he wouldn't budge or make an effort to talk with Amaya. "C'mon Roman, I'm really bad at guessing games; you have to give me some kind of hint here big guy. I can't help you if you don't let me in."

Roman sighed heavily as he shoved his hands into the front pockets of his jeans as he leaned against the wall opposite Seth. He looked at Seth and nodded feeling ashamed to even admit it he was silently giving Seth permission to spill the beans; so to speak.

Seth nodded back in full understanding. "A couple of weeks prior to my fuck up Roman and I had a conversation about Amaya. Now a couple weeks ago Dean and I cornered Roman trying to push him into talking to Amaya before it was too late. But what came out of his mouth was more shocking then anything that's ever came out of mine. Roman feels – well he thinks that Amaya doesn't return his feelings. He liked her before the three way relationship WAY BEFORE; but he never had the guts to tell her and now he thinks the only reason she agreed to the three-way was because I was involved."

"Are you serious Roman?" Zaria asked; shaking her head as her eyes went to the big man in question.

Roman nodded. "I know it might sound ridiculous to you; to any of you, but it was just the way I felt. It's still the way I feel about the entire situation. I fell in love with Amaya almost two years ago. She was on Monday Night Raw walking Cena to the ring. I had never seen a woman more beautiful in my entire life. She walked over and sat down with Michael Cole and Jerry Lawler and put those head phones on and laughed at every stupid thing Jerry said to her. Her laughter filtered through my TV and my insides melted and I swear to God if I could've I would've melted into a puddle on my couch. A few weeks later Cena showed up to FCW with her in toe and I was hooked and I have been ever since."

Roman pushed off from the wall. "It doesn't matter. She just doesn't feel the way I do." His eyes snapped to Zaria. "And don't say she does. Because if she really felt anything for me; I wouldn't be getting punished for that that ass did to her and you know it." He looked at his watch. "And we need to pack up and head to the arena."

Amaya's heart clenched in her chest; she had no idea Roman felt that way about her. She had started to leave the confines of her hotel room when she stopped at the sound of the pow wow with Dean, Seth, Roman and Zaria. She knew she'd hurt Roman when she broke ties with him and Seth but she couldn't help it. She did love them both so much and even though it was just Seth that had hurt her and she knew Roman never would. She couldn't help but let the fear creep in that there was always a possibility there; a possibility that Roman could hurt her as bad as Seth had.

Amaya was standing ringside with the boys as always while they dominated in the ring. She was stand near the announcers table as she and Lillian Garcia –ring announcer- were talking back and forth. Roman was in the ring throwing around his cousin Joshua –who wrestles under Jey Uso- she looked up as Joshua tagged his twin Jonny –who wrestles under Jimmy Uso. They decided to tag team Roman. They bounced off the ropes opposite of Roman and charged at him giving him a double clothesline over the top rope.

They had either hit him too hard and his momentum threw him harder or he lost his footing he stumbled back and when he hit the ground the back of his head hit the announcer's table so hard the table moved 6 inches.

Roman blinked a few times before th blackness slipped in.

Amaya gasped as her hands flew over her mouth as she ran over to him, her eyes widened as she watched his beautiful grey eyes roll into the back of his head.