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Chapter 9 Reeling Back Part 2

A day later, Sunday night, I found myself standing on Chad's doorstep, mustering up the courage to ring the doorbell.

Tawni made me wear this short peach-colored-dress-thing (that looked more like something a hoe would wear…) with leggings underneath. I had a stupid matching purse that was more of a giant suitcase for my arm. I stuffed this diary in there at the last minute.

I hesitated, and then finally rang the doorbell. I could hear the music blaring inside.

I growled inside at Jenna. Chad never did anything like this for me.

I waited for a few seconds, then the door swung open and Chad's angel-like face appeared.

"Sonny! Hey! Come in," he said with his sexy half-smile. I almost melted all over the front steps like an ice cream cone.

Hmm…A Sonny puddle…Not very attractive…

But then I remembered-This was Jenna's party

The 'I'm-going-to-melt-because-he's-so-hot' feeling was replaced with the urge to punch him in his perfect nose.

But I restrained myself and stepped in as Chad smiled at me.

"What's wrong? You look kinda tense," Chad whispered.

Jeeze…If he only knew what I felt at the moment…

"Yeah, I'm fine," I replied, trying to control the tone of my voice.

He looked at me skeptically, and then Jenna walked up behind him and wrapped her arms around his waist. I gagged as they kissed.

"I'm…just gonna go over…here," I muttered to myself as they continued to make out.

As I shuffled away, I pretended to stick my finger down my throat.

I walked to the large leather couch, and found that James was sitting there, looking really bored.

I sighed. "Hey, James." I was too mad at Chad to stay angry at James for kissing me the other day.

"Oh, h-hey Sonny," he stammered. "You look nice tonight."

I plopped my stuff down next to him. "Thanks."

He looked at me as if I should return the compliment.

Psh…no…

Chad walked in again, Jenna trailing behind him like a lost puppy.

Ugh…I was going to puke if I saw them walking together one more time.

"Hey, guys, we're gonna eat in a minute," Chad said.

This was my only chance to talk to him.

"Chad, can I talk to you for a second?" I glanced at Jenna. "Alone, outside?"

He looked at me quizzically for a second, and then nodded. "Sure."

Jenna gave me a dirty look as I dragged Chad out by his shirt. So what. Let her be pissed at me. I was pissed at her after all.

Out on Chad's huge perfect lawn, next to the in ground pool, I let go of his arm. He rolled up the sleeve I had accidently pulled down.

I know this sounds really cheesy, but in the moonlight he looked even more attractive.

"Chad…I-," I started, but stopped as his eyes met mine.

"Sonny, what's wrong?" he asked after a period of silence. "Ever since I brought you home Friday night you haven't spoken to me. Are you mad at me…?"

"I…I…," I was suddenly at a loss for words, hypnotized by his gorgeous blue eyes.

I couldn't get "I like you" out for the life of me.

I don't know what made me do it, but I grabbed his shirt and pulled him to me.

Our lips met and I suddenly felt free for the first time in my life. It was an amazing feeling.

Chad seemed surprised at first, but then relaxed and wrapped his arms around my waist. I cupped his jaw in both hands and kissed him harder.

Then, he suddenly pulled back.

"I…I'm in love with you, Chad," I whispered awkwardly.

"Sonny…I'm not-I have a girlfriend," he said, stepping away from me.

"I know…but I gave you all kinds of hints, Chad." My eyes burned with fire. I didn't want to yell at him, but he was so dense!

""I've bee in love with you for so long. I don't know how you never realized it." My voice was raising, the anger I'd been holding in was starting to reveal itself. "You're just so…stupid sometimes!"

Chad's jaw dropped, offended. "Excuse me?! Hints?! Stupid?! If you were smart enough to know how to tell me, you would've told it to my face, and not have kissed me. And you call me stupid!" Chad yelled at me.

"But you kissed back!" Tears pricked the back of my eyes, but I held back the flood that threatened to come. "I thought you were my friend. I guess I was wrong."

Chad's face softened apologetically. "Sonny-I didn't mean-," he started.

"Bye, Chad." I couldn't hear any of it.

I ran back into the house and out the front door, choking back tears.

As I drove home, I heard my phone ring dozens of times, but I knew it was Chad.

Why was he so blind?

Why did I have to get so tongue-tied?

Why did I have to ruin everything by kissing him?

Why did he kiss me back when he knew he already had a girlfriend?

Ugh! I want him so bad!

I have a confession.

I have been cutting for nine months.

I have been going to a counselor for a while and im getting better. I have only cut once in a span of five weeks.

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I love you more than everrrrr

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