NEW BEGINNINGS

The sun was coming up when Dean got to the end of the story. He left nothing out telling her every detail of her life that he knew of, even the things that would probably piss her off all over again at him.

She stared at her fourth refreshed glass of water and bit her lower lip the way that made Dean crazy with the need to kiss her.

"It really took us that long to get a clue? I mean the way that you're telling me my life…..our life…we were into each a long time ago."

"You know what they say about hindsight."

"Is it hindsight when you don't remember any of it? You thought you were helping me by leaving me when you thought you were paralyzed?"

"I'm an ass, I know." He said.

She looked at him. "You could have lied to me but you didn't, you really told me every gory detail."

"That's what you wanted." He said softly.

"Yes, but I need to know something else. If I asked you to walk away now because I don't want this because I don't remember what I'm supposed to feel would you do it for me?"

Dean stood up the breath ripped from his chest. "If that's what you want." He hitched, his eyes burned.

She stood up too and took his hand gently. "It's not what I want, Dean, it's not but I just needed to know and I'm sorry that I've hurt you like this."

Dean took a deep breath closing his eyes in relief.

The loud grumble of her stomach made him look at her and she was pink with embarrassment.

"The kiddos seeking breakfast?"

"Yeah." She smiled at her belly patting it lovingly. She gave a little jump. "Whoa!"

Dean stepped closer wide eyed. "Are you ok? What's wrong?"

Arandi smiled and took his hand settling it over her stomach. In seconds Dean felt the tiny flutter of movement. "Demanding aren't they?" He said around the lump in his throat.

"Just like their father." She said. "What I've been told anyway." She added before Dean got his hopes up.

"Let's get some breakfast." He asked hopeful. "My treat."

"You better know of place with a great all you can eat breakfast buffet because I'm hungry."

"I got this." Dean grinned and for the first time in a long time he could really breathe.

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"If I keep eating like that I'm going to make whales look petite." Arandi sighed patting her now very full stomach as they walked down the sidewalk.

"No one and nothing is as sexy as you." He said without thinking. "I'm sorry I…"

She put her finger to his lip. "Dean it's ok. I know how hard this had to be for you beside flattery will get everywhere." She smiled his special smile.

He reached to caress her face gently as tears prickled his eyes. "I miss you so much."

"You keep that up and I might just fall in love with you all over again." She whispered kissing his palm.

"Arandi….." He had no idea what to say. The hope that filled his aching heart was too much.

"Look Dean I don't remember you and I try because God look at you, you are like the hottest man on earth and I can't believe that you were mine."

Dean blushed deep to hear such praise.

"Men hit on me and I can't even look at them because I feel like I'm cheating and I don't even know who the hell I'm cheating on if you know what I mean."

Dean was still processing the part where men hit on her.

"Do you still want me even though I'm broken?" She asked not meeting his eyes.

Dean lifted her chin gently with the tips of his fingers until she looked in his eyes. "We'll be broken together because without you I'm shattered."

"Is this the part where you kiss me?" She asked breathlessly.

"Hey I don't put out on the first date." He replied in mock horror.

"Your loss pal." She grinned.

"So I'm easy sue me." He leaned in and when their lips met he could swear that angels did sing and somewhere off to left there were fireworks.

She touched her lips when the parted. "How in the hell did I forget that?"

"I'll gladly remind you every fifteen minutes." He smiled. "Every ten on the weekends."

"Know any good lunch buffets?"

"No way are you hungry again!" He laughed as she pulled him along their fingers entwined.

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There was hope again and Dean knew it was going to be hard to have memories of Arandi that she would never grasp but he had her again and she was slowly opening up to him giving him the chance to woo her all over again. He would take it as long as it was Arandi he would take anything.

He hadn't seen in her in a couple of days, they had finally pieced together where all her things were and they had moved them into storage. She was staying with Sam and Jade who now lived together and Dean wanted her to stay with him but he didn't dare push it.

His phone went off and seeing Sam's caller ID he answered. "Sammy we need to watch a game soon."

"Dean?"

Dean straightened up fast he knew something was wrong when Sam sounded like he did.

"Sam?"

"Dean it's Arandi. She saw some pictures and they really upset her and she broke some things and took off. We can't find her and there's blood on the floor so she had to have cut herself."

Dean was already half way out the door. "I know where she is. Tell Jade I'll call once I calm her down."

"I'm sorry Dean."

"For what Sammy?"

"For losing her when she's right in front of you. I don't know how you do it."

"Me neither Sammy, me neither."

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The garden in the park where they used to jog. He had taken her there one day to tell her some of the pranks they used to pull and she had said that she loved that place.

She had told him later that when things got too hard she would go there to calm down.

She was sitting on a bench crying, one hand haphazardly wrapped with a bloody hand towel.

"Arandi?" He said to let her know that he was there.

"I want to remember Dean. I want to remember." She cried. "I can't tell my children how I met their father from my own memories I have to tell them what I've been told. I don't remember my own sister Dean. I don't remember my parents. It's not fair it's not right."

He sat beside her and took her injured hand to exam as he spoke. "I wish I could tell you that I know what you're going through but I don't. I can only tell you that you not remembering us hurts but you have to see you're making new memories and you will be able to tell our children so much."

She looked at him, her eyes so full of sadness. "You should run while you have the chance."

"Sorry but I'm hopelessly in love with you and not having you is worse than death." He said as he wrapped her hand a little better. "Now let me get you to my place so that I can call Jade and Sam and fix you up."

"Can you fix my brain while you're at it?"

"Would if I could darling would if I could." He sighed.

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She asked if she could shower and he dug out some pajamas that would fit her comfortably over her pregnant belly.

He called his brother told him he had Arandi and that he would keep an eye on her.

He ordered take out and quickly went and showered himself and got comfortable. He wouldn't mind at all if they stayed up all night talking again.

He bandaged her hand in silence and the food arrived soon after. They ate in silence she was in deep thought and he just let her think.

She turned the TV on and flipped channels aimlessly. She fell asleep without saying another word.

Dean sighed and lifted her to take her to the bed. There was no way that he was letting her sleep on the sofa while she was pregnant.

He covered her and kissed her forehead.

"Stay." She mumbled sleepily.

"Arandi I….."

"Please."

He wasn't going to argue with her so he slid under the covers with her and she curled up beside him and though it was going to kill him he would take it.

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He moaned as the thrill of pleasure rushed through him and he didn't know what the hell he was dreaming but a wet dream would be more action that he'd felt in months.

He hadn't even had it in him to masturbate because it would never be enough again.

The soft moan that filled his ears made him jolt and open his eyes.

"Holy shit." He groaned realizing that he wasn't dreaming but that Arandi was presently lost working him up good with her hand. "Arandi fuck…." He whimpered.

"I want to make new memories. I want to remember you please."

They would have to take his soul before he could ever tell her no. "Arandi I want you so bad but I want you to be sure, the pregnancy?"

"As long as there is no pressure on my stomach and we don't go all Tarzan and Jane it's safe."

He was trying to think of the best position but she beat him to it as she straddled him and rubbed against him. "Oh fuck." He arched up against her.

"That's what I'm aiming for but you have way too much clothes on baby."

She called him baby. Oh yeah naked now. Whoa, wait a minute calm down.

He settled his hands on her hips to still her. "Arandi look at me." He said softly.

Her eyes met his.

"I need to know that you want this, that you want me because it means something not just because you're lost."

She half smiled at him and moved off his legs settling beside him on her knees. "C'mere." She whispered.

Dean obeyed immediately, embarrassed that his erection was so very obvious.

She took his hands. "I hate that I can't remember our lives before and no matter how hard I try I will never feel complete because of that but when I'm with you I feel safe, protected, cherished, and loved. You make me feel alive Dean."

"You keep talking like that you're going to make me fall in love with you all over again." He whispered his eyes bright.

She smiled, her eyes just as bright. "Good because it would be kind of awkward if I was the only one in love."

"You love me?" He barely got the words out.

"I do, I love Dean Winchester. The man that tried to keep me safe and give me my life and stood by so patiently waiting for his love."

"Good things come to those who wait."

She quirked an eyebrow and Dean leaned in to kiss her.

"Sorry but you kind of melted my brain. I love you too."

"Can we get to the good things? I think I waited long enough." She breathed against his neck as she pulled him free of his pajama bottoms.

"Oh good lord." He hissed.

Her hand wrapped firmly around his cock she smiled seductively at him. "This is a good thing about to come."

"You're killing me." He whimpered.

"Oh baby, I'll bring you back to life I promise." She said pushing him onto his back and straddling him again.

"Please." He said tugging on her top.

She blushed. "I'm not worth seeing right now."

"Arandi you're the most beautiful woman in the world carrying my babies."

She sighed but then pulled off the top.

"Beautiful." He murmured running his hands gently over everything he could reach.

"You just want to get laid."

Dean laughed and it felt fantastic. "Well duh." His eyes rolled when she settled onto his hardness. The fabulous tight silky heat that surrounded him had him having a complete mental meltdown. Who needed brain cells anyway?

He let her have control, let her find the rhythm she needed and fuck she was beautiful, so beautiful and she was his.

TBC

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