Beta Note - Hi all, blame me for the delays in getting the last two chapters out. I hope you all like them as much as I did ~ Emmy1512

AN - I hope you all like this chapter! :)

I stood gawping for a second trying to understand what had just happened, and then broke down on the floor. I curled up into a ball and closed my eyes.

I could hear people running around me and the gate door open and close a couple of times. At first I thought it was Edward, and he had come back, but when it went again and again I just guessed that people had gone to find him.

I couldn't believe it. He had left me for her. I started to remember the last time he had gone, and made myself feel worse. If I could cry I would, I felt a hand hug and pull me up onto their lap where they were sitting on the ground next to me. I placed my head on their crossed knees and realised it was Ness because of the soft cream dress that was laying like a sling for my head.

She was trying to sooth me by stroking my hair and kissing the side of my head near my ear. She was crying and mumbling to herself. I didn't catch what she was saying, and didn't really want to hear it.

I dragged myself to look up after about 5 minutes of being collapsed on the floor to see Ness's sore puffy red eyes and her makeup smudged around her face.

"Do you want me to show you to a room where you can have some time in private?" Aimee asked nicely, trying to comfort me as she bent forward and reached out her hand which I held as I got up. Normally I could just jump up, but for the first time since I have been a vampire, I felt drained, exhausted and empty.

Ness got up with me, as I looked around the extremely quite garden I realised that everyone had gone. I looked down to see my tight dark jeans had wet patches from the damp grass, Ness grabbed my hand as I tried to rub it away aggressively.

"It will be ok mum"

I didn't know what to say to her I hoped it would but I was sure I could never forgive him, my head kept fluttering back to when Edward had left me before in my human life how horrible I felt and how bad I was afterwards, I didn't want that again. I didn't want Ness to see that. As we walked into the house I felt a hot large hand slide around my waist and take most of my weight off my unsteady feet. I knew it was Jake without even looking at him; I just clung to his top as he dragged me in the door.

I don't remember much after that, just falling onto the large bed staring at the ceiling while people around me whispered and doors opened and closed. I noticed Alice's and Rose's voices and was glad that they were close by. I sat and thought about what I... Ness and I were going to do, and I suddenly decided that I wasn't going to break down and suffer like I did before. I was going to be strong for my family and for me and prove that he has chosen to leave and I was going to move on, be strong... or at least make people think that.

I rubbed my eyes and pulled my fingers through my hair and pulled and softened the knots that had formed. I sat up and took a few seconds to just breath and reassure myself I could do this, as I headed out of the room I almost started crying again as what felt like 100 eyes fell onto me; every single one filled with sad and worried emotions.

"Bella"

"Hey Em"

I walked up to Emmet, who was standing closest to me, and gave him a hug, fighting back the tears as I gave him a light squeeze and let go stepping back. I noticed everyone faces had changed to a worried expression.

"I... erm need to go feed"

"Oh, of course you do, I'm feeling like a bit of a top up to so we can go soon as possible... that ok... " Esme said quickly. She had been so quiet, I was shocked as she said so much and was the first one to volunteer to go hunting with me.

I gave her a quick smile, noticing that her eyes were as golden as ever, and she was in no way thirsty, but I was happy she wanted to be with me. So I turned around and went back into my room to change into some other clothes I had brought with me and were in a bag I had noticed placed in the room. I hesitated at the door and turned around to face Ness who was sitting on Jake's lap slouched on a modern black leather chair.

"Ness Hun, there is some of your clothes in this bag if you want them"

"Oh... thanks mum, I will get changed now"

She pulled herself up and unclenched Jake grasp from her waist and we both went into the room which I now noticed to be as gorgeous as Ness had explained earlier. I pulled open the string cords and pulled out some tight skinny jeans and a black plain t-shirt and almost the same outfit out for Ness and started to change into them.

As I ran all my problems, anger, hatred and heart ache felt like they had been left behind. Nothing mattered but putting one foot in front of the other and sprinting with all my might. It felt good to take my anger out on my pray; imagining it was Edward or Emmy I was killing made the journey worthwhile. I suddenly felt bad for the animal as I was feasting on its blood that I had caused it pain because of my problems, but as soon as the animal was dry I started hunting for more.

As I pounced and killed I didn't even notice the animal was under my weight, it was like I was dreaming and watching someone else be me.

I pulled myself up and brushed away the grass and mud that had collected on my clothes, I turned around and headed back to find Esme and Ness, who had come out here with me and I left them.

How nice am I?

I started running in the same smooth technique and never looked back on the blood bath that I had just caused. It didn't take long before Esme and Ness's unforgettable scents came into reach and after a couple of minutes I stopped at where they were both sitting.

I took a seat next to Ness on the collapsed tree trunk that was sprawled along the ground. I put my arm around my girl and pulled her to my chest, as I placed my head in her soft hair I was suddenly soothed by her smell. The smell only a mother would know about and how much better you feel from the smell of her new born baby the specific individual smell that your baby has that you will never smell anywhere else or on anyone else but your child. The smell that reminds you that you're a mum. Unlike humans, where it gets covered by other smells and slowly fades, Ness's is as strong as ever and hopefully always will be.

"Did you catch anything nice?" Esme said motherly, like I had just been out shopping or something; not ripping defenceless animals apart.

"Err...yes some nice small animals, nothing big... but... I err... feel better now... stronger" was all I managed to get out, as I lifted my head from Ness's shinny curls and met Esme's gaze. I was suddenly aware she was getting ready to tell me something.

"What's wrong esme? Spit it out." I then mentally slapped myself for sounding so cruel and smiled at Esme hopping to make out it was a joke. I'm not sure whether it worked but she opened her mouth and started talking.

"Carlisle managed to catch up to Edward, and they had a small chat...well argument... but... I don't want to upset you more dear... but he was heading to the New Order's land. He didn't answer Carlisle when he asked if he was going to fight alongside them, and we think he might be... be fighting against us..."

What was happening to the man I love? The Edward I know would never leave me, never mind fight against his family and friends, and threaten the life of his daughter. But as hard as it is to accept it, I had to. In a couple of days, I could have to kill my husband. I was also shamed that the man I love could do this, the pain it must be causing Esme and Carlisle after everything they had done for him, and he would leave so easily

"What's err... going to happen?"

"Well I don't think anyone has it in them to kill him if he attacks and that's causing us problems... the... well everyone back at the palace are trying to come up with a new plan in case he is there and does attack... I just hope he doesn't..."

I looked down to see Ness was covering her ears which I don't blame her for. I would block this out if I could.

"They have a very big army now, and if it does come to the point where it is needed, some of the guards will kill..." Esme couldn't say anymore, and I could see the bitter heart break in her eyes and the willingness that we both share for this all to end.

"We got worried"

I shot around and we all got ready to fight and pulled back to see Jake walking up to us, pulling and tugging at his clothes and then raised his hands in the air to resemble he was surrendering, and then pulled them down to see that it wasn't the time for jokes.

"We're just heading back Jacob" Esme said as she gathered herself together, and started walking off into the trees and in the direction of the castle. Both Jake and Ness ran together and pulled close into a tight hug.

I was stupidly jealous of the fact that they had each other, and even though I knew I wasn't, I felt alone; like I had no one.

A single feather dropping is like an elephant stampede

Every gust of wind like a hurricane

Every sniffle or cough like a strum of an electric guitar

The bitter silence like been plunged into the freezing ocean

My heart squeezed so tight it hurts to breath

The world feeling like it is on the verge of not existing

My world almost over

Omg Edward has done it again, but is Bella as week and defenceless as before we will see

Hope you enjoyed and will stay with me for the rest of the drama and I mean drama there is much more

Lyal x Liz x